Psyche_92

Ha yep. It's 36 degrees at the moment here.

Yes, this is the main reason why i've been neglecting them. I love dates and raisins. Sounds like a good plan. Thanks for the tips!

Any examples? Are dates and raisins good?

I'm so unhappy i don't know what to do anymore. I've been feeling like this forever, and no matter what i do, it doesn't seem to change. So much shit happened to me in the past, and i think i'm still just full of trauma. I think i have severe social anxiety, because when i go outside for groceries, work, library, i'm always on the lookout, trying to not pull a lot of attention because i'm scared to meet my past bullies or people who did me wrong. I'm feeling extremely self-conscious, even to my neighbours when i happen to meet them outside i feel very uncomfortable. All of this is holding me back from getting what i want ( which i’ve been supressing with nonduality theories, telling myself i need to be happy alone, neglecting my basic wants and needs) and crave in my life. I want to create new friendships, look for a relationship but i feel unworthy/undeserving. I have a lot of ideas on things i want to pursue in life, but i don't feel qualified to do it, since i'm lacking motivation, trust and confidence in myself I don't know what to do anymore :/. I've done psychotherapy for over 1.5 years and saw 3 different therapists, did meditation, shadow work, got rid of almost all my addictions ( even been on NoFap for 140+ days), cleaned up my diet but it doesn't change. I feel like i'm lacking something fundamental which keeps holding me back, but i can't solve it. HELP

Easier said than "done" .

Ooh baby Kati Morton .

I'm having this too. It's a common thing. In fact, sometimes it feels like my arms are twisted and are getting pulled outside. I'm not sure why this is happening though, but i find it funny.

Ok. I already have the book list .

Hello, Lately i've been experiencing a bunch of traumatic memories that pop into my mind, and they basically trigger a huge burning sensation in the solar plexus area. It's very disturbing, and i don't know how to deal with it. In the past i've done EMDR sessions with my therapist, but they didn't really fix it.

Same... That's where all my trauma is from :/. Biggest problem is that these days i can't go outside without seeing one of my bullies... It's fucked up.

Hey, i'm not sure what you mean by using stones, silver and gold. Also, do you have any recommended books that might help me with this?

Yea well, for me it's kinda the same but it shifts very quickly. I guess it's because i'm scared to feel it. I think i've created some sort of automatic response to run away from it. It goes very quickly. A thought or memory pops up and i immediately focus on my solar plexus area. Are these on Leo's book list?

I've been trying that, but man it's really hard. The last time i dug into it, my whole body started to heat up and i felt like i was going to burn. Also my breathing was out of control and it felt like something was choking me. I've been coming to that conclusion lately. It's very hard to admit it to myself. I'm just scared. Are there negative consequences in doing this on my own?

You need to raise your self-esteem. Read: "The six pillars of self-esteem" by Nathaniel Branden.

I lolled so hard the moment he pulled out that banana. Good vid btw.

Sounds good. Definitely gonna try this one out sometime. Bookmarked.

Nice picture.

Just reached day 90 for the first time in 5 years. #Feelsgoodman

90 days is just a number. Start again. This time don't make 90 your goal but abstain forever. Ofcourse it's tough it's an addiction.

You can't make assumptions about something if you haven't at least tried it. It's not even a challenge. Most people look at it that way, because they don't take it seriously enough.

What you are experiencing is just intense energy which your mind labels as pain with a thought. Try to consciously locate the energy inside your body and observe it, make it your friend until it vanishes.

What exactly do you mean by pain? Are you talking about physical pain or disturbing thoughts/emotions?