Karla

33/365 Today I worked on a checklist for my group instead of my myth... Kinda don't feel bad but I wanted to finish it for today. I still feel like I made progress on my videos-- always feel clearer when I am doing what I want to do. A little distracted from my research/ self esteem sentence completion again eek. I did a few this morning and it turned into my to do list. I cranked out some gratitude too which I used to do daily but I realized that I wanted it back purely for the energy boost-- I am super grateful cor this opportunity to just be whatever I wanna be. I felt kinda overwhelmed with getting everything done today... And I still didn't get everything done. My vid from yesterday... Just going to use my myth monday vid for today's accountability so I can sleep he he. For now sharing a good quote...

Spiral seems a lot more nuanced and just deeper from my perspective... Never realized that it coincides with the rainbow. @TheAvatarStateLove that!

I do think there is a lower rate of absorbing the information for me because I am usually driving, cleaning or exercising while listening but I LOVE my audible subscription. There are lots of free audio books on youtube also and I listen to those as well. I prefer to read an actual book if it's a complex or really deep topic-- I get something from reading and sometimes re-reading words on a page that I can't explain. Sometimes I listen and read a book at the same damn time so my concentration is all soaked up in the one book he he.

32/365 My video is loading he he. Still not finished the story but it has all the things I needed the confidence to express. I did a video for today and has some reflection butttt it's still loading. I love love love the sound of the rain. It's raining atm he he. The plan is to finish the story and use a mini version for myth monday. I will report back on this part.

@Soulbass cool he he. I was just curious.

31/365 A delayed update. The video is from yesterday. I'm getting better at video but still a video version of me. Just kinda off lol. Planning to complete my fairytale today and binge write a bunch of blogs and flesh out some ideas.

Cool. Why 7 days?

Yesterday's video...

30/365 11 years ago today my sister had her "change in mental status". Thats was a huge life change for my fam even though we had no idea at the time she would never be the same person again. For real it's one of the main things that led me to begin seeing self actualization as the possible antidote to "mental illness" but there were lots of little nudges along the way that are less noticeable now. My sentence completion was the best yet this morning-- you know how something just becomes your own? It felt like a remixed version of a higher perspectove "to -do" list and some affirmations mixed with big picture/ early morning insights. Over the weekend-- I'm doing some reflections on my last 30 days on this journal and some free writing... And tgat research he he.

Stolen from wiara YTchannel he he.

29/365 Today seemed filled with some good nuggets. I have been watching this lady on YT here and there that has some interesting and kinda low conscious level advice on seduction that makes watching quite the guilty pleasure lol. Part of it is kinda good-- the plan is to experiment and flush out some concepts around an upgraded video or two on my channel this weekend. Seems cheesy but I don't care. Reflection share: In reflection: Living consciously to me means letting go when I feel the sensation of holding on too tightly at any time. Living consciously to me means no morr handshakes for the fakes-- caring less if people leave my circle as I expand. Having people around that only tolerate a tiny sliver of you is so dumb. Living consciously to me means playing Barbie adult style because I am the barbie now. Living consciously to means allowing what ever needs to be expressed in order to be healthy and whole. Living consciously to me means being unreasonable. Living consciously to me means remembering what happens to people who shove down their true nature in order to conform-- dis-ease and despair. Todays share is one I put on yt: I did a vid yesterday but wasnt going to list it but ehhhh... I will anyways he he.

@Zigzag Idiot interesting... Totally curious! Thanks for always sharing-- you're eye-opening divine shares, every time. I am grateful.

@Zigzag Idiot fascinating. I want to do this fairytale again at some point because I knew that there were some nuances to dig into a lot more-- including Gimeny CRICKET. Your conscience perhaps.... I like to also think of stories like this as truly symbolizing the whole person. All of the characters are one just like in the hero's journey. I will check out the article!

