Akshay

I am about to give CAT 2017 here In India on Nov 26th for career in management. Although I have prepared enough but still nervous a lot ! Please provide some guidance friends!!!!

@Nahm On Point!

@Marinus Search "Coach Corey Wayne" on YouTube and see what went wrong in your relationship!

"If you shut up truth and bury it under the ground, it will grow and gather to itself such explosive power that the day it bursts through, it will blow up everything in its way."

@Soulbass I ate it today as well! Bingo!

I really have this problem where the parents are constantly fighting, arguing with one another on small small topics on an everyday basis. I just don't know how to survive in this environment. It literally lowers down my energy levels. Before I did all the conscious work, I used to go along and didn't care but now I can feel my energy draining when I witness such constant arguing. It just sucks! None of my family is into meditation and conscious work, only me. How can I live a more happy and serene life in this environment. I can't just move out as I am financially dependent on them.

More smiling, less worrying. More compassion, less judgement. More blessed, less stressed. More love, less hate.

@Blue is the sea thanks!

Got my eyes on this video, so sharing it. It's gives professional look at Fap. Whether or not it can affect you in a positive or Negative way. (For both genders) The link :- https://youtu.be/zRkPU1fKchI

@Leo Gura Although there are a lot of articles explaining about narcissism and codependency and the relationship between a co dependent and a narcissist, it will be interesting to know your take on this !

Why my relationships with most of my friends whom I used to hang out with are dissolving? It seems like I have no interest in them these days. No craze and craving for them as I used to have earlier. Every friendship is just falling apart! Is this a part of awakening ? I read about it but want to know more if it really affects your relationships.?

Rajma chawal??

Is it okay to have intimacy in friendship?

@Mad Max Thanks for the advice! I needed that !

@smd Yes a co dependent is someone who will always be attracted to a narcissist and when unconscious of this behaviours, will follow the narcissist and sacrifice himself. That was kinda what I was doing when I was not aware what was happening in this relationship! Now that I am aware, I have reduced the contact with her. And of course once you reduce the contact with someone whom you were intimate with, consequences follow. She's mad at me now ignoring her, not taking her calls, and I am here sometimes dealing with the loneliness that has come as a result of me taking that decision and taking care of myself and practicing self love so that in the future I do not attract any dysfunctional or abusive relationships !

@smd Its not as deep as you went. We never had sex. As i said, to free myself out of emotions, i told her i love you. Before that we just cuddled, holding hands and stuff. But things start to happen just after i said her i love you. After sensing something is wrong, i backed off and then she just got more and more intense, telling me i love u and i have developed feelings for you. And unconscious as i was back then, i continued in the relationship and things got intense, we started hugging each other, kissing and touching. But as i realized the relationship isn't going anywhere i finally made a decision to have as little contact with her as possible. And now she is like why are you ignoring me and i just don't have an answer. Now that i am becoming more aware of the facts and connecting the dots in my life and past relationships, i have discovered i am a recovering co dependent and was attracted to a narcissist. I did some research on that, watched ross rosenberg's videos and all that he was saying was matching my current relationship with her. He mentioned after a co dependent leaves a narcissist he will have withdrawal symptoms of loneliness which i am now experiencing and want help to get out of them!

@Mad Max Now that I have drastically reduced the contact with the person whom I used to be intimate with, I am having withdrawal symptoms! An inner part of me want to connects with that person again! The feeling is like I will feel somewhat happy if I talk to her but another part of me knows it's a trap! Have you ever experienced this type of feeling where some days you are happy but some days you just have these emotional feelings clogging your mind, you have stuff to do but you can't do it because of these feelings! What can I do to about these withdrawal symptoms to ensure I don't go back and be in the trap again!

@Mad Max ?

Yes, In my childhood I got various messages from parents, Teachers to classmates that it is not safe to be who you are! As i am becoming now more and more aware about my childhood trauma and shame that resulted in me being now a recovering co- dependent, i really get it. The past wounds have really affected my present relations in all areas of life! But now that I am being aware of these old phenomenons, how do I continue to a path to self recovery, what topics should I research on, what books can help me and how much time will it take to re- wire my brain?

@Mad Max I am curious! In almost every post today you have stressed meditation!

@Jonson everything happens for a fuckin reason! It will pass and you will definitely get another girl like her! There's always opportunities! Be open to them and optimistic always!

@Mad Max lol

@Mad Max Meditation isn't necessary for this stuff?

@kuwaynej Thanks!

@kuwaynej Thanks for the inputs! Yes I would really like any kind of specific info that you can share. I really want to dig deep into this and get the roots of this thing out of my brain !