Alexo45

I'm not watching it anymore. Last time was over 3 weks ago. It's another easy way out. Watching it now would literally ease this pain in 5 seconds, i know it will. I would fall asleep and not care anymore. I'm not doing it. Only the real deal or nothing.

I've visited prostitutes in the past. I liked it, but honestly it left me empty in the end too. I've sworn to myself that i wouldn't take anything but a real woman who i picked up myself anymore. It's pathetic. I have to get one myself. I'm not giving myself the easy way out anymore. I'd rather get castrated. I'm not ugly and decent looking. Shit has to change.

Both.

I hate to say it but Tinder and Bumble is making shit worse. I've installed the app shortly after my post and quickly got over 10 matches. Most of them literally don't even talk to me, say almost close to nothing, or stop responding for no reason at all. One particular girl on Tinder i had a good convo with for several days, and now she's literally not responding anymore when i didn't say anything weird at all. It's making me needy af. Strongly thinking about deleting it again. It's making me doubt myself even more.

I don't see how self esteem issues have anything to do with being sexually frustrated. I want sex and intimacy. I need feminine energy in my life. Not because i have trauma, but because i'm a healthy man and i crave it.

Honestly you should stop allowing yourself to watch porn and see what happens. You too crave actual intimacy instead of stupid pixels on a screen. I can go until i die without sex by watching porn. It's so easy and my brain loves it. It believes it had actual sex. Consequence is that i will feel like a mindless zombie all the time. My emotions will be numbed 24/7.

I bet u watch porn.

I don't know how long it has been, but at least 5 years. 5 years without sex, without a female touching me. I'm craving it so bad, it hurts. I can't even hear the word sex without getting angry and wanting to punch someone. I don't know what to do about it. I never learned to approach woman, how to reel them in. All i did was watching porn whenever i felt the need to. In my life i only had 2 serious relationships, which happened out of the blue. I never had to pursue or anything for them to happen. I had tons of sex with my exes, but it has been years now. I can't take it anymore. I don't want to use porn anymore. All that it's doing is making me feel more empty and frustrated inside. God damit. I feel so unworthy for some reason, even though i know i'm good looking because a lot of people tell me. I've had tons of moments were it was obvious the girl was interested in me and were i should have approached. I'm just too much of a pussy and i can't do it. I have so any limiting beliefs about woman and dating.

Lately my life is becoming amazing. I’m starting to be authentic, doing the things i’ve always wanted to do etc. I’ve changed a lot as an individual, but this is affecting the relationships i’m having with my family. My sister is basically just laughing at me for doing the things i’m doing ( eating healthy, meditation etc). My mom is projecting all her fears onto me, when i tell her what i want out of life. It’s becoming so annoying that i’m starting to hate them and that i don’t want to visit them anymore. What do i do?

Very weird xD. I’m also feeling a little bit down. It’s like i’m in a period of mourning. Feels like the end of something.

Hello, As i was sitting at a family meeting, it struck me that “the other” is not there. “The other” is just an idea in my head, and when that idea is not there, there is no such thing as “the other” and this also effects in the absence of “me” at the same time. Very weird... Was this a glimpse of the absolute truth?

Hi, I'm kind of getting clueless about my whole journey, and it's literally driving me insane. I've been seeking enlightenment for the past five years, some moments more intense than others, but lately it's getting really crazy, and i can't seem to stop it. I'm reading books, watching video's etc about Nonduality non-stop and it's taking all my free time. I want it to stop, but i know that's not in my control. I've had moments of total frustration ( like now ) where i would throw in the towel and tell myself i'm done with it, only to wake up the next day, wanting to start again. People are telling me that i must be grateful to have fallen on this path, but i can't honestly say that i am, and sometimes i wish it never happened at all. If there was a pill i could take to end this obsessive seeking, i would definitely take it and be done with it. I'm probably not the only one that is having this inner conflict. Any advice?

Somewhat true, especially in the beginning i've been mentally masturbating a ton without taking actual action. It was something that became more obvious to me over time.

I'm already 25 and college costs about 10k a year. My sister doesn't live with us anymore. My mom never wanted me to leave the house before, and she knew about my plans. Now she has a new boyfriend and this guy wants a new house because he doesn't like ours ( we currently are renting ), so i have to move.

Bump. No one has any advice? I know i shouldn't play the victim, but this is not easy.