For me watching Leo's video on training (called "No Growth Possible Without Training") really helped me realise how to achieve what I wanted. Realising what I imagine my life to be like (having a clear purpose) helps me achieve my goals. When in the past I felt depressed, I usually hoped for it to just go away, or distracted myself with something to not be haunted by my issues. Eventually, I came to realise that doing this doesn't solve anything. If I give into my desires all the time and spend my entire life pleasing myself, how can I possibly expect something to change? Going through this process of conquering my "ego", as I like to call it, I'm discovering that actual change doesn't come free, nor does it come cheap. It requires a lot of effort on my part. I hope you'll be able to take something from my story, phrasing is still a challenge for me.