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look his recent blog post on metaphoric understanding p2, there will be the full answer at this question in it

I did 3 times on multiple years ( 6 years , mid, and recently ), only once I had ENTP aswell in another try. I read almost all types, and I m quite the two E-I /NTP it depend days, I can be as hard an extravert as hard an introvert, I can be closed for days ( but I m clearly more "intp" ), or going out multiple days if that's with friends. this is why I doubted the test was accurate. But that's probably me you can't test me boy

INTP fam' haha, the work never end <3

lol shin, I m almost sure your science step is working and is the best even if it's written like a joke. I completely know that if I want I can even in sayin complete non sense to a girl, but why do I don't want in the first place will keep on no fap, until I become crazy psycho about sex, best cure for my want. step 1 to get your problem : "be honest why you're such an ignorant pussy" I m laughing cause I know that I could have a girl right now on a call, but it's only "me" haha I m aware of it. I did things more harder in my life than having a girlfriend, it's too easy for me, no real challenge, watching eyes, do you even call that challenge ! All the girls I wanted was the girls I couldn't get, when a girl want me, I have almost the same feeling at the end, too easy for me thanks to my perfect inquiry

I only have one question, what about green thea ?

Do I need to have a Sexuality to open the higher chakra ? ( I m still in no fap, it has been now.. 14 days ? ) ( 8 days out of smoking weed ) I still have the back ache he talks about in the early of the video ( but I never masturbated a lot through my whole life ) had many "break day time", it's like I did 4-5 times a week/ ( but for many years ) Does it comes from porn/drug ? and masturbating on drug is even worst I suppose This restless legs syndrom is still a thing aswell, I have it as long as I remember, and it's clearly not sugar related neither drug/stimulation related. Maybe I live in a permanent stimulation from games ? besides I only played rpg (self improvement!), and wasn't into fps gaming. ( quit since 3 years, and probably played 50 hours to video games those last 2 years ( while listening audiobook ) ( even out of sugar, and having a real real good diet ( since 2 years ) ) drinking 90% water and 10% orange juice. Eating 20% meat ( meat from France mostly ( or germany ), not USA fast food norms ) France is really focused on eating well, we are all on fruit and veggies anyway ( even all our commercial have a lower case to tell us to eat veggies and fruit ) it's the most conscious part of french society. Sleeping well 7-8 hours I don't feel the need for sex, I would choose music over sexuality currently, did I repress my sexuality for so long I cannot connect to it anymore ? girls send me message for connect, but I don't respond to their call, and don't want to makes any effort about a relationship, I love too much being "free and living on my rules"

<3 good day & be a hero everyday

? maybe, but I can't see a big difference until now ( probably because quitting smoking have more side effects on mood/energy ) but I notice that I feel kind of "high on psychedelic" in the back of my mind, that's strange. ( probably meditation, binaural + asmr ) I only did psychedelic 2 month ago for inquiry + art ( and don't want to do it more, I had a very harsh month of realisation after ) ( 3 trip and 10 days on microdose ) ( mushroom and lsd ) I wanted "to cure fast" at this time. aren't human body made for fuck all days though ? what's difference between us and monkey really beside an idea of being different ? are monkeys sex addict always in relapse ?

I m inquiry, should I keep on no fap ? or become a "psycho sexual magnet" ? ( I ve never been addicted, weed helped with giving me envy to fap, I didn't really fap the year before weed ) I did a bit more before hitting my 20. ( and started weed at 21 ) there is a girl who send me sign, but I didn't respond. I m still in a position of no monney, no job and in recovery Maybe my sexuality is fucked up because of all those gaming, internet addiction that I did from age 6 to age 21 ( then 4 years of weed abuse when games was not a thing anymore ) or INTP and adhd is a real thing "real" even if I don't want to believe in it. I m on days 15, and have no craving at all. But I'll not lie, fapping without weed is like ultra lame anyway.

