Charlotte

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This is hugely hormone related. I'm literally observing the shift's hour by hour. One minute I'm knackered next minute I'm productive and happy af , next half hour I'm insecure as shit. ?

Crying after orgasm? Not just crying but like you can really feel this deep sadness in your being.

This can be applied to anything.

Many many but the ones that stand out to me most is: what would of taken me years to 'see' took me months, truth is revealed.

@Harikrishnan have heard a difference of opinion from many people. Some people say absolutely no difference. Some people say fresh is more potent. Although I think fresh would be harsher on the stomach so nausea would be a more prevalent factor. Up to you though. Try both out.

I wouldn't recommend two trips in the same month. But ultimately it's up to you.

No I'm not. I mean but what is modification and fucking with the brain anyway? I can never be sure until one day I might find myself on a mental health ward but if that is the way shit goes then that's the way shit goes. I don't perceive mental health issues like I used to shin. There isn't an 'issue' there. In comparison to what exactly? I do feel my time with mushrooms is coming to end, I don't know why. Leo does outline risks but at the end of the day it's our responsibility to do our research and our responsibility ultimately.

There is learning somewhere for me and I'm not sure what it is. It keeps coming up and going then coming. It comes in small wave's, there's a message hidden within. I'm ready to see it..I want to learn. I've also been constantly thinking about DMT all the time for some reason. I've tried actively letting it go but it keeps coming back round, feels right to pursue it. Not gonna think too much into it just gonna do it. Maybe the message is in there. fuck ? ?

My head's fucking mashed at the minute. I'm paranoid as fuck in my own head. I don't know what's real anymore. I'm unbelievably aware of self delusion that I don't know if I'm self deluding anymore. I'm paranoid I'm microdosing too much. What if this is the psychedelics fucking with my head? I've got to a dose now where it's literally just below threshold. This is how people go mad innit? or is it? It could just be more thought. I'm doing my own head in. All day yesterday people were giving me this vibe I was giving this vibe and I was so aware of myself I was like am I? But that could just be more thought ? I'm so busy at the moment. Gym 5 night's a week for rehabilitation with my injury (it got crazy out of control) and loads of other shit. Hold on... I've just realised something... This could be because I'm due on my period... I know what thought gets like at that time. Erratic. I need to ground myself rapid. I can feel fear again. Fuck it then... Come at me fear. Met fear too many times to know the game.

Yaaaaaaaaay I'm back ? Gonna update the shit outta this later after the gym. Can't wait to journal the thoughts. Need to get it all out onto here as I've not been physically journaling either. ♥️

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Phone is broken and I can't access. (No laptop) ?

@Natasha I know I'm only joking sweet

No amount of observation will ever show you if he smells downstairs or not ?

So does he

Meaning is relative. We cannot answer for you.

Just keep rolling with that love and drop everything else. ♥️ Let that love guide you.

Based on my observations and experience I agree with this.

@Michael569 Thank you Michael. Such a bloody legend ?

Exactly! I'm finding that saying absolutely nothing and just leading by example is more effective. Yes... Learning anything with no motivation is pretty pointless isn't it... Your definitely more prone to procrascination and even giving up. Oh perfect! Thanks for the recommendation I'll check that out now! Hope you have an awesomesauce day yourself my good man ? @Shin cheers Shinshin ♥️

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@Shiva thank you! There definitely has been a shift indeed. Still plant based just dropped the vegan ideology. How do I feel now? Free? If you understand what I mean. Such an amazing song isn't it! ❤️ Why? I feel learning a language will open many doors for me. I enjoyed speaking Portuguese language, plus I have 2 friends who are from Portugal so they can help Also I have a craving for learning, I'm really enjoying it and it's opening my mind so I feel learning a language would be quite the challenge. Told you @Michael569 you're amazing!