Charlotte

I start my first ever Yoga class tomorrow (Hatha). Can I have some pointers please? ?

@Dragallur Wow what an interesting read! I just looked this up. Thanks for this insight. Very interesting. Thank you for the compliment also Will have a watch of this after, thank you ❤️ ... The penny just dropped ?

@Shin Well... I upvote your upvote so ner! ? Is that where you are in your development shin?

@Vaishnavi "There was no focus, no feel and zero mindfulness. This is an attitude I've seen in most of these classes, i.e. to get done with a set/pose. They don't usually care about the breath or connecting to the body. This ain't with everyone ofcourse but I've seen this first hand with many 'experienced teachers'." This is exactly how I felt she ran the class... I stayed behind after everyone left to get to know her a bit more. We chatted back and forth about mindfulness/awareness and I don't mean to sound rude and no disrespect to the lady but I could definitely tell (as she stated) she wanted to teach yoga for psychical body reasons, the exercise aspect of it. Practicing Yoga at home does sound like it has its benefits BUT I wanted to partake in a class for social reason's and to also possibly meet some like-minded potential friends. I will definitely research a little more into your suggestions so thank you so much. Well I will do the same, I won't quit, I'll keep trying until I find somebody I feel I'm comfortable with

@Leo Gura Completely agree. Starting to witness this in my own relationship sadly, causing a lot of friction.

Quick update: Extremely enjoyed the session. The teacher I felt didn't suit her job, I felt she wasn't calm and connected to her body enough (if that's makes sense). Very fast paced energy from her, her inhale and exhale instructions, for me felt far to quick and I could hear from the room that everyone was breathing from there chest, very shallow. So I decided to listen to my body and do what felt right. I did exactly what you guys suggested and for this reason, I think, I really enjoyed it. I was able to obtain the true benefits of yoga, felt very connected to my body. Regardless of being very tired I was able to stay mindful and focused. I felt a lot of relief from my lower back (where I suffer with Chronic pain). I think I'll be looking at resteration yoga next, I've heard it's more a mindfulness/awareness based class which sounds right up my street. Can anybody tell me, does it take some time to find the right teacher?

@Shroomdoctor Thank you! Meditated on and off from Aug 2017- Dec 2017, but I made it a habit at the start of the year and I do it for around 20 minutes. I also practice mindfulness 24/7 every single day, made this a way of life rather than a practice.

@pluto I totally 100% agree. For the past 4 days I've felt I've made a breakthrough with mindfulness. At first, I was drifting off that often it became somewhat frustrating but for some reason this week I've felt at peace, able to stay mindful for much longer periods of time. This week I've been so happy! Just driving down the road in complete happiness, doing nothing spectacular but inside I feel almost complete peace and happiness, not through external circumstances but just because I'm breathing and alive, thinking to myself EVERYTHING is a miracle and oh so beautiful! ?

@pluto Also I was the only one not drinking alcohol around the table Mindfulness eating, I try and do this as much as I can. How do you make this a habit? I turn off the TV when we eat but I still find I wonder sometimes... Thanks for the reply ❤️

@ajasatya @Vaishnavi Wow, thank you for your pointers guys. I've really taken what you said on board and will apply. Thank you again, priceless advice ❤️

@Michael569 thank you Michael, will do ?

@Max_V I'm so jealous! ? There is nowhere in my local area that offers kundalini Yoga. Hope you enjoy every minute of it! ? And thank you ❤️

@Slade I admire your kindness and compassion but it could be anybody behind the computer screen? Could be somebody looking for handouts (I know I'm assuming but still). I always say if you want something that bad you'll make it happen, no matter what (obviously within reason/realistic not like a quick flight up to the moon or anything) ?

@Shroomdoctor haha yes! I wish! It's a shame were all spread out over the globe, can you imagine the friendships we could all make together in person! No your not part of a cult, although at time's I've had this fleeting thought. Just because nobody else is doing it and it isn't what culture/society calls 'the norm' doesn't make it anything 'abnormal' or 'weird'. To be honest I strive to anything that isn't perceived as 'normal" because that means I've stepped out of the society/culture circle and I know I definitely don't want to be part of that clan ?

