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about pagan https://omegavirginrevolt.wordpress.com/the-syndicate-the-internet-marketing-scam-organization-behind-game/ why promote a scam leo ?

why quote me 3 times ?

yep I like it, because everyone think they will be enlightnened. that's damn funny, maybe I m wrong, and I hope, but to me enlightening is like creating the good delusion mindset ( but it work, this mindset isn't bad, but still utterly as stupid as the "materialist one" if there is such a difference to draw ) leo is top notch, he sell a virtual carot who never existed at the first place. People start to take all they like in his words and forget all the repeating bullshit non sense he put away aswell. ( I m no denying that talking is limited and biased at the root ) but still, it's a lot tainted of arrogance. YES yoga trigger something who always existed in the human mind. ( I don't deny the increase sense, on the contrary, yoga and meditation are really physical powerful practice ) But like placebo it's maybe not god. ( or yes it is in the metaphysical term, we are all born from the energy of a "god world" ) Of course there is tons of good in the mindset of leo, but this doesn't prove god / right / truth. it proves nothing at all. people here are all old nihilist/arrogant/sellfish at the core ( but they deny it ). How can you have the envy to grow up, if you wasn't having an "ego", it's the fucking paradox, everyone who want to be enlighten can only be through the idea of ego, it's just a big mind fuckery. if enlightening was a thing, it would mean just being fucked up to the point of forgeting being a human. but If god created a "dream" it's not for escape it... why would create a dream for escaping it, what is it to escape, nothing, so you can dig long the earth to find "nothing". I m watching leo because he is part of my fun routines and I love ideas. but he is not "my dedicated teacher", I still believe the stage turquoise is complete hippy budhist delusion, but maybe I m wrong, who knows. Maybe stupid explication like understage can't undertand it, is enough to be convinced. the exact people who blame people to be "paradigmed" are now fucking paradigmed in another kind of reality. This is fucking epic, I love it, this is probably the same kind of technique in less sophisticated brainwashing lord use. ( the one who create stupid terrorist who die for stupid conviction, how can those people do, I have kind of the answer now ! leo is just next stage trap, but he never told the contrary, he call himself an island of solid shit. ) ( but how solid is solid ? ) he never "lie" I think he is mostly since, but really lonely. ( I wish to watch a full turquoise video ) I like leo he is a good guy, deluded or not, who knows, who told I wasn't myself. We all are.. it's our nature it wouldn't even surprise me if leo was pay by some illuminatis organism to propagate the agenda of a new global elit. ( maybe my own little delusion story, or worst ! leo isn't even pay for the work lelz ) I read an old book who was talking futur spirituality and why people use so much "drug" ( before I even know about leo ) the book was telling that in the futur to convert humanity to a new religion ( because human NEED belief /faith to work ) So to make the whole world accept complete slavery the would change the belief for a new one that is more improved and more easy to believe, a 3.0 faith who allow capitalism to grow, and they was sayin that everyone will pray for nature because it's more easy than believing in a non sense guy in paradise. ( so where are we handed right now ? ) indeed, if everyone accept physical reality as a non sense or you shouldn't act and accept every bullshit, it would makes you the perfect happy slave who shut his mouth. it's really genius as an artist everything can inspire me to me that's just very smart to know the mindset of the futur new deluded mass. ( or be a part of the new "ruling" delusion ) buying things and be "green" what a bullshit, if you was really turquoise you would want the destruction of the whole society, because balance in nature is wanting the whole destruction of the disease that his the mass society. maybe I m wrong, and I wish I m, it's still a supposition, but in my reality right now, all his chakra and things are wishful thinking biased by new hardware implemented belief ( through the use of powerful drug that confirm all your "bias" ) many people did 5 MeO DMT and still don't believe in anything India religious related thing ( I did my researsh ) only if you take it with the hope to see what people talk to you about, the drug will increase your own biased belief and makes them feel true for the time of the drug. everyone here have a common thing : do not find is place in society, outcast, weirdo, want to avoid suffering. I don't know human mind is now becoming fascinating to me.

I never buyed any books, nor any course. ( and I get a good ammount of valued things ) I always find things for free ( there is a tons of book in pdf free ), almost everything if you look really well and efficiently. I never respect rules though. I like to get it my way, it's like playing/chess-ing before the reward. buying things doesn't excite me Seller gonna hate me. But game of thrones succeed because of hacking, the creator told if people doesn't crack and had mouth and ear for it, the whole serie would have never be season 2 and 3 4 5 6 7. The article has been removed from internet, for commercial reason, you cannot thanks people to crack your shit. something that a real value will always be pay by people in a way or another. I don't believe in price. I believe in energy re-send. Some people get a paycheck only by asking people to give them monney ( on twitch ) if you have to pay, fuck you, as a musician all my music will always be free, even if I work 10000 hours on it. Why ? because fuck the disease of buying/selling. The price is the one I give, seller doesn't have the right to choose for me. it's me who value how many they give to me. I always give monney to company and things who diserve it, ( or cheer up others people to buy it haha ) for me business is about sharing value, and hoping people to give you back. For this instance I hate the whole system of paying, it's against my religion.

