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I can't play this fuckings game anymore, this game of pretending and fear, I have becomed too conscious of it. Too conscious that I'm nothing=God=Everything to play the silly game of being a "someone". I have taken a one-directed process/path for too long and too far, to the point of feeling it's impossible to be with others than an illusory actor. But I know it isn't impossible. But when you see your fellow beings literally unconsciously playing a game of one mega personal disorder and literally look at you as insane for not playing along, I don't know what to do.

Nice. I was turned into the spiritual supernatural realm days after meditation. When that passed, it took like 2 years to finally become conscious that I'm The One and Only aka God. Now it's time for the other thing I'm not so gifted with: How to be with my fellow beings. I think beginning with my energy field is crucial as energy is fundamental.

When all is dissolved, what shall remain is love-awarness, the pure energy of love can literally annihilate anything - like light illuminates darkness in an instant. Decide how you want to appear, don't give this choice away to anyone. It's not spirituality against the person or ego, it's only two things: 1. What and who you are - this can be made conscious of. 2. How and what you become around your fellow beings - you can become conscious of this. Both ought to be worked upon to it's very core.

? Never the less Person=Prison Non-person-freedom I can't deny that altough I'm conscious that I am the One (call it whatever) that the power of the One to be living as a human is undeniably the Omnipotent will of God. And the desire to grow and develop oneself as a individuated human being, that is as well the will of God. Yes, it's always love in the end of everything. ?❤️

Depends on you of course, you want it to take longer time, work on the person. You want to do the real direct hardcore work, see the "person" and everything making it up as the mind-created illusion that it is and literally consciously drop it, and operate from a more auhentic level of consciousness and awarness. This will also purify, open up, and uplift your energy field.

Lol. Genuine spiritual work gone far enough will literally annihilate any trace of personhood, make it so obvious that it's an illusion that you have no choice but to operate from another level.

@Bryanbrax There is no person, you can consciously decide to behave like a person aka a robot or as pure being/awareness/energy. Devolopment is fundamental due, if you just develop yourself truly and properly. Deveolping an illusion like the person is not only a waste of time, it's pure delusion. A man doesn't treat illusion like it's real.

Altough you are God and even the supposed ego itself is God, God made this reality in a way where you as a finite being will never be beyond or in any possible way greater than the Godhead itself. It's undeniably true, no matter how conscious a finite being becomes of itself, be it temporary or permanent, there will always be a greater power above you. This is called the Godhead, the One who gave you the possibility of a life, of saying "I'm God". With this statement, one has to be very careful. GOD=GOD YOU=YOU

It depends on how you view direct experience. As pure Awarness, it will never die. As "you", the ego and everything which makes it up, you will quite probably perish. As God, you are Immortal etc. But as the finite ego, you will invetiably die. You are both God and not. See?

It's painful many times, when I feel down and I can sense that I'm giving out low frequency energy, and I can feel, sense and see when others around get negatively affected by it. And it goes the other way around as well. I know for a fact that I have to become a proper vessel for all this energy, in order to uplift others and myself. Energy is fundamental in all interactions, more so than the mind. Maybe it's not as fundamental as conscious awarness, but energy and awarness undeniably go hand to hand.

@Matt8800 It's one thing which hasn't left me yet and no one but me knows this yet, and that is the energy thing. No one knows it, but I can literally feel and sense energy, sometimes it gets absorbed in me and I can feel it cuz it comes like an electric shoot, sometimes powerful and other times not so powerful. I can't see it and absorbe it to me like I used to, or help others by giving them energy from myself, but it hasn’t to this day left completely. It's both a blessing and a curse. Sometimes it simply gets too much, if I'm in a low frequency all I feel and sense is low frequency energy, even dark ones. If I'm up there, it's all good. I just have to figure out what and how to deal with this. It's ultimately a blessing if I only could handle it properly. I think I must begin the work now, I haven't becomed so conscious of this fact until now.

Yeah, that's what I thought as well about these prophets doing miracles. Yeah, God is beyond understanding etc. Just one last question, how do you view yourself in relation to the All? Seperate? A part of it? Or simply it? Surely, since it's The All/The One, you cannot be seperated from it?

