Hello from Russia

I am kinda the opposite But it takes courage to choose me as I am a very inconventional person in many ways

Paypal is such nazi in Russia, God Maybe for a good reason though

The documentary is weird Most women say it was all 100% consensual and were just reporting his sex addiction & promiscuity basically With one woman he just went a bit too strong on her pushing for sex (they were already lovers at this point and had sex previously) for which he later apologized I'm not really that fan of the guy, but this all seems like a black PR

What's so shameful about pickup really? All of it basically boild down to having balls and coming and saying "Hi" to girls, that's it The rest of it is sexuality, relationship theory and being good at bed all of which are domains of its own

Well, my current LP is to be helping advanced self-development (spiritual) teachers and holistic wellness people/retreat centers to brand & market themselves. Basically green-yellow+ wellness and self-development The problem is that there are a lot of unconventional ideas (of course) and rather woo woo stuff at times. Yoga and meditation is the norm of course. Some shamanic stuff. Some pushing ideas about sexuality, etc. Most of this is talking about deep psychological topics and merging it with spirituality/philosophy and actual practices (and making people do it for practical benefit) My problem is that due to the nature of my LP in some sense I am serving as "missionary" and trying to "convert" people to this "neo-spirituality" and to these highly advanced forms of living/philosophies I am afraid some fundamentalists one day might notice me and if I am big enough they decide to do the act of terrorism on me/find and shoot me, etc I am guilty of consuming a lot of fear porn though on how Christian/Islamic fundametalists treat new age people and demonize them (dedicated long and very biased/rigid episodes on how yoga is demonic for example, etc). Or how these people basically hate Hinduism. There are a lot of hate for Hindu people in islamic world for example, and I am a bit afraid that I will be associated with that as my target audience for Life Purpose is full of yogic people basically. Like around 90% of people are following yogic stuff in one way of the other. Of course they are a bit more new agey, but they pay a lot of respect to India as the culture etc This is probably a bit irrational. But subconsciously these people entrench some deep fears in me as I watched a ton of rigid stage blue people and was growing up in a very stage blue community here in Russia. So this stuff is not easy for me to not care about

The problem is the cultural women's desire to be "taken" and for men to sort of push through woman's resistances and "conquer" her in bed It's so hard to find balance in this. Women are not really known for giving a lot of explicit consent

I feel sorry for you, man Maybe you just happen to suck at taking care of your voice at the moment? Sounds like you started to follow your life purpose and using voice a lot but then didn't do much extra for taking care of it Voice professionals usually go to huge length to nurture voice-related organs. Maybe you need to research how some veterans do it usually and steal some voice maintenance techniques I know it sucks so much to be losing voice, but maybe don't panic yet, what have you tried?

I often get fears that if I go completely nuts with my life purpose I might get assasinated by one of these guys, zzz Have you developed any frameworks to cope with it? You say radical stuff, I remember you mentioned you get death threats. How bad is it?

Yeah, in a very big way

What's interesting is that it happenned after I kinda went too cocky with a substance I had around 2 poofs with it and nothing was really changing. Then I was like - "Wtf is that bullshit substance, not doing anything for me". And then I took a really deep poof and omg, it took me to other realm pretty much quite literally in seconds. And I felt as though I was "punished" for my cockyness. It taught me some humility and the neccesity to have a respect for substance

Yeah, I had my first bad trip with DMT It was as though I was possessed by a dmt jester (or dmt elf or whatever, I saw the jester shapes) and he sort of played evil jokes on me, showcasing me a lot of imagery of my deepest fears. For example I was very afraid of snakes from my childhood. And the room turned into full snakey-like shapes for some moments. And other simillar things like this, it was terrifying. Also for like 30 seconds I felt the total loss of control of my body/experience and it was very terrifying and fairly traumatic, especially with this imagery. I felt some hairs turn gray in real time during this all I remember reaching out for my phone and feeling as though my hand went beneath the astral plane of a phone, I just couldn't get a firm grasp on it. I was then like "Okay, no phone then" . Thank God that shit lasted only for about 3-5 minutes

@Leo Gura With DMT I felt like I was enhaling some ancient powder that is very wise and you could say even "eternal" Sort of like a psychedelic spice in Dune's desert feel

@Leo Gura Do organic substances have a disctinct different feel in your experience? Maybe you are able to summon some ancestral magical stuff or whatever more?

Damn, if he'd come to this forum it'd be such a gift Though he might probably be too old for forums...

Nice

Mindfulness is like having a big dick

@Leo Gura All these people still provide enormous value to society despite having some limitations, right? I often times way too critical of people too, even of the most conscious ones, and I sort of start playing the avoidance game, not really engaging with them. But this seems like a trap. I feel like we all need more higher consciousness socialization, even if some people will have certain limits Perfectionism is damaging here too it seems like

Would you say new agers are kind of more advanced in that regard? Especially new age women

Lmao

Why not just sell the car?

Don't be friends with people who are being stupud like this

It's okay to have fights here and there and that they can actually be beneficial But where do we actually draw the line? How much fighting is okay? Is fighting every week okay? What if for 6 days you have an ideal amazing loving relationship and 1 day a week you fight very badly and the situation is consistent? How damaging is this situation? How much fighting is too much and how much fighting is too little? I invite you to discuss this I personally had a great deal of experience in a scenario discussed above. 6 days in a week it is an ideal relationship, 1-2 days it is an utter nightmare. I was excusing a lot of it because these 6 days felt so great once we "have worked on an issue" . But now in retrospect I see how damaging it was and kinda even regret it. I'm not sure what personal standard to draw here. The biggest thing was that it usually was happening during the weekend. I am pretty ambitious person and I like to work hard or go really balls to the wall with meditation/learning. That entails I really need quality rest and recharge time. And instead of it I was constantly dealing with shit load of nonse drama that would take an enormous energy tax on me and lead to a heavy burnout after a while.