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As i progress in the spiritual path, more i have to detach from the social narrative and follow my intuition, inner guidance even when only i believe in my choices, the more i raise my self-esteem, more i tend to have thoughts like "maybe i am an old soul that incarnated in a fucked up situation (horrible childhood) in order to get into the spiritual path as a way to transcend the pain and remember all my knowledge and wisdom in order to help the planet to ascend". Or even "i am the next Jesus" thoughts appeared in my experience field which is rapidly scolded with thoughts like: put yourself in your place, you are not special. Both, in my opinion, can be extremely deceiving and toxic. The first one is narcissistic (low self-esteem) and the last one is defeated ( also low self-esteem). How can i deal with thoughts like those? I can't simply ignore them because losing my mind is one of my biggest fears since mental illness is really common in my family and i want to go so deep on this path that i need to keep myself in check once in a while (still learning how to do it).

I recommend this meditation: http://higherselfteachings.com/cds/chakra-meditation-higher-self-guided-awakening-healing/ Really powerful stuff, you have to be consistent with it. Also, see his youtube channel, good, deep wisdom.

Who knows... I only care that he was a great fucking teacher and an big inspiration for me.

In my experience: Ayahuasca => Mushrooms => LSD The natural ones always give me a feeling of connectedness with the existence, it is like existence itself is doing the work and teaching you. Pure LSD is rare here in Brazil, so i don't want to risk high doses with a substance i don't really am sure is pure. You can't go wrong with the other two. Bonus mention: Weed can be a powerful tool. My kundalini is pretty active and every time i smoke weed i have insights and all sorts of energy phenomena in my body (performing kriyas, mudras etc).

I read the book once but i miss the part where he explains how to actually do it, i mean, just saying "let it go" isn't much helpful, but let me see if i get it: Let's say i am feeling some anxiety/resistance toward something (usually i feel those when i have to study something), i just focus on that feeling and try to let it go, relaxing in that feeling (usually is a tight feeling n my belly and chest) over and over until it goes away? And this is cumulative, meaning that if i repeat this process over days, weeks or months those feelings tend to disappear completely?

Yes, they do work, I am experimenting with affirmations and visualizations the last month and seeing awesome results, can't wait to see the long term results! The secret is feeling and repeat the shit out of them! Consistency is key, do them as often as possible, the results will accumulate and at some point the programs will become automatic, this is really fun and exciting, you can literally program yourself and "your reality". Law of Attraction do work. Expect resistance, your ego will pull out all kinds of weird shit and tricks in order for you to stop the process, just keep fucking going.

Try only eating raw foods and fruits, Leo, it's the only way for me to no having bad sinus. As I progressed in my spiritual path, my body is rejecting a lot of stuff, even healthy vegan foods I get some bad reaction.

Man, this topic came in the perfect time, thank you for this recommendation!

At this point I am kind of just hoping Leo is OK

YES

I was going to ask this question lol DAMN IT, BE PRESENT, DO NOT GET ATTACHED!!

Thank you for your answer. I will look into it. I guess I kind of assumed that kundalini symptoms were kind of common and I wasn't giving the right importance to it. Although it greatly affects my life, it is boosting my progress through lots of pain. But I am not complaining, I feel like progress exponentially a few months until now and I am getting excited for the future even though I am going through pain right now I am learning to enjoy it because it always makes me a better person in the end.

Yeah, books, blogs, teachers that teach about kundalini etc

@Arhattobe I guess you are right. I am very cautious about my psychedelics use for some time now, I used to take them much more frequently. Now I use once every 3 months or something like that but the tendency I am seeing is to go through the sober route for now. I will take your advice as a message from the universe. If you have some material suggestions about this topic it would be great.

I kind of know the dangers of psychedelics in my situation, especially with all the history of mental illness in my family but i feel drawn to them and see as a marvelous self-development tool which i take very seriously. Last time i used LSD + mushrooms and my kundalini went CRAZY, i spent hours into the trip dancing and doing yoga poses)i don't have any serious training with yoga) without any "doing" of my part, something was moving my body and i just went with it, it was the craziest experience i ever had. Do you have any experience with it?

The sick cannot recognize health. Just be aware that they come from a place of pure ignorance, stay strong in your path, follow your inner guidance and be a light in the world.

Psychedelics overly excites my kundalini energy, I feel that it opens up a lot of channels in my body (especially the higher Chakras) which makes me kind of ungrounded a while after (can continue for months). It's a serious boost into the spiritual path.

I have this fear that mixed with anxiety and can develop into a panic attack (a light one but still really uncomfortable) after i realized that nothing exists outside everything i see in the now, so this means that when i am in my room, this room now is the whole reality and this is kind of a freaky thought, If i use psychedelics (even weed) it is almost certain that i will think about it and freak out a little about this kind of solipsism. One time i was with a group of 8 people and we entered an elevator with no mirrors, only thick fabric and i had smoked weed and when i realized that we were all kind of getting traped on this metal cubic and in that moment, it was all that really was i had a panic attack for a few seconds until the doors open, it was a feeling of extreme claustrophobia. Had a really deep mushrooms+lsd trip recently that shocked me a little (at first, there was bliss) with the ramifications of what i saw, i may have been thinking only into the "bad side" of it. How can i deal with realizations of deep existential truths?

In the context of Law Of Attraction, let's say that i want to live in a nicer house and have a better car, should i visualize intermediate goals like a cheap but still better then my current car and when i acquire it should i move to next one until get the best one i want or should i visualize the best one at the beginning even if its a long-term goal and progress my way through it with "intermediate" cars? For instance: Let's say i want car A that costs $100.000 but i now have a $10.000 car and would be nice to have car B that costs $20.000 for some time until i progress to car C that costs $40.000 and progresses my way up to car A. Should i visualize car A the entire time or car B until i get it and then car C and so on?

BJJ is the best brazillian contribution for the world I trained for some time but got injured a lot (apparently my joints are weak or were weak). BJJ is really cool, fun and challenging. I found myself in muay thai, trained hard for a few years and as i advanced with self-development and spirituality i kind of lost the blood thirst i had lol

Yes, i am, and you?

@Tony 845 Yes, i have awakened my kundalini energy, my intuition is crazy high as the synchronicities and my manifestation ability.

Same here, the third eye always pulsates/vibrate a lot.

Leo recommended him in his blog. He also recommended Vernon Howard which made me realize where Leo gets some of his insights, awesome super underrated teacher.

I am not saying some supernatural energy (although lots of enlightened masters do have a highly magnetic energy), I thought more of a calm, solid energy which is rarer than one would think. I feel the emotion/energy of other people constantly and it is rare that I feel one that it is at least a little comfortable, more often than not I feel blocks all over my body, tensions, sadness, anxiety etc.