Florian

Sleep pattern now: -Get rid of all computer screens after 9pm -wake up and get out of bed before 10am -> after one week of this, next routine start and +5mins onto feeling exercise (21.07)

Trying to fix my sleep pattern 2.0 today Mission success

@Jai thx bro

And it also explains emotions in general and the right handling with them.

@Preety_India it's about letting go emotions. The book about it is on Leos booklist. I think it's just called The Sedona Method and it's written by Hale Dwoskin Edit: Basically it's about letting go asking yourself some questions, but there is also this great explanation about 4 deeper wishes that every human being has that are the cause for those emotions in the first place. You can let these wishes go as well and then it clears you up a lot deeper. The wishes are the wish for control, recogniton/love, security and being seperated. Obviously to understand those you should read the book, if you want me to write more about it I can do that though.

What did you mean by that? + Have you ever heard of the Sedona Method? I just read this whole journal and thought to myself that the Sedona Method could help you a lot. Probaply because I just use it so much and to me it's like I guess what 5-Meo-DMT is to many people here (don't take this too serious I don't know much about psychedelics it just seems like many see it as the pill for everything here)

Maybe it's a good idea to ask oneself: Which changes would I like to see in the world if I was reborn 100 years into the future?

First step in a fight: reading the opponent (grasp their rythm) (understand their identity) How?: -body language might help -maybe there are certain patterns in humans like personality types I can use to identify my opponents rythm -test him by testing his possible fears and seeing his reaction (body language can help here) -observing my opponent while feeling rather then thinking to grasp his rythm feelingly

"You win battles by knowing the enemy's timing, and using a timing which the enemy does not expect." -Miyamoto Musashi (repeat, very important)

@Preety_India yeah I think I just forgot drinking water today lol, but thats fine now, just sucks that I can't sleep again (I guess I should get off the pc, doesnt really help with sleep)

@Preety_India

Today I tried to fix my sleep. Used to go to bed at 4-5am and woke up 3-4pm. Managed to get up at 8am today but slept around an hour during the day. Then in the evening a few hours before I wanted to go to bed I started feeling really sick and it got so bad that I could only sit down in the bathroom with a big headache feeling like I have to puke... Couldn't even get downstairs to eat something... So I went to bed too early and woke up an hour after....... that sucks hard cause even though I was feeling relatively fine again now I can't sleep...

@Preety_India Wow thanks, didnt see this

If anybody read all this, comment something

I'm 19 right now btw and I am thinking about killing myself if I failed when I am 30. Not necessarily because of depression but rather because it gives me a feeling of freedom right now to think about it that way (I have nothing to lose and I will be free if I fail anyways) + it might also be some kind of motivation to have my life on the line with all this (like David Deida wrote in The way of the superior man that when you tell a male friend of yours about one of your goals you say to him that you will give him 1000 dollars or something like that if you fail.. I just remembered that right now and it feels like its fitting here). These points kinda contridict each other though right?.. Maybe I am just deluding myself with this and I am actually just still thinking about killing myself because I still am depressed deep down. EDIT: maybe I am not deluding myself because even if you lose for example 1000 dollars after failing a goal it's kinda giving you freedom anyways and the thought of dying if I fail is also giving me a feeling of freedom, so actually not contradicting each other?

Also to any boxer that steals my insights from this journal to fight against me: fuck you (actually I guess I would like it if my work influences the world)

Writing this journal right now I notice that writing this is also cool because I can write funny and stupid stuff here and humor is on my values list

Things I work on after I built current things into my homeostasis: -eating healthy, cooking for myself -sleeping healthy -stretching -Sport (strength, endurance) -reading -contemplatiing/thinking about fighting etc. -fasting once a week 24h -going outside and observing people, learning to read body-language -getting rid of porn addiction (probaply completly quitting porn) -getting rid of videogame addiction -stop wasting time on YouTube/getting rid of YouTube/internet addiction

Things I am currently busy with: -90 days of imprinting my subconsious (Day 69 (lol)) -building a habit of sitting down and shifting my awareness from thinking to feeling (mastering body-being) (Day 28) (currently at 20mins per day -> goal is 45min at the end of the year -> 1.5h per day eventually) -building a habit of sitting down and letting go using the Sedona Method (mastering emotional freedom) (Starting today, aka Day 1) (goal 30min end of the year) EDIT: next step after 30 days of continously sitting down and letting go every day for 10 mins

Also I might be posting this here because I want to be seen and get approval, respect and love from people who read this, so I will have to let go regarding that. Edit: I think I also imagine people reading this and thinking "wow this dude is so self aware" aka I want recognition for that as well. (same for this edit XD) I love that part of me though (at least I want people who read this to think so) LETTING GO OF THE UPPER STUFF: *edit check here when its gone*

My current understanding of what I need to be the perfect fighter: 1. Emotional freedom (letting go emotions related to anything with fighting) 2. Wisdom of martial arts 3. Excellent Body-Being 4. A healthy, strong and well conditioned body

@Preety_India haha you are awesome too

@Preety_India I really love "The Awesome Piano". After listening to it a few times it's my favorite piece of music now. And the Africa cover was the first video I found from him.

I think there was a thread with examples of people who are extreme masters at something but I can't find it anymore. But I really want to share this dude since I really love him he's so fcking good.