Charlotte

@egoeimai in what way do you feel you could tackle this thought of repression? ♥️

Couldn't agree more. Thank goodness I'm not the only one. I am practicing observation through my meditation practice which is frustrating at times but I have to accept that. The mind is so used to being the centre of attention it will take a lot of awareness and practice to perfect mindfulness (or mindlessness in my experience). I have found that mindfulness isn't needed in some situations throughout day to day life because I forget things, I lose things, I think it's about striking the right balance in everyday life.

I honestly don't have the answer at this moment in time, I wish I did. From my personal experience I think I have to work towards more observation than this feeling of repression but I'm also confused with observation. Is observation still being pulled in by the thought content and then observing you've been pulled in or is it like awareness watching the thoughts whilst the thoughts are happening.

I genuinely try to stay mindful all day BUT by doing so I feel like I'm, in a way, repressing thoughts.

When you notice sweaty palms or feet, pop your hand on your tummy, lightly, look down, watch and feel yourself for breathing slowly and deeply. Observe yourself breathing. Stay there for 10 minutes.

@keepgiving Good to be honest I don't give much thought about the age range around me, in going there for me, not them.

I've made a solid decision to go back to college this year and begin what I feel (at the moment) is my LP (Psychology). I've been out of education for a while and I have to say I'm quite nervous but really enthusiastic and excited. Because I've been out of the education system for a while I thought I'd ask you guys as a heads up what equipment I may need? I don't own a portable laptop or a computer, I'm sure I'll need one, could you guys recommend any? (I'm really quite useless with technology). Will I need other things? Any advice/guidance would be very much appreciated. Thank you ♥️

I understand. I can grasp this with any other problems I seem to face, I shrug them off and laugh at them. I need professional help (which I'm in the process of getting) with these insecurity issues I've been facing for 14 years.

You've judged me from a picture and where I live. Looks can be deceiving. For the record, money means absolutely nothing to me. I don't measure my life, success, hierarchy or status by the digits in my or anyone else's bank account. My true success in my life lies in how far I can "jailbreak my mind". All I strive for everyday is more and deeper inner work. With regards to my "challenges" yes, they are an illusion I agree BUT that doesn't make them any less of an issue right now unfortunately. I'm suffering with OCD with thoughts, paranoia, anxiety, depression, complete and utter inner turmoil. At this moment in my life I'm working very hard on getting some kind of control over these issues because they are ruining me, my life and my mental health. This "illusion" has gotten to a place where it seems like it is no longer an illusion and with the hard work I'm doing comes a lot of hard emotional labor and what feels like suffering to an extent I've never imagined.

Interesting. What you said has crossed my mind with regards to the course. Thanks for sharing ♥️

@Hardkill wow, very insightful thank you for sharing your knowledge. You cannot legally own any type of fire arms here in the UK so I'm safe in that department, thank you for your concerns. He doesn't do any type of drugs or smoke and rarely drinks. But yes I've seen 1st hand what happens to him when he has consumed to much alcohol, it's frightening, terribly disturbing (not for my safety but for his state of mind). I hope, when he starts his EMDR therapy the therapist might then forward him onto some sort of group sessions or support group. I'll forward the meditation information to him, thank you. He doesn't read unfortunately. He is interested in martial arts though. He has a good job, he enjoys it to a degree, all employees at the company are treat very well and very respectfully. I can't say he has some sort of 'dream', not that I'm aware of anyway. I'll work on this with him as you suggested, thank you ♥️ @Phill Thank you for sharing your experiences and method! Your anxiety does sound somewhat familiar to my partner's. I'll share the information and technique you've given me, thank you ♥️

Will definitely try. Thank you!

@Nahm thank you. Sorry for late reply, been off the forum dealing with "Challenges" ?

Everyday is a miracle, weekends are an illusion, days of the week and time is an illusion, the present moment has no time or boundaries, now is REAL! Maybe try and live more in the moment?

I literally could of wrote this!! It's creepy to read. Your right, it is a false sense of security and yes I believe many people stay in relationships because of this reason, wether it be financial security or whatever. Basically, like me, I'm reading this as you get into relationships for the wrong reasons (up to you to find that reason) and then as you progress into the relationship you start to slowly feel and realise that your not happy? Why? Because you got into the relationship for the wrong reasons in the first place, the illusion drop's away. I got into my current relationship for the wrong reasons and everyday I live with this, let's call it a 'gut feeling', it tears the relationship down. Like you, I crave to be alone BUT I don't know what I am feeling is true or not, I don't know if what I am feeling is just another illusion. I guess a lot of contemplating on this issue would be a good start for you? I hope your able to work things out for YOU ♥️ *hugs*

Same ? was just about to reply ?

Yes, just ideas, beliefs and experience added on

The unsweetened Alpro?

No your right, I don't mind, just my bed sense of humour, ignore me. The majority of my income is spent on good quality food, skin care, toiletries and household cleaners, everything I use is as organic as it can get.

I'm 27, I don't know why I said I'm 28, wishing my life away ? I'm 28 soon. Wow, glad to hear it's working for you bud! Keep up the good work! ♥️ And thank you for your support ? Amen brother! ? I am @Nahm your absolutely right. I'm able to observe and not be sucked in to the content of most of my thoughts, it's this one big issue I have. I don't want to explain via a thread because I'm to embarrassed but I desperately need some guidance with this "challenge" (see what I did there @Star Net ?) @Nahm would you mind if I PM'd you? I don't want to bore you with my issue's though and take up to much of your time ♥️

These types of thoughts I'm referring to have been in life from around the age of 12, I'm now 28. I've tried observing, it isn't strong enough ?

Do meditation blocks help keep the spine straight? I also find I'm unconsciously dipping my head during (Grrr). Any hints or tricks for posture? Any suggestions, as always are appreciated ♥️

@Faceless @Faceless sorry tagged twice but yes, totally agree! I now see it as some form of entrapment and I'm offering him a hand to free him from his suffering and he isn't grasping, it's a shame but I understand. People have to find there own way there. Definitely! This, I'm not short of ?

Have you definitely ruled out any medical issues you may have? All the Turmeric in the world won't help if you have a deficiency of some kind?