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Yes, the OP offered a contextualized experience. Notice how you also offer a contextualized experience. . . We can create an infinite number of contextualized experiences: The OP had psychedelic hallucinations and is delusional. . . . The OP had an awakening that only psychedelics can induce. . . The OP had some insights, yet now needs to integrate those insights and get grounded. . . . The OP had some insights, yet those insights don't have any practical value. . . The OP is misinterpreting the insights due to his inexperience with psychedelics. . . The OP has had a spiritual breakthrough that would have taken years of meditation. . . and on an on. We could spice up our contextualization by adding in "authorities" on the matter. "Martin Ball says the OP's experience is. . . Leo says the OPs experience is. . . Manny P says the OPs experience is. . . Ram Dass says the OPs experience is. . . ". A sprinkle of alchemy adds some lovely flavor. . . All experiences are contextualized. You can create all sorts of contextualized experiences. . . Yet an actual "experience" never happened. A creation of a thing called an "experience" is occurring Now. . .

@mandyjwInteresting. I wasn't aware of gender difference and color perception. Sometimes I wish I could experience someone else's perception for a day. I know you are involved in creating art. Have you ever noticed this difference as having an impact with artist? I would imagine artists are more sensitive to color perception than the general population. It's all stories. Including the story about Infinite Creativity. . . We humans love to create and tell stories. This can be wonderful. Yet humans also have a tendency to get attached to the stories we create. With the transcendence of material, it is tempting to grasp immaterial and reject material. Yet, this is another duality. Immaterial = Material. Cone cells/neurological structures have absolutely nothing to do with color and absolutely everything to do with color. I was telling a story about how cone cells and neurology relate to color. . . I could also tell a story about how cone cells and neurology don't relate to color. . . So many stories, so little time. . . Don't forget about the Causeless Cause vs. the Non-Causeless Cause duality. . . Nice story. I like all sorts of stories. Thanks for sharing this one. Terms like "is" and "there are" are great for constructing stories. Yet all constructs also deconstruct. Redness is Quintessential. . . . Redness IS Redness. . . . There are are-ness. . .

Ime, 70 hours per week is not sustainable. I worked 70 hours per week at times during Grad. School and during a new teaching job. Yet these were short periods (up to four months). It was a high price to pay, yet the reward was high as well. After a month, mental and physical health consequences appeared and after three months, I was so fried and counted the days until it would end. I suppose it also depends on the type of work and how much you love it. If part of the work involves easy-going, relaxing tasks that can help.

You are a handsome musician with girls approaching you!?. . . That is a huge asset. Just let go of the needy stuff. . . Imagine you are playing the role of a musician that attracts women. It shouldn't be that hard to do, because it's already happening. It's like someone who is 7 foot tall playing a game of pick-up basketball with high schoolers and saying "I'm know I'm 7 feet tall, yet I'm not very good at basketball because I'm worried about what people will think of me if I dunk the ball and block their shots".

My understanding is that the optimal vaporizing temperature of 5-meo is considerably higher than 428F, yet my dry herb vape only goes up to 428F. At 428F the vaping efficiency is inefficient and there are losses. Yet I only use a few mgs per session so it it is only 50% efficient, I don't mind losing a mg here and there. I would need about 3-4 inhales for a significant effect. I have not tried 390F, yet the vaping efficiency would be even lower. If you have freebase and just want to check to see if it's legit - you could try dry herb vaping a few mgs at 390F and take 7-8 inhales. You may get a moderate effect and know it's good. Yet I doubt 390F would be good for exploring all the potential of 5-meo. Yet it could let you know its legit and then you could plug. . . Or who knows, maybe 390F would work for you. Try it out. At worst, you lose a few mgs. You got 500 mgs. I've only tried vaping freebase. My understanding is that salt forms don't vape very well,.