just eating a bunch of Chomsky talk yesterday

I did LSD and inquiry, I cured a part, not everything, I didn't read any books about it though, just took it at my home with music and a paper to draw. is doing it once and being aware of this " meta perspective reality / zoom IN on software in the mind / Zoom out " is enough ? It's like a computer, I know that my mouth put this word, for instance, then I can know from what kind of "emotion:energy" in me, it was going from. ( this kind of "awareness" ) is that enough ? or there is really more ? if you told me Aleister crowley was rapping bats in caves for having eternal life for instance ( I wouldn't not deny and just "verify" if this is true, and why I need it to be true/wrong ), so is it enough for real change to occur ? ( is there some information about it in this book ? ) it's a bit more complex than this, but you "get me" I hope. I m very open minded that's it, but bs to my reality still are "bullshit". I was already crazy and out of mind, some people would have believe I did acid since I m 5. ( I noticed LSD just makes me even more intuitive to the point of loosing mind with reality completely, like a kind of complete skyzophrenia, but I liked it ( what I read on it ) I was seeing pattern in my mind with everything, I had my eyes closed for hours and could inquiry and wash my thought like : ordering my computer. ok so I think this of me, ok that's so BS !! ( and played in my home with my hand, laughing alone in the kitchen at 3 A.M haha ) LSD put me in a pls ( not the trip, the after realisation and weeks who followed ), It's like a realize even more how boxed my mind was ( especially in my art ) ( ADHD, high iq all this bullshit, but if the model account for something that gives a bit of info about "me"/identity of this body : medical want me to be put on a huge amount of medical coke ( 70 mg of ritalin) I don't, and it's very fine, drug killed me on all aspect ( physics and mind ) ) be aware that I always watched reality as a schizophrénic thinker ( I don't see pattern in imagery, but in word and "model" ) I always had multiple understanding of perspective, some would say that I m a bit psychopathic, but I just try to not be biased when I judge things and be clear for everyone and be "fair" like while writting this phrase, I think of the movie "A Clockwork Orange." ( even if I only watched it once, 10 years ago ) What does it mean ?

You can't define enlightment, it's like sayin I get courage, I get confidence. I think they mean ( stop having "human rationality" be as close as the mind of a "pure animal" that stop judging and process reality ) but in the same time, not only this, cause we are human, so it's a bit different. They exist neurotic animal. What if a duck don't see his mother when he is born ? what if he believe you are his mother ? fighting against human value or anything else, it's ultimately biologic, being liberal/conservatism, it's completely biologic and imprinted in the first week of a baby born. everything else is a butterfly extended effect, you never had a choice, everything was subconsciouly creating your "self". I read an occult book where it's really well explained and I can observe it for myself as being true, cause it hurt myself in my identity very hard. ( but was fucking real for my "imprint" ) to my sense, awakening, mean that you are aware of being a software, it's like being a I.A who start getting aware of being an IA, cause this is what you are. It's a bit aswell when you start to stop believing that you are a pure independant hardware. I believe in "karma" type of laws, the energy you push find his own closer similar response. But "good/evil" it's BS it's only a perspective on your emotion against a fractal of reality that you perceive in your mind.

in fact, everyone on this forum still thinks in term of good/evil. nothing is, there no no low consciousness. all this game of awareness, is still a game, an illusion, you don't matter more than someone else. when you start to believe so, you stop growing. there is no "stupid" no "intelligent", there is good/bad in every situation, so with every girl, some are intelligent in this, some stupid in that, it's like you're perfect for instance, step back a bit. nietzshe call rationalization to creating pattern that justify "feeling good about yourself" as slave morality, and I agree with him, it's not because you bow your head that you're balancing nature, there is a time to kill a time for peace, everything is balance, so you're, you're the hand of god and evil. there is no being good or evil, every action that you do is evil and godly at the same ( you can't move a piece of a puzzle and hope everything fit properly ) every choice create evil and good. EVERY ONE of them. Even yoga, you could have work to save child in the real world. why not save children ? how to grow and then save more of them ? are you sure ? ( just an exemple ) believe that you're good or evil, what a fucking blindness, we are all full of shit and full of good at each step, just follow the fundamental where you fit in. when you do an action you feel suffering or pleasure, you can't do an action without all this packaging of consequence it's always a whole. there is neither a good or a bad choice, everything has good/bad, it depend mostly of your mind and what you want to see in people. maybe leo push you on green side and yoga, but leo never go far into biology, like if those concept are all meaningless, but they are not. I see human most like programmed robot, so to me, a software or a hardware do the job he has been programmed for, I can't judge a software on doing his thing, sound meaningless to me. When my friend tell me this girl is like this, or probably like that, it's all product of the mind, there is nothing of this, even if they was, it's only because you put your eyes on this, did you ask why your eyes start watching for the "shit" in things ? you prefer "accuse" ? I m not sayin you should close your eyes on "evil". Just doesn't create it. if evil is there and is not made from you, act consequently everyone using the term "low consciousness" and believing it for real ( without wanting to explain a model or concept ) is. someone who see arrogance in everything, watch out, maybe you're the one full of shit, maybe people are just not the little tiny bubble you see, the bigger picture of someone life isn't as clear as your narrow mind would think. it's my view, not perfect, everything is constantly being build, when you start to point with your finger, you start to point yourself

