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I had a fair share of deep life-changing insights from psychedelics experiences but my integration rate is very low, i never saw anyone talking about this integration (not even Leo, but could be wrong) besides the "give it time" one. Not even going to explore this idea since i am sure that we all have been through it. I wonder what is a process that you guys use to change your life with those insights. When i am tripping, it seems like i can see 10 levels deep on one idea and i get it" emotionally, experientially but when i sober up i can only see the superficial levels, only intellectually which isn't enough to give one the certainty that creates passion and commitment to embody a new idea.

This thread made me want to take a proper trip, already ordered 7g of mushrooms, going to try microdosing and one 4g trip. It's time to shake things up.

You are growing apart, it is really common in relationships, she is afraid of losing you and being selfish herself. Follow your path and find someone who wants to walk alongside with you, DO NOT COMPROMISE YOUR LIFE PURPOSE, find someone who is in synch with it. Enjoy until it lasts.

That's what i have been doing but i don't know if it worked so far. Definitely not in the sense of integrating those big deep insights, maybe some preliminary energetic entanglement. That's some deep questioning lol Until now i used lots of self-observation and massive amounts of spiritual and personal development knowledge, lots of mental masturbation, which i realized i am full of and don't need more of, just revisiting the basics: being present, mindful, accepting the moment fully, letting go, surrender etc. In a personal development sense, i am stuck trying to create my life purpose (took Leos course) but i have a lot of blocks in the way, trying to deal with them (the obstacle is the way) right now.

I don't know man, it seems to me a sure way to self-deception. If i try to emulate the insights i had while sober, the ego will sneak in just enough to make it all about itself and distort everything. But i suppose you are right, have you apply this and it worked? Yeah, maybe mild doses to try to reconnect later, thanks for your response.

We are talking about Kryia yoga?

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This seems like an awesome experience! I have some DMT in here but i couldn't make myself smoke it all the way, only one or two hits, didn't breakthrough, although it was really intense, scary and positively astounding at the same time. I have experience with mushrooms, LSD and ayahuasca but smoking DMT is another beast lol I often had this fear of losing my mind mid-trip or during some rough times while progressing spiritually but it always proved itself to be only irrational fear. Please report about your next experiences, i am sure it will go back to "normal" soon and you will miss it

I mean, walking through life with full confidence, not exactly that you are going to be good at anything but that you CAN be good at anything, so it's a matter of time until you accomplish any goal you want, no self-sabotage without being enlightened? There are some humans that you look at them and think: man, what that guy did is amazing, i wouldn't imagine me doing something that hard and thriving in it in a million years. I feel like a boy inside, that i can't handle life and its problems, i often procrastinate forever in questions (hard but with enormous potential) like building a great career(going full out on my life purpose), being famous for that. It's like i fear life and i hide from it. I don't feel good enough. How to develop such confidence?

I found his reaction really compassionate, he even got on his knees to comfort the dude. I hope David finds what he is looking for.

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Thank you, i will take a look into your suggestions. By the way, i brought your book!

Mostly "letting go" by David Hawkins(focus on the feeling in my throat, chest and belly area and let it be as it is, complete acceptance of the present moment as it is), trying to dissociate from thoughts, emotions, some mild self-inquiry, some hatha yoga. I am having trouble following some formal sitting meditation due to overwhelming anxiety and fear (sometimes looks like grief). It seems that it has no end to it, the more i surrender, even more comes up.

Hey, would you be kind to share your experience on this topic?: I am going through some tough time, i feel like dying (got worse after i participated in some online shakitpat session), i am just trying to surrender as much as possible but its especially rough when i don't see any light at the end of it, i never had any blissful experience without psychedelics so i am going on blind faith here.

The best answer i got from this question is one i got from a video made by Matt Kahn. He said that the one who is in a journey is de BODY, not You(the true Self), the real you has no free will, it is awareness itself, it's perfect, complete, infinite, indestructible, but the body, on the other hand, the body is the one on the journey, having insights, clearing blockages, old emotions, traumas, learning, evolving, undoing the energetic mess it got into etc. As you probably currently identify as the body (or something inhabiting the body), in a sense, you do have free will. In short: know that, in truth, you, who you think you are, don't have free will because this you don't even exist to have free will or not BUT, in practice, you didn't break out of that illusion, so act as if you do have free will.