Colors don't exist. You have cone cells in your eye that convert wavelengths of light into projections of color. There is no color. It is a hallucination that your mind is creating. Humans have three different type of cone cells - each produces a different subjective experience of "color". These three types of cone cells can interact with each other producing a perception of various colors. In theory, there is an extremely large number of mixtures possible. There are subjective colors that cannot be imagined due to neurological limitations. For example, dogs only have two types of cone cells and cannot create a subjective perception of red. They cannot create this hallucination due to having only two cone cells. In contrast, the mantis shrimp has 16 types of cone cells. This expansive set of cone cells allows the mantis shrimp to create hundreds of color perceptions that humans cannot - humans can't even imagine these colors because we only have three types of cone cells. I think the subjective, relative nature of color is one of the best ways to break through attachment to an external, objective, universal reality. . . Most people see a tree and say "that tree is green". There appears to be an objective, external reality of a green tree. . . "Duh!! That tree is obviously green, just look at it!!". Yet that tree isn't green. There are no objective, external colors. The mind creates color internally. It just makes it up. Color is a relative hallucination. Different beings perceive different colors and we have no idea if we perceive the colors the same. What you hallucinate as "green", I may haullicante as "blue". Humans just agree to call a certain colorless wavelength as "green" and another colorless wavelength as "blue". . . Imagine in the future, we can temporarily trade visual systems. . . If you got to experience my visual system you may be surprised. You may realize "Whaaat??!! You've been calling Yellow, Green!!".

When you say "my place", will you be living in Latin America? If you are tripping solo at your place in Latin America - it essentially boils down to aquiring 5-meo and traveling with it. Once you have 5-meo, it is easy to travel with and trip. I've traveled and tripped with various psychedelics solo throughout Latin America without problem. A half gram of 5-meo is tiny and essentially odorless. It's not like you are traveling with a kilo of weed or cocaine. . . You just need to be mindful about where you trip. I would be very careful about tripping in public. Traveling with a psychedelic is a piece of cake, maintaining your composure while tripping is more challenging. Imo, that is the greater risk of getting caught. For example, tripping at a cultural event, getting overwhelmed, freaking out and creating a scene. In terms of "reality enhancement" in foreign lands, I wold choose other psychedelics over 5-meo. For example, I took a low dose of 4-Aco-Dmt and hung out in the town square of Antigua, Guatemala. It was indescribably beautiful. The colorful clothing, the music, trees and water fountain. And I chatted with so many beautiful people - both locals and travelers. . . LSD is super easy to travel with. It's just a tiny piece of paper. I'm totally comfortable traveling with LSD anywhere. Including airlines. I just put a couple tabs in a book or my wallet and don't even think about it. . . It's actually hard to get caught. Someone would have to put in effort and try to get caught traveling with LSD.

@wk197 It’s context dependent. A 22 y.o, dating a 19 y.o. generally isn’t much of a mismatch. Yet that is very different than a 42 y.o. university professor sleeping with one of his 19 y.o. students.

@beatlemantis I’ve been in a similar situation. Things that helped me. . . .First, get space and distance from the toxic ex. No contact period. Time itself creates space and distance. Any contact resets the clock. Also, don’t revisit her photos or her social media. Those images stir up memories, emotions, attachments etc. Cut all that shit off. If memories of those “good times” arise, get clear on the toxicity and turn away. There will be plenty of opportunity in the future to reminisce about the 10% of your time together that was healthy and magical, yet not now, The ex is like gravity and we are trying to break free of that gravitational force. When her force was overwhelming, I would write about it in a journal to get it out. I talked with a friend occasionally, yet I didn’t want to burden her, so I mostly wrote about it. Over time, I needed to write less and less. My writings started off in despair, then regrets, then resentments. Then as I started to become free, I started to learn a lot about myself and dynamics in relationships. The flip side is to start taking care of yourself, loving yourself and becoming friends with yourself. I know it’s not easy, yet start moving in that direction. One thing that helped me was an at home solo retreat. I started doing yoga everyday. I did some fun reading each day. I got some plants. I made myself healthy dinners. Some nights I lit candles and put on soft music while I ate. I made fires in my fireplace and would stare at the beauty of fires. I learned how to do self message. I took bubble baths. In the depths of the darkness, I didn’t think it was was impossible - until it happened: I fell in love with myself. And you can too. Start asking how you can be kind to yourself and become friends with yourself ♥️

It’s a pretty good sign it’s getting close when one asks “when do you know it’s time?” ? For me mind, body and spirit seem to be aligned. It’s often a spontaneous thing. I haven’t tripped in five months and have been wondering “I wonder when it will be time”. I can feel it’s getting close, yet each weekend it doesn’t quite feel time. Maybe this weekend.