Thank you. Me too! I've tried everything with regards to the pain and I'm turning to holistic treatment now. Fingers crossed! Will update xx

Brilliant post. I can totally resonate with what your saying @thehero. I've been told I'm following a cult and all sorts. Been called weird etc. Thank god my own dad loves self actualising! Someone so close to me I can talk to about it ❤️ I'm also struggling to find friends into self actualisation, they all want to drink and party and I'm like "Naaaaar" ?

@Nahm...You have me in creases ?? @LiakosN I feel sorry for you, I've been there and done that. It's awkward AF! How to tell somebody something without offending them? How I'd approach it... After sex I'd say something like "did you smell something then during sex then?" (Look bemused) and then start to smell around yourself (so then she is also curious about her own smell and doesn't think your directly blaming her) and then you could say something like "it smelt like shit, oh god I hope I wiped properly!" (Have a stark look in your eye but look at her as your saying it). Then head off to the bathroom and just pretend your going to investigate. Come back and say "It isn't me", then look reaaaallyyy shocked as if your pointing the smell to her but not directly if you know what I mean. That's how I'd do it anyway. Good luck! ❤️

When you find any in the UK, be sure to inform me please

I'm starting this Saturday, so excited

If I've dedicated my life to helping animal welfare, am I also turquoise? Just asking ??

@Nathan Very true! Taken your advice on board... Thank you @Nadosa Well, I thought it contained very very low amounts of THC (the stuff that actually gets you high in cannabis), so low in fact that I wouldn't feel anything whatsoever. Well after consulting the 'friend' that sold this to me turns out it was riddled with THC, well I haven't touched drugs since I was like 15 (I'm 27 now) so obviously my tolerance is EXTREMELY low so it hit me in the face like a ton of bricks ?. Yes definitely agree they are caused on by thoughts. I've been retracing my steps in my mind and wondering how the hell I ended up where I did! @Faceless Exactly what I've been doing, thank you. My mind did wonder though if I had brain damaged myself, damaged my amygdala or something. Lol! "Your not alone friend" bless you! Thanks ❤️

Last night I had my first ever experience of a severe Panic Attack, it lasted 2 and half hours and I felt like I stared death in the face. I accept what happened. The thing is today I feel numb, flat, emotional less, wanting to be on my own and just very introverted. How do I come back to myself? I feel like I've been emotionally rattled or something, very disorientated.

@Max_V Thank you for your reassuring words. I am a very emotional, happy feeling type personality so to feel 'numb' is very strange for me. Thank you for your well wishes, you too ??

Yep! Me ISFP, -A/-T)

@Shin Yes, I suffer with chronic pain (majority of my life) and have been looking at alternative ways to control the pain, my aim this year was to be free of morphine. So, I done my research online and noticed a pattern of people claiming that CBD oil is miraculously helping their pain. I contacted my family friend who I knew was taking CBD oil. I met up with her, talked about it for hours and she made it very clear that this would not produce any 'high' whatsoever. I repeated myself over and over making sure she knew that I didn't want any 'high' feeling at all, she reassured me. I explained I don't drink or smoke or do drugs at all (apart from my medication) and I'd like to stay as internally pure as possible. You can imagine what happened next can't you, I took the tiniest amount (a dots worth) on my finger and watched for any chronic pain subsiding. Next minute I'm high as a kite. I started to feel anger because this is not what I wanted, I contacted my mum and she said "Just go with it Charlotte, don't resist it, it's happening now and there's nothing you can do about it", so I did. Over the next few hours it became worse, I felt as if I was losing my mind, my partner looking at me worried, which added to the fear inside me! What if it had reacted with my morphine, I thought. I just had no idea what was going on. My behaviour started to scare him which then I fed off because I was thinking the same. I felt myself going into another reality but this reality was like the most strongest most negative emotion you could ever imagine. It was genuinely like I was staring my own death in the face. I called my mum and begged her to ring an ambulance but she knew what it was, THANK GOD! She arrived at my house and talked me through it. So yeah, that's basically it. Sorry it turned out so long. @Nahm That's EXACTLY what I did. I kept talking, noticing my surroundings, listening, begging my mum to keep talking. Your poor son ? I'm so sorry he has been through these ❤️ Thing is though for the past 2 days I've felt emotional less. I am completely numb and I've felt as if I've left myself somewhere back in Monday. It's absolutely awful. I watched 'Walk with me' (documentary film) last night with hope that it would trigger 'me' again, it did for the duration but then it came back.