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Motherfucking Limbo. Struggling to create a really compelling vision (did the life purpose course) to motivate me to make bold life decisions, right now i am just too comfortable, unmotivated and lazy. It is hard to find any motivation to pursue some life purpose since i don't really care about most low consciousness stuff and the high consciousness ones fail to motivate me enough to commit 100% to my calling. Maybe because i have lots of trouble to envision nice things, i was always negative motivated (through pain), since i am in a comfortable place (although dependent on others), i don't accomplish nearly enough as i could. The way i did personal development until now brought me a LONG way, i am kind of satisfied but i know i can accomplish 1000x more if i really follow what Leo says, i just don't.

ahahahahahahaha that would be so awesome

Yes, i have some experience with it, including a few solo trips.

As someone that is part of a family full of mental disorders (including an aunt with schizophrenia), I guarantee you that if you are doing inner work, consciousness work, meditating, acquiring wisdom, self knowledge and I assume you do because you are in this forum, you are waaay less likely to go nuts than any of your family members. It is not a random thing, it is directly related with your ability to cope with reality, especially your inner reality (feelings and thoughts). Can you deal with your emotions, can you deal with your thoughts? Have you ever had a panic attack? The truths you find out on psychedelics can be pretty shocking although equally beautiful, most people are not prepared for it, that's why we have so much mental disorders, mostly due to lack of metaphysics knowledge and experience. I also am concerned with going nuts (although I released most of this fear) but I also know that this isn't a purely rational fear. That being said, I highly recommend you to be cautious anyway, start with small doses and then escalate from there slowly. We can have all sorts of prevention measures like having a trip sitter or even a benzo with you can greatly diminish any anxiett about and during the trip.

Yes, i also have lots of anxiety from strong spiritual practices, i guess is a good thing if you can handle. Check if you are ungrounded, i notice that the more spiritual practices, more ungrounded i tend to be, more anxiety, seems like losing grip on reality, a kind of detachment (bad one) of everything. Constantly trying to escape the feeling and distracting myself from it. I had bad side effects from Kryia when i tried it in the past, too strong for me, like sprinting in a marathon.

Nice, now i am more interested in trying! What was the mid/long term benefits you noticed in your life since you started using kambo?

Great text, i liked your approach of hammering on the basics, i really need to apply this.

I know lots of spiritual practices to open oneself to love, tried several of them but i never felt anything, my heart chakra is so blocked up i can't feel love, needless to say i was deprived of it all my life since when i was a baby. It is not a coincidence that i relate to spiritual teachers that talks about love a lot (Matt Kahn and Ram Dass), tried their techniques and nothing happened. I don't see anyone talking about this side of spirituality and reporting their progress. Yes, i saw Leo's video "What is Love" several times and i had the same impression, lots of information, not a lot of direct experiences report. I do had some glimpses of it during some psychedelics experiences and one time i was sleeping and had a weird dream with my grandmother that i hugged her and all of the sudden i felt a bubble of warm liquid pop inside my heart, i woke up and this wasn't a dream, the sensations continued and i felt sober love for the first time since i can remember, my body was suddenly cozy, warm and nice, i felt self-love (for the first time) and all i wanted was to GIVE love to everyone. I was going through some dark night of the soul for months and in an instant everything was fine, all my problems vanished and all i was thinking was go share love with others. I want more of that, someone, please, tell me its possible and HOW to do it.

Yeah, i am having trouble keeping up with those long videos about topics that are kind of redundant and hard to see some utility but i admit that this is just where i am at my journey, Probably he is doing his thing and made it his business, he grew to a point that he can talk about those topics that he likes and seems to be do little or no utility for most people. Good for him.

I am interested in this too. I have experience with LSD, mushrooms and ayahuasca but i have DMT and never had the balls to go all the way, the intensity is overwhelming because of how fast the trip hits you, i tried a few times but one hit is enough to scare me lol although the experience is AWESOME. Saw spirits/ghosts/entities for the first time

I saw some teacher (maybe adyashanti or ram dass) saying it was a ego defense mechanism. I personally never had this problem if i meditate in a time that i am not sleepy anyway (after a meal, tired or at night). Best time for me is in the morning, especially after some hatha yoga and bioenergetics exercises (cold shower is great too).

