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  3. Posted

    @Leo Gura

    3 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

    There is no egoic free will, but there is God's infinite Will, and you are God. So it goes full-circle.

    Free will vs no-free-will is a duality.

    In practice your will is a sliver of God's infinite Will, just like your intelligence is a sliver of God's infinite Intellignece. By becoming more God-like you get more will and more intelligence.

    I had an enlightenment experience a few years ago that showed me that there is a reason for everything. It is a causal chain to infinity and everything is started by one source. It fits to what you said on your live trip video: "It's perfectly out of control." and your new retreat video.

    For me the insight was: None of the things I perceive are coming from me, because there's a (one) reason for everything I perceive. Free will means there is no reason for my decision.

    Is how I interpret it contrary to what you said above or am I missing something?

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    @Aeris I want to continue a low carb diet, because it lowers my anxiety. I'm doing everything you mentioned, except for smoking weed.

    @Michael569 Dehydration might have been a factor, I've started to drink more and added sea salt to the water. Maybe that helped with the migraine aspect for the past few days.

    I broke my fast with this meal:

    • 6 high quality eggs
    • 300g of broccoli
    • 15 cubes of feta cheese
    • salad bowl, olive oil, olives, one avocado
    • 300g of chicken breast in coconut oil

    Could be overkill, have to do more research on how to get enough calories on OMAD.

    I went to sleep afterwards. I didn't get symptoms of heat and nausea. This time when I woke up, there were pretty strong cramps in the stomach area and they spread out in a circular manner. It stopped after half an hour. Blood pressure seems high as I can feel my heart pump harder, I'll measure later. Mood is skinda down and body feels a bit lethargic.

    Is ketoacidosis even possible? 

    He says it only happens to diabetes patients and a keto diet is far away from achieving such levels.

    Sleep is very good, no stimulants used. I have hay fever and to some extent nut allergy. Yesterday I ate a whole bag of macadamias and my lips burned, also the symptoms were much more severe than today.

  5. Posted

    I'm three months in (2 carni, 1 keto) and I've experienced more migraine attacks than before. They occurred twice in 4 days, where as before I had them twice a year. After eating a big meal (OMAD) I feel that the tension in my neck and head increase. I also feel overall discomfort, nausea and rising body temperature. 

    Any ideas what the problem is?

  7. Posted · Edited by youngshinzen

    @Zigzag Idiot Thank you! I'll do that.

    28daysleft:

    • worked for one hour in the afternoon
    • sat down crosslegged on the couch, lifted my pelvis and kept my back straight
    • had a nap before, felt determined and energized
    • converted my notes, added external info to it and made a graphic (≈2pages)
    • during this hour I felt inner tension and muscular tension in the back increase, breath was shallow, had to let it flow consciously
    • one hour seemed perfect, after that it would probably start to exhaust me

  8. Posted · Edited by youngshinzen

    STATUS QUO

    Technqiues for motivation

    1. Guided Meditation

    Two weeks ago, my therapist did a guided meditation with me to feel the future sensation of finishing this task deeply in the present moment. I sat down, closed my eyes and she told me to imagine being in a cinema that plays the movie of " @youngshinzen submits his thesis":

    I was seated right next to the knob that controls the curtains and starts the movie. I felt the texture of the red, round knob and slowly tilted it to the side. The curtains opened up and the intro with the previously mentioned title started. I saw myself walking to my university with two editions of my thesis in a bordeaux cover, the sun is shining. I seem a bit exhausted, but also energized and happy. I go to the service department and proudly place the thesis on their desk. After an uplifting conversation about the relief I go outside, with my chest out and open, feeling the FREEDOM and clarity in front of me. I smell flowers, sense the people's happiness (I project onto them?) and feel the lust to buy a huge ice cream. While eating I prepare for a trip."

    Then I'm being asked to communicate with my future self, who has accomplished finishing the thesis. What would he tell me? Here are the notes:

    • Trust in yourself.
    • Have as much fun as possible.
    • Show others your small achievements on the way and be proud of them.
    • Surround yourself with positivity.

    I will connect to these aspects everyday and also feel the sensations.

    2. Scheduling thesis-appointments and making a reinforcement-plan

    I scheduled two hours in the morning and one hour in the afternoon. The therapist said that this is optimal in regards to the biorhythm. Everytime I achieve one day of studying focused for these three hours, I get a point. 6 points (one week, one day break) lead to having a special event as a treat (sauna, shopping, etc.)

    3. Various positive thinking patterns

    • I've doubted myself oftentimes and always made it through
    • I will be an example for others that it is possible to overcome obstacles like these
    • I want to experience the whole thing

    Habits:

    These are already implemented, some are fresh (OMAD, early exercise). I'll document if changes occur:

    • No-Fap
    • Keto-Diet
    • One meal a day
    • Structure: wake up early, exercise 30min HIIT, cold shower, study, eat, (sleep), study, meditate (1h)

    Vision board:

    InShot_20190416_210606273.jpg

  9. Posted

    Hey,

    I'm currently writing my master thesis in logistics and I have one more month to complete it. I have passed every exam and this is the only thing left. But, whenever I want to sit down, I fear the pain that arises when I write and procrastinate. If I do start to write, I get tired within a few minutes. Even if I'm completely ready and alert before, it just knocks me out. This is probably connected to my past in which I have studied under severe conditions.

    It is the thing I'm most afraid of and there's a part of me that's wants me to fall. But I won't let that happen, now that I'm so close to finishing it. I already have 20 pages and need about 50 more. I have notes that will probably lead to 20-30 additional pages once I process them and add stuff.

    I just have to start and work on it daily. I don't like to make myself dependent of others, but this time I really need help. If you just let me know you're here watching what I do, supporting and giving advice, I would be very grateful.

    If I achieve something or not, I will do document it here on a daily basis.

    Wish me luck?