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I liked this format, pretty straight forward and inquisitive, thanks!

Does it really matter? There are lot of models of spiritual awakenings, it's cool to get some clarification and assurance but, in the end, it will happen what needs to happen and it will take the time it needs to take. This is an endless journey, ultimately, it doesn't matter if you are in the beginning or in an advanced stage. I know you want some assurance and Matt Kahn is a great teacher for this, he has a way of calming you down and show you in lots of different ways that IT IS ALL RIGHT, doesn't matter what is happening, you are doing great and evolving in the faster rate you can in the moment. In my darkest hours, i felt incredibly lonely, depressed, confused, lost, feeling like i was going literally crazy and all i had was the teachings i found on the internet, all i had was pixels in a screen. In the end, i did all i could do: just keep going, have unshakable faith that it's all part of the infinite intelligence. There is no going back, so, you might as well just go for it and see what is on the other side. I just followed my intuition, ignoring all else and i have to say that it was fucking worth it. It took a long time of suffering but right now i feel i just hit that point in the self-development curve that the growth is exponential and i don't even feel like i am "doing" anything, it's like i am just following along what is being presented to me in the moment. I am sure you are doing fine, just do the best you can as it is the only thing that God can ask of you, let go of the control, follow your intuition, commit yourself to the path and, for God's sake, LOVE YOURSELF RELENTLESSLY, seriously, we are kind of alone in this journey, it's your job to take care and love yourself as no one else will do it for you.

Have some boundaries. Tell people no, walk away and ignore them. If they are insistent, you have to be direct, tell them you can't help and you would appreciate if they don't follow you. Actual hardcore enlightened masters are known for act in seemingly rude ways, screaming and sending people away all the time. The problem is that we have lots of beliefs about how we think a high being should act and how love should look like. This is mostly bullshit, God love's you unconditionally and God would let you get tortured, raped and killed without hesitating. A true master wouldn't have a problem in telling people to get the fuck away if he feels it's the right thing to do.

Equanimity + the right perspective + serious concentration skills. You observe pain and don't react at all to it, don't offer any resistance and it will subside or greatly diminish, this requires lots of concentration since your mind will probably go crazy and you have to maintain equanimity. The right perspective means that it is easy for a fully enlightened master that KNOWS he is freaking GOD to rise above pain that is is for the average person that it is totally lost in his character. Most of the pain we feel is due to our resistance to it, it's fear. The physical part is minor and if you are not super attached to the body, it will be way easier.

He answered this question lots of time, basically, he is an eccentric figure, unpredictable. Part of his teachings keeps turning around the theme of the meaningless of raw reality and that opposed to our view of reality full of self-bias for survival purposes. He also loved tantra that is basically: embrace all feelings, fuck guilt and shame, there is no right or wrong, love, dance, enjoy life because that's why we are here, to experience all of it, including sex and luxury. He also loved attention and being that wild, unconquerable, random, unpredictable sage. It was part of his personality, he loved to mess with people's minds, especially to fuck with peoples certainties like the behaviors that they think a guru should have. It is a valid way to wake people up out of their conditioned thinking.

The book of not knowing by Peter Ralston

Looks like your father is doing this for himself (as usually people do), so, do the same and think what is best for you since no one will do it for you (not even parents). Be grateful, thank them and do what you think is the wiser decision, just don't expect him to understand anything (this is for life, actually). Get rid of your need to feel responsible for the feelings of unconscious people, they will often pick anything to keep their dramas and victim mentality and that has nothing to do with you.

As someone who grew up with serious codependence due to toxic manipulative narcissistic family members, I say: cut negative people ruthlessly out of your life, those people will weight you down and drain you non-stop until you vibrate with them in low vibrations. Life is too short and precious to waste a second with those people, and, unfortunately, this is most people. Let them learn their lessons and go learn your own. If I don't find anyone that is align with me, thriving in life, positive, conscious etc, I prefer to be alone. Best decision ever.

