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you'll have learned skill most people will never have. your odds of success increase every time you get knowledge you can apply that people can't. no. you didn't get it, your mindset and life change while you work. You can't create a goal on 5 years, world will change, and so you'll. it's hard to answer, you are really at the beggining of this work ( on creatity ) my life changed 40 times since I started music, many things happen. strive everyday for the best TODAY creativity, never focus on the futur, the futur will happen because of the present.

everything pass with time, every realisation is like having to create yourself again, it's frightening and everything, and we need to fix the mind, but don't be worry, the mind will fix, and sometimes the story we have are not the reality, they are just the feeling we reflect on things, currently not a good one, but this feeling will pass and so the ideas relating to this inner feeling try to not focus too much on those bad idea, listen to music, try to relax if you can and just do something who do not require to think. Meditation, drawing.. ( I like drawing when I feel myself overthinking, it's kind of an active meditation )

https://youtu.be/ycPr5-27vSI?t=2h10m24s ( smoking ) https://youtu.be/ycPr5-27vSI?t=2h25m27s ( talking love as the answer ) and leo call'd me a very orange rat in a cage. I always feel him more like a yellow with a bit of green, and using orange system to make it, ( until he see by himself how limited it is ) a green in a orange cage, yes. His dream could only be in a orange business. Now he start to feel his dream go away from his hand because "human global focus is not going to mars" this is not what "tesla actionnaire" wants, they have an other agenda.

@Preetom I deny death, It's an illusion, after this I m god, no matter what, this is my belief. there was nothing before me, so why there would nothing after ? human thought life is the middle of nowhere if infinity = us born conscious infinity x 2 = you again it's just a matter of time for you to come back, but if you do not feel time in billion, it will be instant if this made you : infinity time = you conscious infinity time again ( billions of billiards of stars colliding on a infinity scale of time ) so you come back again, if not, why not ?

All Understanding Is Metaphoric on the blog @Leo Gura it's real gold here, a solid island of shit thanks for this one

@Leo Gura legit

@Leo Gura America so you buy plastic bottle. I did, but only to drink tap water this is the one of my city. ( it's french translated by me ) solidity 26°F30°F5°F kalsium 85 mg/l78 mg/l11,5 mg/l kalium 3 mg/l1 mg/l6,2 mg/l Sodium 30 mg/l5 mg/l11,6 mg/l Magnésium 12 mg/l24 mg/l8 mg/l water composition : Fluor 0,096 mg/l0,12 mg/l0,22 mg/l bikarbonate 247 mg/l357 mg/l71 mg Nitrates 11 mg/l3,8 mg/l6,3 mg/l Sulfates 41 mg/l10 mg/l8,1 mg/l chlorides 47 mg/l does it takes my soul or can I keep drinking it ?

got my own answers, finaly

I want to know your answer, the deep one the flat one and the very flat one :> I m sure you can get more from being sober and in the good mindset.( the good mindset is better than "drug" ) but what about being in the [best mindset you want], admitting full enlightement lived and believing in being a part of the ultimate mind, what happen if you produce music and weed ? will it be corrupted ? why weed with a better ground not being enhancing as a psychedelic ? since psychedelic, weed never been the same for me. ( and many psychonaut talk about it on internet ) why ? non duality doesn't apply to weed ?

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is the key to understanding the whole art domain ?, things like even playing/writting music or written a fiction. Practice everyday, but how can you practice everyday the least to have the most ? do you know what I mean, is grindind endlessly all there is to be the best ? can you makes the grind efficient ? ( in my case as the identity of a writter of electronic music ( I know it's a identity case, musician, artist, human, choose it ) do you think that harass the mind with repetition / memory muscle on pattern is the best way to improve ? work everyday until you failed so much that know you're better than the one who doesn't fail enough ? You should watch this video to get maybe what I m talking about and even as a non artist ( and maybe even more if you're not an artist ) we all are ? is all there is to each type of learning art domain ? can you learn more fast, more efficient, but in such a way that you overcome billions hours of grinding ? to me the best way was learning about full awareness and full attention, and no distraction to learn and muscle memory, messing with things until I get how it interact, just toying around, but with mindfulness ( I kind of fighted a lot to understand the state, so I m still currently improving those area, hence this topic ) but is there way to improve this to a higher higher higher lvl like picking this god insight but being in flow with it ( instead of being in flow with the external object of our focus ? ) If there was a "higher lvl" to my maze, to connect with the wholeness of a domain and makes the mind only be in a permenant flow states. Is OVERUNDERSTANDING every concept of the art, on every perspective, every alternated states, in every trying, in every manner, in every metaphysical experience you can have, " the only way ? " ( try to not be deep on the "only way" ) is "work/acting on/pushing through", all there is ? I work on the foundation of how I work, having a solid ground before building big building on sand. Is there only sand ? can I have a solid boat on the desert of sand ?

