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As a current student I don't have much possibility to go on meditation retreats, however I live alone in a student house and have an option to meditate for whole week when I have a break. Can meditation retreat done at home without moving somewhere and will it have the same effect? - If no what's the difference. Suppose if I prepare food so it lasts me for 1 week without going out for groceries and then basically just doing solo meditation without living my room. I also think if it is a good idea to shroom trip during this solo room retreat maybe one or twice in the duration of the week.

But still, I think it's easier said than done mate. It may be doable but it also involves luck in a great extent. For example when you refuse everything and travel light you are more likely to become victim of trafficking or fraud by your employers because some of them just won't care about you. You will be another supertramp for them. Police will most likely won't bother to help you either in that case. Also it is very easy to travel in the US because you don't have language barrier and you don't need visa to move to different states. but for people from other countries it is more complicated. Let's speak about practical matters. Tell me your experience how you handled those?

@ajasatya yes but moving around the world and meeting new people requires money and visa for stay. How you actually make it in practice that's where we all struggle

I am very much interested. What made you understand that yo are ignorant and what pushed you to the limits to finally change everything. I am stuck on point 2. I am also in the rock bottom of the hell right now. I am so lost and confused.

@ajasatya Maybe the most notable parts of it? @elias read the last part of my post carefully.

I would greatly appreciate your story here or pm. Yes maybe in your case it just happened but that is not the case for all people.

Yes yes and yes again. I know that. But, still faith is the motivation. I don't understand why people disregard faith as Enlightenment is a leap of faith is not it so? If you did not believe initially that there could be some Ultimate Truth would you shave your hair and become a monk? Faith was your initial inertia to do all this spiritual work.

You speak like you believe that ultimately time exists. Do you? Nah.. I know you well you must have meant something different. explain

@Lauritz That's another example how you interpreted my intentions through your lenses. What you are referring to is called the confirmation bias and I am well aware of it to not become its victim. I am not searching for believes or confirmations I just want to hear other people' understanding of this. This will be helpful for my further contemplation because I am open to every possibility. When you contemplate you may miss something and sharing between other people may identify these pitfalls. @Shiva I understand your point. OK let's see. 1) whatever we call it it's a change of forms. Through direct experience you can see other people dying and they are never the same right? So that's not assumption your directly experience it but what is it in reality nobody knows that's right. 2) I don't know that neither do I assume. I am just looking for all the possibilities. However, notice that when you are trying so desperately to do your Enlightenment work you also assume that it may be the ultimate Truth right? It is also a leap of belief. Unless you would not be so dedicated towards it. You are expecting the change at least at the beginning. 3) that is interesting. If reality cease to exist after physical death of my ego that means that other egos do not exist. Which ultimately shakes the absolute infinity idea. 4) I am self inquiring daily. I am sure you do too. 5) what if we call this entity ego?

The price is living your normal life as you would do. The more important question in my opinion is what exactly is the price to get Enlightened? - don't you think so.

@Lauritz I think it is a wasted energy to tell somebody to change. That's what you are doing. Everyone is perceiving this reality through his lenses and what may be True way for you may not be for the other. If I was not so curious and did not question so much I wouldn't even be on this forum today. This is my personality and one thing I am lucky for is that I am so curious about everything. Contemplation and questioning stuff never hurt nobody @AleksM This is very close representation of my current understanding. I also see lots of similarities in Christianity - the holy trinity. For me Jesus is the greatest teacher and true example. What if people in that time did not understand his true teachings and another religion was created? I want to study Christ's life because I truly think that many answers may be hidden there. I think - he was as Enlightened as it gets. @Shiva Ok I offer you to do this together. What did you found out maybe you can share with me?

@Leo Gura you are working so hard to get Enlightenment. You are one of the most hard working persons I've ever seen in my life yet it does not come to you fully. On the other hand it happened to Eckhart Tolle without even trying. I guess same could be said about sadhguru. As far as I know they did not do as much self inquiry, contemplation, meditation and observation as you do to get there. So maybe, after all, Enlightenment is the pure luck. What if you running with the iron rod on the high mountain to get struck by "lightning" does not change much? If there is no free will in the grand scale of things - maybe happening just happens and surrendering to reality is the only option to get Enlightened?!

@Principium Nexus I relate to what you said mostly. After I discovered Enlightenment work and I stay present it feels like there is no time gap between my past and now. It feels like in a dream you are just appearing in the place withour past. Only when I start thinking the past appears but the thought is just another illusion of dream. Interestingly this insight also explains the illusion of time. There is no time and the only thing what's real is Now - the present moment. The one major question which buffles me everyday is - wether we reincarnate in another body after our physical death or we wake up from the dream forever as our true self?

@LaucherJunge Even if the same universes exist infinite numbers of time that does not change the fact that there is no free will. Just contemplate that well enough and you will get it. There is no you first of all but Your ego is where it is in this infinity - everything is already complete nothing to change. Also notice that time spectrum where you actually make decisions is an illusion. Also don't understand my word designed directly... @Leo Gura what do you mean.

Share the best psychedelic art you have came across. Also share your story if you had experienced psychedelic trip and observed or listened to that art - what did you feel, what did you see?

OK. Imagine infinite universes like this (-infinity ... -2, -1, 0, 1, 2, ... infinity) Suppose you live in universe 0 and have a free will to do whatever you please. All of the universes numbered by other then 0 are different alternatives. Suppose 0 is not predetermined and you made free will decisions that would make your universe 0 similar to other universe numbered by X. There would not exist universe 0 anymore because it should have had the predetermined specific features (version of yourself) which made it unique 0 universe different from other ones.

Explain how infinite could include some room? If it is infinite it is absolutely complete in every aspect.

infinite is already a predetermined notion - it is absolute. I don't get your point. Free will means that there is room for new universe based on your new decisions. There could not be any room for new universe because absolutely infinite already predeterminely includes every possible universes with every possible versions of you making every possible decisions....

If there are infinite numbers of universes that means that there is no free will. Contemplate on that... Every universe should differ from another somehow and each of them is designed in a certain way to fit the infinity spectrum. In the case of free will two or even all the universes could repeat which makes infinity impossible. Furthermore, if you look closely you don't exist. It is only ego which exists and is conditioned by society and environment. Ego is not what you ultimately are...

You are missing the point here. Absolute infinite means that it already includes everything and there is no room for anything else. you can not shift anything because there is no you. But your current ego life is one possibility among this infinite possibilities. Aka. one dream among infinite number of dreams but be aware that there is no dreamer here...

if you believe in absolutely infinite universe then where is the room for free will? every possibility of you already exists in parallel universes and you are just one manifestation among them...

I still wonder how and why did it happen to Eckhart Tolle for example. Have you listened to his story? It just happened. He was not even thinking about it. He did not even know what the Enlightenment was. So maybe less we know the better? Idk I am infinitely confused ...

Based on my experience or glimpse however you call it. It is pure being which is constantly aware of itself but relative manifestations are blinded by the content of that beingness.

Exactly! I think awareness will only turn onitself if it is ment to be so regarding your relative manifestation.

What do you mean? Explain your point - let's discuss I am open to the possibilities.