28/365 Just did a video and as I sat here realized that to live your purpose and complete your myth IS to come full circle. It is this quote: "Never cease from exploration. At the end of all your exploring. We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time." -T.S. Elliott He he. Myths and hero's journeys always lead back to the home town or something. As well as our characteristics that seem to become whole and balanced out.

27/365 It's day 46/365 on my YouTube. Today I was realizing that I wanted to feel more profesh on my videos he he. So that's something to play with on that channel as well as evolving/ surrendering more into being true to what's revealed in my sentence completion. Time is flying by gosh... I want to do a 30 days of journaling in review (even though I missed a couple days) next week and make a leap forward and decide what needs to be the focus for the next 30 days. Tomorrow I have a talk and a meeting with someone I contract for... My increased self esteem will be tested he he.

This was perfect listening for today... Useful before going on lives, videos and talks.

26/365 I had a half assed my sentence completion today... But it felt like it flowed. The plan is to sprinkle more sentence structures in tomorrow more focused on consciousness from the Art of Living Consciously. I did my video for Myth Monday and it was fun but it felt odd like who cares he he. It’s good to practice more speaking lessons next time for sure.... I think it’s partially being more comfy on camera... or more consciousness work probably. And grounding. The vid is today’s journal Because.... laziness.

Good suggestions already but... I will add my bit. I think we usually know deep down why we are here but we learn to ignore listening AND we think it has to fit into something we already see in our immediate environment. I say get Leo’s life purpose course OR find out as much about yourself as possible— Check out Do What You Are, a MBTI book I used awhile back that is super helpful. Also, ask yourself this question (What is my life purpose?) EVERY morning as soon as you wake up and write down everything that comes out without judgement. Should get clearer. Also... ha ha— What do you want to do every day and you won’t get bored? How do you want to be able to help people or contribute? Get serious about it sooner rather than later because the sooner you start working on it the better. Also think about if you are 90 years old or 100 and your life is behind you.... what is that you want to say that you’ve done? YOu might take this a step further and say, on your death bed. What will you be SO happy that you accomplished and that you didn’t give up on? Anything worth while is not super easy but like I said, the sooner you start the clearer you’ll be. Action seems to make things clear so I have learned. I actually began working something I felt was my purpose awhile back but it wasn’t exactly that... you might set the expectation to shift as your life presents opportunities to know yourself at deeper and deeper levels. Good Luck. The world absolutely needs what you would love to give in case you doubt it.

@moon777light good info. Just followed Dr. Jess!! Good stuff.

25/365 I swear I posted day 25 already, strange... Anyways, here it goes again— I finally got a vid out on the body-mind-soul aligned path to unfolding full potential. Felt good, my self esteem research is kicking in ayeeeee. So I am doing a little plan for the week. Today is unfold your myth Monday and I am doing/deconstructing a fairytale kinda looking forward. Everything is consciousness, that’s why consciousness work WORKS— health, wealth, relationships, career, LIFE is consciousness. Dis-ease comes from unconsciousness— even at a basic level not being conscious of your our body allows dis-ease to creep in without our noticing the signs. Of course I don’t have this all figured out and this is a somewhat simplistic view but it’s true on a deep level. Dis-ease causes us to pay attention to areas of the body, our life —where we were once unaware of. Obviously, I am a bit obsessed because of my twin sister’s illness and how it seemed to come out of nowhere (ultimately everything does he he) however, there were warning signs that just seemed soooo normal. Mental illness is the norm though. Here is my journal vlog from last night.