if music is a drug, I'll ever be a drug addict

the whole concept is an idea, an idea is something abstract born from nothing but an human mind, something abstract is born from your mind the whole sense of what is real and what isn't ( to your mind ) all that is in your mind it's all but only pure imagination, imagination has no ground, so everything, every thought is some kind of bullshit, cause it needs a mind to get it, every words, every teaching is flawed, because no one can grasb it like the teacher. We are talking to wall, and only reflection is what we get from everything we do. People who worry about their mind/life place/not happy are all here, that's a sort of common pattern. And the one who think he transcend their ego are always answering everywhere on the forum ( don't you see that you are egoic by believing that you're in some dynamic ) you're as high as any piece of shit of this world, you're not what you think, but you are not what people think aswell. You are never what people think you are, it's all non sense, everyone is fucking ignorant of everyone, "that is the truth", not my truth, the truth is, no one can handle truth, truth is everything, so what is truth but everything and nothing ? ( read more than once ) you become what you believe, you can believe in everything with the right motion the right perspective. Like leo told, some people want to cure themself from nothing, by closing their body/mind in dark room for days, it only proves one thing, the humans mind is tricky. we all have our langage, our meta understanding, there is nothing that we can really share, we only try to reflect on the mirror of our own "ego/self". I see all this forum like a hacking of the maze of life ( cause this is the purpose, this is why I m here, I m a hacker and everyone here want to "hack life" ) by improving the bullshit to the core, leo create in me a sense of this, leo hack us to understand this ? maybe maybe not, maybe that's my own reflection/work ( by non sense it creates sense ) you understand non sense by peaking more and emphasing even more non sense. ego is nothing it's an abstract concept to talk about what we think is a "dark side" in us ( but dark and light doesn't exist, it's all but an emotion ) All this work is just chasing your tail so hard you become aware there is a tail, by chasing it with higher non sense perspective. It's a good game to be here. ego never existed, pursuing "ego death" is a story of a cat who run after his own tail ( some of my friend joked around in classroom 10 years ago talking about cat chasing tail, I really don't know why my mind hold the thought until know ( it wasn't even for me ) this friend keep repeating the sentence like 4 times, and I find it kind of weird and stupid at this time ) it's not a hazard my mind pop today the idea out, it's my answer, I always had it, I never get it this way before psychedelic, now it makes sense. you can turn for ever, the only way to fucking stop it, is loving you fucking tail, cause it's in your back and you can't live without it. Everyone who try to kill ego will kill himself, love is really all you can do about the tail. pushing idea on people is always a form of dogma, even saying that is a part of manipulation from my part, every speech is possible "manipulation/hypnosis" from myself perspective, every concept can be apply and see through the lens of everything there is no good habit, bad habit. Everyone is own element, everything is balanced, even Hitler was a good thing on earth, everything was, I mean, it's only human who believe there is Bad, everyone who judge people bad or ignorant, is exactly this. Bad and ignorant. And worst, he believe back in his mind that he is better, he confort himself, this is what many minds do, conforting their own story. If christian is a story, pursuing ego death is another. there is no such thing, and proof is, if leo would really chase enlightment, he would never have actualized.org and would have taken all his monney to be a monk, that's not the case at all. Reality is leo sell a course for 500 buck, I m not judging him evil, but the reality is above what you think, what is real right now, think about it, what is real is that you are all fulled with concept and bullshit that you hold true to confort your mind that you're better or think better. We are ALL ignorant, and everyone who claim to know more is just not aware of being nothing and that all his thought are nothing but a belief. We can all talk about map, reality is what map you believe in, we all believe in what we need at the right moment, and we all chase the idea we need at the right moment. Everyone reading my topic right now and not ready to read that, will deny my truth and call it / evil / ego, choose your pattern to deny, no matter if you believe it or not, it's exactly what it is, a text for myself in the end.. I m like this guy in the movie, lost on his island and believing the fruit talk to me I m talking to fruit and ask them how to be juicy believing the fruit can give me an answer, but I m the only one in my mind who knows where I should run on the island, no one can never ever help me but myself, cause no one can hear my voice as I hear it and get me, no concept no talk can help that. No one can be aware of where I m, who I m, what I m, what is my I, so everything is bullshit talk, we are all ants talking non sense in the end. There is some sense of answer here, the one my I was looking, but only our mind can grasb the sense, there is not a real sense, we catch the sense we want in things we look for / in still this forum is a great gold mine for some mind at the right time at the right perspective ( for yourself ) for everyone who really get thesentence : "the map is not the territory" but what is a map and a territory ? isn't everything a reflection of what we really are or want to see ? edit * > I just corrected two words