Those manic videos are strangely motivating. The way Leo ordinarily records videos sometimes makes this total awakening stuff seems really dry and it is easy to forget about the blissful side of realization, specifically for someone who doesn't have access to 5-meo-dmt like me.

Leo has a video on it, you should check it out. The standard recommendation is: slow and steady wins the race. Ego backlash is almost unavoidable and you should expect it. Do not fight it, just embrace the moment, try do minimize damage (like keeping your habits and usual self-actualization stuff), lots of self-love, equanimity and acceptance is required. Watch it in a detached way, use tools to keep the energy moving through blocks (like yoga), if you are in a awful mood to meditate or something, try to use self-discipline to do at least some minutes of it.

That, right there, that is a virus that social conditioning created to infect your mind with bullshit that keeps you stuck in the hell of ignorance with them. I am from Brazil, so i know what you are talking about. The average level of consciousness here is shitty but thanks to non-intentional social isolation and great inner-suffering i managed to break free from the collective hypnosis people here seem to be under, my own family included. This path isn't for the weak, you have to be willing to be the leader of yourself, think independently and do shit no one near you is doing. Fuck their opinion, seriously. This guilt you feel is an unconscious mechanism designed and implemented by those around you (usually family) in order for you not to abandon them. Your environment will have a strong gravitational pull but you have to be stronger than that and get the fuck out as soon as possible. In conclusion, just ignore them and keep going, DO NOT STOP.

I was bullied and abused physically and emotionally as a child/teenager and this is how I solve this: - Learn a Martial Art like Muay Thai - Workout, gain some muscle, strength and explosion -Social skills and awareness (pick up helped me a lot) -Heal and embody your masculine energy. -Be dangerous and let people know it. It is better to be a warrior in a garden than a gardener in war. I am a short guy but when I did all those above, it is rare that someone (even bigger guys) tries to fuck with me. There were situations where I had some guy (usually drunk, I'm a chaotic environment like carnival here in Brazil, possibly doing coke) tried to test me and I stood my ground looking them deep in their eyes with a seriousness that communicated that I was ready to go all the way if necessary and most of them backed down. But you have to be social aware and controlled enough to back down if you noticed that the other guy is also ready to go all the way into a fight that could possibly result in terrible outcome for one of us and if this happen you just defuse the situation but without looking like a bitch. Never fought in my life due to this. It is a dangerous game to play with real world consequences, if all you have is a bluff, go learn those manly skills.

Yeah, I am feeling more and more isolated as I self-actualize. I can't relate with most people as I can read them easily and instantly see their level of presence, of peace, at what they pay attention to (usual negative shit or the beauty of life), if they are followers or leaders etc. Most people I meet in person look like a fucking zombie to me, it's like they are hypnotized and can't seem to get out of their heads to really notice what's in front of them. They usually vibrate pretty low, have petty concerns, are full of neurosis, rarely look in the eyes etc. I can't relate with any family member and 99% of the people I know and meet. I became super introverted because of this and usually speak with very short and vague answers as any more complex explanation usually confuses and trigger people. It's common that they think I am dumb, out of touch with reality and a religious fanatic. One of my goals right now is to find and partner with some self-actualized people and when I found those people, it's a like breathing fresh air again, best feeling ever.

Yes and I do practice both. Recently I sold or gave away most of my stuff (and I had lots of stuff), started a backpacking journey in order to build a solid foundation of character and o have to say that this is like self-actualization on steroids.

Doing shit relentlessly, past any tiredness or bullshit excuses of the mind. Being purposeful, focus on your goals and go get it. Take action, massive action. Solar Plexus is pure masculine energy, it is acting with purpose demolishing any obstacle, it is just who you are, you don't give up. When you do any task like cleaning your house, do it thoroughly, don't stop until the task is 100% complete, no matter what happens. Usually, we stop at any sign of resistance, the mind is genius at creating excuses (and they even sound reasonable), all sorts of pains, aches, desires and temptations will arise, just don't pay them any attention and keep doing the work until completion. Steve Pressfield talks a lot about it, basically, you have to turn pro and you heal your solar plexus.

