Hellow everybody, this is my first post here!
I have been watching a lot of Leo's videos and I see a lot of truth in his reflections. I want to be more like him and be truly happy.
I have been struggling with quitting my game addiction for a while now. Since 3-4 years ago I decided I had to quit games, but I relapsed a few times. Sometimes, I achieved to be "clean" for 1 year, other for 40 days,... I had a big problem with productivity, but now I'm very productive... But sometimes I only feel like just playing.
What I observed, in myself, is that when I relapse I inmediatelly stop wanting to meditate (and stop meditating, of course). What is even more interesting is, now I'm more conscious about that, that my thoughts are more loose and hiperactive throught all the day, but they are very notable when I'm trying to meditate; it's a lot harder to focus. I get something called "tetris effect" after playing very little.
Do you guys experienced the same?
I ask this because I don't know if I'm just being obsessive, or overthink, and blame games instead. I always loved to play games but I want to keep away myself from the crazy monkey mind. Which I notice everytime I want to meditate after playing the day before.
Thank you.
