Alexo45

Do you also experience buzzing and tingling sensations over your whole body? And feelings of numbness/lightheadedness?

If i Google my symptoms, i get the results of being depersonalized/dissociative. Thing is it gets noted as something extremely terrifying or unpleasant, which brings anxiety attacks with it and stuff, i'm not experiencing that at all. I'm in fucking bliss that's all. But yea, i'm going to stop explaining stuff because i even find it hard to explain. "I" probably sound like "i'm" just going crazy or something, Lol. "I" even have to remind myself of what a thought/thinking is like at this point.

Yea for about 1.5 years now. Not sure if that's the cause though.

The "I" that wants to come to a realization IS the problem.

"you" don't sleep at all.

Who exactly is the "i" that thinks he is a loser? also, who is aware of the great doubt all the time?

Also, are all thoughts ego? Is there a distinction between ego mind thoughts and conscious impulses?

I can definitely recognize the pulls, but they are getting more and more subtile tho. Since yesterday i'm going outside to trigger that thing, inhaling every human being as much as i can. Sometimes it triggers thoughts, but sometimes i can feel it coming and it just collapses as soon as i notice it. Good explanation, thanks.

Thanks for your answer, and the reminder of this video. I saw this video a long time ago, but seemed to forget about it. You might be right on my ego being triggered. Lately "I" am getting very scared on my journey, because i feel like i'm leaving something behind. I have this anxious feeling of losing control, when i know there is nothing to control at all.

Exactly this.

Nothing to be worried about. I experienced things like this numerous times.

I look into the mirror See myself, I'm over me I need space for my desires Have to dive into my fantasies I know as soon as I'll arrive Everything is possible Cause no one has to hide Beyond the invisible Close your eyes Just feel and realize It is real and not a dream I'm in you and you're in me It is time To break the chains of life If you follow you will see What's beyond reality

Hey, how can i increase my meditation sessions? I’m wondering if it’s a good thing to force myself? For now i’m able to do 2 hour sessions, but i want to do 4 hour sessions, because i’m planning on doing a week of only meditating.

Hey, lately i've begun to feel weird after the first 15-30mins while meditating. I sit in a position where i fold my hands, but after 15-30mins it doesn't feel like my hands are folded anymore, when in fact they are. Yesterday it even felt like my hands were going all over the place or just wide out of each other, even when i was certain that they were folded. I got scared because it felt so weird so i ended my session, and then i saw my hands were in fact folded. This does not only happen with my hands, but also with other parts of my body. I decided to start a next session, and got past the weird feeling, because i wanted to explore this more. My whole body ended up feeling like it was folded up inside of a box at first, and when i continued i felt like the "i" inside of my body raised to my head. Sitting there, i could literally not feel the rest of my body anymore, and the only feeling i had was being inside of my brains. Is this normal? It's very hard to continue my meditation sessions because i feel like something bad is going to happen.

Hello, i've been through a long time of shadow work and resolved most of my personal problems, except for one, which is self doubt ( at least that's my guess ). Theres been several times that i'm catching myself being scared to fail, or doubting my own ability to do things, which results in taking no action at all. For example: 1) i'm browsing for a job online, skimming through some vacancies. As soon as i get one that might fit me, i'm starting to doubt myself, being scared that i'm probably not going to be hired, or that i'm not able to do the job as it should be done, which results in not applying. i've tried thinking back at my past successful applications, but it's not giving me the confidence to simply do the things i should do. Something is holding me back from taking action, and i don't know what it is. 2) i'm thinking about joining university. After skimming through the website of my preferred university and talking with some people over there, i'm scared that i might fail university, or that i'm not smart enough. This results in taking no action at all. Even after succeeding in several online test examinations, i'm still doubting my ability to succeed university. I feel like i'm scared to give it my all, and in a way i'm also scared of success. With this in mind, i've always done a great job in anything i undertook in the past. I don't know why this is happening, but it's the main thing holding me back from succeeding and progressing in life i feel. What are your thoughts on this?

