Alexo45

This is something that i've became conscious of. To get any results in my life, i have to go against everything that i believe, know, think, feel,... 90% of my thoughts throw me in the wrong direction, at least if i believe and act on them. Maybe 10% of my thoughts are practical, but 90% of them trap me in a never-ending loop of mental masturbation which keep me from doing anything i need to do, to make progress and get to a better place in life. I wasted a lot of time thinking that i knew how to fix something, or that i would have come to a solution if i only would spend some more time thinking about it, when instead i should have been taking action, and make adjustments along the way. Peace

Relapsed after 14 days. I'm really at a loss with this one. Been addicted since i was 12, still haven't kicked it. Max was 50+ days about a year ago. Still haven't watched porn in 16 days though.

I'm on day 10. Not really having a hard time so far.

Because from the absolute perspective, the person can't be helped, nor does he need to get helped. Everything is just going fine as it is, and should be going. It's just a paradox that i have to workout myself i guess.

Yea, i've done the course. I didn't complete it, but i did at least 95% of it, so saying that my life purpose wasn't thought out is not true. Anyways, i already started over again, we'll see what comes out of it.

Hello, It's been about 2 months since i lastly did anything resolving around my life purpose. It also has been 2 months since i began to know about non-duality. I don't know why, but since then, my life purpose and plans started to make no sense anymore, and i felt like maybe it wasn't the right choice for me. It also didn't take long for me to "cancel" all my plans to go to university and study psychology,... My life purpose was to become a psychotherapist, and it really felt like a genuine one, taking my past and everything into account. After learning about non-duality, i felt like becoming a psychotherapist was stupid, because i started to feel like it wouldn't give me enough satisfaction anymore. I don't want to become a psychotherapist, with in the back of my mind, the idea that i'm not really helping the person at all. I guess i would feel like i'm cheating, or lying to someone. By typing this out, i'm actually becoming conscious of how shortsighted i was, and how stupid it was to cancel my plans, or maybe not? Anyways, i'm stuck at the moment, and i don't know what to do. I'm thinking about starting the life purpose course over again, but i'm not sure if that would be a good idea right now. What do you think?

Yea, the problem is that i'm already 25. Feeling old as fuck to be honest.

Yea, i feel like my intuition is full of shit. It's changing the thing it wants constantly.

Hello, Through my journey of self-development, i've been changing and growing a lot, even though some of my problems are still present. These are memories that keep coming back from being bullied, as well as some other things that occurred in the past. When these memories come in my conscious, they really mess me up, and i've been trying to let them be there, accept them as they are, but they hurt like hell. I feel like there is a lot of unresolved pain inside of me still, and i need to find a way to resolve this. Especially after meditating, or in a session they tend to come up. Mostly these are random images of my bullies and stuff. Is there any way to let this pain come up, so i can deal with this?

Thanks, i'm going to try it out. Is this something you have to do daily, by consciously thinking about those memories? Also, do you have a video or something of that sort about this?

If i have to force myself to meditate? I can't seem to enjoy it anymore. Lately i'm just sitting there, can't really focus, and i'm just waiting for the timer to go off.

LOL ahahaha

Stop using ALL social media forever, you won’t regret it.

No it's not. not at all. Ups and downs only occur when you have a fake relationship, build on selfish desires.

Yep, almost 4 months now, and it's slowly driving me insane. At first i was very motivated to find me something decent, but now i feel like i won't find anything at all. The biggest dealbreaker in finding a job is my transport, because i don't have a car. I have my bike and public transport, but that doesn't take me very far, or at least not to a place where they have tons of jobs. Because of my transport, i decided to try and apply for a job, telling them that i would be able to get better transport after they hire me, but a lot of the times they say they can't do that. There are tons of jobs i could do if i lived 10miles away from here, but it's just no option right now, because i'm low on cash. I'm getting very desperate, and i'm worried more and more every day that goes by, because the gap is getting bigger and bigger, and it doesn't seem to get better. At the moment i'm looking for temporary agency's, and even that is getting very hard. I don't know what to do.

No.

These are also thoughts. "You" are already aware of thoughts, so there is nothing else to do. "You" don't have to disbelieve them, because that's also doing something. The mechanic (ego) loops back that way, which keeps it running. All of this has been seen. There wouldn't be any memory from falling back into the believing habit, or having suffered without consciousness. Become aware of the awareness. Realize that "you" are the absolute consciousness that is conscious of being conscious.

Only to realize, that in the end all of this hassle was just another big ego trip.

The dangers of excessive meditation: Never waking up.

1) Then don't do anything at all. 2) This is "your" ego, crying that "you" have to do something. At the same time it's making "you" feel bad because "you" fall asleep. 3) Ofcourse "you" can't convince "yourself" to do something. "You" can't manipulate reality in a way your "ego" likes. "You" just don't feel like it, period. Accept this fact, and simply let the universe take over. Even saying that "you" have to accept it, is kind of stupid, because "you" already are, "you" just don't realize it yet. Imagine "yourself" riding a rollercoaster, it's already doing it's thing, and "you" can't manipulate it, or get out. Yet "you" are screaming "oh no, slow down!", "i don't want this anymore",... It's the same thing.

1) "You" already are a robot, "you" just don't realize it yet. 2) "You" can't choose anything. 3) "You" are not detached from emotions, feelings and thoughts. "you" simply see them for what they are ( energy moving ). "You" still experience every emotion, feeling or thought. "You" just don't cling to them anymore. E.g. only wanting to be happy, have happy thoughts etc.. 4) That question supposed that there is "another", which isn't the case at all. 5) Everything is "excitement". Even crying is exciting. 6) The universe runs the show. 7) "you" don't always feel positive. "You" experience every emotion, but you don't cling to it, and you don't try to identify why you feel a certain way, you just accept it.

Nothing.

Hahahahahah. I've read it somewhere before, but shit did i knew it was this radical. Hahahahahah.

There is only time to kill.

Yea, and still everything is happening as it should happen :D. From the absolute perspective it doesn't make any sense, but in the dream state everything makes sense. To be conscious from both of these at the same time is insane hahahahaha.