Karla

@ajasatya love this encouragement. Thank you SO much.

Yesterday's video journal

36/365 Update video: Borrowed the attached quote from a video. More evidence of self actualization as wellness. In so many ways it's like-- duh, of course lol. 37/365 (Lazy I know to have to entries in one but it works). I was visualy thinking of shedding ego today and I realized that there are some similarities in what Leo described in his first what is God video-- of his body kinda being zipped open lol. And also in Neville Goddard's description of galgatha (splitting open of the skull) too. Andddd makes me think of one of the tales in Women Who Run with wolves! Which led to me looking up the author! Clarissa Pinkola Estes .So many tangents I know, howeverrrr-- I realized I kinda wanna be (the me version of) her. So cool that she gets to analyze and write fairytales ?. I've read this particular book a couple times but I realized she has a few other ones too he he. "You can do whatever you want, If you're willing to take a butt whipping." Another lady I follow shared that today from D.L. Hughley because he apparently had to go through it, in order to be able to do what he does now. Loved that he he. The "sufferring" of having others not like you is not all that bad lol... If you get to do whatever you want✨ ahhhh. Soooo many good examples of this being true today in my interactions!! This morning I was talking to this guy (Sam) at the gym and he told me he couldn't get down with the marketing part in doing real estate so... He quit. After sooo much preparation. When he told me the "uncomfortable parts" it was obvi that he didn't wanna take that ass whoopin in order to do whatever he wanted he he he. Usually-- it takes several examples in real life for me to be able to see hang ups in myself. Sooo, I was SUPER grateful for these examples right in my face! I was also talking to someone at this Zumba party event anddd she is a massage therapist-- she is ready to change careers aft 20 years but she doesn't know what.... She said she does reiki but NEVER talks about it because "its too odd for her clientele and her city to know what it is"... Mmm hmm. No ass whoopin and no doing whatever she wants until she allows the whoopin to commence. Fascinating! Soo clear! So many examples are provided for us in nature and in our environment-- containing everything we need IF we open our eyes... And take that ass whoopin. So amazing right?

Lol!! This is funny and interesting. I can notice someone's develolment based on the questions they ask, it's harder to see your own because you can only see from your level of development. I think at this time in the world many people are low consciousness, which is one reason why you have to be okay with being alone or weird. For me-- I never ask questions on here because if I have a question, I am just going to find the answer right away he he. Or check in to see if I deeply know the answer. How come you don't post in your journal very often?

@Zigzag Idiot True he he. I think that's everyone, we all have that exhilarating high followed by lulls. I like to feel that calm that is just observing... Hoping saving this vid here will help me when I need the reminder lol. ?✨

I feel like there is a space where none of the things are a big deal... They just are. More Neville today. This voice was a bit annoying but I like the content in this. Makes sense for my all my practices.

35/365 Starting my new sentence structures. This video is a journal update and just a little more focus going forward. I wanted to get honed in on my direction: speaking more in person & video, my story/ fairytale and self actualization as wellness. Visualization, gratitude, sentence stem completion and a video (either here or on one of my channels each day).

34/365 Still alive & doing vids — daily, self esteem structures & gratitude. And some visualization. Binging on Neville Goddard and Nathaniel Brandon. Feeling like I am still not fully embodying my upgrade he he. I just can’t even repeat anymore, ugh. (Almost) Unadmittedly also (lightly) binging on SheraSeven1 because her nonchalant and unbothered demeanor is so good even though her content is not really aligned for me.... she is so funny and entertaining. I’ll be borrowing some of her non-caring. I feel like my faves always have this. Plus borrowing a level of “just turn on the camera and talk” if that makes sense. I just love that feel of “pulled together yet not too polished” for some reason... I need it in person and on video so, working on that. I feel like it’s some level of importance to see someone that kinda looks like you embodying the things— it’s like a different kind of cross reference. I am starting some new sentence structures tomorrow. Feel like typing a lot of stuff is not helpful at this point.

33/365 Today I worked on a checklist for my group instead of my myth... Kinda don't feel bad but I wanted to finish it for today. I still feel like I made progress on my videos-- always feel clearer when I am doing what I want to do. A little distracted from my research/ self esteem sentence completion again eek. I did a few this morning and it turned into my to do list. I cranked out some gratitude too which I used to do daily but I realized that I wanted it back purely for the energy boost-- I am super grateful cor this opportunity to just be whatever I wanna be. I felt kinda overwhelmed with getting everything done today... And I still didn't get everything done. My vid from yesterday... Just going to use my myth monday vid for today's accountability so I can sleep he he. For now sharing a good quote...

Spiral seems a lot more nuanced and just deeper from my perspective... Never realized that it coincides with the rainbow. @TheAvatarStateLove that!

32/365 My video is loading he he. Still not finished the story but it has all the things I needed the confidence to express. I did a video for today and has some reflection butttt it's still loading. I love love love the sound of the rain. It's raining atm he he. The plan is to finish the story and use a mini version for myth monday. I will report back on this part.

