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Hi all, Wondering if anyone owns a massage gun for percussion therapy, such as Theragun, Hypervolt etc? If so, do you find it helps with sore muscles after working out? Does it make you feel more 'loose' and comfortable in your own body? Worth the money? Also thought they could be useful for the type of work we do on Actualized.org, for feeling into the body and increasing the mind-body connection. Sometimes no matter how much I try to release tension into certain parts of my body just by using my mind, I just cannot do it and feel like a massage gun would be useful. Let me know what you guys think, Thanks

I get terrible migraines after doing mushrooms, bad enough to put me off. Anything above 1.5g and I feel awful for about 48 hours, I've never even gone about 2g. Can anyone else relate? It's really fustrating as I would like to go into the deeper territory i.e 4g, but can't even imagine how I would feel after I am going to try LSD soon in hope that I don't feel bad. Does anyone else get headaches after mushrooms, but not on LSD?

Hi, Do anyone of you own Berkey water filters to remove all the bad stuff out of your typical water supply? Have any if you done your own tests to confirm? I am thinking of buying one with the flouride filter Thanks

Why does taking shrooms feel like torture to me? Even microdoses. Will it ease up and become more enjoyable the more I take them and meditate?

That video was helpful and interesting

Yeah thanks, I don't feel so crazy today. Although last night I kept waking up at random times with some weird, but pretty intense energy (?) flowing around my body, mainly around my stomach, heart and throat if I can pin point it correctly. Anyone else had this? If I told a doctor they'd probably get me sectioned if I tried explaining to them the last 24hours.

Yeah I've watched all of Leo's videos since 2017 and understand alot of this stuff in theory. Now it is feeling very real and not theory, except it's not pleasant at all. I meditated for only 40 minutes earlier and now it feels like I am on mushrooms without the visuals, how the hell can meditation do that (It feels like you know what I have done today and what I am going through, and you're just acting as if you don't know, so it makes me think that you are real. I'm sorry if that sounds rude)

Leo's signature is scaring me where it says I am him, I don't know if I am thinking that I am him, but it felt very obvious and real that I am him about 10 minutes ago. Why are you making this hard for me, I just want this fear to leave

You don't even exist why are you acting like a real person, this is really starting to play with my head, Sorry if you are real, and I sound rude I didn't mean it like that, but right now I feel as if this some huge joke being played on me

I was going to start a new thread, I've been meditating for upto 3 hours, but usually around 2 hour for the last 2 weeks, and I feel like I am going crazy now. I am having panic attacks occur out of no where (when I am not meditating), racing heart rate which lasts for hours. I feel really scared and I don't even know why. I keep feeling as is if I'm about to die, or that I have coronavirus but have no symptoms. Has anyone else gone through this? It feels as if I am typing towards myself, and that if anyone writes back that it is just text generated by another part of me. I wish this would stop it's really scaring me, I wish I never started this. I was having good progress from meditation a few months back, but ever since I ramped upto 2 hours I have random episodes of mania and can't sleep properly. I woke up in the middle of the night a few days ago with my heart pumping out my chest, I thought I was having a heart attack, then I calmed back down.

Hey Leo, have you tried N,N-DMT recently? I think I remember saying you hadn't a while back. If so, how did you find it? Do you consider it just as useful as 5MeO for our purposes on here? Would you ever do a video purely on your N,N-DMT experiences?

It happened again today after a meditation session. I managed to check my heart rate with my phone and while checking my pulse manually while it happened. My heart rate was normal, and I felt no negative change in my consciousness, only that it made me super in the present for 10 seconds (hard to describe) It's really freaky, it feels like some kind of energy is leaving my body, and all the muscles around my chest loosen up. this probably sounds weird. The last few weeks I have slept really well, which alot of the time I don't. I've also had very vivid dreams. I'm still going to get checked by a doctor and explain as best as I can and hopefully get a blood check too. When this first happened I think it caused me to panic, but I've strangely got used to it. I hope this is some kind of indication towards spirtual/ consciousness growth. I have been meditating alot recently.

Hi, so I did mushrooms for about 5 weekends in a row in November, and also did 1 week of shamanic breathing each day (20-30 minutes each session). Ever since I keep having this very weird sensation that lasts only 5 seconds and happens once a week out of no where. It feels like I'm about to die, and also lose control, my heart goes warm, for anyone that's done MDMA, it feels like that, but instead it my heart rate slows down breifly. I feel perfectly normal after these few seconds when it happens, I'm also in good health and shape. This sounds really weird, but that is the best I can describe it. This happened again yesterday while I was walking in the woods, I then had very mild psychedelic visions which lasted for a minute. What the hell is going on? Have any of you guys experienced anything like this? The first time this happened I thought my lunch had been poisoned and was about to call an ambulance. Thanks

@Tim R If it continues I will go and see a doctor. I am 90% sure it is something with my mind. I seem to be having very vivid dreams. Something subtle within my mind is changing. I can meditate alot easier and am starting to enjoy it. @Malekakisioannis Hey, which psychedelics are you taking, and what kind of doses? I'd love to help but I'm no expert. Why are you doing them daily?

