Vipassana

@herghly wow dude. No I havent been doing any shadow work. I just figured meditation was a panacea when dealing with the shadow self, especially when many of my meditation sits are being still and not reacting to the mind-body tantrums ? but I now realize that isnt the case because I've spent a few months journaling daily & digging through my shadow self which gave me alot of results.

@electroBeam Really enjoyed reading your response man. Thank you so much. I will respond soon.

@Nak Khid thank you for your response. I agree with many of the things you mentioned. One thing at a time is definitely the right approach. I am dependent on my family for survival so I will not be able to sit for a longer retreats unless its a goenka one, I have been building my way up to a 20-30 day sit so I can get a good taste. I would still consider myself a newbie in meditation and haven't even tapped into 1% of whats possible. I think I am not thinking long term & this surge of wanting to meditate half of the day is coming from being home all day due to covid & being stuck in my bad habits. Many days of the quarantine, i meditated 7-8 hours and still had sufficient time to work on my creative endeavours but that wont be the case when I'm back to school. Its something I really need to contemplate. I already have a daily habit of meditating 3 hours a day regardless of any circumstances. I guess my deep desire is to take the big leap and commit an extended amount of time just for meditation... as you said, creativity does interfere. I am pretty sure I am using meditation as a semi escape from my bad habits. 3 hours of disciplined sit is plenty to build my practice. I really need to take responsibility for my bad habits and replace them with better habits. There are many books I need to be reading, doing hatha yoga, building a conscious buisness plan, researching and developing etc before my mind will enjoy sitting in a corner like a cat. My real aim is to be able to meditate 4 hours & I feel like that would set me on a good track for the long term & I know I can accomplish this because time is an illusion. When I started, 15 minutes used to be unbearable.

@DrewNows I have a german shepherd

@Espaim I've pretty much experienced all of the scientifically proven benefits that come from meditation but those are only the tip of the ice berg. I don't quiet know how to articulate all the metaphysical benefits but my baseline level of consciousness has increased immensely. My sense of self is very abstract, I'm not fully conscious of who I am but I'm totally conscious of who I'm not and the more I hone in on my direct experience, I understand that I am nothing. I recognize that the only thing stopping me from being fully realized is that I am lacking purity and I know that by continuing my vipassana practice and my loving kindness practice will take me to a state where I'm pretty woke & liberated. Meditation is deeply personal and your state of consciousness is unique to the contents of your life so you really have to establish a strong practice. Its definitely worth the experimentation for at least a couple of years & meditation alone isn't the panacea because I personally know people who have met dozens of gurus, gotten dozens of initiations, attended countless Vipassana retreats and practices dozens of technique & meditate every single day but still have underlying issues that are stopping them from awakening. You really gotta find what works for you but I doubt anybody will truly know if they quit intense meditation without having done it for atleast a few years. I'm a few years in and my experiences are bleak however I can see where this path is taking me.

Any tips on how to reconcile? I am sure you faced this in your early journey when you thought meditation was essential for awakening. @Leo Gura

@commie i don't understand. I was talking about nepotism and being attached to a certain lineage.

@Leo Gura yeah unfortunately people like that have been given power, you only recognize the devil when he has spoken. But again, personally I'm aware that doing such thing isn't tenable from my state of consciousness but I thought a lot about this, especially after yesterdays video and I came to the conclusion that the devil has the potential able to wipe off humanity & justify it as goodness. Basically the epitome of your teaching about the self with a small s

DAY 8: 32 oz Orange Juice 28 oz Pineapple Ginger Lime 28 oz Kale Spinach Cucumber Apple Alot of Honey Water because I faced alot of obstacles & couldn't juice on schedule. -July 13th, 2020-

if I was one of the most powerful individual on this planet and my intention was to better the world for my offsprings, I would simply wipe out the virus (humans) & leave an environment of abundance and technology where my children can drive their Lamborghinis at top speed in the California Highways. I have no idea what conspiracies are true or false, but the concept of depopulation isn't really that far out. Luckily I don't live in a perpetual state of paranoia because I have cultivated a certain degree of detachment and identification but the evidence for some of these so called 'far out conspiracy theories' are overwhelming, atleast thats what the algorithms has fed me.

It would really do you good if you sat down, watched your own videos and took some advice

DAY 7: 28 oz Orange 28 oz Kale Apple Celery 28 oz Pineapple Ginger Lime 28 oz Carrot 16 oz Honey Water Lime -July 12th, 2020-

a big bird sat on my head once when I was meditating by a stream of water & I turned my head to tell my friend its on my head -.- My hair was a suitable nest

DAY 6: 28 oz Orange 32 oz Kale Apple Celery Lime 28 oz Pineapple 12 oz Honey Water Lime -July 11th, 2020-

@DrewNows lolol yeah man, I gotta do more research on it.

@Paul5480 jeez. You have to virtually avoid all conventional foods because even of the seed itself is not genetically modified, farmers spray a weed killer called round up which comes from monsanto & the pretty much have a implicit monopoly on the produce industry. If you're serious about avoiding Glysophate then I suggest you research it a bit more. There are products like the 'BioMedic' from Purium which has shown to remove glyphosate from our bodies. Also cruciferous vegetables help with glyphosate removal.

DAY 5: 28 oz Orange Juice 28 oz Kale Apple Celery Lime 28 oz Carrot Apple 28 oz Pineapple Lime Ginger Black Salt -July 10th, 2020-

@Paul5480 Indeed. I don't usually worry much about organic produce because I just assume its better than conventional and way less harmful. What you really have to worry about is Glyphosate.

DAY 4: 28 oz Orange Juice 32 oz Kale Apple Celery Lime 28 oz Carrot Apple 28 oz Pineapple Lime Ginger Black Salt 16 oz Coconut Water -July 9th, 2020- I feel good I will make a video on Day 7

@DrewNows nope. Not yet. I am thinking of taking this Ayurvedic herb mixture called triphala but not sure as of now.

DAY 3: 32 oz Orange Juice 28 oz Kale, Celery, Apple 32 oz Carrot Juice 16 oz Beet -July 8th, 2020-

DAY 2: 28 oz Carrot Juice 32 oz Kale, Celery, Apple, Lime 28 oz Orange Juice 28 oz Pineapple Juice, Lime, Ginger, Black Salt -July 7th, 2020- Feeling Great, No hunger, adequate energy & moments of inspiration

@Applegarden My digestion became very efficient after the juice fast. I was consuming about a gallon of juice everyday and had solid bowel movements come out of me till the 26th day meaning there is a lot of undigested foods my intestines / colon which won't clear if I eat regularly. I wasn't taking any supplements other than some purium amino acids although Im thinking of taking neem, turmeric & triphala this time.

DAY 1: 28 oz Carrot Juice 16 oz Beet Juice 56 oz Celery, Kale, Apple Juice 28 oz Orange Juice -July 6th, 2020-