@Soulbass cool he he. I was just curious.

31/365 A delayed update. The video is from yesterday. I'm getting better at video but still a video version of me. Just kinda off lol. Planning to complete my fairytale today and binge write a bunch of blogs and flesh out some ideas.

Cool. Why 7 days?

Yesterday's video...

30/365 11 years ago today my sister had her "change in mental status". Thats was a huge life change for my fam even though we had no idea at the time she would never be the same person again. For real it's one of the main things that led me to begin seeing self actualization as the possible antidote to "mental illness" but there were lots of little nudges along the way that are less noticeable now. My sentence completion was the best yet this morning-- you know how something just becomes your own? It felt like a remixed version of a higher perspectove "to -do" list and some affirmations mixed with big picture/ early morning insights. Over the weekend-- I'm doing some reflections on my last 30 days on this journal and some free writing... And tgat research he he.

Stolen from wiara YTchannel he he.

29/365 Today seemed filled with some good nuggets. I have been watching this lady on YT here and there that has some interesting and kinda low conscious level advice on seduction that makes watching quite the guilty pleasure lol. Part of it is kinda good-- the plan is to experiment and flush out some concepts around an upgraded video or two on my channel this weekend. Seems cheesy but I don't care. Reflection share: In reflection: Living consciously to me means letting go when I feel the sensation of holding on too tightly at any time. Living consciously to me means no morr handshakes for the fakes-- caring less if people leave my circle as I expand. Having people around that only tolerate a tiny sliver of you is so dumb. Living consciously to me means playing Barbie adult style because I am the barbie now. Living consciously to means allowing what ever needs to be expressed in order to be healthy and whole. Living consciously to me means being unreasonable. Living consciously to me means remembering what happens to people who shove down their true nature in order to conform-- dis-ease and despair. Todays share is one I put on yt: I did a vid yesterday but wasnt going to list it but ehhhh... I will anyways he he.

@Zigzag Idiot interesting... Totally curious! Thanks for always sharing-- you're eye-opening divine shares, every time. I am grateful.

@Zigzag Idiot fascinating. I want to do this fairytale again at some point because I knew that there were some nuances to dig into a lot more-- including Gimeny CRICKET. Your conscience perhaps.... I like to also think of stories like this as truly symbolizing the whole person. All of the characters are one just like in the hero's journey. I will check out the article!

28/365 Just did a video and as I sat here realized that to live your purpose and complete your myth IS to come full circle. It is this quote: "Never cease from exploration. At the end of all your exploring. We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time." -T.S. Elliott He he. Myths and hero's journeys always lead back to the home town or something. As well as our characteristics that seem to become whole and balanced out.

27/365 It's day 46/365 on my YouTube. Today I was realizing that I wanted to feel more profesh on my videos he he. So that's something to play with on that channel as well as evolving/ surrendering more into being true to what's revealed in my sentence completion. Time is flying by gosh... I want to do a 30 days of journaling in review (even though I missed a couple days) next week and make a leap forward and decide what needs to be the focus for the next 30 days. Tomorrow I have a talk and a meeting with someone I contract for... My increased self esteem will be tested he he.

This was perfect listening for today... Useful before going on lives, videos and talks.

26/365 I had a half assed my sentence completion today... But it felt like it flowed. The plan is to sprinkle more sentence structures in tomorrow more focused on consciousness from the Art of Living Consciously. I did my video for Myth Monday and it was fun but it felt odd like who cares he he. It’s good to practice more speaking lessons next time for sure.... I think it’s partially being more comfy on camera... or more consciousness work probably. And grounding. The vid is today’s journal Because.... laziness.

Good suggestions already but... I will add my bit. I think we usually know deep down why we are here but we learn to ignore listening AND we think it has to fit into something we already see in our immediate environment. I say get Leo’s life purpose course OR find out as much about yourself as possible— Check out Do What You Are, a MBTI book I used awhile back that is super helpful. Also, ask yourself this question (What is my life purpose?) EVERY morning as soon as you wake up and write down everything that comes out without judgement. Should get clearer. Also... ha ha— What do you want to do every day and you won’t get bored? How do you want to be able to help people or contribute? Get serious about it sooner rather than later because the sooner you start working on it the better. Also think about if you are 90 years old or 100 and your life is behind you.... what is that you want to say that you’ve done? YOu might take this a step further and say, on your death bed. What will you be SO happy that you accomplished and that you didn’t give up on? Anything worth while is not super easy but like I said, the sooner you start the clearer you’ll be. Action seems to make things clear so I have learned. I actually began working something I felt was my purpose awhile back but it wasn’t exactly that... you might set the expectation to shift as your life presents opportunities to know yourself at deeper and deeper levels. Good Luck. The world absolutely needs what you would love to give in case you doubt it.