I found this exercise excellent, this grounds me a lot and pulls me out of my head and all beliefs, ideas, labels, mental masturbation etc. This is incredible.

Those desires for worldly pleasures will run out eventually, faster if you do your inner work. It is not "sick" to run away to what you call life, but rather the other way around. The pull to God phenomenon is a ever present one in spiritual seekers, there is no going back, just surrender and if you feel fear and resist, there is nothing wrong also, it is just part of the process, it will run out soon if you are mindful enough.

Those distinctions exists only in the mind, when the mind doesn't have a say on it, where are your problems? The silence is always closer to the Truth that anything your mind has to say, think about it. Love arises naturally from this silence, from raw reality.

What most helped me with my brain fog: Proper sleep Raw foods diet (specially green juices drank alone) No alcohol, no weed No industrialized foods Nature Getting the fuck away from toxic people Brain training like meditation, concentration practices, reading, learning something new, challenging myself Consistent getting out of my comfort zone (forces my brain to step up) Improving Self-esteem, sense of entitlement, of status. Seriously, for those who practiced a night of pick up and entered in state (flow), know what I am talking about, when your brain thinks you are a king, your brain (and whole body) will step up!

What I am really searching for is how to approach people, how to seduce them into self-actualization, become a better communicator/teacher without getting people triggered and raising defenses. Usually i do not preach for those who do not want to get preached but I am curious if it is possible to plant that seed you talk about.

Questioning the obvious and going metta is (structure vs content) key. 24/7 body and breath awareness Deep breathing/pranayamas and streches/asanas throughout the day Abide in the self Raw foods Sun and nature

The thing is, i am not talking about me being this great enlightened being, i am just pointing out the obvious: "i was in a shitty place my whole life, found some tools (like meditation and yoga) that turned that shit into gold, i noticed you yourself are in a shitty place (full of depression, anxiety and neurotic behaviors), maybe i can show you how to get out of this". This is a basic tamplate of how it usually goes and i try to adapt to each person but people just get stuck in the "fuck you, are you saying that my life isn't perfect? By trying to improve my life, are you implying that my life isn't a divine perfection full of wisdom, love and peace? FUCK YOU, YOU ARE NOT BETTER THAN ME" I don't know, man, in my opinion, people simply don't want to acknowledge how fucked they really are and any kind of self-improvement just rubs this in their faces, they usually prefer to protect their little ego then do any kind of self-actualization. And the only motive this bugs me is because it is my life purpose to help people develop themselves so i have to figure this out. Maybe i am just missing my niche, the one were people want better lifes for themselves instead of trying to keep their delusions.

Ram Dass is amazing.

Yeah, i have this problem. I always think of myself as way more conscios then most people but i also don't think myself as better then them, just somenone who did the inner-work while most people did not and they would be just as awesome if they put in the work. To be completaly honest, i still did'nt decided if this is a reasonable approach or i am being self-biased and narcisistic. Also, sometimes (not always), when i speak to people about self-actualization, they can react badly and start to get agressive and attack accusing me of thinking i am better than them. When i speak phrases like "yeah, i used to think like that too but not i have a better (in the sense of more conscious and complex view of it) undestand of it", some people (specially women) get triggered as fuck. Don't know if this is purelly projection and self-defense of an ego that feels threatened (and it is) or am i lacking humbleness.

I personally love using weed for spirituality but i found that if i use it more then 2x a week (with days between), the trips become less and less effective and more recreational (aka escapism), i get brain fog, less motivated, less productive, my sleep quality decreases. It is really easy to deceive myself thinking that i am progressing spiritually when i am just getting fucked up and eating junkie food.