MORE on “enjoying myself” aka. In joy in myself/ Host to God or Hostage to Ego My body is spirit, and spirit is perfect, therefore my body is perfect also I am confident, I am serene, I am sure **No matter what obstacle or undesirable circumstance crosses my path, I refuse to accept it [I feel like this means refuse to ACCEPT it as truth} For it is nothing but illusion. There can be no obstacle or undesirable circumstance to the mind of god which is in me around me and serves me now. Moby Dick— is REALLY a story about a man trying to find his higher self **fairytale clue, as I believe all fairytales are this including the Bible of course** “For as this appalling ocean surrounds the verdant land, so in the soul of man, lies one insular Tahiti full of peace and joy but encompassed by all of the horrors of the half lived life.“ -Moby Dick (?? Not sure but it’s in the video and loooove this.) In every moment of your life you have this is the choice: You can either be a host to God or a hostage to your Ego. LOVE LOVE these pieces stolen from a Wayne Dyer video andddd I thought of it as I was free writing on my insight yesterday: In Joy In Myself as a way of life and a way to embody knowledge of *I am* as I allow FULL realization and the knowing of *I am* saturates my entire beingness/being. This would trump my self esteem research, however it continues. I actually love doing it even when it’s very uncomfortable to not stay the same. I can’t stomach living the same year over and over as I noticed from watching an old video that was just as good as my current talks if not better. I must evolve. Here is the video. It’s short and sweet and amazing. Today I feel so very grateful for Leo’s work and that he chose to make some videos instead of going to live in a cave or mansion lol. I believe everyone has the power to massively impact lives in a powerful way... but their very own way. If we can follow our inner knowing/ God vs. being a hostage to Ego. We learn to be a hostage to Ego. We can also unlearn this and listen to Truth. Not easy but this is to live. Leo’s work has really helped me to live more as myself and be okay with sacrificing attachments.

24/365!! Yayy. So many good insights today, just made a video... Still flushing it out here. Yesterday, I saw am old video from last year and I realized that it was a well done video... For real. I felt awful because I had this feeling that I've been going in circles. Literally stomach aching feeling like I've been spinning tires and holding myself bk-- sooo I journaled out about it. Q. Why am I holding myself back? What am I missing/ failing to notice? A. That I am still telling myself that I am not there yet. Putting BEING on hold til I "get there". I have a history of falling into this trap when I KNOW there is only now... It can never be later: when I get better at things, later I will be ready or confident. Ugh. Then today I had a big realization that-- in joy in my self, enjoying myself-- authentically, no matter what is going on--is huge... That it would be superior to even gratitude or almost any advice. Yet it's unbelievable in looking around that it could be as simple as internal pleasure no matter what is going on externally. Pleasure is life but there would be no pleasure without the seeming contrast of pain. To shield yourself from pain is to simultaneously cock block yourself from pleasure. Again *in joy in myself* is still the ultimate goal --without the neediness for externals, instead *enjoying myself* goes along with the freedom to explore externals for the experience. I may come bk to include the video later...

@yrneh soo I am bit obsessed with Adaptation as an example. If you like fantasy-- I feel like the main character in The Shape of Water evolves a lot in the movie. Those are both interesting but kinda out there. I am always looking for a good balance of all the feels because I hate when movies are too sappy. I agree & feel like most movies are boring without any real character evolution.

So good he he

23/365 This morning's sentence completion was super clarifying for me. However... I was not honest with the speaker meeting host. I was all, "e-mail me" to catch up but I am going to bail. I don't think its the best fit for me-- she and the group is kinda unorganized in a way that feels annoying and I am not really down with collaborating at all with her. I am not the best collaborator because I gotta just do my own thing right now. If It's not aligned, I decline lol-- I have had this lil saying on repeat in the back of my mind lately. I have gotten some value from the John Maxwell stuff-- primarily how it matches up with the toastmasters, lisa nichols and communication skills in general. Nothing ground breaking but definitely some good little nuggets like the one I practiced in today's speech. Each meeting we choose a former lesson to embody and exemplify. I chose clarity here-- in other words, driving ONE main point home with a story or evidence with one main take away. They gave me good feedback which is nice but I also get that in toastmasters. Leaving out unneccesary shit (in your speech and in life) makes your message super clear. Here's the talk I did... Side note:: free writing (self inquiry style or Natjaniel B style), taking action and thoughtful reflection help me a lot with clarity. I feel super clear and awake today.