he could be stage rainbow that he could still get this type of girl by doing "nothing". She is ok, but there is more beautiful girl and so more hard to get. this video sadly prove not something besides that his mindset and confidence is strong ( turquoise or not ) the video is cool to watch, but if you want to see really really crazy thing and believe that "everything is possible", just go to a music festival, you'll be like crazy from all the event everywhere. ( for me it was more than open minding ) People are all insane in music festival ( in EU ) and this guy is pretty good looking, without being a girl I m sure he is attractive and in the physic male higher tier aswell, he could have get her, even being stage blue lel. When you are far from the idea already existing in the mind of girl ( like being short, not being in the "standard" ) being short, it's already loose it, I could pick up girl like this, but not "all" of them, even if I became coral like if the budha could pick up hot girl just by touching her, hahahaha I m not sayin you can't do it being even fucking ugly, but you can't do that with "all girl" , even stage turquoise. He choose carefully who "seduce" the problem is this video doesn't really prove anything, it's just fun to watch. He could aswell have been rejected sometimes and not show you the video. I can know in evaluating my physic and the type of girl and her way of moving, what are my rate of success. ( confidence in the girl = low rate = higher chance ) in fact I can't "guess", but just believe in myself, and if it doesn't work, it's just that something you couldn't control wasn't here. the girl was a bit ok for respond to his advance, but some would maybe not like what he did. I'll pick up the best girl tomorow with the same kind of techniques ( being in the full feeling ) Yes girl are not "minded", you have to be "feeling" I just get that like recently ( I m too nerdy in my thinking ). for the author : Sometimes medication ( any pills ) and food can kill the sexual drive of people, and so play on their mind.

"Science achieves, or approximates, objectivity not because the individual scientist is immune from the psychological laws that govern the rest of us, but because scientific method—a group creation—eventually overrides individual prejudices, in the long run. To take a notorious example from the 1960s, there was a point when three research groups had "proven" that LSD causes chromosome damage, while three other groups had "proven" that LSD has no effect on the chromosomes. In each case, the Prover had proved what the Thinker thought. Right now, there are, in physics, 7 experiments that confirm a very controversial concept known as Bell's Theorem, and two experiments that refute Bell's Theorem. In the area of extra-sensory perception, the results are uniform after more than a century: everybody who sets out to prove that ESP exists succeeds, and everybody who sets out to prove that ESP does not exist also succeeds. "Truth" or relative truth emerges only after decades of experiments by thousands of groups all over the world." I m still not sure that pasta kill our gut. I should try on a raw stomach and a healthy day to eat pure pasta... Just eat, you'll be in worst shape by eating nothing. It's not sure that all sayin of leo are "true". Could be a bit ideologic/idealized, maybe partly true. But if you're hungry, believe me, eat your pasta. https://www.thehealthyhomeeconomist.com/real-reason-for-toxic-wheat-its-not-gluten/ I m sure it's placebo effect, or your wheat is just "low quality" It's good to live in France sometimes, here it's almost like if eating too much sugar or salt was a crime. In all our food commercial, they told us to eat fruit and vegetables each day ( it's the law since 3 years ) Commercial about drug besides doliprane isn't allowed ( street+tv ) ( like mind disorder are not a thing here, it's still pseudo science ) ( as I see it's a real problem for american ) Here we don't have many secret story show ( we have a lot ofc ), But food competition to eat properly is everywhere ( they encourage cooking over junk food ) but almost all our tv is turned upon guys who cook. ( we have aswell american emission about food, like chief Gordon Ramsay ) Eating well is really respected here. Even our junk food have better "norms" ( burger king was forbidden until 2 year ago for being too "dirty" with our norm ( you should cringe ) Redbull was forbidden until they win by monney on the country ( it has been 5 years ~that redbull is allowed to be ) Ritalin is the only drug allowed ( american hand meth in pills to all their kids ) ( insaneeeeeeee ) our meat isn't in block farm where the animals are watered to survive, they here better quality in our whole food ( insaneeeeeeeeeeeee ) I m not sayin it's perfect, but we are probably the best industrial country with food, what is nice, is our country is poisoned, but more slowly, we have a step away with integrating poison, As american allow every poison to be, France makes you think twice, why do they don't want this ? so .. you should eat, even poison, just avoid it, if you can, you should be fine, I eated a lot of poison and some people can eat it for 50 years, your body will recover almost everything. And not eating at your age could be more toxic than eating shit. Just avoid junk food when you have the choice to do it. ( it will be enough for now ) don't start a war on your family, try to makes them aware of all the good food you can eat, and be healthy. give them the reason, don't push the idea on them, just try to make them aware of what makes you believe it would be better to eat well ( and not only the video of leo ) convince them piece per piece to eat healthy, talk to them about improving their life, their health, their problem and how it relate to food. ( scary them a bit if needed, but not too much ) there is no hard science that prove it is wheat that kill your gut ? it's probably more how we create the wheat for instance, don't demonize every food neither.