You can try and have a direct experience. Each person reach differently. Today i microdosed 0.2g of shrooms and i felt it was too much, almost like a mini trip when i was peaking, with mild visuals and everything. I felt lots of energy surges, my head was buzzing, i felt random goosebumps, got a little agitated (excited), hard to focus. I noticed that my thoughts were more inspired like i was seeing my life from above, higher vibration, if you will. The first two hours were overwhelming since i wanted to be productive and get things done but i enjoyed, just listened to some of Leos videos, got some motivation going on. Next time i will try 0.1g and i will also experiment microdosing with LSD.

I absolutely agree, for sure some people can handle whatever happens during a trip, i am just saying to not overestimate your abilities, you have to be sure you will handle because if you have 1%, even if only deep in your subconscious, of worry, that shit will creep in and you can do some shit you will regret later if not some irreversible shit. A trip sitter prevents all of that, you can go deep knowing that someone is a reference of your normal level of consciousness there to assure you of anything. Of course, all of this is a projection of my own deep fears, but i am sure i am being pretty accurate here.

As someone experienced with psychedelics and some deep solo trips on my curriculum, i highly suggest a trip sitter, you never know when the trip will turn into a bad, don't ever underestimate the power of those substances, even if you feel super confident in your ability to deal with a possible bad trip. Last time i did 1/3 a tab of a strong lsd + 4g of mushrooms, started great, blissful experiences, even some ego death, that turned real fast into a panic attack, i almost called my father, i was lucky that my best friend texted me back and went to my house calm me down but he easily could not answered my calls and god only knows what i would have done. Next time i will invite him to sleep in my house while i trip, just the fact that i know that there is someone i trust near me is awesome to go deep.

LMAO ahahahahahahaha Man, i LOVED that picture. I don't know with but i always imagined him being short.

What is your experience with kriya yoga? Seeing some benefits?

I am in a transition to a fruitarian diet and the biggest change i noticed is the increased sensitivity, awareness expansion, your body is so much more conducive and efficient that all psychedelics will have a bigger impact. My two deepest trips(one mushroom trip and one ayahuasca) happened in those conditions: a few days of only fruits and an enema a few hours before the trip. Man, the description is like being hit by a truck, the substances came with full force, nowhere to run, just take the hit and embrace it. One tip i would give you is to have a ginger tea prepared in case you feel some nausea, this one mushroom trip, in particular, came with full force, i got some nausea, managed to make some tea while i was high as fuck, don't recommend, just have everything as easier as possible beforehand, including some fruit snack, watermelon, some juice.

I had a fair share of deep life-changing insights from psychedelics experiences but my integration rate is very low, i never saw anyone talking about this integration (not even Leo, but could be wrong) besides the "give it time" one. Not even going to explore this idea since i am sure that we all have been through it. I wonder what is a process that you guys use to change your life with those insights. When i am tripping, it seems like i can see 10 levels deep on one idea and i get it" emotionally, experientially but when i sober up i can only see the superficial levels, only intellectually which isn't enough to give one the certainty that creates passion and commitment to embody a new idea.

This thread made me want to take a proper trip, already ordered 7g of mushrooms, going to try microdosing and one 4g trip. It's time to shake things up.

You are growing apart, it is really common in relationships, she is afraid of losing you and being selfish herself. Follow your path and find someone who wants to walk alongside with you, DO NOT COMPROMISE YOUR LIFE PURPOSE, find someone who is in synch with it. Enjoy until it lasts.

That's what i have been doing but i don't know if it worked so far. Definitely not in the sense of integrating those big deep insights, maybe some preliminary energetic entanglement. That's some deep questioning lol Until now i used lots of self-observation and massive amounts of spiritual and personal development knowledge, lots of mental masturbation, which i realized i am full of and don't need more of, just revisiting the basics: being present, mindful, accepting the moment fully, letting go, surrender etc. In a personal development sense, i am stuck trying to create my life purpose (took Leos course) but i have a lot of blocks in the way, trying to deal with them (the obstacle is the way) right now.

I don't know man, it seems to me a sure way to self-deception. If i try to emulate the insights i had while sober, the ego will sneak in just enough to make it all about itself and distort everything. But i suppose you are right, have you apply this and it worked? Yeah, maybe mild doses to try to reconnect later, thanks for your response.

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This seems like an awesome experience! I have some DMT in here but i couldn't make myself smoke it all the way, only one or two hits, didn't breakthrough, although it was really intense, scary and positively astounding at the same time. I have experience with mushrooms, LSD and ayahuasca but smoking DMT is another beast lol I often had this fear of losing my mind mid-trip or during some rough times while progressing spiritually but it always proved itself to be only irrational fear. Please report about your next experiences, i am sure it will go back to "normal" soon and you will miss it