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ok in his message OP said he did meth and I barely noticed it my misstake ( I don't know anything about OP addiction ) he didn't say that he used it regularly, but yep meth is another kind of shit but that's good to show this guy if he is doing meth ( I watched his channel once ) I know someone who talked to me once about ibogaïne to help with his drug addiction ( opiated / but he was coming from an heroïn addiction ) isn't ibogaïne an African thing ? People who do those kind of thing have no monney for going in Africa ( generaly speaking ), although meth isn't expensive if I m right.. Not time for speak, all in the hot bath ? :p, yep maybe , the sword is better than word OP : I suppose LSD and inquiry alone about why you're doing meth could be a " good idea " if nothing mental worked.

I quit weed only by inquiry and consciously wanting to quit, maybe LSD helped having the starting point, but it took me 2 months to really engage the "quitting". It was back in my mind, and I watched a lot of view on why it's better to quit, and why I should "handle" my life more. weed isn't bad as everyone here think, it's part of growth for many people and it shouldn't be seen as an evil plant. It's just that most people mix it with tobacco, and I suspect tobacco ( or any smoking ) [ because smoking is a part of a ritual hard to loose, especially when you do it everyday for years ] to play a huge role in the addiction ( next time I'll use weed, it'll probably be edible if I can and in a low quantity ) I think the problem isn't weed or any product, it depend of your "why" it's a powerful psychedelic that has been misused by everyone, because it's not hard enough to take a toll on your psyche. it put you in the meditative states you can get from meditation without working or "taking your time", so everyone love it, but we can access a better state without any, when times comes. Weed should be respected as your body and stop weed will not solve the problem. if you have no reason to respect your body, you'll take another brick to fill the blank in your mind, believe me, I m an addict, but now I put all my addiction on music. When I need a dose, I listen music. You can't be completely free from all drug, cause the entire world is filled with "drug", your mind work on taking hits. ( everything I m writting here is of course from my own experience and knowledge ) I do not plan to never use it, in fact, I will probably still use it, but in a more respectful manner that has nothing to do with my addiction pattern. the problem is the addiction pattern, not the thing you take for it. I m still in recovery, but I don't have the need for weed at all, I mean, something change in my mind, I don't need weed to have this inner peace I was looking for, it's only the ritual part that is missing and it's started to cloud a lot, I don't think about smoking it since I quit, I try to quit 5 times, every time I quit those times, I always wanted to smoke almost all the days after I quit. It wasn't the same as "quitting for a healthy reason" ( and by healthy I mean nothing about health of body or lung, I mean in the mind ) it's a first good pace to recognize that you are in trouble with something, but maybe weed is just the surface of something else. Try to find what is this something else.

the forum is now running on himself he started to breath ... he is ALIVE !!!

the question is tricky for me right now I m still processing, I wish I could share it with you soon

lol he can put many wall around him, there is none or there is many, it's all dependent of his mind, it has no effect to have a "blocker", just control your mind ( yep it's very difficult work depending where you are ) I didn't used youtube ( or even internet ) for days when I was on my computer doing music even with plenty of internet at hand, it's not because you punish yourself that you'll control yourself

answering your question : maybe I m happy if some people can relate to what I m writting or even help me building a better understanding - create a better understanding for everyone of themself. ( I m not sayin I have it, that's exactly why I share those thoughts ) maybe it's useless ? maybe not. probably don't think about the goal sometimes hope it helps you find your own path and build your life to your own truth, we all try our best I m sure of it, we all are just clumsy sometimes to explain or do things. edit *

maybe, I m frustrated with a lot of things you know, I just learn to live with it, and accept my faith at the best of my capabilities.

please share me his motion if you do it haha <3 *people think I fall into a psychedelic marmite when I was a kid just like Obelix ! sooo I m already on it, I don't need more potion !* ( damn you'll probably not get that no one here it's my mind who makes a reference to a french comic, why ? I don't know but I want to keep it. ), ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asterix#Synopsis_and_characters )