Strangest phase. When everything just turns gray, all seems hopeless, you look like someone who never worked on himself at all, which is a nice blow to the ego. The feeling is like grief, apathy, depression, something is dying (i am sure it is), nothing, absolutely NOTHING is effective in distracting myself a little, i am forced to feel my feelings, i try to stay mindful, present, to let go but it seems that there is always more to let go of. The boredom is a killer, not even spiritual talks or self-development material (which i used to love, as a self-help junkie) works anymore, i don't have the patience for anything and doing nothing is too painful. I am in that phase that it looks like i already know every fucking concept that i need, more information isn't going to help, which is a little disturbing. I see myself hiding from life, taking no action at all while "problems" suddenly manifest all over the place. Sickness arises, the body is weak, painful, lazy, constant discomfort, for sure is a huge ego backlash. In truth, i kind of know what i should do, as it is not my first time, but i always love to hear your thoughts and experience about hard times in The Path.

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Doesn't reeally matter how its named, just words, but i see what you are saying, i am going to keep it in mind (i see the irony lol). For some time now i began an inner movement of letting go of trying to rationalize my way into the spiritual path, it has its benefits but is also limited, i am trying to let the body do its thing, my meditation is basically being present, relaxing, focusing in some feeling and letting it go.

Yes, i do use them, i think since 2017, there are lots of subs for all kinds of goals, in that meantime, i experimented of lots of them, with some fails and some victories. I learned how to listen to them, for how long (it is tempting to change subs frequently but for optimal results, you need to stick to one for at least 3 months), what to use etc. In terms of results i can say that i am: calmer, more mature, more authentic, more self-sufficient, self-reliant, more grounded, healthier, more ambitious, striving for bigger things, less fearful, way less guilt and shame, way better boundaries, using less drugs, more confident, better self-expression etc. Those are only words, they cannot describe the true ramifications of those changes in my life and in the life of everyone around me. Go for it, they do work, the new versions (better ones) only require you to listen during your sleep, it's the easier thing ever. There are some free ones if you are not fully bought in but i strongly recommend you to spend a few bucks in a paid one (with 115$ you can buy a really good one). I don't earn anything to do this marketing lol it's just how much i believe in those products for self-development.

You are afraid you are going to lose your mind or something? This can affect your trip. I understand your fear, i have some of it even though i don't have kids. I mean, you can always use 5meo later in life as you continue your work by other means.

Every time i see a topic about this subject i share this: http://www.subliminal-shop.com/ They are probably the most powerful subliminal audios in the world right now and they do work. There are even some free ones in case any of you want to try. This is my primary self-development tool.

This question may look silly (sorry, i am projecting my insecurity), but it really puzzles my mind about the nature of learning and really integrating deep self-development concepts. It is possible to "force" or accelerate an insight? When i see one of Leo's videos (let's use this example) i recognize: "this is a crucial insight", but i can't really grasp it fully, usually i get distracted as fuck (ego's primary trick). I know you can't "force" anything but i am sure you can create conditions to greatly accelerate the process of learning and integrating (fully grasping and applying it) deep self-development knowledge. Like no one can force enlightenment but we can do kriya yoga, meditate, do self-inquiry etc to create conditions that make the insight easier to hit us. As a people-pleaser, i am beginning to see how much caring about what others think (good or bad) is holding me back, obviously, this is a deep issue (lots of repeated traumas, fucked up beliefs), it's not some mind concept, it can be fully felt in the body (some sort of fear sensation, tension, anxiety etc). Yesterday i smoked some weed and saw the "How to stop caring what people think of you" video and it gave my lots of "insights", my plexus solar was on fire, my resting heart rate was high and Leo's words resonated a lot with me, he inspired me a lot. Today i woke up kind of normal, i don't know if anything really changed but it got me thinking, how the fuck Leo is able to have such insights and fully embody them consistently? Every single video is a gold mine full of hidden nuggets. I want this kind of life for myself, fully embodying all those deep self-development concepts and inspire millions to do so(this is my life purpose).

I don't know why my post if so fucked up lol tried to edit but only got worse, hope it is still comprehensible.

I often fall in this trap of comparison, especially because his life purpose is basically the same as mine, it's hard to resist the trap of thinking: "holy shit, i am nowhere near this level, wtf do i have to offer, then?" Consistency, man, this is really key and my biggest challenge, i am often a prisoner of my mood swings, i achieved a lot throughout those years of self-development and i can't even imagine if i do a routine consistently, self-discipline is really the key for success. Thanks, for the reminder, i will watch this one again! This is actually a great idea! Great list, seems to me that i need some psychedelic once again lol This "talk to yourself" approach is great, seems to be the primary benefit of journaling (a habit that i failed to install but appears constantly on suggestions from others). Buddha inspired millions, life purposes suppose to be big, ambitious, inspiring enough for you to dedicate your life to it. The need to be (or appear) humble can also come from ego (often, if not always, it does).

Let go completely! Don't try to resist, don't even try to resist resistance. You will feel a roller coaster of emotions, you will think about quitting a lot, just ignore it, expect that it is normal and keep fucking going, do not give up. I think it is the best advice i can give you because your mind will try all the tricks possible to make you quit, just know it is this way and ignore it.