Florian

So is it still possible for the world as a whole to get pushed back on the Spiral Dynamics scale when parts like Russia overtake parts like America? (just theoretically) Or generally any lower stage country or whatever gets rid of a higher stage one? That's what I want to understand. So that means if the higher developed part is dumb then yes?

Just for my understanding.. Can higher Spiral Dynamics stages be defeated or extinguished by lower ones? Like Russia vs America? I guess yes, but I'm not 100% in the Spiral Dynamics game and from what I heard so far it seemed like at least those who are a certain stage won't get back down on a lower stage again. But does that also mean people on higher stages are also "more powerful" or immune to those on lower stages. (might sound like a stupid question idk but can't hurt to ask)

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@datamonster dafuq

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Here I will write about my journey and gather insights that I find along the way for me to remember and maybe share with someone if that person randomly see's this and it's valueble for him/her as well. My life purpose: Being the perfect fighter and fascinating people with it. To be more specific: I will be a boxer and fascinate people that watch my fights either live or in recorded form. I want to leave behind video tapes of my fights that people can watch that will leave them speechless. I want to be so good that people begin to wonder what they are actually capable of and also just have a form of entertainment that thrills them. Also if I manage to actualize this dream I want to deliver a message to the world. Specifically I want people who are down to nothing, ready to kill themselves to know this: I was at this point and I actually almost killed myself once. I didn't have anything good and I just wanted to die because I thought I would be free then. What I did then though was saying to myself: before I kill myself I will focus everything I got on one thing, I have nothing to lose anyways, I can still kill myself after. So "before you kill yourself you can still search for one thing that you dedicate your life on and focus everything you got on it because: YOU GOT NOTHING TO LOSE ANYWAYS" (I am not saying that this is what you should do but I want people to think about it) EDIT: thank you Leo btw for your life purpose course I love mastering something and understanding it deeply (excellence is my top value at the moment). I think my zone of genius is thinking deeply into one thing and understanding every aspect of it and how the little details play out in the bigger picture of this one system. Also I think operating infront of certain death (if I fail) or something like that may be another zone of genius of mine because I find that I am most clear and feel most free when I am in such situations. Plus I believe I might also have a zone of genius which is connected to copying things I see or maybe understanding things I see (maybe that's just a common personality trait that I learn best by looking directly at what I am studying or something, like learning by seeing or something). If you read this journal feel free to comment, that's part of the reason why I write this stuff down here, so wise people can comment wise comments or just funny bullshit thats also cool haha. +If I actually actualize this purpose and become a famous boxer... my name is Florian B................ so you know who it is if you see me on TV in 5-10 years hehe

@Leo Gura I often notice such word play and also noticed sometimes that different languages combined can create some word play which actually seems to actually point towards something deeper. Is this actually a "joke" made by god? Edit: wow some part in me is laughing right now because it seems like I am actually talking to myself about stuff I did myself and it seems so funny

@Rasheed thx for the reminder. already knew about this and wanted to use it but forgot about it.

Bruh, I just went into Leos Blog which I don't do often and I clicked on the video "Requisite Variety & Creative Laziness" and watched the first 2 mins and WTF it seems to me like this is GOLD for my life purpose! GOTTA WATCH IT COMPLETELY!!!

I still have doubt whether or not this is really the best life purpose for me. I still have two more options that are in my mind which I might actually like more: 1. becoming an author and creating my own world 2. something about studying physics/the rules by which this world is made of and making use of this understanding by inventing practical things I really have to invest some time into making clear which one of these actually fits me most.

@Leo Gura Could you take a look into my life purpose journal to just see if it's obviously not about love and I just can't see it? Because I kinda believe it is and I am giving the world my gift with it if you know what I mean, but I also still have doubt about it and believe it's just selfish and I only want to do it for my personal gain. (it's in the journal section of this forum and just called Life Purpose Journal, I don't know how to link it sry, it's also at my last post on my profile)

@Kingston actually I'm doing that right now this mindfull suffering. I'm becoming mindfull/conscious of it and then I try to find out the roots and let it go. Idk about Psychedelics, I took a little bit of shrooms once (only half a gram or so I think) and I actually had this experience where I "got it" like what life actually is and that death is really nothing and if I would fall of a cliff that would actually not really be so terrible like I thought before. When that was on only half a gram of shrooms I guess there can be much more propably more then I can even imagine how much more, but I don't have motivation for it right now and also a lot of fear I guess. I said to myself that I will get into psychelics when I am 30 but now that I think about it again I remember one of the reasons why I didn't want to do it again was because at the time I was really worried about getting a psychosis or something from it, since I smoked some weed some weeks before and that kinda fucked with me since I was very paranoid in that time in general. (didnt smoke weed since then again) Edit: by right now I meant literally after writing these messages

