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You hit the spot right there. Life takes wherever it wants to take you, if you completely surrender to it. The path of least resistance. The path of true HAPPINESS!!!! Haleluja!!! ❤️

Please keep your hands above the blanket, sir

@TheAvatarState yes yes! It has been a long time since I've watched it, thanks for the reminder haha really awesome stuff. I saw this quote by Bruce Lee on YouTube and it resonated very deeply with everything in my life. Creativity, relationships, who I want to be, everything. Deep wisdom. Be water, my friend!

Kind words of you, Mr. Avatar! Sending positive vibes your way!

(long post incomming) Day 60 complete! Hooray! I completed my initial goal of 60 days which means I can finally watch porn again! Man, I missed it so much. Here I cum Lana Rhoades! Said no no-fapper ever. I'm building more momentum by the day so I have no reason to quit now. What has changed in these 2 months? First of all, I feel much more energetic. I'm more aware of my body and masculine energy. Sometimes I feel like a FUCKING NINJA WARRIOR and I act like I'm Bruce Lee. Only at home in front of the mirror btw But this feels so great. Its the type of energy that makes you want to change your lazy habits. For me this resulted in taking cold showers, eating and drinking less sugar products (especially ice coffee and chocolate) and reading. There are still a lot of habits I want to change, but this is a good start. Secondly, and this is also energy related, I can feel pressure and tingling sensations along my spine, from root to top. I think this is kundalini related though I'm not sure. During my meditations I experience heavy jerking and twisting joints. Especially my neck. Sometimes it literally feels like I'm possessed and someone is changing my energetic code. Sensations definitely feel alien. People say this could be related to energy purification in the chakras. But the twisting and jerking wasn't something new for me. It happened occasionally before nofap, only during meditation. Now I often experience it outside of the meditative state too, and with a higher intensity and for a longer period of time. I think this is directly related to semen retention. I'm basically keeping the energy in my body and not wasting it through orgasm. I have to do more research on this topic. Anyway, I ordered two books about kundalini so I hope that will give me more I sight on the matterrrrrrrrr Nice. What's next? Female attraction. Ive noticed changes in how women see me, and how I see them. First of all, girls just look at me for no reason. It's not my clothes or physical attraction that they notice, I'm sure. It flipped in just one day. I get so much more looks and stares. It MUST be my energy that they can pick up with their super high tech male energy detection radar sensor device-mechanism. Im not complaining. Conversations go much smoother and I am more in control of myself. Less in thought. More aware and genuinely interested in the other person, which make conversations more fun for both parties. I would love to say that my perception of girls have changed, but they haven't. My standards are still very high and "less attractive" girls are not really interesting to me. I still haven't found the balls to start dating and meet new women. There is still this sense of insecurity. But im working on it by stepping out of my comfort zone more often, and self inquiry. But it is also not my main focus at the moment. My take on nofap/semen retention Nofap is a great tool for If you want to install new habits in your life, or get rid of old habits you don't like. You're using this (sexual) energy to actually do productive things and not ejaculate to a bunch of colored pixels which form a woman's butthole. Try it out. Pause the video and zoom in as far as you can and you'll see its just a colored, poor little square. Poof! That's reality for ya. The girl is illusory! All jokes aside. Doing this thing "only" 60 days in made me feel so much better about myself. By not giving into urges and just silently observing the sexual thoughts I gained more mental strength. Strength which can be used to improve areas in my life. But there is so much more work to do. This is only the beginning. I'm mentally setting a goal for 90 days, but actually it doesn't matter. I do this day by day. Thanks for reading! <3

@Leonid Glad you realised it on time dude. I can't even imagine fapping 4-6 times a day, must be very draining for him. I hope your journey will inspire him too. I've learned that it's easier to inspire people instead of convincing people. And yeh I agree, in hentai everything is possible. VR porn is also gaining popularity which can make people even more addicted to an online virtual sex world. But that's another story haha

Thanks man, and your are quite right; I'm not a hardcore porn addict and I never really was. That's why it's been relatively easy for me. Back in my highschool days I was fapping daily, but I kinda grew out of that when I turned 18/19. I'm 22 now. Looking back tho, I was in a period of my life where I felt I was literally wasting all of my life energy to porn. Whenever I was bored or stressed, I would fap. Like running upstairs for a quicky and not even feeling horny. Just masturbate to masturbate. I was also in the beginning fase of watching more hardcore porn stuff, like groupsex, anal, and girls putting huge dildo's in their asses. I was never interested in that stuff. That was the moment I took action, because I didn't want to go down that path (I also read other people's obsession about needing weirder and more hardcore porn to get off). This made me a little scared tbh. Good luck on your journey mate. 365 days sounds like an EPIC goal, but I hope it's not too far on the horizon for you. You might wanna start with 90 days and see from there. We'll be in touch

Yes yes yes! Some ideas for a catchy title: Kundalini yoga - Awakening through the rising snake Kundalini yoga - The path of the rising snake Kundalini yoga - Enlightenment through energy and life-force Kundalini yoga - Awakening through the inner fire That's all I can do, I hope it's not too cheesy

Haha yess!!