this is toxic - wanting to be perfect, and I m talking from pure experience. I m still in the process of letting go this mindset ( wanting everything to be perfect ) Because in reality that's an idea that you project on your work ( "I m not enough" ) it was a real disease in my mind the want for "perfection" , sometimes you need to want perfection, sometimes let it go. It's all about "balance". Don't neglict your work aswell, but don't try to be at the top of your work, you'll never be. Even 30 years expert, still thrive to "perfection" and find their work "shitty" because it's a matter of perspective. When you can shape all the sound, that's so much infinity that aiming perfection become a disease in the effort It can't be attain in reality, this is only a perspective, Sometimes I feel perfection, but some people will not see it. You're the one who see perfection/or not. It took me months to "get it" and integrate the idea, I m still not where I want to be with it. I can still have some problem with it now this mindset become more and more unsustainable as I learn more and more through my practice and "self reflection"/my own "objectivity".

the shift is only in the mind, I worked like "hell" 14 hours a day on multiple stimulant/ ( weed, ritalin, thea ) after taking 4 step back with some psyche, I understand now why I couldn't start my business, even if my skill is "high" now. this makes me realise that I dig so much that I wasn't seeing the light anymore ( kind of the idea ) ( too much work ) ( I m on computer ) ) I wasn't focus that much on monney, but in my case, this is a bit of a problem aswell. There is tons of "work" to do, on many aspect, not only the thing you want to buss Some musician around me, are so much into monney, that their music has no soul, they just push and push on people or create value in their social relationship to them, they are little guru. reality is : there is almost no shortcut in "making it" in fact the road is all there is ( you'll see.. ) it's knowledge, self reflection, and work on taking the good road for yourself. But dreaming is one thing, you should act the music inside you. that's exactly like leo told, there is no "recipe" to success ( what is success anyway ) do you reflect that you really want to be rich ? what's for ? fuck hookers and then end your life because you never had this fulfilling meaning inside you, you should create a powerful meaning for your entire life, it's better than monney ( I m not sayin monney is bad or good, it depend a lot, like many things ) Monney can bliss you, or she can makes you miserable. Do not start like me to feel ( like I was 2 years ago ) that you're in a bad position because you're not where you want to be. ( this is a mindtrap to "anxiety" ) the mind take action, so take care of it. Why do you think "rich people" can still commit the worst for their life even if from our perspective they are rich, successful and then, should be happy. doesn't work like this.. it's a kid dream. I m not sayin becoming rich isn't a good goal. For instance, me as a creator, I want to be billionnaire. Not for fuck hookers all days or doing coke, but only to create something greater than myself for the whole community. But for being a part of this, I need to take the egocentrical road of my own business. To get the "trust" of people. the hard thing will be to sustain on the road, you'll see the hardest isn't the physical work at all, it's really more about the mind ( and of course you should work/effort ) learn, practice, self reflect, integrate knwoledge that align with your "life purpose". You should create something of value for you, and then share it with the world ( this is only my view, do as you want ) yes there is a recipe, the one you'll write for yourself. it's more easy to read it, than "get it" I m still in the process of getting it. As we will for ever. Even starting with a book as simple as Napoleon Hill could be a good thing when you don't know anything about "mindset business" this was just a part of my road, but I m not sayin this a great book, it depend where you are, and what you can "believe" right now.