Je vais devoir faire une mini parenthèse avant de te dire ce que j'aime en dubstep :> ( et forcément je fais une parenthèse sur mon background .. ) ( même si je comprend le concept de non dualité et d'identité, et j'ai maté toute les vidéos de léo en entier. ) j'aime toute la musique en général, de Mozart à Booba en passant par des OST de jeremy soule. J'ai toujours tout aimé dans la musique, mais je me suis jamais lançé à cause de supposition infantile ( uniquement l'élite .., uniquement les gens qui ont les studios pour.. , uniquement les gens qui ont commencés tôt ), pour ça que j'ai commencé à me lancer dedans sérieusement qu'à 20/21 ans ( en étant en étude de cinéma, cinéma ou j'ai grindé près d'un millier de film en 2 ans, je voulais vraiment être un réal à l'époque ) ( j'ai 24 ) Quand j'ai vue l'avancé technologique chez un pote et les résultats "maisons" je me suis lancé assez vite dedans.. j'ai découvert super tard la qualité du son sur monitoring aussi, là c'était le pas qui m'a poussé dans l'addiction à la musique. j'ai toujours eu un sentiment spécial pour la dubstep avec adventure club, puis au final j'ai rencontré des gens qui étaient à fond dedans et comme j'ai toujours était un pure fan de metal/banger head ( rammstein, soad, les classiques et quelques groupes norvégiens ) à vrai dire, j'écoutais de loin l'electro ( mon portable était bourré de tout, même de kpop, c'est dire à quel point j'ai toujours vécu librement ma sexualité musique, comme une prostituée diront certains.. je me souviens encore de ce moment à la cantine ou un pote m'a emprunté mon phone ( ouai il voulait savoir ce que j'écoute ), donc il à écouté une dizaine de tracks je dirais ( 20 min ) puis m'a dis, t'es complètement possédé ! :'( .. ) j'ai une grosse culture dubstep actuel, j'essaye de me fixer dedans, car mon souci c'était de vouloir tout faire et tout maîtriser ma culture dub est complètement inexistante avant 2012, je pourrais même carrément dire que "je suis un producteur de riddim dubstep" ( du moins j'essaye de me caser vers là ) plutôt que de dubstep. En France on a une vrai culture du dubstep actuel ( riddim ) tu trouves pas :> juste une impression peut être Il y a bientôt graphyt et ecraze dans ma ville et je pense qu'après ce concert ce sera enlightment direct haha. Après j'aime bien aussi la bass dubstep plus classique avec la vibe 90' à force de me gaver de son, je fini toujours par me tourner vers des trucs expérimentaux à la longue Je sais pas, j'aime la musique, je me définis.. mais pas vraiment, être un artiste c'est déjà bien. et toi ? du coup tu es musicien en France ? raconte moi, en fait je raconte ma vie facile mais c'est pas intéressant, j'ai juste la pensée fluide et j'ai aussi voulu être écrivain à certains moment haha ( je suis un flow permenant, ce qui fait beaucoup de bordel ), parfois on prend ça pour de l'égo, mais moi je suis un peu maladif à l'idée de "pas être bien compris" surtout quand je veux transmettre une idée Après mes seconds genre d'attention : psytrance / wave trap / futur heavy bass (k?d)

