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I'm a native German speaker but I lived on south Africa for couple years and my English is nearly the same quality as my German. Does it matter if contemplate in mixed language? Do I have to choose one?.

@Leo GuraFirst of all, i have not posted something in a long while because I needed to clear my head. Nothing worked anymore. I was just thinking and spinning instead of focusing on being. So when sat down this afternoon I didn't have any intent of finding or really doing anything. There was just plain curiosity inside of me. And...I cant really describe it here. Of course not. There was nothing! But as soon as I "touched" on it if you will, emptiness was "gone". It is strange I can't explain it. It must sound like I'm talking around some BS. When it was gone there was really nothing gone...

@Leo GuraIn the blog you posted a video where you once talked about the intelligent design of a blade of grass and its sort of infinite nature. How come I've had the exact same "insight" or maybe in my case "thought" or realization without having tripped once?

(i was just contemplating while walking in nature)

Im 17, im quitting coffee because it just doesnt make me feel good anymore. Makes me feel bloated and just sick in the morning. Is black tea an alternative for that?

@Leo Gurasomehow i stopped to meditate, contemplate and eat healthy after it all started good, it has been about 3 month since i stopped all of this. But i KNOW that self actualization is the only real option that is worth persuing for me. And i also know that it is not a gamble. If you take it very fucking serious you will succeed. But i just tumbled of and away and i.. Just don't know. I need to start again. Please please help me, give me a tip or something. ?

@Leo Gurawould be really interesting to hear from you guys why do you identify with what you identify with For example ( even though i had experiences without any substances influenced Show me that i might not be the body) i identify with the body because of the experience of life and the way the eyes move through the world when you walk for example Please give me your thoughts on this

@Leo GuraSounds weird but i can't bring myself to start meditation or self inquiry. Ive been keeping a lot of notes on Evernote lately and doing that good but i just cant start although i want to. I always think "oh weeell you know when school starts you wont find the time, bla bla bla". I had a habit of a mix i guess you could say between inquiry and meditation. But i think after i had this experience where "my self" was caught for the first time and it was weird and scary as shit, i stopped to do meditation on a dayli bases How do i develop that again where ive fallen of for a long time?

The part where the subtitles reads "so many beautiful birds" hitler ACTUALLY says "they will drown in their own blood" ????

@Source_Mystic thank you very much, i will definitely use your advice

@Nahm im such a newb ??

@Nahm i guess you're right. Kinda, work on the things you want, but don't think so much about them all the time

@Leo Gura i will definitely have to do something to get started again. Deep down, this work is like really the only thing i want to do and make a living from it in some Form. There is nothing else that grabs my attention this much as all of this work. But somehow I get still distracted

@Yonkon my coworker went to a doctor with this and told us its really important. You can tone it done meditation but you NEED TO see a doctor ?

@Leo Gura i think to much ?

@Leo Gura Isnt Enlightenment "raw reality"? How can "you" then become sort of more infinite than all of reality itself?

@Leo Gura Just listen to this talk. I think its really beautiful and inspiring.

@Leo GuraWhen you have something new in your life, ( you constantly buy stuff or neuroticly work on your business) you expect it to make you feel new or happy or satisfied .but because There is no you, And reality is not materialistic, how the fuck is that gonna fulfill you?! Thats why "material" wont make "you" which is nothing any more satisfied. Its absurd. Its just a thought (sry for possibly bad grammar im german)

@Leo Gura Damn. Isnt it crazy. After this episode of self deception i really noticed. You cant really claim anything about reality. Not ratiolism, not non-duality, logic or anything. Correct me if I'm wrong. I know its paradoxical because i learned that reality is allegadly nondual although i have not had a direct experience of it. But isnt it sooort of "right" to say that you cant make a claim or "proof" anything in reality?

@Leo Gura i will definitely. Sometimes in my dayli worktraining im doing besides school, i get these little insights that, everything is ok. Im working towards the ultimate destination. I get frustrated here amd there with math and stuff. But this work, even helps me witj school!!!. And when i look at myself from 2016, i can only applaud myself (not being fuckin selfish here ?)

@Leo Gura thats heavy, thats deep. Thats.. I dont know what to write here. It just blows my mind and makes me happy that i have found this path. Thank you so much, greetings from lower saxony, Germany ?

@Leo Gura goddamn.... There is no bigger mindfuck than this... And one more question. You always make it seem like people will want to ignore these "radical" ideas. But like you said in one episode, i looove getting my mind fucked over. Is this an exception or am i just lying at myself yet again? ???

Can you give me a tip on how to deconstruct concepts, ive seen the episode from leo. But it would be nice from you anyways

@Joseph Maynor thank you so much

Lately I've been really interested in photography, i really love the idea of capturing reality in a picture. Now i also fantasized about working as a photographer and traveling and stuff and later earning my money with that . Now i dont know if this is really something i love or just some distraction from learning the theory and doing self actualization work