I've been in that loop for about a year now, im only 18 and haven't yet constructed a tangible purpose for myself. I am and have been half ass aware of this deception for about a month and now I finally took some action and bought the life purpose course. Now 3/4 through the course definitely have a lot insights on what I want to be doing on this planet but I act like a victim when it comes to family pressure. However I live in a city of infinite opportunities so going to get growth for a few more years using all the tool I can regardless of my ego being stroked. I meditate everyday but thats about it. All the times I watched leo over the last year I was so unconscious whilst the video was playing, I can now watch any video and gain shit ton of insights loool. But yeah the purpose of this comment was shit always changing dawg. Everything changes. Stay woke.