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Brace yourselves spring is coming

I had biggest backlashes after biggest improvements. Progress is mostly going two steps ahead one backwards and maybe even three steps backwards. You might feel like everything u did was useless since you failed lower when you started but thats the journey. Take your time when you have to and recommit. Try not to beat yourself up on the backlashes it will just make it bigger and longer

@Samra Amazing work. How long have you been drawing/painting? And also did you make that on your profile pic?

@John I had same experience. I was in a different room from my friend and we were tripping separately and the trip was bombing me and i thought i will go mad and start screaming and crying and my ego couldnt let it can happen so i fought through. The ideal would be to actually go mad and experience bad trip fully because you grow more from bad trips. Positive trips are good of course but if you need to experience bad trip it will happen, you cant really control what will happen but you can make sure you feel safe and are in good enviroment and be prepared for anything. For example going mad alone in the safe place and going mad on concert if you usually have a bit of social anxiety can fuck you up so bad. Make sure you do everything to make trip safe and if then bad trip comes it is meant to be there and just surrender

I would say yes, pretty much. My best trips happen when I come in with mindset to be ready to literally die even when i take smaller dosages and mostly my trips be good then and nothing bad happens. Just surrender to whatever happens I had two bad trips when I didn't had any mindset beforehand and I basically took it unconsciously and when it hit my mind shattered and I couldn't even grasp what is happening and what I have to do and I fought through entire trip until at the end I realised that only thing I had to do is surrender (I had litteraly 0 control and got lost really fast, didn't know where I came, why I came, why I took it, what is ego, what is life, what is anything bascially and I was just tensing muscles and fighting with trip and it was on 25 mg of 4 aco dmt)

What is an astral body?

My dad had a coffee with a gypsy in a hotel where he was singing that night and he met her there for the first time. After coffee she asked him if he wants from her to read him his future and he agreed then she asked him if he had a divorce case (with his 2nd wife) and she saw that the other side is really dark (and she really is, from my experience) and only wants bad to him and that he will get a lot of help from little bald man which was his lawyer and that he will come out as a winner. And after 3 years he won and pretty much got all his money back which he had to pay to her every month. She also said that I will move to live with him in Switzerland after I finish high school and I had real plans for that BUT I haven't went and I don't plan to because I've changed a lot since last 2 years. So, I guess it is changeable. Creepy stuff

So I've never practiced yoga, but I've tried it alone few times and loved it. I'd like to do Kundalini yoga, I'm aware of some risks but I'm also going to do bigger research on it. The question is are yoga teachers necessary if I can access all the information for myself?

Yo im getting back on topic. I had lsd experience where there was a gap bettween me and floor, there was additional layer. I was confused since i was expecting oneness and that was wierd. I contemplated about non duality and is life is a dream and i had some really shaky ego experiences. Weeks after going through contemplation leo put out a video and i was high on cannabis and could easy go with what he says. Then I "realized" that the gap was nothingness. Still no sure if its true experience but Im open towards deeper experience of it. It can be easy to trick yourslef into believing that but the only thing you can do is open yourself to a possibility that it can be true.

@TimStr he said in leo or naked reality interview that he experiences symetry and his body starts to do those kind of things

Im really rare alchohol drinker (once in two months aprox) but every time i get drunk i get real insights about reality and truth. Is it even possible? I know nobody talks about it so im not so sure if its real or not? Any similar experiences?

@Joseph Maynor niiice. Same question as charlotte? Do you remeber the insights and how did it help you?

To live from your core being

If you know what you would like to do and know a way to do it then there is no need. for example im going on design of interactive media because i was told i will learn how to draw there but the subject that emphasizes that is only once a week and in my case i haven't learned anything useful because group is too big and the professor is lazy (depends also on professor) so i took online courses for myself to practice drawing and that's the only thing i would like to do and with that i can go broader, like concept art, illustrations, graphic design (sorta helps but i will learn it alone at some point), 2d animations and the key is to learn how to draw. i spend a lot of my precious time learning history, english, typography etc. which i cant really use pretty much at all because i dont have the basis (classes are useful but not right now because i have a priority, then i will learn more by myself if i see that i can benefit from it). if i knew already how to draw then i might go to broad my perspective. and the drawing is priority right now, so i will drop out after i finish first year (in case i want to get back, but i doubt it and its kinda also because of my parents, to "respect" them in a sense). I know what i need to do and what is the process to achieve my goal, so if you have that you don't need it. Also going in college for social activities, finding friends etc. i dont find very useful, there are plenty other ways to do that. don't do the thing because you just should. I'm not saying anything bad about college, its just that in my current situation it isn't worth it. hope you feel your intuition and do what will most benefit you, whatever the choice. Cheers

@Thanatos13 lol man, it seems you are on a mission on this forum

do you fully experience day to day what you are trying to convey to others?

Thats great but dont try to just learn jokes and then tell them because you think they are funny, put an emotion while telling them, its mostly about emotions. I'm considered as funny guy and all i do is tell random shit that comes in my mind but i present them in funny manner because i find nonsense funny. hope i didn't put this too abstract but emotion is key. it might take some time to get into the flow when you dont think about it but it will be worth. Also try to see what is funny about anything you or any other people find funny. good luck

@tecladocasio so how do you know he is on drugs if its just a screen

So, last few days I feel this is the biggest backlash I had so far. Basically I've created a lot of shoulds, musts, etc. for myself and my biggest priority right now is to finish college exams on time. I had to let myself drop everything in order to do that, so when I'm not studying I'm playing video games, watching tv shows, skipping gym and eating junk food. I've also first time intentionally dropped meditation habit and I had 1+year every day in a row (99% of days actually). I'm kinda conscious of my unconsciousness if that makes sense, but backlash is so overwhelming I can't get myself for example to have appreciation for drinking clean water when I try to consciously enjoy it, I'm fully sucked into mechanism. I plan to go back on track slowly after I finish my exams, but the questions is - Is there a proper way to deal with backlash, should I just continue meditating, going to gym etc. even if it's huge drag right now to overcome this emotional labor or I just need to wait for backlash to go away and continue then?

@Psyche_92 What do you mean? @haai14 I went to sleep last night hyped up about today and woke up in 7 am hyped up again and instead i did the dishes, laundry, cleaning house and took a cold shower then i sat down to "rest" from all that and started playing skyrim "for a little bit" and i started doing repetitive quests for some guild to return it to its former glory and got bored fast but my mind told me to stay commited and dont give up when things get boring (xD), so i finished 25 quests after 2+ hours then i sat to do the work but i got tired and went to sleep for 20 mins then alarm came and i thought i wasn't sleeping i was mostly thinking, added 10 minutes, woke up, thought its not enough to do the work and woke up 6 hours later. fml there is mastermind villian in me so basically i did everything else instead of what i really need to do because i was hyped how this day will be productive af, instead i deceived myself abnormally

@student Thanks man, that response helped me a lot

Im interested in buying lpc but id like to know how long it takes to implement all that stuff? Im not trying to half-ass it, just want to know the time thats needed to fully integrate it

@Slade Great, thanks!

Amazing!! Can you send me in inbox your work i would love to see it

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