It’s context dependent. Tell us what you are looking for. Are you looking for a 5-meo retreat in Latin America? Are you looking to live in community in which 5-meo use is relaxed? Do you want to buy synthetic 5-meo and travel through Latin America solo? . . . You just started a thread about the safety of tripping solo the first time and now a thread about the legality of psychedelics in Latin America. Give us some context of what’s going on. It’s not so much wether it is 100% legal in every context. It’s which areas are best for what you want to do with the least amount of risk. If you are in the wrong place at the wrong time with a gram of of 5-meo you are going to have a problem. Similarly, if you play it smart you won’t have a problem, even if it’s not fully legal in the country. I traveled throughout Latin America with various psychedelics without concern or issue. Yet I would never travel through Japan or parts of the Middle East with psychedelics.

1. Is a particular dream board optimal? For example a dry erase board or cork/pin board. Can a designated wall area to tape things up work? Or is the dream board figurative, not literal? 2. Can any expression / symbols be placed on the dream board? A picture of a healthy body or a travel destination? A poem? A drawing? A guitar pic? The symbol of Mu? . . .

@Eezorp If it’s freebase and you have a dry herb vape, you can give it a test by vaping a couple mgs at 428F or higher. . . . I suck at trying to vape with a glass pipe. . . Or you can dive in and plug 10-15mg.

Descriptions and things are constructs. There is no “thing”. There is Nothing. Any thing is a construct. Any “it” is a creation. Any description is a creation.. Of course an it that is described is within creation. That is Ike saying a somewhere is within everywhere. This is evident. One cannot hear spokenless speech if they hear what is spoken. If a mind holds ideas of God and Not God, they hold a construct. This is infinitesimal. This story can be transcended. That’s not what is being pointed to. There is more to be revealed. This is precisely why 5-meo is so powerful. This is the type of stuff that takes years or decades of dedicated practice to transcend, yet 5-meo can blast through it in minutes.

Of course. Time is a construct and any construct can be deconstructed and recontructed an infinite number of ways.