Hey, how can i deal with unconscious people, especially the ones who stand close to me? i'm having a hard time lately because i'm almost in no way related to my parents/family anymore. Their world view is completely different than mine, after i've gone through a period of self-actualization for almost 2 years now. It's just that i'm getting triggered a lot of the times, and i know that this is my ego, but i don't know how to deal with it. I've already tried just ignoring it, or decided not to speak up, but that's not how i want to spend my time around them. They already told me that i've gone crazy, and that everything i'm doing right now is living in a fantasy world, and that i need to wake up. It's just that sometimes i'm so enthusiastic about some new insight, that i want to share it with them, but every time i open up to them, they just get very cold and call me crazy. I'm trying to be compassionate and keep my relationship with them on a steady level, but it's hard. Lately i'm not opening up anymore, not telling much about my life and stuff anymore, because it just doesn't make sense to them. Is anyone having the same "problem"?

Lol weird i couldn't find it. Thanks man :D.

Hello, i've been stumbling on some posts, talking about a video where Leo teaches us how to keep a journal and contemplate. Been searching for it for some time, but can't find it anywhere. If you know what video it might be, please tell me. Also, if you have a short guide on how i can journal/contemplate, that will be appreciated.

That's honestly a good idea. I might give it a try.

Hey guys, i was wondering if you have to open or close your eyes if you use the " do nothing " meditation method. Also, i'm using this method for some time now, and i noticed that while i'm meditating i catch myself a lot becoming aware of not being aware. I get pushed out of the fantasy or thought i might have been thinking of at that time, and become aware of it, only to fall back in one. This repeats for the most part during my meditation sessions. Sometimes i'm also aware of being aware and that's when it feels really awesome, is this the end goal?

I was referring to the "end goal" as in how you want your state to be during your normal day :D.

Hello, i don't know what to do anymore. In the past i would have given up already, because i wouldn't even know that this was a problem with my ego, heck i didn't even know what the ego was, and wouldn't even research the problem i was having. Right now i'm very aware that i'm still self-sabotaging myself in many ways, even with working on my life purpose. Because my ego is even winning from me while i'm working on the most important thing in my life, i really have to stop this monster from taking my life once and for all, but i don't know how :(. In the past i was self sabotaging with going to the gym, eating healthy, quitting smoking... . I don't know how, but i seemed to got past that and i'm doing it consistently right now. I would love to get consistent in studying for my life purpose, but i can't seem to do it. 10mins or more in, and my mind get's distracted. It's so stupid, because i can see this loop happening over and over. 1) I start studying 2) my mind gets in overdrive 3) Thoughts of how this life purpose is probably not the one, how i'm not making progress fast enough, how i'm a loser for not understanding something immediately, how i'm too stupid for the purpose,... 4) quit studying 5) doing some low ass conscious activity 6) feeling bad because of not studying and making progress. That's how it always goes, and i can't seem to break the loop. So far i'm doing everything i can to stay healthy and have a good drive of energy throughout the day, but it doesn't seem to pay of in studying. I'm also meditating for at least 1 hour every day, and some days even 2 hours. I desperately need a fix

Hey all, the title pretty much sums up my problem. I can't focus/concentrate for even 5 mins. This is going on with pretty much everything i'm trying to do if it resolves around self-help material. Reading a book, watching a YouTube video, doing the life purpose course of Leo,... you name it. It's almost as soon as i start doing any of these things, that my mind starts to drift off and almost without being conscious off it, i'm reading the comments of a YouTube video instead of watching the actual video, getting identified with my thoughts and daydreaming while reading a book,.. I've had moments in the past where i was really concentrated on some of the material and the difference is crazy, too bad it doesn't last long and i don't know how to create these moment spontaneously. I'm getting pretty upset about it, since i'm planning my free time to make progress on the life purpose course or anything else, but when the time comes i'm not making any progress. How can i resolve this and become productive?

Hello, I saw the video from Leo about Overcoming addiction, where he says that when you stop the behavior you suspect being addicted to for at least 7 days, you get cravings. I suspected myself being addicted to porn and masturbation, so i decided to "test" this out. Today hits day 6, and if i have to be honest, i'm starting to get really uncomfortable with this. I'm starting to have weird fantasies about sex i used to have in my past relationships, and it's very hard not to think about masturbating and porn. I'm also having a very uncomfortable tension down there, and i'm really having a hard time to not do it right now. I'm not sure if these are signs of an addiction? How can you even make a distinction between being addicted and normal arousal in something that you are naturally driven to do? If there wouldn't be a natural tension, or high cravings for masturbation/sex than we wouldn't be bothered to do it in like forever right?