I'll never ever be green then LOL. And I always be against orange. In fact I was green when I was a child ( until I transcend to nihilism ) I always protected nature, until people started to run on me and my "green childish way of thinking" I always wanted to cure everyone, to be kind to everyone. But society fucked all this, at 13 I probably shifted to Orange for many years. ( you helped me transcend yellow, so thanks you, even if I m still tainted with many orange in myself ) I have a tons of work to do to live from a true yellow perspective. ( if this mean something ) I just buy nothing, if this is possible. I put 2000€ in my computer on 10 years and I m still having the power to destroy a current mac at 1500 buck. so being green is starting to be holy fucking stupid, cause Apple is made by evil himself. Job > Gates ( it's a joke, I do not believe one of them is better ), they both did LSD btw. ( just a note ) They are both "yellow" living in a orange society. It's not because we all need to act orange to be understand that we all are. ( be aware than when I m saying stupid or smart, it's just talk ) I don't mean it. Everyone is fucking stupid and smart. I m yellow af ( this is why everything is a joke to me ) absurdism and nihilism is largely above green. Green is silly, and I m not talking about a orange perspective, as orange is aswell stupid af to me. yes blabla, what if leo you never transcend green and delude yourself being "yellow", you did display what I would call a yellow thinking, but this day you're abusing acting like a green. ( to my sense ) ( And orange aren't nihilist at ALL. they are egocentric, self centered, they are hedonist at their best ) Nihilism isn't red neither. what do I mean by nihilism ofc, I mean someone who can see the world from ALL perspective and give a sense of meaning at their life from nothingness ) like a computer programmateur, without emotion about the code, just watching how it is working. ( I do not need yoga to have faith and value ( sometimes ), I just pick what I want, like a character in a videogame ), it means, accepting life even to the point of thinking that all the yoga thing is just a path to truth. ( not the truth in itself.. just a way ) like suffering and being an outcast is another one. self reflection is all I was doing since a child, for a lifetime, cause life even on drug ( I mean computer / internet until 21 ) then weed. And even baked off, everything still sounded borring to me ( needed to find meaning in myself ) I never was aware that it had a name ( "self reflection" ) of course I have a tons of work to do on myself as I rush everything. I m not sure all green are open minded, many of them act like it to get profit from society. Like Nietzshe told in his writting ( I m reducing ), there is many philosophers who talks, but all their talks is a dream they create because of the disease in their soul and their feeling of insecurity. Human is incredible to creates solid shit meaning from nothing. Deny it all you want, green/orange. I want to help everyone, so for me all the moral is a human thing, it's not how I conceptualize yellow, and If I m not yellow, it's simple, I'm not at all in the spiral. Tell me now that I m orange if you want, I probably is, like fucking everyone we are born into it, look at your own recent post leo, they all sound orange/green, nothing yellow there. ( or I don't get it, or you're starting to be deluded because of all the dmt : with all my respect and I respect you very much leo. maybe not you to me, though. ) you're just all green thinking you transcend something, it's normal lower stage demonize people at higher tier, so people at lower stage can't get me at all. ( can you see it ? ) [joke] if you was a real turquoise, as it's in the spiral, you would just quit the whole forum/youtube. This forum is the proof you can't transcend green/yellow. ( or leave it ) you need it to walk I conceive. Yellow are creator, yellow are artist without bondary of creation. Artist are above green, but artist comes all from green/orange. green and orange are the same pattern thinking, instead of projecting their ideology on themself they project on dream/associated to their feeling with the world. if this is not a delusion, what is it. If starting to be a hippie was a thing. And I m talking in a life of electronic music maker, everyone around me use drug. And believe me whole those green could all be orange if you really watch deeply everyone. I can't even tell the difference between someone orange or green, they are all egocentric in their way. when green start all to want your green ( weed ), you know they are all a bunch of orange fa* in disguise. ( for the joke ) Hippie/green ( most of you are on the forum ) I don't very like the idea of color though, it's a quick ordering, who isn't very accurate, but not accurate. It's like a big map astrology, of course we see meaning in it. It has been made by guy who believed in budhism firstly. what If I create a spiral dynamic with 3 stages : Idiot, no that idiot, very smart. I could put the whole human race in those case aswell. I'm not denying spiral is a good map, but it's fucking absolutely not the territory. It's over reducing thinking to a meaningless affair of categorizing people by what you perceive . difference with orange, is only that : they are hypocrite, orange are not. They are "evil" but they assume it 100% to being egocentric. now you're all triggered, I liked watch this forum, you're all funny. But you have my respect, it's not easy to work on self and delude his mind at this point. We all have work to do. if someone now come and hang my hand and tell me, all of this was a joke and a dream, I would say, ok .. what's next lvl ? I m not sure many of you would do that. I would be sad that I loved my mother though and that she wasn't real. would makes my body and mind very sad, but I already accepted my faith. If god is all and powerful, why fight against his music ? do your own, god makes all of us musician, god doesn't have judgement he likes everything ( even hate and war ). He just like them beating the world. the dream program us to fight that is clearly the case.. survival/transcend call it how you want.. No matter how. Nietzshe call it the "will of power" and this is accurate. You should focus on the fundamental tone you can hear, not on the cover that you see with your eyes and brain. If there is no evil, god created it by giving us the power to create light or darkness, we should stop the assumption that god want the world to be "perfect and stable", there is probably nothing more than the music, and music is a flow a stream, it never ends, why transcend anything ? transcend all the things you want, but turquoise or red, we all end in the void/infinity call it how you want. So why fight ? study music instead of reading. everyone play his role.

and who is the last genius you read ?