Been there, several times. The pain of spirituality is to deal with it's dark side aka the ego. You are being shown yourself to yourself, you are now literally slowly being shown and made aware of "you" - not to hold you down, but to do something about it, to grow from it, to become stronger from it. As you become conscious of the darkness within you, you will become conscious of the undeniable darkness of the ego within everyone. If you go far enough you can even sense it, see dark energy playing itself out - this is because everything is inter-connected as One energy. It's like God asking you "What will you do now, overcome this or let it drag you down?" "Will you give up or go all the way?" For many, giving up is not an option. They have gone to far and deep into it for it to even be an option.

@Chakra Lionhttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=f2dA46aYMm4&t=204s

For some reason I want to share this experience of mine from a long time ago. Take from it whatever you like. This is to insipire you, fascinate you, to show you just how magical reality truly is. I hope. ? I remember in the good old days when I was in a radical and extreme state of consciousness where I experienced a lot of crazy, seemingly impossible and simply cool stuff which I won't go into detail here. I was watching a video on youtube where a guru gave someone intense shaktipat and somehow I absorved that energy into myself, I could see and feel the energy entering me directly from my computer (no joke). Then I just closed my eyes and let it do whatever. In the instant I closed my eyes, the mind created very vividly all kinds of images which I could vividly see and not control to the point of becoming scary. Then a spirit guide or something came, I think it was the gurus spirit or a spirit which the guru created to come to my aid. But I remember that I (ego) for some reason couldn't surrender to this spirit. I think because of all the light, it was literally made out of light. So my ego-mind or something got it away, and my eyes continued being closed until these images went away. Then I remember just going to the toilet taking a pee, wondering what and how this could happen. Just thinking of this reminds me of just how magical reality is. ❤️

@Chakra Lion Just search on youtube "live recording of Intense shaktipat on tantra practioner". It's probably the first video that poops up, that one with the tantra practioner sitting and the guru standing with full white dress. True and real power shown by the guru.

It's true because I see what I see from direct experience. Buddhism has yet deeper to go, the fact that it sometimes denies the existence of God and is too focused on the emptiness part, proves that.

From what I remember, you came to me for help. So who is who's kiddo here?

Psycadelics can leave you more deluded and confused than you already are. It's in no possible way superiour than intense meditation or self-inqury. It's a slow and many times painful process, but the natural way is how it's designed to be. Most, ungifted from birth, can simply not realize the obvious or awaken to the supernatural spiritual realm. That's why psycadelics exists, to come to the aid to such beings. And it's a good aid, but that which is temporary is not equal to that which is permanent and the case at all times, under all circumtances.

Indeed, God is none other than The All/The One. What did you learn from these interactions? What did it tell you? And yeah, I would say that dark entities are your own creation from past trauma etc. Some can of course be just others creations, like in dark magic. There are a lot of dark magic practioners. People who wants someone killed or simply to suffer, use to go to these kinds of practioners. Prophet Mohammad used to recite this everyday and told his followed to do the same, to protect oneself from all kinds of evil, including supernatural ones: "Say, I seek refuge in the Lord of day break. From the evil of that which He created. And from the evil of darkness when it settles. And from the evil of an envier when he envies." I'm not Muslim but this is interesting, since I believe Mohammed himself had some powerful paranormal abilities where in others eyes he could perform seemingly impossible things aka miracles, which explains why he was so succesful as a supposed prophet.

The point, for me at least, is not to kill or even transcend the ego, it's simply becoming conscious of what it is. You will find ultimately that it is not. You are pure nothingness, pure emptiness, pure formlessness. That's one aspect of yourself. You are also total awake awarness. Totally conscious. Dissolve any possible seperation between yourself and The One, all this is mind-created. The One aka God is none other than YOU. You are none other than The One. But becoming conscious of this requires that you first get a direct connection with your Self/God. Follow the process of Self-inqury and meditation, let yourself show itself the way ? As God told Bayazid Bastami, "Leave yourself and come." There is one distraction and that is the mind. Become conscious of this fact, become conscious of how it literally creates falsehood, entire realities. The remedy is to empty your mind, empty it until nothing is left. Become the Supreme witness and observer of the mind, not attached to it, not identified with it. Simply observing it's creations come and go, being completely neutral to them, letting them come and go, for you are not your mind. You are not your body, you are not your personality. You are Nothing=God.

