Strikr

You're whole a bunch of funny I'll fucking play anything

haha be careful with demons you're speaking to

without suffering, without work, there is no truth

Training, improving, achieving, striving god is great

I would add " god walking amongst mere mortal " Guild Wars

because .. TADA !! I m gonna sleep in peace <3

OR makes Art for 20 000 hours :>

hey there, I'll be very short. ( ) excuse my french minded english. ( with my lack of skill, as a learned it only by copying pattern, never listen at school ) This topic will be egoic ( thanks for reading ) Fan of music since child, I find my life purpose while listening on weed music at a friend home. ( my all 3 best friends are currently into electronic music making ) only wanted to be a electronic musician since 3 years ( soon 4 ) ( I worked like a slave those last years, on me and my multi projects ) I was a bit in PTSD ( from using LSD and contemplating that reality was not a thing ( this is what I ve seen in the void of my mind ) that nothing matter .. I didn't find any real god, I was deluded that I will understand something, but only met my intuition overpowered even more than usual ( could see imagery pop in my mind while drawing ) " adhd " ( for real, I do not even want to believe I m this kind of shit, cause I hate 98% of internet who pretend to be this shit ) they are sad to me to read. They all sound sorry to tell that, but kind of stupid. ( not their wrong, they have been very mindfucked to believe they are "sick" ) old kid addicted to video games since my 6 years ( pokemon ) to 20/21 years ( droped it when I did weed ) ( league of legend ) ( was used to be "introvert" and akwardly very social ) making real weirdo jokes ( kind of rick & morty before it exist ) I could makes jokes about china eating africans to save the entire world. I love shatter reality and perspective since a child ( wasn't aware of doing a thing like that ) was just funny and natural to me to be a leo. I m INTP ( but mixed ENTP ) ( I did the test 4 times on my life and had 3 times INTP / 1 time ENTP ) ( those are models, not real fact, but they sound very accurate to me, against all others ( that I read ) I do not believe in IQ as something related at pure intelligence, it is a bit of something maybe.. I have between 135 & 150 ( not in term of intelligence, in term of IQ of course ) I never used any drug until 20 ( only video games addiction, not because I was ugly or hated at school ( I hated school because it was borring to death ) I was mostly seen as a beautiful guy/nice, so no one bothered me because I had a nice face ( was on the border to be hated like a nerd though, but was mostly talking to everyone and trying to be openminded to every idea, besides the day or I shoot out that football was for fucking chimp ( exactly haha ) before leo was in my reality ) I was a bit weirdo, crazy, and in my "mind" , because everything ultimately..borring to death. ( and I was good at lonely sport one of the best for my heretic body ) I m a hard alone worker ( learn, music, art, etc.. ) very curious; watch various "scientific/biologic/psychologic" content. ( but only since 4 years, since my life goal is being a god tier at music ) ( I do music, video making, recording, music engineering, basic web language understanding ) my hands are a bit everywhere except on girls. used alcohol a lot the first 2 years I discovered ( but never did alone my entire life ) ( at 20 ) because it was fun and "legal". then at my end 20y, some of my friend who likes music and movies makes me try weed. I buy a package the week after I try it ( it was not in a "night" context, only an afternoon, by listening music while high, it was like WOAAAAAAAAAAAAA ) Never stop using it more than 3 days for the last 3/4 years. ( probably put all my back monney in it, because it made me work for the first time of my life ) first thing : like music in 4k when you are used to 480 and you already loved it... ho man I fell in love, music and weed, it's infinity at hand, it's bliss. everyday it's bliss. I know this is stupid to be addicted to something like this, but who isn't addicted to something in life ? most people are addicted to having sex or masturbate. ( I do not have those addiction at all, even porn isn't a problem at all, for instance, it has been 4 days without any kind of thing, it doesn't even miss me ) but WEED MAN I started making electronic music like 6 month after i started ( and very religiously ). ( I learned english full while being high, I was mostly the worst piece of shit of my school for my entire school grades ) I even tell that I dedicate my life to the god of music in a very serious manner haha, so I worked so hard, my mind and ear was bleeding, it was even stupid of my part. I m still very healthy though, only crippling anxiety as a life style. weed remove all anxiety from me, absolutely all. I try the drug ritalin, but it was mostly shit fake meth in pack, makes me work and idiots completely crazy robot, makes me learn something about