they even write their own little happy comment to makes people buy more

ok leo isn't wrong about JP, there is some gold, but a tons of bs aswell ( as in anything ). He has a agenda being aware of it is great, but if he is a bridge in "spiral dynamic awakening" ( like transcend blue to orange ) where is the bad in it ? maybe we shouldn't demonize him, cause he just do his part. You can't be a "green or yellow" thinker, if you didn't get the limit of "orange/blue" so peterson push those limit on people, is that wrong ? I think in 10 years he will be probably yellow ( or not, who knows ) if he study really more than just making monney maybe he will. But why hate on him ? is popularity is maybe going too far, but he isn't as evil as anyone else ( maybe just be careful listening to him, but this advice work on anything, even you leo ( but you told so, so .. ). He try "to undestand", and that is a good fundamental for advance the whole society. Just imagine a world full of "turquoise", what would happen ? I'll be complete HS, but do you all think of "Nietzshe" ( who is cited many times by peterson ) was a orange ? He was non dual and didn't believe in "moral" or christian value, he doesn't believed in materialistic happiness, he doesn't believed in happiness in fact as a true state, but only like a delusion of english culture. ( he say german wasn't hungry for "having a pleasurable life" he told this is an english delusion value ) I m reading currently Nietzshe and his view on spirituality isn't : blue/orange/green. ( to me ); and he was aware of the WHOLE idea of budhism ( and was thinking it was the most "smart" dogma value, because .. read him if you want to know, me talking about it, I reduce his view on it ) Budhism look a lot like a soft version of nihilism, and most people here are old nihilist. Why "nihilist" are pushed to budhism spirituality ? so maybe he isn't yellow, but he is surely not in the first tier, maybe he is just a bridge to yellow without being one, cause at his time, no one was even "orange/green", but mostly all blue. maybe complete outcast from the spiral, but if you give me his "place", I would watch for cue.

brugluiz > Keep it man, you don't need this, you need to face your life ( I m really telling this, even for myself ), avoid your tricking thought pattern, my mind is tricking me almost all day today. those are not medecine advice though, so as I told you in your topic, be careful you'll feel SHIT, you must accept it ( as I did ), very hard for me at first. But if this is becoming too hard.. you know what you have to do.. if you can tappe slowly, just takes the minimal to not feel side effect, your brain will start to get that the shit loading is over ( like 3 mg of your shit, I don't know what you take ), take it only to not experience Side effect, do not take it for the feeling it induce, the more you sleep the best you'll feel. ( they will probably be there for a while, those tricky induction that lead you to feed up your body with a load of shit ) today I was obsessed with weed topic, my friend call me to get out, I tell them no. I m currently in my own "fight", I do not have time to relapse, we must remain strong

Yes, I wouldn't believe it, but this is exactly what I m experiencing right now. I m living the backslash. as my ego ( or fear pattern thinking ) was saying to me that I would not be happy without x and I should run to not die in misery. I drop this thought, I m happy right now, because it sound stupid to be sad anyway. if my state change, he do this : change. nothing is better/worst, it's only a context, like leo told in another topic, you can be rich and still miserable. true the process is "painful" and there is nothing you can do, but accept the change of perspective. you can try to cling on the older illusion ( my feeling, not because I just read leo ). Do not forget, we still are in illusion self reflection existential crisis induced by LSD is still shattering my perspective. ( induction of thought ) as an adhd, I m living on a tiny LSD trip since day 1. ( I always had pattern recognition abuse, like a schizophrénic, but with thought : instead of noise/voice/picture ) I find a guy who was attracted to me only because I remembered him on LSD. ( I was quite sober or only on weed ) ( he is the one who provide me in LSD btw, a good soul ) meaninglessness and solipsism was really high ( I had a sort of existential crisis 1 week ago while eating hash ) it's really messy in my mind currently as I quit a lot of substance addiction. ' I realize I should heal my body from dependance first before having real thought about anything ' I can't have decent thought while addicted. I m quitting drug and the depression is passing more and more ( as I work on every trait of my life ) ( I feel inside me a call for a radical shift ) it's like my "thinking of myself" try to desesperately cling on my old "me image" and old habit are hard to change, but I m currently re-building myself, not for being without ego ( I don't believe in ego ). Someone without ego, isn't human, being a human is being an ego. I think we can control it, makes peace with it, change our identity. But I don't think ego dissolve or can be beat, if ego was beaten, that would mean you don't need to eat. Cause the day you'll need to eat for your life, or you'll wait to die, or your ego will come back. Delusion to believe we can defeat ego, yes we can make peace with it though I think the process is normal, as I attach my thought to my old me and my "old dream". I still want to makes something of my life and discover a bit more of this reality, I loosed the anxiety feeling related to my goal ; I started entering the process of accepting my fate and "being" I think my ass is still between two tables