@Tim R The doses were only about 1g, however I think I have a very strong batch as they felt more like 2-3g, I deffinetly weighed them correctly. The dying part: I feel no 'physical' pain, it just feels like something is shutting down and my heart rate drops, also my hearing goes faint and I hear a slight ringing. I want to say a very temporary ego death? Then when I start to panic after 5 seconds or so I go back to 'normal'. I but can't be sure. It's really strange, and scary. It all happens within a few seconds. BTW I have stopped taking shrooms, and won't do them for a while. I am just doing more meditation now.

So we've established (I have in theory) that God wants to experience every possible thing imaginable. What happens when God wants to experience being some life form, maybe even super human that is biologically imortal and literally lives in an infinite time as life form? It will get 'stuck' in that life? I get that 'infinite time' is finite itself as it's only a part of Absolute infinity. Is God intelligent enough not to put its self through that? If so, then God can't experience Absolutly everything? Again, I understand in theory (I am not yet aware enough) that conciousness is imortal, but not as an ego/ sentient being. Is this just too much thinking that my finite mind cannot grasp, something beyond language? what are your thoughts, insights etc?

@Average Investor Thanks, I am probably capable of installing reverse osmosis filter. I didn't realize they cost so little.

@Raptorsin7 I'm too trying to acheive what you are. I was hoping a weekly dose of mushrooms would help me release tension held in my body, as I've realized the tightness is causing me to be disfunctional in alot of areas in my day to day life.

Hi all, Is doing psychedelics on a weekly basis safe (every weekend)? Is that too much? Mushrooms and LSD is what I am refering to. I have already started at light doses. My main plan is to trip 50+ times on 'easiser' substances and then move onto 5MeO, DPT and the more hardcore etc. I know this is abit of a vague question, espescially as everyone reacts differently to different substances, but what are things I can expect in say a years time from now assuming I tripped every single weekend? I have alot of emotional baggage, traumas and neurosis I would like healing from. Will most of this type stuff be reduced? I sometimes struggle to find specific guidance with psychedelics. Should we meditate while tripping? Should we trip in complete darkness? Lay on the floor symmetrically? Should we go and walk in nature? Or am I just overthinking? Let me know if any of you are doing something similar. Thanks PS, I am aware of tolerance, I still seem to trip after 7 days break. Maybe I could trip with 2 weeks break if my tolerance increases.

Thanks. Yes the last 2 or 3 trips I had to force myself to do it. Maybe if I waited 2 weeks between it wouldn't be so much.

I've started an experiment. I am going to increase my dose by 0.1g once a week. I have already started at 0.4g, have done 0.5g week after, and 0.6g week after that. So far no headache. This week shall be 0.7g I think I have an unsually strong batch

Hi all, I've only tripped around 10 times, but once I start coming down I end up with an awful tension headache that lasts upto 48 hours, and these are only light to moderate doses (2g - 3g). None of my friends said this happened to them with the same batches, and it can't be dehydration because I have made sure I drink alot of water. Its kind of putting me off doing higher doses or other physcedelics. Just wondering if anyone else experiences headaches after shrooms? I tripped yesterday on just 2g and feel terrible now, pain killers don't even seem to help. Thanks

@Leo Gura Yes maybe, I'll have to try LSD @Tim R Thanks, I'll have to read through all that when my head clears up! @Nahm That's interesting. Do you think the more I trip the more tension I can release? I went into the trip with the intention to place awareness into my innerbody specifically to help remove the tension in my day to day life. I'm becoming more and more aware how the tightness is inside my body is causing alot of mental disfunction and problems in my life. It really is a deep problem for me as I am so unconscious in my day to day life, I can tell myself to release tension and feel better, but within a short amount of time I am back all tense without realizing. @Loving Radiance Nice, I didn't notice that thread, I actually have orange juice, eggs in my breakfast and nuts around lunch time, however that didn't really help unfortunately. Just taken some pain killers with codeine which usually I am reluctant to take, had some sleep and feel better now.

Thought I would bump this thread rather than start a new one. @Charlotte Do you feel that microdosing has given you benefits even after periods of not microdosing? i.e has it changed you for the better 'permanently'? Do you still microdose now? I would like to try, so I am curious

I've never heard of INTP before, but after some research I'm pretty certain I am very much one. I am constantly over conceptualizing everything. Have any of you found a best way of getting out of this state of mind? Meditation hasn't really helped. A recent mushroom trip I done showed me how being stuck in my head and analysing everything constantly is causing me alot of suffering. Maybe doing some more trips on psychedelics will help get into my body more seamlessly .