These are great questions regarding relativity, contextualization and knowing. I think you are pushing an edge of conceptualization and knowing. For me, breakthroughs occurred with psychedelics - in particular 5-meo. Tbh, 5-meo is a much much better teacher than I am. 5-meo can teach someone more in 30min. than I could in 30 years. . . Any description I give is within a human realm of contextualization - I cannot transmit more than that. Sometimes when two people are together non-conceptual realms can be transmitted and shared. Any thing I write is a contracted contextualization at the person/human level. Perhaps some may resonate with that, perhaps not. The reason I put so much effort to transmit is due to the sheer magnitude of it's magnificence. I know as a limited human I will fail, yet I will keep trying. There is nothing that has higher meaning to me than communicating facets of awakening. Regarding your observations: There is no definitions. . . Definitions are human constructs. There is something more "expansive" than all definitions. . . At the human level, the desire is not to define. . . As well, "lower" and "higher" are also human constructs. There is an awakening of singularity in which this construct dissolves. Imagine being blind in a blind world and then one day sight is revealed. It's not really about being "higher" or "lower". It's not about trying to define what sight is. It's not about "I can see and he can't". It's more about awakening to sight. There is sight. It's not mine or yours or anybody's. Nobody owns sight. Rather than saying "my definition is higher than his definition" it would simply be better to say "there is sight". Similarly, it's not my definition of "god consciousness" - it's more about the ISness of "god consciousness". There is no one to take ownership of it. Any construct of "god consciousness" is a limitation. In a human form, the mind and body has limits within infinity. As a human, the "me" is a speck of infinity. Absolute infinity can reveal itself and as a human I embody an infinitesimal amount of that infinity. Human growth is unlimited. In this context, my contextualized experience and contextualized knowing is 0.00000000000000 (add one trillion zeros) 00000000000 (add another trillion zeros) 0000001%. This rounds off to zero. This is the personal/human level. At a transcendent level, the mind and body IS infinity. Yet this cannot be captured at the personal/human level. This is a hard question to answer because of the terms "knowing" and "same". Again, these are contextualizations at the human level. There is knowing that can reveal itself. Yet it's not *me* knowing and it's not a *thing* that is known that can be compared to other things. It's more like knowing knows itself without a knower. In terms of inter-personal communication and connecting, there can be an intuitive nature of knowing. When two humans hold similar contextualized experiences that are ineffable, there can be a shared knowing. Both people may say "I can't explain it in words". They each may stumble around searching for words and say "it's sorta like this, but not really". The other person may pick up on it and say "yea, and kinda like this, but not really". The other may laugh or do something silly and the other laughs and also does something silly. There is a connected sense. It can be super rare and beautiful. . . At a transcendent level, the two people are actually the same person communicating with itself - yet the "two people" may not be aware of this. At a transcendent level, two people are actually the same transcendent entity. The two people are One YOU. So the question becomes "How do YOU know you are speaking of YOUR experience?". The transcendence knows itself. There is no person contextualizing it. . . . At the personal/human level it is a very different dynamic and a different essence of "knowing", because there is contracted contextualization. In this form, I wouldn't know. From a contextualized "me". . . of course. From a contextualized description of "God consciousness" of course. Once the "from your pov" is added in - of course it is a pov. A pov is a "somewhere". You are essentially asking "If you are somewhere, how can you be nowhere?". If you are somewhere, then you are somewhere. Every word, statement, image, concept uttered is a "somewhere". Yet all somewheres are nowhere/everywhere. There is absolute infinity. It is not mine, yours or anybody's to own. Once we add in the *your* part, of course it's your. Imagine you create a story with two different characters that get stranded on a desert island. One of the characters has a high potential and the other person has a low potential. Within this story, you just created two characters and a concept called "potential. Then I ask you "how do you know that there are two characters with different potentials?". You would respond "Because I just created it!!!!" . . . The key to transcendence is that you are not either character, YOU are both characters. YOU created both characters. . . If I asked you "How do YOU know that both characters are talking about the same experience?". . YOU would reply, "Because *I* created both characters and both experiences!!!". . . . However, at the character level - neither character would know for sure. They might stumble around trying to explain the experience. . . This is a comical feature of transcendence. The answer is in the transcendence of "you", "know", "same" and "thing". . . In the normal colloquial sense of the terms, there is no knowing. This is a very important issue at the personal level. Here, there are underlying assumptions, ownership, contextualizations, relativity that the person is unaware of. This is a very big issue indeed. A question of contemplation that may open a crack. . . "How do you know now is now?". The direct experience is more important than an intellectual answer. Is there awareness that "knowing now is now" has a different flavor than regular kind of knowing? . . Is there a knowing of now without a knower to take ownership of that knowing? Does this knowing know itself without a knower?

Regarding the things you don't like. . . people's conditioned traits tend to re-appear in patterns. It just takes a lot for people to change. For example, if someone has had a drinking problem it's more likely or not to continue to be a problem - even if they try to hide it in the beginning. Or if a person has a history of high conflict in relationships, that is more likely than not to continue. People can change, yet it takes a lot and someone needs to want to change. I've been in many relationships in which I hoped and encouraged the person to get into personal development and spirituality and they never did - their heart just wasn't into it and I couldn't make them do it. . . Yet that might not be a big deal if the negatives aren't that big, the person supports your PD/spirituality and you have common interests. I've dated gals not into PD, yet they were totally cool with me doing it and we had so much in common - watching movies, traveling, cooking dinner together, going to concerts etc. . . Yet eventually we would hit a road block. After 6 months or so, that stuff would fizzle out and we weren't growing together as a couple since she had no interest in personal growth. His statement "" you seem like a person whom I will be going forward together" can be grounded and mature. I think it's a good thing when the other person is honest and indicates that they value relationship progress. . . Buuut. . . saying "I love you" and talking about a life together and having kids together this early in a relationship sounds very immature to me. It sounds like he may be able to express his emotions, which can be a positive - yet he also sounds ungrounded and immature. Not speaking the same language well would be a concern for me because it creates so many complications. If I really liked someone, I would be willing to put in the extra patience and effort tho. Or if we were into learning languages, it would be a cool thing. For example, I am at an intermediate level of Spanish and I would love to date a native latina that doesn't speak much English. I would learn Spanish so much faster and be part of that culture. The talking loudly wouldn't be my biggest concern. If we got along well, it something we could work to improve. For example, I had a bad habit of interrupting an ex-gf while she was talking. I wasn't doing it to be rude or disrespectful. I would get excited in the conversation and just blurt out ideas. She told me how bothersome this was to her and I made an effort to improve. Over time I improved, yet she would bring it up once or twice a week for a while. If it were me, I may go into "dating mode" and explore. Yet I would establish strong personal boundaries to take care of myself.