asking question = contemplating the question. contemplating the question, playing with the shape of the question if to you create an abstract answer to a question it doesn't mean you reach "truth", I m asking, what is your identity doing all days ? can you have something higher in your life than social help with this mindset ? or having a decent life, if you're poor. Can you see the box where you are spreading the "love non sense mindset", if a kid living in Africa can't apply the idea that are here, it mean that the idea if rooted in shit ( to me ) you need to learn all about "the energy"/pattern if you want to understand deeply, even if this path lead to the answer as " there is no way but grinding the idea " or " grinding is meaningless" ( a nihilist assumption ) every form of action is a searsh for truth ( or a break for searshing for it ) what truth, and to whom, that is a better question .. everyone have the answers and the lie, it's all the mind who makes the distinction ( a poor metaphysical grounding, makes you having attention on poor detail of each box ) but each box is aswell a part of god. what do you mean by contemplating. Talking about something is contemplating to me. Self inquiring is talking/thinking/meditation on/having insight on because subconscious ground/ambiant makes you having insight on what you love/think the most what do you mean precisely. next one I find on this forum trying to be deep will have to modulate or sound stupid, then it's to everyone to makes the work of deepening stuff. If you always give "deep", it's as good help as seing someone depress, "hey if you're not happy, so be happy." this kind of non sense. it's as deep as doing anal with a buddha if you're enlightnened in something, be a light that modulate for rat. Don't deny the overthinking ride god gives us, every part of him is good, there is no evil, no bad, no bad way of thinking, it's ALL bullshit in the end, there is good way to cop with reality at a time X, and this time X is different for everyone. Modulating an idea isn't boxing them, I can be deep : the whole are in the details.

France believe me I have a high connection with my music ( I can dance hours with rage without any thought but feeling it through my vains, I even try to become one with the sound, and enjoy every tiny detail, as the bigger emphasis on the whole idea ( that was where I was when I started, then I dig deep and deep.. until I fall in a box haha ) I was too critic after begginer phase. and boxed me ( as an intuit basic guy, I started being analytical ) everything was flow states and unfinished work, but then the problem was finishing almost reversed after grinding a lot. ( kind of loose intuit for drawing hard line, and not remove things in the bigger idea.. boxed like a rat ) I m working on making the mind pattern of intuit more back by drawing with my full intuit ( maybe a weird way to increase my music.. by drawing but still, I think it helped a lot with the part of my mind who want to create solid line on everything, ( now there is almost none, everything is slimy in my hand, every sound is shape of noise I just feel ) With drawing I m really a bird, I just draw for fucksake and don't care about anything but fun drawing, thing is, It was like this for me, for the 2000 first hours of music creation ( and then it become more and more "grind" than discovery ) ( mostly sound engineering in fact, more than music, I wanted the graphic result, the sound to sound FAT and CLEAN ) when it was not fat, clean, I solve the maze ( take me years to figure out how perspective / difference in intensity : matter in the sense of music/mixing ) I probably losted myself in the mathematical aspect of sound design. So intuit on solid background knowledge to resolve any problems ( it's almost done, I know why things don't work together or it work and why, it tooks me 3 years to get where I think is now a solid ground for myself, in almost any case ). All my family is made of computer programmer/designer, I ve always been a nerd/geek, with a fake extraverted personality. , now everything sound a bit puzzled out, so it loosed his magic, I know exactly how are build what was fancy to me before, know it sound like me reading music code, I could make it, work long on it, but I don't feel the chase for the puzzle (and I still enjoy music a lot, it's just the whole process, sometimes.. ) maybe contre intuitively taking a break could be the best thing I can do for my music. ( and being against all principle of working daily ? ) , ( it's mostly bass music, very emphasis the emotion of my own will ( to me ) ) ( it's mostly dubstep that I aim for what we call today dubstep ( not skrillex related ), so many "box rules" about proportion of things against others things ( or you'll sound OUT of the big picture of creating a trance like ambiant in a scene ) like artist who play you, don't play you if you're out of the box too much ( they can't mix your part, because you start too soon, too early your emphasis, they can't take your sound if your "kick/snare" are weak, in fact, as your sound will be put in another draw, you should make it fit a bit like a lego ) but even in lego there is infinite possibility. ( maybe it answer to people : why electronic music kind of sound the same ? ) I always tryed to put my sound in the "rule" but learning rule was a real good thing anyway ( I was overbreaking everything to the point of having no ground in everything ) it created for me a solid ground where there was none, so when I create even OST music for instance, I always have a "background" where I know how things are in the "big picture of what I have as "basic grounded understanding" ( aka my all my old music project ) I do not fear not having a work anymore ( there is social help up to 500€ a month without doing any work at 25, so I do not fear the " no job no food " ) but that's easy as I live with my mother ( she is never at home, I just use the best ground I have.. would be stupid to quit mum house, as she don't asked me for it at all, she even cheer me in my project and believe in my work ) ( that was my fear who put me to work for insane time and taking huge amount of doping stuff to make it through and fast ( like weed ) it's maybe a bit classic monkey pursuit, but everything is a monkey pursuit, I just choose this one, provide me with the best human life currently. I love it, it speaks to me, music isn't a thing, music is my cult, my religion, my girlfriend, my drug, my breath, my call, my lord, my god, my only love. Maybe I m taking it too seriously ? anyway I m reading the book and like what is written so far. I just need more awareness maybe ? something to control even more my thought, having this happy intuit to draw/write without wanting any solid result, don't try to aim for fitting the box, just draw my shit, and then box them at their best ( my new way of thinking ). ( I m still figuring things out ) the only problem with my work, is having tired ears and maybe having started only 3/4 years ago, I m asking myself if observing with full attention/awareness is better than keep grinding mindlessly with no real background foundation/goal. yes I could create something original, very deep, very intense, very artistic, very myself, but that would not give me a single penny at the end ( because people would not get it ) I have to survive and fill up the first part of the pyramid before wanting to transcend myself at the higher peak, does I m wrong in the path I want to have ? I like to be decoding things, maybe that's who am I even more than being musician, but I have to finish my first path before grounding myself in "higher states" keep the grounding in blabla thinking, it helped me so I can be wrong only from another pespective who don't need mine.