mind. ( it was my intent, I never really believed this shit would help me, it was to cope with the price of weed ( I wanted to have something equivalent and not pay for it ) what a shame.. ( cause in my country drug, are 100% free when prescribed ) I wanted to know what society was about to give me to makes me a good worker. holy shit, should have remain ignorant, but still, makes me grow a lot in the end ( if not makes me loose a cell of brain of both ) but brain doesn't exist but like leo said, all my induction was fucked to death. ( idea that pop by link of emotional pattern resolution, something like ) you're so tweaked, that your mind stop have insight, it just "do". without thinking really about the "how". ( it's the extreme of who I m ) ok now : I m almost 25, never worked in a real job ( only with dad for 3 month ) will never do it again. ( my dad can be real harsh and seriously close minded, I helped a bit with this but still ) ( only worked on my project since I started.. weed . ), ( but my country gives you 500€/month at 25 years. if you do not have a work ( yes for doing nothing ) it's social security ) why I start to want to rule the world when I take a puff ? ( I mean this is how I feel ) most people are not resonating the same on weed as me. I worked with my dad in physical job, wanted to kill me almost every day, put violence on me ( I do not live with him, only with my mother ) ( I m less heavy than a average girl 54kg and my 171 cm ) can't do physical shit, cause I had suicidal contemplation while doing this, turn me into a fucking nihilist, telling people that their life will end being a fucking slavery jokes ( this kind of thinking ) this is when I m out of weed, I always be a cynical, and a sceptical blabla. When I started weed, all my bad, all my shit was turning ON ! ok end of story, could write on my context for long, but I think you grasb the problem. I m fucking addicted to death, I can now do weed/learning/music for all day while being high ( in fact I can't work without being high, it's completely chaos ) I do not have motivation, I m easily distracted by anything ( in my mind , not reality ) I mean if reality is borring my mind start to create story on things or self reflect endlessly ( my natural states ). I see pattern in everything, relate to every idea, I can't "work" properly, it's when I smoke, I m "happy" stop being a piece of shit talker ( stop being cynical : try to help everyone make it in everything ) I learned electronic music ( more than 8000 hours of work ( only on music ) and others 3000 of hours : studying, reading, personnal work, reading book about business, art, etc.. ) I m still not at the lvl of selling anything. but when I don't have weed, I m lazy, procrastinating, playing EVEN video games, that I put out of my life when I started weed. ( completely stop my old addiction ) started to work and read a lot on weed. I think I would never learn patience without weed. and still it's annoying. when my mind creates all this thought only to entertain me/nerves me. I mean I wasn't aware as a kid of trolling people, only to excite me, I was doing this without even hate on people, conventional talk wasn't exciting enough. All my new real friends are Raves/Dj/drug addict ( mostly weed ). now I have 3 month to live without weed, because of monney, only this.. my mind start to creates pattern to get weed, it's very serious, I don't know how to control me, I could just contemplate suicide or tired, my lazyness, darkside thinking, anxiety, apathy. ok then when this is not happening, I m just wanting to procrastinate and never work on my project or on anything. Ok I can still love music, but man, I can't do music. it's crippling after 15 min of making music, I'll start feeling bad for a random though poping in. I never had real motivation before weed, I m still virgin at almost 25 ( not really making me feel great or bad, but maybe it's a thing, I don't know ) , even if I did LSD ( alone with self contemplation ), mushroom, mdma ( but fuck that shit, in the end, it's a happy void ), and a lot of others shits. Weed is my fuel and I m a car, for real, I m just living on the parking when I m out of weed :'( Now I m out of monney, should find a work/create a business to pay more weed ( like I did ) or should I really stop, and how to STOP and still makes music and hang a bit with my friend when I start to be crazy because of living the introvertness ? I would kill for a real solution, and not a joking solution, my life is so shitty without weed, and only monney stop me from buying. Should I create a side business on the internet ? now my account is 8€ currently, I still have 10€ of weed, and I m reflecting if I should suck dick or keep my dignity ( I m kind of joking ) no economy, no drive licence ( cost 2000€ to not get it ), but full of knowledge ! .. Please guys, don't tell me to accept Jesus I already accepted him in me, he talks to me in my sleep, tell me to call my weed dealer immediatly and trap him to stole his weed

