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Love that 2001 is also a great shout, very deep film.

True. Though the joke of it is that God is simply resisting Itself.

Been referenced on the forum quite a bit recently, but 'American Beauty' falls into this category I'd say. It's about the awakening of desire, and then a recognition of the mysterious force that pervades all of life. Great shout, love that film - it's essentially a heist film, but it's the tragic backstory that really gets me. Oh and Hans Zimmer's score, my word ?

I'm experiencing thudding head pressure at the moment, my third eye and crown chakras appear to be active AF at the moment. Again it's interesting to notice the corresponding activity in my heart chakra - I'd had a realisation when I was having a desperately hard time a few years back that my head and heart were out of alignment, that my mind was basically estranged from my heart, and I seem to have undergone a process since then of bringing thought and feeling back into alignment. Interesting to observe how that dynamic plays out energetically and emotionally. (As I'm typing, a song called 'Stubborn Love' came on my Youtube playlist, which feels very appropriate )

What a great line

I need to see this film, sounds amazing

@ivankiss May you be blessed too, my friend Love this, this is wisdom

No-one could accuse you of lacking confidence bro, I like that Looking forward to hearing what you come up with

So happy for the two of you

@ivankiss The same to you, my friend ❤ Yes... exactly ?

@Gianna Devastatingly beautiful, isn't it? Here's a happier one

Still feeling sorely in need of a cuddle buddy at the moment, I'm not going to lie Bless you though, Gianna, I really appreciate it ??

You're a beautiful soul, Ivan Funny, I got to thinking the other day about looking through my old childhood pics, Lord knows why. Maybe it's because I've been thinking about my inner child just lately (you know, as you do!), I dunno.

The universe's timing amazes me sometimes, because as I type this there's a line in the song I'm currently listening to that perfectly sums up my current predicament: 'You broke my chest' (the line's from 'Youth' by the band Daughter). Because fuck - fuck, FUCK - that's exactly what it feels like in my chest right now, and it's a complete drag... Anyway, so yeah, I'm feeling a lot of pressure again in that solar plexus/heart region at the moment, and a lot of upset when I feel into that pressure. I've been experiencing a lot of contractions in the last few days, as the energy tries to push through those blockages - it might sound daft, but I almost feel like I'm in labour sometimes with all the contractions, only the movement through my body is upwards rather than downwards (just got to remember my Lamaze breathing ). Feels like a bit of a catch-22 situation at the moment, because whilst I've absolutely had it with this whole kundalini awakening business, at the same time I'm also scared of what's to come. It brings to mind a line from the film 'Inception': 'Do you want to take a leap of faith, or become an old man, filled with regret, waiting to die alone?' Which is a trifle dramatic, but it does feel rather appropriate.

Right, that makes sense

Watching yourself sleep - sounds kinda trippy, but also kinda dull Ooh that's interesting, I've wondered about whether enlightened people dream for that very reason, ie they presumably don't have subconscious material like unawakened people do and so therefore it's not going to manifest in the form of dreams. For myself, I've noticed I've gone through phases the past few years as I'm working through various mental/emotional issues - there are periods when I'm having very unsettling, distressing dreams, and other times where either I'm not dreaming, or I'm just not remembering my dreams upon waking up.

Love, love, love this, so true

How could you listen to that and not smile?

@Preety_India Great advice

Oh wow, very interesting! Feel like I need to get my hands on some psychs, I've never tried them Yes, completely agree! Those blockages can be very dense and stubborn, so it does take require lots of patience and persistence for them to start to break down I think.

It's a fantastic suggestion, but I don't know how I'd get into contact with her - we used to communicate through a forum we both used, but she deactivated her account and I don't know her phone number or email address. I doubt she'd be willing to engage with me anyway, the last few times we talked she was rather cold and aloof, I could feel her keeping me at arm's length which was frustrating (but, I could understand her behaving that way given how badly she'd been hurt by my rejection of her, so I figured we were just going to have to work on our issues independently of one another, for the time being at least).

Because you've been conditioned to repress certain strong emotions. So when those emotions are stirred up in you (by the music, in this instance), they trigger those patterns of emotional resistance in your body and that's what creates the discomfort.