@Leo Gura Could you actually be an awokened murderer or something like that? To me it actually seems like you could and deep down I do resonate with this but there is still something in me doubting it immensely

@Leo Gura Bruh this is fucking scaring me. I don't think this will get through to me completely yet, but at least I get some better understanding of fear since I see right now how my own fears work haha and also just wanna say thank you for your life purpose course and the other stuff you made. especially the life purpose course helped me a lot and I appreciate it. If I should become rich someday (you can read my life purpose journal to know how I plan to do it hehe) I already thought of donating a lot to you.

@Leo Gura But another question. If I would awaken could I still be following the life purpose of becoming the perfect fighter/boxer or would this melt away? I mean at first glance this seems like a "foul" life purpose. Not really "loving" and even though I think that I know that it is actually loving (I guess in the end it is loving regardless) because of my background motives I'm still kinda unsure whether I am actually just deceiving myself with this life purpose. (I have a journal about my life purpose on this forum where I get deep into it, so if you have some time to waste you can read it)

@Leo Gura Oh man this is really making me nervous right now. I'm just so lazy about this stuff idk I probaply will just let this "opportunity" slide again. I think one of the obstacles right now is that I want to be someone special in the sense that I could easily awaken and stuff but this is actually just standing in the way of the real truth of awakening.

@Leo Gura thats right im a fcking devil so FUCK YOU GET AWAY WITH YOUR TRUTH (just kidding although kinda not lol)

@Leo Gura But something about what you wrote still seemed suspicious to me like you were still deluding yourself the way you described how god deludes himself/itself/myself idk. Idk might just be me projecting or just being wrong though of course.

@Leo Gura Man.. I feel like if I really would want to understand this now I could but I have such a big resistance against it I don't even want to read what you wrote again and think about it. I just want to keep living my life how it is and keep having my illusion of chasing my life purpose and achieving the things I want first. Please don't kill me Leo

Brainfuck. Why can't god do that? Isnt it like that already? Aren't you just deceiving yourself that god can't do that just like you are explaining it?

Yesterday I read in some post on this forum that you have to invest at least 4 hours a day into your one thing to master it. So today I tried to spend 4 hours mastering my craft. Until now I did 1 hour and 4mins of feeling my body and doing various excercises from the book Zen-Body Being then I had a break for 15mins and then I did 42 mins of reading the book Five Rings by Miyamoto Musashi and writing down notes + just contemplating what I just read and thinking it out more and thinking deeper into it (my zone of genius). Then I made a break for 10-15mins and now I am writing this here. I think it's enough for today even if I didn't manage to do the 4 hours. Before I started with the body feeling excersises I set the timer to 1 hour 30 mins but I couldnt do it and then I set the timer for 1 hour for the reading and contemplating but I couldnt do it either. I kinda expected that and I mainly wanted to see where my limits are and how much more I have to grow to be able to spend 4 hours a day practising deliberatly. I still have more then half of the day and I could do more and maybe I will do some letting go or some sport but it's fine either way. Tomorrow I will try fixing my sleep schedule again since I fucked up again. I will try to wake up 10am and then keep my alarm at 10am. Starting monday I will add going out and observing people to my routine building since I noticed that sitting down and letting stuff go for 10mins a day is easy (until now at least) and I have energy to do more. But I might also add more to letting go like contemplating about a topic where I want to become more free and writing down exactly what I want to let go to become more free. So my letting go routine might be looking like this then: 10min selecting a topic, thinking about it and writing down how I hold myself back -> 10mins of letting this stuff go.

I just had this realization: The perfect fighter doesn't fight. Why? Well, I guess this is relative to my definition of a fighter but if a fighter is better the more free he is and the more he is able to control his opponent (he is doing this by using his opponents fear whether it's done conciously or not) then he is perfect when he has no fears but why would he fight if he has no fear? -> I see now my definition of a fighter is one who acts out of fear but maybe it's possible to fight somebody and act out of love I guess (Because a fighter uses his opponents fears to control him and eventually win the fight but this need to control his opponent and win the fight is just motivated by his own fears, so if he gets rid of his own fears he has no motivation to fight anymore.)

Sleep pattern now: -Get rid of all computer screens after 9pm -wake up and get out of bed before 10am -> after one week of this, next routine start and +5mins onto feeling exercise (21.07)

Trying to fix my sleep pattern 2.0 today Mission success

@Jai thx bro