I can't remember claiming to be "enlightened", whatever that is supposed to mean. If I did, I did so out of ignorance. I'm conscious that I am God. I'm One with myself.

NOTE: This is not made up. For many, this may sound lunatic, simply impossible, made up etc. If you don't believe me, that's okay. But if you believe me, just know that everything I will write here was actually my direct personal experience. This will be long but it's worth reading it all. Take from it whatever you like. This is to show you just how radical, extreme and simply magical reality can become. So here we go. Before this experience happened, I was already in a very radical state of consciousness. I was in the town, my entire body was energy, everyone and everything was this one energy. But let's continue. I was now on my way to train to get back home as it was now late. As I sat waiting for the train, a woman was arguing with another man. They were both angry, then the man got on his train. Then my train came and the woman took the same train. For some reason I feelt horny and decided to try and hook up this woman. I told her I had some weed, if she had a place we could smoke togheter if she wanted. She said okay and we went to her home. Note, in our entire road to her home I was still in this state of consciousness, energy was pouring out from her directly into me, way more powerful now. We got to her home. I took off my shoes, went to couach and got some weed out while she asked me some questions. As I was making a joint, she suddenly stood up and kneeled in front of her tv. Then she told me to come so I went to her, stood one feet from her while she was in her knees. I asked "What is it?" and then it suddenly happened. In an instant, she literally throwed handcuffs made of energy around my arms and feet. Then a very dark and powerful entity emerged from behind my back. I got literally terrified, I couldn’t look at it. But there it was, fully alive and existent. I lost all control. This entity literally moved my body back to the couch. The woman was sitting beside me calmly, while I was terrified and utterly confused as to what is happening. As I sat on the couch, this entity forcebly took of my pants and shouted with all it's power "Suck me!". The woman, calmly said "No" and took up my pants. Suddenly another force emerged in front of the tv. It was a very powerful round dot of pure energy spinning around. It suddenly pooped there in an instant. I felt and now know it was God itself. Just the sound it made when it came shouted "God" instantly in me. I looked at God for like 3 seconds and then my head was controlled by itself directly towards the woman. I was still terrified. As I looked at this woman into her eyes, she gave me a clear signal to keep looking at her eyes like my life depended upon it, and it feelt that way. In shock and horror, I gazed into her eyes for my very life. We gazed for about 4-5 minutes. In these minutes, she was throwing energy into my eyes, into my very soul. This dark entity became weaker and weaker, I could feel it altough all I could do was to focus on her eyes, like intense focus like I have never done before. 4-5 min of this gazing continued until she said with a smile "I have always loved you". At this point, I couldn’t feel the intense dark power and energy of this entity. After she said "I have always loved you", the spinning energy now came and literally spinned my head around 3 times. At this point, the dark entity was gone. The woman, holding my hands, stood me up and told me to lay in the couch, then she gave me water with 4 sleeping pills to drink. I remember drinking it and shortly after going to sleep while I was looking at this spinning energy spinning around and around with this godly power. When I woke up, the woman was just looking at me like nothing happened. Remembering everything, I asked "What happened?". She just stood up and pushed me, told me to get out. So I did. I never meet the woman again, I didn't have her number and nor do I remember where she lives. I don't know how this supposed "human being" could do this, I don't know what she truly was. I just knew what happened and that it was the most ultimate and extreme experience of my life.

Note, this happened years ago. I forgot to mention that. From the Absolute point of view, all this may be all God's imagination. However, any finite being would get shocked, being there, more real than real. It might all be imagination. An imagination which never the less feels pretty real. Imagination=Reality, no difference.

Facts. ? To know oneself as the Only One is to dissolve any possible seperation between oneself and The One. The One=You You=The One I love Meher Baba, no doubt was he a very awoke being. Altough I don't buy into the notion that he was the avatar and all that stuff.