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This is beautiful, really close to my dmt trips.

Can be pretty intense, i had a number of weed trips that were harder to handle than LSD or mushrooms. I am in favor of weed but do not underestimate its potency.

Yes, it's a potent experience. Surrender, surrender, surrender, relax all your body, send love to the painful parts. When I did 4.5g of mushrooms, I practiced the above and had a Insight about surrender and relaxation = one with the flow of live and divine intelligence. When I feel a pain in some part of my body I just surrender and it usually desapears, especially when I feel back pains (those are mostly excess of kundalini energy in some blocked area). Lots of healing and insights comes naturally from this.

As my awareness expands, i am seeing more and more that i am full of shit. My shadow side runs my life and i just cover it with a spiritual, nice persona. As i go deeper in my path, i feel that i am feeling "worse" than before, although i occasionally have some blissful moments. Maybe it isn't the "same" feelings, maybe are deeper ones, my worst fears now, that's why it seems worse. This feeling is similar to the one i felt on the worst times of my life and decided to do something about it pursuing self-development (i was kind of successful with making friends, working out, picking up girls and only discovered spirituality several years later). I am trying to handle as best as i can, i consider myself as a relatively stable person (even tough i deal with fucked up shit al the time in my family situation) but sometimes i have doubts that i am going to succeed and feel hopelessness until i start doubting if i am not going to go insane if i go deeper. The thing is, this process is being done by itself, i have little to NO control over, i am really not doing formal spiritual practices but i have a contemplative mind, especially under psychedelics. Maybe it's what they call Dark Night of the Soul, i am afraid that is taking way to long that i can handle and is getting worse every day (at least is my subjective experience in my body).

This sounds awesome! Happy for you with a hint of envy lol Now i am motivated to practice self-inquiry. Tell us more about your experience, are you still feeling something? You can still "see" your realizations?

@lmfao That's a good reminder, rough nonetheless to keep a positive mindset amidst all the turmoil. @Outer I need to self-inquiry more, only do it when i remember throughout the day. But i notice that when i do it, i am instantly present. @PsiloPutty That's also a nice reminder, i will keep in mind that it's the healing taking place. @SgtPepper I am guilty of using my mind too much on this path but it also made me aware of everything i am.

Serious truth bombs, Leo delivering golden insights for free. I highly appreciate your work, @Leo Gura. Even best is how you make the effort to warn us about the trap of idealizing you (or anyone else), but do the work and experience for ourselves. Just realized that i am way less serious about enlightenment that i thought, i was thinking that i was special and somehow would eventually reach the goal spontaneously, not by being strategic about my spiritual growth like making myself meditate every day no matter the costs or read books for hours, taking notes and contemplating about it. Dedication and discipline IS a consequence of our love for something.

Well, I used rape in a ayahuasca cerimone but it was awful, vomiting, nauseated and felt nothing positive(it was after the ayahuasca effects worn off) .

Hahahahahaha so true

As a spiritual practice, I would suggest trying to relax in all situations, with all thoughts and feelings, even the ones you spoke about in this thread, this will transform your into a super conductor, nothing will stick and everything will be healed.

Enlightment isn't escape, it's the ultimate acceptance of all, especially what you call bad things.

1h and 50 minutes, in a vipassana retreat. The last 50 minutes were hell but when it was over, I was almost levitating.

Infinite, by definition, implies all possibilities, including suffering. See, if you reach enlightment, you get to know your infinite nature and you see is all a illusion, like a play or a movie that the actors don't know they are into a make believe story. When you see this, suddenly all is perfect and all is beautiful, even the worst situations like rape or murder. You know it's fake when you see on a movie, right? And, if you are aware enough, not only you won't be bordered by it but you will even appreciate it and call it a good movie.

Well, maybe if you are a infinite being, you KNOW that it is all an illusion and you are kind of bored, earth seems an amazing adventure.

Great thread, super important topic. It would be great if people share reports of successful opening their hearts, how they did it and what changed. I see to many techniques but I don't commit seriously to any of them them because I don't really believe it will work.

I will make an effort to trip more often

I noticed that when i use psychedelics, i feel smart, my vocabulary is better and can express complex topics in a comprehensive way for most people. It bothers me that when i am sober i have lots of problems doing the same things. I know that generally, people like their "drugged-self" more since drugs like alcohol, cocaine, and MDMA can make you less anxious, fearful and overanalytical but psychedelics are different, they can make you anxious if you can't handle your shit, especially in social contexts. I am usually introverted like most of you guys but when i use psychedelics (even weed) i can talk a LOT and in a smart way that even surprises me every single time (except when i am so high that i can't even keep a line of thought without getting distracted). Not only that but i get hopeful, courageous, empathetic, sincere, motivated. When i use ayahuasca i feel like a total BOSS, my voice gets deep as fuck, i speak like a man, full of confidence, i am proud of myself, is like a know who i am and that i can do anything. Normally i have LOTs of limiting beliefs (being dumb, destined to fail, not enough, incompetent etc), i know that they aren't true but i feel like they are and i am deep on this self-improvement path to transcend all limiting beliefs, i know its ALL in my head but when i use psychedelics they all seems to disappear at moments. I fucking love my "higher-self" Edit: I forgot one thing: i tend to have LOTs of deep insights when i am on psychedelics (including weed), its almost guaranteed. To the point that i was smoking way too much weed in order to generate insights, especially when i feel stuck in a problem. I noticed that i tend to contemplate about everything naturally but when i am on psychedelics i enter in full contemplation mode.

