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Actually... Contemplating on it, I'm paranoid about my self imagine (always have been) ?

Hmmm... I honestly can't put my finger on it. Say it is textbook social anxiety @Shin, how do people go about changing that? It's funny, I felt I lost a part of myself for them few hours because I'm usually a very calm chilled out person and when this anxiety kicks in it changes me into this fast talking, nervous wreck

No, funnily enough @Shin if people don't find me cute, smart, funny I believe that's their issue. I am who I am and that's it. I genuinely tried to just watch my thoughts and I couldn't find anything that stuck out to me, maybe I'm not aware enough yet of certain thoughts ?

@nikolay

@Omario What a moment in your life this is! I remember mine, talk about waking up! Congratulations ??

@nightrider1435 how did you quit? I'm addicted to my ecig ?

Fair enough. Dry hits? That's not good, could you post a picture of your setup?

The more people I speak to or listen to that claim they are on their path to enlightenment or self actualisation the more I'm seeing a recurring trait of Arrogance. Shouldn't it be the opposite? What's this about? I genuinely believed with self actualisation and ego transcendence work came a new understanding and compassionate approach to all from where I'm standing some people just don't have the time of day for other people that aren't where they're 'at'. I'm not going to lie it's a little bit disheartening as you look to these people for advice/perspective. Do you just look past these people and move on?

I also grew up eating meat and a standard UK diet (I'm 27 now), the start of January 2018 whilst I was falling asleep I remember saying to myself "I don't want to eat meat anymore" and went on to contemplate a little. The next morning, I woke as normal and a couple of hours into the morning, I remembered what I was contemplating the previous night, from that moment on I became pescatarian, literally, cold turkey, one night, boom! Your possibly limiting yourself by saying "I can't really help it" ?

*Mind blown* How could you possibly use alcohol as a tool? I don't drink but I'm genuinely interested

I literally could of wrote this. I've been in relationships from the age of 13+ (I'm now 27), I was bullied at school and felt unnatractive, when I got into a relationship I felt beautiful and wanted. From the very first relationship I had I never wanted to be alone again, if I was single, it meant I felt worthless, unnatractive and unwanted. This caused me to get into relationships for the complete wrong reasons and usually they failed. I've only come to release this (last year). So yes, your right, they are like an addiction

No definitely no time. Oooooohhh sounds just up my street! Thanks again @Shin Cheers @Joseph Maynor As always, thanks @Nahm ❤️ Thank you for your words of support @cetus56! ? I'm so excited to continue. Thanks for your input Thanks for yours also @krazzer

Okay, during meditation I've just had a direct experience of (I'm not good with words so bare with me) "I'm not the body" I have to admit I've not experienced anything like that before and right now I'm sat here feeling quite sick at this realisation. I'm lost for words. I have to swallow this pill. In a sense I feel relief, MASSIVE FUCKING RELIEF in another sense I feel disturbed. On the other hand, I'm aware of self deception and whenever I feel I've made ANY type of progress whatsoever I've still got my guard up ? but at the same time, this feels different.

Thanks for posting @Preetom I'll definitely watch. Thank you

I'll Google that. So it was something? I'm so on guard to my self deceptions I don't trust anything but at the same time I'd like to be assured of the possibility of growth.

Thanks for finding the words for me @Shin I read that in Palpatines voice ?

It didn't feel anything. I wasn't consious of the body, "empty field with just consciousness being conscious of itself" ⬅️⬅️⬅️⬅️⬅️THAT

@Shroomdoctor Or grab a highlighter pen whilst your reading? You can then go back and easily find what you wanted to take notes on. Just a thought

Oh I don't need to ask opinion's on that, I know I got that covered?

So you've stopped smoking completely? You free of the addiction to nicotine and now your vaping just for hobby purposes? @egoless I urge you to put the e-cigarette down, honest! You'll become addicted to it, the habit you'll create from using it will cause an addiction. Also I was thinking you could possibly be sensitive to vegetable glycerin or propylene glycol. I can't seem to fathom why your getting these headaches, 20/40 hits a day is nothing

What do you mean by "heavy vaping" then? @egoless Why did you smoke if you weren't addicted? (Just curious)

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I completely agree! Using the compassionate approach with people that moan and complain whilst stuck in victim mentality mode doesn't work or like you put it, people that know they are there. I've learnt to use harshness with some people, Leo's logical approach in some of his video's snapped me out of the victim mentality and I took responsibility for every single little thing. I will watch that video, just the title has me giggling ?

I'm actually crying ? *head's over to YouTube Metube Wetube*

Good point! This post has helped me in more ways than one