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Day 17 Restful day. Did 3 full breath exercises which felt good and relaxing. It feels like I'm getting the hands of it. In terms of my breath awareness during the day: pretty much non excistant. I need to get out of this pit. I don't like being on autopilot.

Day 16 Wakey wakey! Today I explored dreamland. Zero awareness but hella fun times. It feels like I just woke up, but I'm going to bed for sleep... Tomorrow there is more time for self actualization. Then I can finnaly do a full round of 3x 10 minutes, relaxed!

@modmyth Blenders are amazing. In fact, I use one every day too for my smoothies. But unfortunately it broke down just two days ago so I'm left with eating (and not blending) bananas and kiwi's. Boooring! Where do you use your blender for if you don't mind me asking?

Day 15 Okay today. I did manage to take 10 minutes off to practice belly breathing during work. I totally forgot about it during lunch tho. Its not yet baked into my system so to speak.

Day 14 Okay day. Compared to the last few days, today was a bit off. Caught up in work. There was one instant during lunch where I became aware of my breath and realised that I was unaware of how I was breathing prior before that moment. I didn't know if I was breathing in my belly already, or chest breathing, or mouth breathing or whatever. Kind of like waking up from a deep sleep. Even now when I check my breathing I'm unaware of how I was breathing just seconds before.. Can I be aware of the unconscious? And if so, is it then still unconscious? It feels like there must always be an unconscious. I am for example currently not aware of all the snails in my neighbours backyard. But can I?

Day 13 Good awareness today. My metro ride to work is about 10 minutes so I have the opportunity to do the breath exercise. During work it's hard focus on my breath for 10 minutes straight, so I try to focus for short durations as much as I can.

Day 11 & 12 Good awareness during work today and yesterday. I was asleep most of time, but there were quite a few moments of being fully present. I tried to count my breath at one time, and got to 15 ?

Day 10 Good awareness today. I was watching a movie and there were several moments where I was becoming aware of my breath. But after a few seconds the awareness subsided and attention was back in the movie.

Day 9 Nothing much. Short but frequent awareness of breath in non meditative states.

Interestingly, I breathe 24 hours a day, fully 'automatic' and without being aware of it except for the 20/30 minutes breathing exercise. Makes me realise how much I take things for granted. And how much there is I'm unaware of. How the fuck does my body keep breathing when I'm asleep? And my hearth pumping? Who's in control here?

Breathing more deeply and more slowly into the belly is very relaxing. I first let the breathing be automatic, then after a few minutes I slow the breath down. Ujjayi breath helps to strengthen focus and relaxation. I haven't mastered that type of breathing, but it often happens naturally when I try to breathe slowly.

Day 8 Did an extra breathing session for 10 minutes today. I'll be doing one tomorrow too. I'm a freelancer so sometimes I have more time to self actualize which is nice. Ideally I can do this exercise in the morning, afternoon and before bed, so tomorrow we're doing the afternoon too.

I am happy to be a belly-breather!

Day 7 Shitty day in terms of awareness. Busy day at work. Practiced belly breathing on the bus rides but both times I was a little distracted by the female apparition. Why are women so beautiful? I need to focus here!

Day 6 Technique seems to get more easy and pleasant. No need to force any muscles in my belly. It takes a few breaths to be automatic. I also begin to notice my breath more in non meditative states. Not for long tho, just a few seconds a couple of times a day. Normally in moments of 'clarity' awareness is focused on itself like a small epiphany or waking up moment. When I have these moments now, the attention sometimes goes to the breath instead of awareness itself. Signs to wake up from the wheel. Edit: I realised that I create my own signs. Spooky stuff.

Day 5 Comfortable session, but got distracted right after. Getting into a meditative state is a lot smoother by focusing on breath first.

Day 4 I wanted to add 5 more minutes but I have to take it slow. Comfortable session. Breathing felt more natural this time. I have more time to focus on different sensations around the breath (nose, throat, sounds)

Hmm, it seems like I can't edit my post after 2 days. Day 3 10 minutes breath work, the exercise started to work better when I took my hands off my belly and chest. My attention is now focused on the lowest part of my belly instead of how much my hands move when I breathe. Breating this way still feels a little awkward. It's the same type of breathing when in deep relaxed meditation states, only then it feels more automatic and relaxing. I have to get used to this type of breathing in non meditative states. De-stress.

Day 1 Well, my belly is bigger than I thought. I need to workout. Belly breathing feels unnatural. I have to consciously stretch my muscles slightly in order to breathe. I hold one hand on my belly and the other on my chest. Day 2 I added 5 minutes breath work at the start of my meditation to do more practice. For tomorrow morning I will add another 5 minutes to the breathing only exercise. It's too short to really get into it.

Instagram is a great tool for me! But I'm an artist. I use the platform to be inspired, to connect with creatives and to share my own work. It's an online gallery for me. On the other hand, it's quite easy to be distracted on the platform, too. Especially with Instagram TV, stories and the "discovery" section. You can literally scroll down forever and it's visually very appealing. That's why I avoid it. So really think about why you want to be on the platform. We can't decide that for you. Judging by the title and what you've said it's better to avoid it

@Mu_ Thanks, Mu

Heya, I don't know how to put this. For the past few weeks i've been feeling something that i call 'energetic restlessness'. My body is tired and wants to fall to the ground. I FEEL energetic, but I have no actual energy to do anything. It's kinda like being drunk actually. There are periods where i feel completely in peace and surrendered to this present moment while at the same time having no interest in doing anything. The joy is then gone. Not even painting and drawing, which is my passion. I don't even want to lie down. I just want to stare into that void and be completely at peace. I want to be alone. This 'state' can be very emotional at times, too. Often times there is some tention in the chest. Like something wants to get out. Because of this, my meditations have become VERY wild. Physically wild. I feel as though energy is releasing in my body and I get all these spasms and twists all over my body. Sometimes I talk weird languages, like shamanic languages (I think?). These spasms have been going on for a few months, but just recently they've become more wild. I don't force anything, it just happens and it is seen. Intuitively I feel and know that im all right. There are no negative associations with these experiences. But something tells me I need to be reassured that i'm all right. I'm venturing in the depths and I need some guidance. Someone that knows what's going on, and can reassure me that im all right. Thanks for reading! Wesley

Interesting YouTube channel about channeling, numbers and syncronisities!

@Litaken You're amazing, come give me a hug ❤️? @Nahm Means a lot Nahm ?

Hi @Litaken, thank you for your response. After contemplating what you've said this restlessness made a lot more sense. I realised that I have to surrender the need for needing, because it is ego driven. Even the wanting to be at peace in awareness is ego driven!