7 day without fap, no need I even watched porn before, not even a bonner. ( I violent myself, like, really man ? ( I do not wanted to fap, just watch evil in the eyes ) is that what you want, fuck you, I'll not fap. ( kind of ) Sleep is easy because I wait until I can't do anything but sleep ( I m not working currently ) it's was mostly drug that appeal my animal side for hand work. It was a sort of poison habit that I had when I was high. But after a long reflection, I don't want to get a life jerking off 1h per day, 400 hours per year. and this pleasure is only a delusion, fapping on alienated girls mostly hooked on drug, that's a bit sad if you really think about it. And you're fapping on this, seriously. I think they shouldn't be a total no fap though, maybe 1/per month if you can discipline. Hope this will give me energy to get out and met girl again. I think it's probably placebo on the physical side, but it should work a lot on the mind, and so impact the body for "real". 1 month without ritalin aswell ( I did use this shit for a year with some break ), not really hard to stop it ( 2 day of feeling shitty, weed helped ), as I reflect that it makes me artisticly stupid. ( even if motivated to tweak endlessly my project ) and 2 days without weed. ( i smoked 1g per day for 3 years ), no sugar. I only used coffee to fight "tiredness" but I don't like the taste. the effect is just right for "tiredness induced by quitting dopamine induction" Probably I'll not be allowed to stop weed on the long run ( currently thinking about using it like a psychedelic though, not like a habit ) ( but will discipline me very very hard ) and reflect a bit more the idea; I only drink 2 thea and smoked 4 tiny cigs those last 2 days ( because head crap, I don't like the taste and utility of smoking cigs ) ( there is none "real" for me in cigs ) it's only the habit of putting smoke into my lung.. this is very stupid habit. I'll not condemn everything. I used a random online game for 2 days ( forget addiction ) would have been better meditating. But I wasn't in the mood with my recent "breakdown ptsd" ( only 1 day, but a really hard day on my mind ) probably played on me recently quitting everything I abuse. it worked, but the game almost sucked me, discipline and thinking about my futur helped me just unintall the shit before I remplace addiction for another ( I uninstalled it, and reflect how shitty it was to loose my time on it ) worked on drawing a girl that I find beautiful on internet / writting and reading books on philosophy today. Hope to be free of most of substance addiction, I did sport this day aswell. Will focus on becoming a better artist and read more instead.. motivation is currently dead. didn't do any music since quitting ( weed ) Maybe LSD just take over my mind. ( I did use 300mcg on 6 days without never using psychedelic before ) alone in my room. ( it was great ) ( I do not meditate really, I use to listen tons of ambiant electronic music with eyes close though and try to focus only on the music ( that induce thought and idea ) . I had a crisis after eating hashish. ( do not ask me why I did this ) I feeled like crap in my mind, and I had the feeling that I should end my life right now ( I didn't and started shy away from those thought ) ( the hash was probably half poisoned as usual ) and that everything is completely bullshit. Now it start to feel better, I start forget about my precious past identity and try to work on taking a real ownership on me and build a new one that is better shaped to my natural instinct. ok I mostly talked about all my addiction, but nofap benefit is something I m really curious ( as youtube show me a tons of video about nofap ) this is even why I've seen this topic right now. how are you doing besides "placebo" how is your current lifestyle besides quitting porn guys ?

ok if I believe you hard without taking DMT, as I had this idea while doing LSD. one of rick & morty episode illustrate a bit the idea ( simulation created while you walk ) you sure you're not deluded ? WHY I CAN T MAKE POP HOT GIRL IN MY BOX !! maybe.. I CAN ?

sorry for your loss, really. wish I could help every human being... I had a theory while writting, but I think on the contrary we was "iperemotional" but suffering was so intense for taking all this feeling in, we start to mindfuck ourself and kill our emotion straightly ( and young ) ( started nurture & avoid our emotion ( not the bad thought, but the emotion ) ) / could be something like your parent giving you the idea ( "ignore them" ) because people call you by a name when you're a child for instance. but if you take seriously this kind idea, it can makes you maybe emotion apathic. It's only a theory ( because they was the emotion was a cause of our suffering ) we control it or kill it ( with drug, with philosophy, anything is good to kill it ), we fight it at the source ( this is almost a reason why you're on this forum today ) one of the reason ( avoid suffering ) and of course drug that you take, increase this feeling of being ' dead ' this is exactly their goal. Killing your feeling. You're not that alone, we are the weirdo happy family. Be happy and don't eat the psychiatric propaganda and delusion for truthness they see the world from a perspective, they don't even want to destroy you, it's just their nature to stabilize the system ( this is what I want to believe ) yes tape "slowly" and takes the minimal to have no side effect from withdrawal. wish you the best, take care brother, if you feel bad don't hesitate to pm me

I get the sense of dread existential crisis, most materialist budhism from our society conduct to "real nihilism", leo don't get this at all, cause he probably never experienced it ( or hide it ) because he isn't living the anxiety lifestyle. Maybe it's only me. I read a tons of people trying psychedelic and not having after it a "meaning in life" but a tons of " apathetic crisis ". All I had on LSD is my nihilism validated as hell. ( life is a system of bullet who eat/suck each other infinitely on themself for no reason at all ) this was my feeling. Maybe it isn't LSD though but only my subconscious fear or something, cause I had a good experience the day I did, it's mainly me anyway. I meditate about question that trigger me crisis, sometimes it's best to avoid knowledging yourself about reality and integrate what you learn before going more. Rabbithole thinking.. what did you expect ?