Thank you, i hope you are right

I saw this video, what a synchronicity! I am gaining awareness of my core wounds but don't know exactly what to do. I think I have all of them lol. I had a dysfunctional family growing up, today I totally lack self worth, boundaries, seek approval and so I fear success, failure, I self sabotage every single chance I get which is making me stuck in life. I don't feel that I deserve good things, always assume the worse and don't give any credit for myself for anything. This creates lots of problems, resistances, self limiting beliefs which I try to overcome but I always feel like I am fighting an uphill battle and if I stop for one moment, I fall back to my old behaviors hard. For some reason, I had a vision and a feeling that I was neglected as a baby by my mother (she always was highly dysfunctional, narcissist with lots of wounds that she projected on me).

@SageModeAustin Ayahuasca is amazing. I live in Brazil so it's not hard to find places (religious) to use it. It was life-changing for me, i did 8 times and all of them were positive. I only did a moderate/high dose of mushrooms one time (4.5g) and i found it really similar to ayahuasca, its a "tribal" feeling, like you get connected to mother earth and she is showing you what you need to see. I noticed that it tends to expose all the deep subconscious aspects of the mind its like dream happening in your visual field (even with closed eyes). The first time i did i think i almost had an ego death, i was unable to recognize my hands, i forgot i had a body, suddenly i had a strange feeling that i was omnipotent, i could do anything like moving peoples arms or something like that, it was beautiful, and initiated in my spiritual path. @Serotoninluv So, if i do it, let's say, weekly, it is possible to integrate the insights into my "normal" self? @Leo Gura Kind of stuck in a place that i take full responsibility for everything, i am able to see all my bullshit and deep-rooted beliefs but i am struggling to find the best way to change them, Its kind of frustrating to know that i am limiting myself so much and don't know exactly what to do. I am still waiting for that subconscious programming course you promised us @Samra I feel that with insights on psychedelics, first you kind of have that "aha!" moment so know you are aware of the situation, belief, memory etc. Now the hard part is to integrate it in your brain, if the "aha!" moment came with a strong emotion, it's possible to fully integrate the insight in just one time like something really shocking and mindblowing to you. Most of the time you will get back to your normal state and will remember the insight but all your other limiting beliefs will get in the way and now you have to be vigilant to apply this insight and try to make it a mental habit (belief). For instance, its common that i have some insight of someone who is suffering and thus this explains their low consciousness behavior, you feel compassion and love but when the high goes away, all your fears and frustrations kicks in which makes really hard to act compassionately so you have to be vigilant to remember your insight when you are interacting with this person.

Yeah, always did that and still do, obviously, i can't walk high all the time. But i think it is amazing that drugs like mushrooms, weed and ayahuasca have this effect too.

I witnessed something like this recently with my ex-gf. She lived with her mother and a stepdad (police officer, lots of guns, mentally unstable). Her mother had toxic co-dependent relationship with her bf, they fought all the time, he was kind of an asshole to her and they often got weeks without talking to each other living in the same house. One day he asked for divorce probably hoping that her would beg for him to stay but she said "ok". He kind of went crazy, was alone with my gf at home and decided to blame her for the end of the relationship, droped his pants, exposed his dick and said he wanted to fuck her, she then run to her bedroom crying, locked herself, he tried to open, she called me in pure despair, i went told her to call the police but her mother said to NOT call the police and called a friend (his friend who also is a police officer) to help. The stepdad got out, my ex is safe and lived with me for months. Now the interesting part: her mother didn't believe her and got back with her bf. Mostly because she is kind of dependent on her emotionally(she is 50, won't find another bf easily) and financially. My ex is her ONLY family and she chooses to stay with the man that attempted to RAPE her and later we found out that he had a history of mental breakdowns (went nuts, tried to kill himself, probably due to the stress of his job, killing people and shit like that).

Yes! The detox i am doing for a few months now, far from perfect but i am way better from the pain (50~70%). Yesterday i did a guided meditation on my three lower chakras and my pain is WAY better(90%), too soon to say much about it but i have a feeling that this is it. I plan to do guided meditation on my chakras for the next months.

You change the world in everyday actions, everything you do impact the "whole".