Day 59 Nothing serious going on today. I was expecting more urges and sexual fantasies because of yesterday, but that didn't happen. In fact, if I think about watching porn right now, I get a bit disgusted by it. Might just be the moment.

@youngshinzen @Igor82 Thanks. I basically see it as a form of visualisation,which can also be applied for different goals in life (like gaining muscle or becoming the best version of yourself).

@youngshinzen You mean actively fantasizing about hot girls? Doesn't that make the urge to fap even stronger for you?

Day 57 Feeling good! I'm increasing the time under the cold showers, right now it's about 2 minutes. I can feel a new wave of sexual urges coming. Last night I had a lot of fantasies, even during meditation I kinda lost myself in it.

Putting awareness on awareness is enough. Your mind is trying to figure stuff out with all sorts of questions and interpretations. It does that automatically, which is okay It doesn't know, so it's searching for answers. When awareness is aware of itself, there is no mind present. In this "state" the mind has nothing to interpret or to be aware of, so it's silenced! Feelings, sensations, perceptions are all mind stuff. My advice would be to do more meditation, to become more familiar with the state of "awareness is aware of itself" Hours and hours of meditation. Also, don't search for emptiness. You're not gonna find it with the mind. How can emptiness be somewhere? How can EMPTINESS be something or somewhere? IT'S EMPYYYY!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Don't search for it. Searching is done with the mind. Sit down, calm the mind, and rest in this state. This is emptiness. It really is easier than your mind thinks it is. There is no experience or perception in emtiness. But in the end, what do I know. I'm a seeker, just like you are. It might go deeper and deeper. Listen closely to Leo's vid. I hope my view shines a little light on your questions. Im already typing way too much. Bless you mate. <3

Mi no touchi the dickino, no no! How ya'll doing down there?

Don't stop till you get enough!

Day 56 Slow and steady, nothing serious going on today. I do feel more looks on me. In the train, metro. Normally I'm the one who instantly looks away when someone is looking at me, but now I can remain eye contact. Still doing the cold showers in the morning. I think within a few more days it becomes a steady habit, bacause I'm already feeling the benefits in increased energy in the morning. Building that up with nofap and exercise will definitely sky rocket the proces. Only thing I'm missing rn is physical exercise. I'm thinking of doing the qigong in the evenings, because then I have more time. I'll plan this for next Wednesday. Merry Christmas people!!

Hahaha yea man. They grow naturally under my armpits.

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I won't, tnx ;-)

Day 54 Picked up cold showers yesterday and today. Boy that felt so good. I can feel the link between building confidence and stepping under a cold shower. You just fucking do it. Step out of your comfort zone. The reward afterwards is so worth it. I felt really energetic and did a SD sit for about 1.5hrs. Now the key is to maintain these practises.

Day 53 Boom. Chick magnet. Out of nowhere I feel that more girls are making eye contact with me and I with them. At least more than before. I look them straight in the eyes and don't panic and become unconfortable. I don't know what causes this. Could it be my energy that they can feel? Yesterday I dreamt I was having an orgasm and was so relieved I didn't lose anything when I woke up. Besides that dream I didn't have any sexual thoughts/urges the last few days. Moving on!

Day 51:easy Today I contemplated about why I crave porn and masturbation. And I came to the conclusion that I'm not addicted to orgasm, or even just masturbation. I'm addicted to hot girls having sex. I'm addicted to hot girls teasing me and stripping and giving blowjobs. And its because I myself lack those experiences. I've never had a serious relationship in my life and I've never had sex. So I look for that in pornography. And it does fill that void, but temporally of course. When I watch porn, I always look for the most perfect chick, with the most beautiful breasts and whatnot, you know the drill (pun intended). This is so wrong and toxic if you think about it. I'm creating this perfect dreamgirl in my mind and I fap to it. If the girl is not hot enough, I can't orgasm. The scene has to be fucking perfect and timed at the best moment for my orgasm. Like wtf? How does this affect my perception in real life? Only the ultra hot girls are interesting to me. The rest, nah. Not hot enough. I'm creating such unrealistic standards. This cannot be healthy. And nowadays porn so so realistic and ultra HD 90000000 fps. Who wants to see porn at 480p? Fuck no dude! Too pixelated. We're toxic little monkeys. It's pathetic and funny at the same time. My goal of no fap is the be more genuine, more authentic and not so insecure. I want to have the balls to start conversations with random people. With random girls. I want to start dating and get new experiences and life lessons. In the end it all comes down to the struggle I have between my spiritual and my human ego, if that makes sense. Some parts of my human ego are not yet fully evolved and I think this has to do with the lack of experience I have with women. so I feel this is the path I have to focus on more, before diving deeper in the rabbit hole. Speaking of rabbit holes... *opens up youporn*

Hell yeaaa!