I'm not clear on how you are using the term "limit" - could you elaborate?

Yes. "God consciousness" is a contextualization. An "experience" is a contextualization. "My" is a contextualization. All these conceptualizations come "after" ISness (this is also a contextualization). On a forum, we humans communicate through contextualizations and language. It wo't be expressed through dog barks. . . . As a bird, it would be communicated differently. . . If I was sitting with a tree it would be communicated differently. . . Yet all those differences are also the same. . . Relativity. . . The "knowing" is like prior to traditional knowing. Rather than a me/human knowing, it's more like omniscience knows itself.

@SoonHei It depends, yet it's not like a regular sleeping dream. Ime, the psychedelic state has a different type of awareness than a sleeping dream. Regarding body, I've layed down during trips, closed my eyes and entered different realities - yet it's not like a sleeping dream or astral projection. I've also had trips in which their is a sense of self that is participating in an "altered" reality. For example, during one trip I was in a computer simulated reality - that was very real. Yet there was still localized awareness that I was some type of character in this simulated reality. . . I've also had trips in which the entire story of "me" dissolves. I've had a trip in which "me" completely dissolved and the mind of a schizophrenic appeared. I was now a person with that was insane. . . As well, identification to a mind and body may dissolve. "I" might not be able to tell the difference between "me" and a vulture being observed. . . . Or all types of sensory constructs dissolve. For example, there is no space or time. . . It can get really hard to contextualize. There are so many different flavors of psychedelic trips. Just like there are many different flavors of traveling trips. There are thousands of places in the world we can visit. Each place has it's own culture, people, food, music, nature, plants, animals etc.

The words are "pointers". Similar to how a map is a pointer of the territory. It's really easy to conflate map and territory. For example, we could conceptualize things like "Everything", "Now", "God" etc. all day. We can create all sorts of constructs. Yet that aint it. When a being has direct experience with Everything/Now/God it is an experience beyond anything you can imagine. Ime, when actual God-consciousness was revealed, followed by contraction back to human consciousness - it was beyond explanation. In human form it was absolutely terrifying and overwhelming. My mind and body was terrified by the omniscience/potential/power that was revealed. Tears, shaking, insanity. I couldn't perceive reality as a human. I couldn't function for about a week and confined myself solitary. That was five months ago and I am still integrating that experience. Other mind-bodies may have a different response - yet it will be life shattering. The words and concepts are kids play. The actual direct experience is on another level. More like another million levels. Imagine going from the consciousness of an ant to a human - then going back to an ant. An ant mind trying to conceptualize human consciousness will be extremely limited. It wouldn't even capture 1 trillionth of human consciousness. Similarly, a human mind trying to conceptualize God-consciousness will not be able to capture even 1 trillionth of God-consciousness.

