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Do whatever feels good man! Do nothing technique seems just perfect for you. If you get bored after a while, yea, you might try Vipassana or mindfulness with labeling, or whatever other technique you prefer. There really are no rules for it in terms of what technique to use. Whatever soaps your goat buddy! Follow your intuition and don't get distracted I like your name BTW. It's kinda puzzling and hypnotising. Good luck!!

@Solace Love your energy. ❤️

Wait what? I just saw him, at the gas pump!

"Death by astonishment" always cheers me up lol.

Empty, empty, empty Bless

My humor gaydar went up, thanks Joseph.

It might work to make a few rules for during these auto pilot moments. Make a rule that everytime you shake your friends hand or hug them, you become present and aware of it. Make a rule that everytime you walk in the bus to greet the bus driver, you become present. Make a rule that everytime you brush your teeth or step into the elevator at your work, you become present. This helped a lot for me. Back this up with Vipassana, breath work, meditation, yoga (and yes, I have to pick some of them up again too ). Keep aligning yourself with being, breath, the present moment and try not to slip back in old (bad) habits. I'ts a slow but fun process. But you'll find yourself become more aware during these auto pilot moments.

Day 14

I hope that keeping a public journal will keep me more motivated to succeed on this nofap journey. Time to get serious. So... let's do this. No more excuses!! Feel free to ask questions or comment or whatever

@bejapuskasyea that could very well be. Maybe it's getting too much in my head by writing all these posts. Although I think it's not the main reason for relapsing tho. For me, the main issue is that when I relapse, I'm not in line with my goals and I convince myself that I'll be fine by watching porn. But deep down I know and feel that it's toxic for the mind. I justify it because I feel like I need the quick fix (to reduce stress, headaches, to fall asleep). And then the physical and sensational overload comes and I give into the cravings. Its a damn roller-coaster ? I'm thinking of updating this journal maybe once in 5 days instead of daily. Just to slow it down a bit.

Day 1,2,3: 2/10

Day 16: relapse I relapsed after I wrote my last post. The hornyness was just terrible. It lasted about 5 hours (untill 5am) and I finnaly gave in. I just couldn't sleep. I tried every technique but nothing lasted. I was so relieved when I finnaly gave in. This was not healthy.

Day 15: 2/10 I was alone at home the whole day and managed to keep my thoughts away from watching porn. Basically by keeping myself busy with my hobby, taking a walk outside and listening to music. There were some moments where I was like fuck it, but I immediately choose to do work. The decision to fap or to watch porn really happens in a split second. If your mind has you by the balls, you're fucked. Literally. Then the justifying begins

Day 13&14: 1/10

Day 11&12: 3/10

Hey man, maybe just as an idea, why not try 30 days first as a goal to work towards? I think that will benefit your mindset and strengthen your motivation even more. Small steps. Just throwing it out there

Day 10: 2/10 Today I found myself watching porn for about 5 minutes. Not because I wanted to fap, but out of pure boredom. My body didn't really react to it. But my mind had its relief. Im not sure what to think about it actually.

Day 9: 2/10 Big decrease in sexual urges and fantasies compared to the last two days.

Day 7&8: 5/10

Day 6: 1/10

Day 4&5: 3/10

Day 3: 2/10 I relapsed maybe 5 times in the past two weeks. Interestingly, my nofap motivation significantly decreased as soon as I stopped uploading on the forum. I noticed that the whole proces of fapping has become way less toxic for me. I now go into it with full awareness and I don't feel bad mentally or physically afterwards. That is not to say fapping is a healthy habit for me, because I felt way more energetic and motivated when I did my first attempt and reached 60 days. And that wasn't even a "full" reboot of 90 days, so that's where Im still aiming for!

Day 13: relapse I relapsed in the middle of the night. I couldn't sleep, so I used fapping as an excuse to fall asleep. It worked tho, but of course I gave into the craving and watched porn for waaaay too long. Like I said a few posts back, it's time to restructure my life again. I got so much spare time to do good stuff. The last few days I've been painting like crazy and it feels awesome. But I'm still waking up way too late, I'm watching movies, series and basically wasting my time. SOOO..im using this opportunity to get rid of my internet addiction. Not just porn, but also YouTube, Netflix and this forum. It's time to reboot the system. For 10 days I'm not using any form of digital entertainment, except for listening to music while doing my hobbys. And: - Boost meditation from 30 minutes daily to 2hrs daily - 1hr daily nature walk - 1hr of reading Lets start with this. I'm also continuing to fight the nofap beast. I'm shutting my phone off for 10 days, only before bed I'm checking for mails and messages. During my solo retreat this worked out fine so I'm confident it's not going to be a distraction. Time to take action. See ya'll on the other side!

Day 12: 3/10