mohdanas

HEY HEY, try this, it worked for me. When, I speak, I speak with emotions, my mind is shut from fear but when I went in front of the camera for the first time, I could not say anything, I am so conscious, It was a new experience and my mind was judging myself plus it feels a bit awkward. So, what I did? I failed couple of times, I think it is important, mind takes time to understand, your mind must be more comfortable now lets say when you went infront of the camera for the first time. Now, 1. Write down the main points. 2. Get tune in your emotions about how much passionate and energetic you feel about them. 3. Prime your mind, that it isnt a camera but infact a person, and speak your emotions about the topic to him and not the words. Tip #1 If you feel conscious or fearful still then start with this, "admit how you feel" I started saying how I feel in front of the camera to myself in that situation, like now I am feeling strange, this is awkward, I feel fearful or whatever whatever, just get it out, do not hold your emotions but speak them out and that emotion will vanish and you will find your flow and later just cut the beginning part while keeping everything else intact. If it work, do thanks me, first person, I am helping here

Man, people have been telling me to read one thing, I am gonna get that now. As I want to design my life around a life purpose.

I learn about self realization and the truth about 8 months ago, I have been a deep intense and emotional person like forever, very humble and kind for my own good. I started meditating and connecting to the nature on and off. I had a strange experience like 2 months ago and today I felt the same thing but much much intense. My first experience happened at a friend place after smoking up. I was lying on bed and meditating in emptiness on my mind and all of a sudden I started to sink inwards, My entire existence felt like a collection of grains of sand which is sinking inwards into a hole ( Imagine placing a sandglass which is filled with sand on the top that sinks through a hole in the bottom), my breath and heartbeat was getting slower and slower, I was confused what is happening and become very scared as I was loosing myself and let it go and woke myself up. I had a similar experience in sleep a month ago but it was not intense. Tonight, I had a much more intense experience in my dream. I was in tune with energy and extremely tired before I went to bed. I was meditating as I fell asleep. The feeling of sinking came over all of a sudden and at a much intense level, the sand which was pouring inwards slowly like in sandglass was now flowing inwards like a waterfall now, I felt like I could loose myself if I dont consciously stop myself, I started analyzing what is happening, is it good or is it bad? I understand the teaching that for spiritual realization you gotta let yourself go, but all I felt was being sucked in complete darkness to a place that I do not even know if I would come back. I did tried to think positively and surrender but the fear was too strong, honestly I am not sure what it was, was it good or evil. So, I like really fought to woke up myself, I could see my eyes open before I woke up, I could see but I could sense the energies around me and had to fight to wake up. I am confused, what it was? Should I be scared or not? Is there anything evil that pulls you or it is natural? P.S. - The evil thoughts might stem from a faint belief that there might be some negative energy drawn to me as I feel negative force in the form of anxiety and repulsive urges towards some crucial things in life I want to do.

idk bro, I do not have clarity about what it was, even I did feel like I will die physically, idk how can I differentiate btw my ego mind dying or myself. This is why I thin of my mom that if I die what will she go through, otherwise I would be ready to die if that is what it takes. Thanks bro, I am working on it.

I understand the depth of what you said. It is simple but so difficult. I will try to strengthen my desire and believe. Thanks Alot Mate. Would you further explain your experience to me? What do you do when this happens? do you hold yourself back or if you let yourself go then what it leads to? The fear I get is for my mom, idk why I keep thinking about her whenever this happens, she is extremely emotional and if anything happens to me then she will be completely devastated. I can let go if it is just for me, but my responsiblities towards my mom and her love towards me hold me back. Thank you for your insight, Sir. Much Appreciated.