As long as you don't have a serious anxiety/panic condition, it's safe to trip alone the first time (with precautions). When I say serious anxiety condition, I don't mean regular nervousness/anxiety that everyone experiences during a first date, a job interview, public speaking etc. I mean a serious condition in which the person is very sensitive to anxiety and may be on medication. As well, there are medications (like SSRIs) that shouldn't be mixed with psychedelics. Otherwise, it's safe to trip solo with precautions. . . I would get enough of the psychedelic for three trips. That way, the first trip is not "all or nothing" - you can dip your toes in the water. As well, different insights might be revealed during each trip. For the first trip, I would take a light-moderate dose. Perhaps 50-75ug LSD - enough that you will feel something, yet not overpowering. For a first trip, I would much rather be underwhelmed than overwhelmed. Also, insights revealed during light-moderate trips are much easier to integrate than heavy trips. . . I would create a familiar and safe setting where you don't have to interact with people. Your apartment/house is fine. I would create a calm environment with various activity options. For example, a meditative environment with meditative music. Yet sometimes during trips, the setting we choose doesn't quite seem right, so I would have other options. For example, have a notebook ready to journal. Have a music playlist ready. For all you know, the trip may be about becoming one with music and dancing like you've never danced before. Or options for creating art. Or a yoga option. Or a video. . . I'd give myself various options and go with the flow - go with the intuition. If you start with a low/moderate dose, after an hour you may be thinking "Is this it? I sorta feel different, yet shouldn't there be more?". I wouldn't redose. It could be that the dose is subtle. In this case, there might be slight enhancement and roll with it. Use your imagination and try to enter into a new realm. For example, I had a light trip in nature one time and thought "The effects are kinda weak, I should have taken more". Yet my creativity and imagination was enhanced and I rolled with it. I started imagining myself in a jungle in a different world. I started imagining extrasensory abilities and I was able to enter a lucid-like dream. . . If you are underwhelmed, it can up the dose for the second trip. If you start with a low/moderate dose you may feel something stronger than you expected. Some people are more sensitive. In this case, I wold just relax, let go and get curious. The trip won't last forever and on a low/moderate dose, you will still have some ability to distinguish real or unreal. For example, during one trip it felt like I was in a reality within a reality within a reality. I started feeling anxious because I didn't know which was the real reality or how to return to the real reality. But there was still a faint rational voice in my head that knew this was just a temporary trip and it wasn't dangerous. Then I thought of my favorite movie: Inception. In this movie, there were different levels of dream realities the characters voyaged into. I had always thought that was so cool and wondered what it would be like to do that. Then I realized "This experience is just like Inception!!! Omg, this is so cool!!!". Then the anxiety dissolved and I become curious - like an a voyager exploring new fascinating realms.

Logic is not transcended through logic. Sense is not transcended by making sense. This is the challenge for a logical, sensible mind. I'm trying to think logically here. . . Rather than imagining Everything as a collection of all individual things, imagine One Everything. There is no thing separate from One Everything. We cannot say "All those things over there is Everything, yet this thing is separate from Everything". . . . The is no thing that is not Everything. No thing = One Everything. There is truth and knowing prior to proof. For example, imagine there was a murder. Is there truth to that murder prior to proof? What if there was no evidence/proof of the murder. Which comes first, the truth of the murder or evidence/proof of the murder? Truth is first order and evidence/proof is second order. Similarly with knowing. There is knowing that comes prior to evidence/proof. . . Imagine you have a headache. How do you know you are experiencing pain in your head? Do you need to undergo brain scans to show neural activity as evidence of your pain? Do you need a neurologist to prove to you that you are experiencing pain in your head? What if the neurologist couldn't find evidence/proof of that you have head pain? . . . The knowing of that head pain is prior to evidence/proof of that head pain. That's hard to answer because nonduality isn't really a thing. If I were to try and answer those questions, I would keep saying that the opposite is also true and that there is an infinite number of partial truths. It would be like asking "Is what is, is?" , "Is ISness theism or atheism?", "Is the term 'God' the term 'God''?". It doesn't make sense, yet that is part of the beauty and magic of it. . . For nondual understanding, direct experience and awakening is much much more profound than analysis and conceptualization. If you want nondual exposure, there are many great speakers, youtube videos and practices. Yet ime, the fastest most certain way for direct nondual experience would be to take a psychedelic.

Reading fiction, writing, something creative, art, learning to play a musical instrument. . .

I would say it's a complex network of how I was conditioned and life experience. As well, there may be some genetic programming and inputs before I was born. For my own decisions, I try to trust my intuition rather than mental thinking. The body has a lot of wisdom. Sometimes something will arise and it just doesn't feel right. My mind may try to come up with a story, yet there is also body wisdom I try to get in touch with.