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A Mundane Life Update “How am I supposed to be f*cking zen when there is a mysterious poo in my garden of enlightenment?” ― United States of Tara It is my first week in my new apartment and I'm still feeling a little nervous about it. I'm living close to 8 mile now, it's where I go to do my grocery shopping. I live on the southern outskirts of two rather nice cities that are just north of Detroit, so it's a little closer to the 'hood than I've ever been, but it's the only place near work that my roommate and I could reasonably afford. I've never lived in a place where I was the minority, it feels a little weird and kind of scary truthfully, but I think I'll become used to it. I feel like I'm more on my own now than I've ever been, I'm working two jobs and back in school, back to doing my own cooking/grocery shopping and such. From the outside it seems I am a perfectly functioning adult, but it truthfully does feel a little lonely at times. Actually, I feel pretty lonely right now as I'm writing this. I thought I'd be happier with my emotional and physical freedom. I find myself missing the company of my old partner, even though I know that I didn't belong with him. Right now my roommate is asleep, I just drank a cup of coffee, and I have no one to talk to. So what better place to go than the internet?

I’m in the process of rediscovering the surpressed divine feminine in myself. No more mental masturbation, time to get down to business! ? I can relate. Glad to see you are doing well. Also I loved the story of your soccerball boxers.

Glad to see you back sister!! ❤️?

I just made these Leo icons for fun (contemplation journal, Leo soup, book list, and the man himself)

It is possible to become enlightened without using psychedelics. It’s about experiencing wholeness and oneness exactly as you are in the moment. If you feel like you’ve hit a wall, try out different techniques. In my perhaps unpopular opinion, drugs are used for man seeking to control his own enlightenment. Realize you are not the one who is in control. @SchallUndRauch lmao

I can speak to the fact that you can almost certainly find a good job as a web developer in America. Actually, most of the developers at my company are from different countries. There are many jobs for developers in Detroit right now, there is a recent start-up/tech boom going on in the city and many developers and designers are moving here from all over. There is also cheap and affordable housing in and near the city, but there are shady areas to look out for. I think your goal is definitely attainable so don’t give up if it is your dream. Keep researching and find a way to make it happen. I know many others that were able to make it happen for themselves, so if you are determined you can definitely find a way.

Giving up on Philosophy? “Everything you need to know you have learned through your journey.” ― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist I decided I want to give up on filling my head with philosophy, at least for the moment. I have figured out what all philosophy means: nothing. It's actually more of a distraction to doing consciousness work and I decided it's not helping me anymore. I want to start actually practising spirituality instead of listening to people talk about it. I want to be in the moment more, not thinking in circles about it. I want to start filling in this journal with practical exercises that I'm doing to try to heal myself emotionally. There will be an answer, let it be.

From my experience with cheating on my long-term ex-boyfriend, it's best if you either break it off now or tell the truth now if you want to stay with her and hope that she can forgive you (which could happen, you just need to put a lot of work in to mend the relationship after that). An important factor is deciding swiftly and not wasting any more time because you're already to the point of feeling guilt and shame. If you continue to stay with her and don't tell her, more guilt/shame/unhappiness will start to creep into your life slowly but surely. Just remember to act with integrity, the truth always wins one way or another. Don't make the same mistake I did and keep it bottled inside for three years after the fact. Anyway, that's just my two cents.

Jesus is taking a new approach this time around

I had a similar experience, a psychotic break where I realized that my calling was to write Disney movies. My goal was/is to write the next Lion King. I started working on my story, which is based symobolically on my life story, during my manic phase but lost the motivation to touch it again. It seems such a pure and perfect idea I’m afraid I’ll mess it up if I start writing again and I’m not in the same insanely inspired mindset. I’m still planning on finishing the story for my final project for my bachelors in a year so I hope that some of the motivation to work on it comes back soon. Also, there is a lot to be said on the heroes journey and it’s connection with enlightenment and spirituality, I’d recommend studying that topic more. P.S. I’d love to hear your story if you’d like to share. ❤️

@Emerald nailed it. I’d recommend watching Leo’s videos on the topic of judgment and becoming more aware that all of the judgements you are making are basically piles of shit. He has a practical exercise for you in this video: Theres also a book called “Judgement Detox” by Gabrielle Bernstein if you want to go a little deeper into the spiritual side of this topic and learn more practical exercises.

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Reborn When I was in the hospital the first time, I gave away the slippers that my mother had brought for me the first day that I was there. There was a girl complaining about her feet and without even thinking about it I offered her the slippers that I was wearing in exchange for her hospital issued sandals. I sarcastically called these sandals my “Jesus slippers” because they looked like plastic versions of something from 7 B.C. This didn’t seem like a big deal until the next time I visited the hospital (while thinking I was the new messiah) and saw the same slippers leaning up against the wall. Thinking that they were the exact same ones I gave away almost a year prior, I fell to the ground and cried in disbelief. This is the beginning of my story. I was off the chain, I was often drained I was off the meds, I was called insane What an awesome thing, engulfed in shame

I remember clearly when I came to this realization for the first time about a year and a half ago and I remember feeling the same relief of finally knowing what my core problem was. It seems like a simple insight but sometimes there are layers you need to dig through to truly find this answer for yourself, so I commend you for digging deep these past few days. Leo has a few videos on this topic that helped me, I recommend you watch and listen to them carefully.

Please share your thoughts.

@Bernard well put, thanks!

@Jamie Universe I’m curious about whether learning more about this structure will be more of a benefit or a distraction for me personally. @Leo Gura Care to weigh in?

@fireworld By better do you mean more conscious? Are certain stages actually better than others?

@Leo Gura You know sometimes I actually wonder this about famous people lol

Beautiful voice. Reminds me a bit of Idina Menzel

@Erlend K great advice!

Verse 1: What's this feeling inside? I tried to run, but now I cant hide Never thought that love could ever feel this good Always gave more than I should But now it seems like it's worth a try 'Cause I could never imagine life without you By my side Chorus: So let's run away, run away From this place We can get away, get away From this craziness Come follow me, follow me Lets see where it leads We'll be happy, happy Once we're finally free! Maybe this will help spark some ideas! Cheers