Hello from Russia

@Leo Gura I have a fear of living through these "tough" experiences that are also Love but at the same time terrifying from a relative POV of a person experiencing them. I wonder if you could give some advice to handle this fear? It exists as sort of existential tremor inside. I can totally recognize and be thankful for that my current life experience is not relatively bad as it could possible be (could be infinitely worse). But I have a hard time accepting a possibility that at some time my dream can become a total nightmare. And I have a desire to do anything in my power to avoid such a nightmare as I seemingly tired af from it existentially (maybe grown tired also from past lifetimes too if they exist)

What's wrong with them? How bout Sri Lanca? I was thinking to maybe go retreat there for a year or so, I love buddhist architechture

Wow

Cause she wants to seduce him when he ll start doing live events, open book obvious

@Leo Gura And we sleep with super hot women who have extremely bad ethics & moral development as well. It's not like hot women are all saints When I see a hot woman with a shitty behaviour I get disgusted, not turned on personally. I will take less attractive but better morals woman any day of the week. Though in this situation the whole notion of "attractiveness" gets hijacked, these woman are not really that attractive, unless you are a scumbag yourself

@Leo Gura I had a guy in his 30-40s approach me when I was 13-14 yo on streets offering me to suck my dick and play w my balls in some home's entrance (we call it подъезд in Russia ), he asked if I needed any money and suggested he'd give me 100-200 rubles (which was like 5-10$ at that time) if I'd allow him to do all that I didn't judge him, was kinda surprised by all that, he looked like a normal guy. Was even excited to see what this guy is really up to. But still made a decision to chicken out of the deal and politely say no thanks. He then started olffering me 300-400 rubles (15-20$) which I denied as well and then he just walked away Was an intertesting experience for me. I actually experienced a self-esteem boost from that, lol, cause I caught someone's fancy apparently and I kinda was lacking in the love domain during my school Never told my parents any of that as well

Wow, such a great art by him

@StarStruck Dude, don't do it like this, it's too much of a progression, you might heavily regret it

About main theme of the topic: There is a very good book on going about this topic for stage yellow+ men called "Integral Relationship" (Martin Ucik). It's written by a buddy of Ken Wilber and has very good frameworks on how to determine and sort of map your "one" girl to deeply understand where to look and how. It also touches a lot on how different spiral types typically relate to each other in intimate relationships (Sorry for poor quality, can't find any better unfortunately) He also introduces such a thing as sexual development and sexual stages of development and describes/integrates a ton of frameworks about them and all things sexual. Such a profound stage yellow + work tbh. Damn, @Leo Gura, I think you would highly appreciate the work of this guy

We all need Jesus, man, in one way or the other (Halleluja!) I'm not sure about secure attachment people don't love each other or going deep together, from what I see everyone experiences love. It's just with secure attachment there is more possibility for good sustainability

Sounds like an avoidant attachment style (From attachment theory) Mine is like totally the opposite

The problem is one of my highest values is Depth. And another one is Excellence, I really like to go heavy into things. And I found if someone very close is half-assing things that are highly important to me or just isn't interested in them I feel very frustrated I don't know, I just feel like I need Jesus after all That all feels very perfectionistic for sure, even from my own pov, which I recognize. At the same time I can easily picture a scenario for myself to drop all this bullshit on a dime and go marry a completely non-crazy girl after some years and live a completely "normal" life with her, total immersion into the human experience as it was how assumable you were supposed to live anyways But I don't know, on the other hand, it feels way too basic and almost as "giving up". People were living like this for Millenials, if we are to believe history and myths, why not do something different and immerse yourself with some crazy girl? And I've just grown tired of this phenomenon of me being too superior to the girl in terms of intelligence/insight. I just get frustrated so much after some time. I want someone close to my level or at least someone comparable, not necessarily the same/equal, but just close/comparable. So I can enjoy and share deep moments with them. Even the depth of the most mundane stuff. It's like with some people you can't even enjoy the mundane stuff properly, they take everything so for granted, it's just frustrating. I am tired of being frustrated like this - and it is the whole issue of why I am sharing all this

Yeah, you are right, to be honest, that is like a #1 concern of mine with all this endeavor I am thinking maybe some very hardcore open-minded spiritual teacher-type girl would fit the bill. Some shamannese if you will. But that would be very challenging, kind of like trying to find Jesus in a girl form I guess, indeed Teaching someone from scratch, I feel, is a great angle, but I just don't feel myself that capable as a teacher, to be honest. I can be a great doer of these things, but teaching seems as completely separate endevour. And it would require a girl to be very very open-minded. I guess since you've mastered teaching so much it could be a great choice for you. In a sense I actually tried teaching it and had some success but ultimately got frustrated and failed. These material girls are like this for a reason, it could be that they just wanted to live this heavily materialistic life, sort of like a karma of the soul and you're kinda interfering with that. Also, stage blue/orange indoctrination from our cultures I feel can actualyl be so much more challenging to rewire than decades of new age. For a girl to be new age she at least needs to be rather open-minded

No, no, I know the power of all this stuff I assume/project that you date these orange/green girls I guess, which might be wrong Maybe it's my karma/personality, but all these orange/green girls are making me sick personally

I wonder how do you not get bored/sick from conventional stage orange girls after so many awakenings? I mean, there is infinite beauty in them too, of course, too much fluff in the mind, no? I was dating some stage orangey/green girls from top Russian universities and I feel I just cannot stomach it any longer. My plan is to go find a hot witch girlfriend/wife now for real, with all seriousness

Last video about socialization making you stupid hit really to the core It basically touched on such sublte but very deep corners of life, I can't imagine any other public intellectual would come up and talk about this I long time ago gave up on the notion of a conventional carreer. But this video helped me to give up on a whole other array of less conventional carreer angles I was considering that were somewhat stil touching the mainstream, but were much more wholesame nonethless I realized I can't really go to any conventional art path - they are all dogmatic as fuck, man! You talk about Science constantly, but damn, the artistic culture we have around filming, digital art, painting, making music, design, acting/modeling, many other stuff - is so antiintelligent, and so anti-art even. They are fairly artistic and fairly better (could say much better) than other industries, sure. But there are so little genuinely artistic people who seriously going for Da Vinci lifestyle type of thing. They are so unserious/conformists it was making me depressed. Especially when such people receive big validation from our culture and gain following - barriers are actually so low, you could say. The competition is basically nonexistant in today's day and age, and it is both a bit sad, but also very uplifting & motivating I definetely don't wanna be around all these art people and their bullshit exhibitions! (Despite some of them being nice of course) I see basically no good way for me other than finding some totally unique authentic path for myself, 99.9% of things that mainstream offers just doesn't fit the bill Just wanted to say "thank you" to Leo and to all his content he is shipping out, you are doing a really extraordinary intellectual work, for sure. Very inspiring to watch even from a not self-biased perspective.

Its cool, no? ?

People from middle east/central asia build them. We make them our slaves pretty much...

Implying it's not true?

Cool idea, but you gotta make it so it's not gonna be cringey, indeed. With proper charisma it could be a very fun way to do it

Yeah, they'd probably jail you very quick, which is sad

Yes. Some people as though are blocked in inter-dimencial stuff It seems like people who have worse intuition and introspection skill gain much less off of these chemicals

Well

Yeah, but then you also meditate on how a screw hits the wood, and damn it feels so good. Almost like a sexual act and it is one, in a sense

Damn, manual labour is so enjoyable sometimes though. Especially when you've been heavily masturbating mentally for some time, screwing with an electrical screwdriver is such a pure joy, almost a mystical experience You just screw in and out and it's ecstatic