I use this type of MetaMusic, but I don't need headphone, no way I meditate with a headphone on my head 2 baby like this loud

in the darkness there is light

I wasn't mean by that, humans are not all the same that's all. Every animals is right place. You cannot advice an eagle to be a pigeon, or a pigeon to be an eagle. That's your one biggest delusion everyone here. You cannot change people. People change themself. but that's maybe "my own truth", your's is to guide and believe you can, maybe you do. who knows, not me indeed. if you feel that you have to guide people this way, may be it why someone else couln't do it in ways you cannot comprehend ? but I think I m battling against a part of my own dream I know where is my road and shouldn't misscarry my ship in fairy land, peace.

Yep & Eagle are not pigeon, do you all get that aswell ?

why thought is stupid against direct experience ? what makes a thought more meaningless than a direct experience ?

the paradox is why you all keep writting mindless shit on a forum if nothing has a meaning. you could use your dream time for a better good time, like wanking all days on porn star. Because what fucking matter ? not suffering matter ? LOL suffering is good, it's great, I LOVE IT. <3

"will of power". nature is will of power, if not, you'll ALL kill yourself, but you don't, did you ask why you not all kill yourself ? humm. Because you're all full of shit ! You deny your own will. because their is still a hint of meaning inside you, even the meaning of being a sitted piece of lazy monk. do not deny your own will. follow it some weak power are just tapping stupid meaningless shit on a forum and call that "truth" because if their painting wasn't true, they would just have lost all their last piece of meaning. every truth is real, being sit or dominate the world, it doesn't fucking matter. We are ART force. some painting are abstract shit without meaning, they just have sense for the poor artist that conceive them, and if they stop looking at it, what could happen, they don't dare to know this. They are poor artist clinging on what they call "no ego", a form of ego fiction.

Me aswell, but I m trying to fix this by being more into sex, will see if there is a reason by direct experience :>

this will not help get me laid

1. Infinite wishes

who knows

don't be sorry when I m gonna own the world :>

the key is : shut your mouth

"fixed patch ego death" : "go get fun" alright

and as always I love to put music ( that are not mine, but who cares if it is or not ) maybe from not wanting it to be a dream, the reality from meaninglessness , meaning from not control, control from wanting hell, having paradise from abandonning love, having love from listening too much leo, quitting leo from hating leo, loving leo leo is a concept, mirror of our own fear, he is a catalyst, the psychedelic ego death with legs what is leo dreams now, who knows, and who want to know anyway walk walk, dream walker <3

this takes full sense now

I m reading nietzshe so much, it was pure randomness, but once I wasn't at home I needed something to sleep and take a book on a shell ( not my room but many books ) my eyes go for reading nietzshe and I loved everything in it ( it was my first "real book" non fiction that I read for no reason ) then 2 years later ( this year ) I m quite coming back to read all his books. I love his writting, he talks to me, not because he sound orange, but he sound very yellow to me ( if you think of the context of his society, he was 200 years in the futur ) He is a good guide to "think by yourself" and studyied many religion ( and he studyied Buddhism philosophy while deconstructing religious ideology ) if you can understand the meta inside his writting, I think there is many gold there. what do you think ? is there a book that you loved about Nietzshe ? The one Beyond Good and Evil, real advanced my understanding of non duality. Don't judge him too fast on a uncontexted sentence about him, what do you think of his real writting ?