20g a friend did first time, he never touched psychedelic again, I try to persuade him, no way he is fucking afraid. I told him to only use 0.5 g aswell instead of such a high dose

better ! I'll evily will push him to smoke weed with me, he will be like : "ho no no you're too much orange for me, get away from me you neurotic ! not this shit with me" and I'll be like, YOU GIVE ME HOT BATH IT S YOUR TIME FOR THE MEDIUM BATH !!

nice quote

ok word have no meaning I can't explain properly for your mind to grasb me, I'll only have a reflect on the word of the topic, it's non sense the answer I'll get. it's even worst now that I know that no one as answers for anything..

I'll add something to the topic, and would be glad to have insight or your guidance ( books, video, audiobook etc.. ) Yep I did a lot of it I like ASMR for a reason that he makes me feel really high without placebo ( I feel so so so relax with some video ), I even have a mic, and made some once ( but didn't post them ) The problem is like a drug, it start to loose the magic if I do it too much ( something like, or that's just me.. ) and as a musician I cannot listen ASMR all day, it's too much noise, so only for sleep. it helped me more than meditation ( that I never practiced purely ) but I use to smoke and listen 4 hours of music eyes closed everyday for 2 years. ( only focusing on music and not my thought ) I m sure it changed my life as efficiently as meditation ( it's just my way of doing it ) ( music without vocal, trance music a lot, like psytrance or edm like ) my new focus : - dream : subconscious : the impact of doing lucid dreaming ( and how to ) - mind programming / ( music frequency hypnosis ) - is thea a thing / how to use properly substance if I do ( as a musician ... ) - hypnosis on myself ( forget about death, fear, nihilistic topic ) does music with "frequency type: binaural and thing" does it really work ? or full placebo ? - what yoga techniques/meditation for autistic kind of/adhd/weirdo/intp shit and get motivation - why is it bad to be stimulated too much by society ? ( gaming, drug, etc.. ) is it a real thing ? - I don't want to be "blank" I want to feel as good as I was on weed, but without it ( and if possible, even better than on weed ) -> weed isn't the same since LSD, different, it's more "psychedelic" than "highy" . Even know 2 month later, just sayin LSD, put me into a states of mind that have the taste of LSD in my mouth ( is it still in my brain ? ) I mean, I can have this feeling, looking at my hands, everything can looks dreamy, and weed really push me into this trance states now ( do not really makes me effective as I use to be on it ) what LSD changed into myself ? ( I m reading a book about meta programming and LSD .. to understand ) - those are the questions now in the back in my mind if I ask him what 's the trouble I don't want to be out of trouble; Just want to choose my own. I don't want to be a monk or a shaman ( even if mystic told me that I was probably a shaman and a very emotional soul, like 3 different people that I feel good to be with told me so ( they was into psychedelic ) I used LSD because of one of them, ( not because of leo ) I wasn't really into psych when the first one told me that, so it sounded funny when they told me ) I used them; but not that much, 3 trip in 2 years. I Think it made me even more weirdo than before, but now I can handle it as a good thing, that's some form of victory I suppose over my mind, accepting the "me". still fixing years of cannabis use for sleep ( more than a gram a day ), thinking about using CBD oil ( is it efficient ? ) I don't want to feel "good" I want to own my creativity and not being overtaken by it. ( or creativity is a product from stimulation ? ) maybe I m not that "stimulated" as everyone looked like a crazy zomby to me, since I m born ( I m a daydreamer walker, it's written from more than 50 teachers, through all my life ) too much dreamy, he doesn't focus ! ( if in america I would have been on adhd pills ) I've seen a psych 3 years ago, wanted to fill me up with more than 80 mg. ( because I told him 50 wasn't enough ) I just try to see how far they would go, psychiatry is a big rat trap ( to me ) I m not sure that adhd drug is a solution. I used it, but it created new forms of problems even worst than what I called "worst problem", thanks god I only used it for a year and it was already too much I suppose. ( I used less than 30 mg and always with weed )