I have already watched the second video, and I have finish the first :> as I agree, the second video helped me so much when I was thinking so much more in a box in the past. What was weird, is, as a kid, I always did iterative drawing, kind of autist I've always been. I m reading the book it picked my curiosity sound resonating, cheer up mate

@Hamilcar high consciousness = what you think is high consciousness ho this is just a maze you can solve for you, or don't

the radical relativity of reality. this is what you get with a psychedelic experience, you can't explain better the radical relativity of reality, omg the world is so huge I m a fucking Ant. integrated in your sense for REAL, like you feel that your chair is real, now you feel the relativity as real as the chair your sitting in. shatter your way of reacting to the world it trigger change in your all way of watching reality but maybe psychedelic without a bit of a guideline can be tricky for some, ( psychedelic is very curative for the compulsive thinker )

- Accepting the suffering, loving it, understand his purpose instead of rejecting it - think for myself every fact and concept and their meaning to me, think in term of system instead of reacting. - control my thought and feeling and be aware of their effect. Control the ego; be aware of him, makes peace with him. - stop comparing myself, stop blablating, stop defending an identity - embody my satanness & embody godness, stop judging myself - breath properly - don't abuse substance, don't be an addict - Careful when "listening" to "false" prophets, mystic and scientific - Accepting to find my own truth and embody my own road and be aware of the multiple island of solid shit thanks Leo and this community for being a part of my journey https://soundcloud.com/jakeleeismyname/last-memory

@Torkys damn the thot thing I read it on youtube, but emphasis is legit here haha @Gabriel Antonio putain j'ai ris

"He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee." F.Nietzsche

meditation is a way, not the only one, for me get clean of all my thought and "becoming the music" is how I do it.

yes my word just resonate currently but they could lock me in the idea of an identity, they are no solid rock, just a wind, a wave. my fundamental music will never have to be lead by words and sentences, but I need a book, the one I m writting, it's not something solid, it's about being water. I could decline the words of this topic to infinity, cause they have all a deeper meaning for me and I can't describe all that is in me, so let be it as it is

woman list ARE TRAPS ! don't listen to what woman want, especially from a woman ! especially when they precise they know something ! my 2 cent

what if god never existed before us. we are the manifestation of the first god. what if universe is not created, why would infinity be created ? god can ask many questions, maybe god shouldn't ask more and experience what he created us for. if it's about collecting data, be a good rat data. but even if god want to have data, what for ? what if god is just borred to the point of creating his own dream. ho wait. for me this is the "real story", but every story could be, this is why humans can be so deluded. Or "god". god is still a bit bored though, so he created more simulation to expand his own imagination just because he is bored. makes sense to me, especially if I m god, would explain almost everything that happen'd ok back to the dream

every form of talk is a sub form of cult ? don't you think so ? doesn't have you friends who try to convince you about something ? you try to get people on your perspective, or eating an idea. It's always about being a cult and facing others.