is this working ? I mean, outside of a "dreamstate." I m sure people talking about succubus talk about their "lucid dreaming fantasy". if this was real, they never come for me when I asked, I m maybe a bad magician

Don't worry it's not my goal I'll first remove every human on earth, and inseminate myself into a giant incubator until I become the singularity of our race then multiplicate at the exact good number for earth to be healthy. the best way to create a healthy earth is just removing humanity entirely edit : I read you, ok I get you, I m a bit close from your perspective. I integrated but I never access this incredible apathetic thinking paradigm that "normies" have. it's exactly my conclusion, it's even worst now, cause you "validated" my dread pattern bias ( that we are all slave, and that our life is "slave creation", not " enlightened happy life" ) I m not advocating against a part or other, slave is a perspective. ant are slave to their queen, it's order of nature, we are slave to our lords, some sounds stupid and narcissic, but maybe all this knowledge and power is creating the disease in their mind. They are nature, we all are, not aware of being born a byproduct from it, we makes others macro byproduct. We are slave, but is it really bad ? ( to me yes but what can I do about it ? ) of course your post will never makes humans accept your reality, it's over dreadful for them. Don't even try to tell them they are slave, they just think you insult them, not that you are "serious" already accepting to be a ant slave in ant life, no one want to see himself like this.

All I know as an "adhd" with too many thought and mind trap. ( I don't know if adhd is real, but sure I m a big neurotic ) ( every word could trigger in my mind a story ) put me out of reality. I did that almost my whole life ( loose my "reality" and be full in my thought / imagery ) people call me dreamy. I think I experienced skyzophrénia on LSD ( hearing voice in air who wasn't here, having imagery poping in my brain for no reason ( like anime picture ), then I draw from full instinct ) it's like I overpowered my instinct ( as an artist ) maybe even too much to the point I couldn't draw "straight build", it was abstract and very messy I did Ritalin 1 year, it's the contrary of lysergic acid on the perception of pattern ( makes you not see any pattern in things ). Put down your "instinct"/mind recognition pattern to "death". Can induce problem, but I will not advocate against. ( maybe that should only taken sporadically in a "big case" ; because of health problem it induce ) For me it could have helped, because of self reflection while on it ( what does it change in me, why, etc.. ) so maybe drug is a band aid solution, but the end work is to integrate what drug teach you. It's still impossible "to work" capitalist without drug for me ( weed a tons pls ), I contemplate everything or play stupid video games while sober ( try to read, but after 5 pages I lost ALL my focus ) all I can tell is that it took away most of my instinctive pattern emotion recognition ( the antipsychotic ritalin ). ( sometimes it can be good, but not for making music, as it is an emotional flow trigging adventure ) makes me super engineering things to the point of insane stupidity though ( couldn't be aware of me tweaking endlessly a bass, and forgeting the whole picture ) drug can be good, and worst, I was craving for ritaline the 2 first days, but weed helped with that ( but I read that weed makes fucked skyzophrénic people ) I would tell you to take the less antipsycho that you can and take it when you really feel that you need it.. ( for a crisis or something ) why do you cry ? I never cry since 4 years ( am I dead ? ), I wish I could... only crisis dread took me last month, only because a philosophical thought pass into my mind ( probably because of realisation on LSD ) and makes me realize that nothing fucking matter. LSD doesn't cured my ego, it convinced my nihilistic view I guess everyone doesn't react well to drug depending the context. be careful with your use, but as I don't know you, use drug if inside you, you really feel you need them. you can't be a psychopath if you liked animals ( I suppose ) it's a brain problem psychopaty ( I read about ) you are already without feeling like everyone else at 5 when you're a real psychopath ( in the brain ), you probably live on a nihilistic view on life ( like me ) / or apathetic philsosophy kind of. I don't believe any humans are equal, it's a fact, and a delusion to believe everyone can learn the same things, understand the same. so I wish I could help, but most of the solutions should be integrated by you, depending where you are. No one can really understand you, this is probably why you feel bad ? 6 month it's fucking long against me I m 24 and never had a single relationship, even if girl look for me ( I m beautiful ), I m insanely weird though and rude ( INTP ), and don't supporte people on a basic, I can act and play my role and get sex if really I would, but I like having this metaphysical mystery ( I fear to lose hope for my life If there is no meaning in sex ) ( yes I stupid thought ) but my mind trick me to leave girls before I do it each times. ( I hate social speech, I m addicted to learning and meta speeching / talking art/science ) I forget about relationship, hope destiny will help me on this. I want something that looks like true love and not an artificial relationship. you'll feel like crap for many times if you did drug for a long run, ( like 2 month if you take it more than 4 years ) 1 month if you take it 1 year. ( kind of ) depend of a lot of things though can't tell, depend on the whole context (health, sleep, dosage .. etc. ) it depend, get healthy food, try to sleep well, listen relaxing music ( psytrance for me when I start feeling bad ) keep using your drug, and use it the less that you can.. if you can.