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Iv been doing meditation for the last 7 years of my life and Yoga for about 8 months. I had this question what am I aware of really? Just body, some though ts, some emotions and my breath? I approach meditation with the idea of just stilling myself. I do believe that's a place of total surrender or stillness where the mind stopts the play. Now I think that awareness can be beyond mind if you wanna access higher states. Or theres a deeper part of the mind that can penetrate into more subtle nature or existence. One experience that I had that now I have it at 50%(I think it's because of my diet) it's like an energy going anti-clockwise and I lose sense of my body, I could have meditated for forever if I wanted too. No need for food or feelings in the body I was completely somewhere else but at the same time I was there. My thoughts were really active though, I didn't become aware of anything spiritual I just I guess accessed a different state of body. Said that, what are you aware off? There so much to be aware of, from creation creator and normal day to day activities. I guess meditation it's a great tool to sharpen awerness.

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I do a practice called Shambhavi Mahamudra Krya. It helps me to be at easy in any situation nothing spiritual so far though. It also made me very sensitive to food clothes ppl everything. Trees look nicer and feels good to breath. The moment I stop the practice and start eating junk food though all benefits fade away. It's needs constant practice, it's fairly simple. Another one called Isha Krya it's very powerful. I also shake like crazy sometimes when I do too much meditation. So Kryas might be dangerous if misused.

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First trip ever in my life with psychedelics (actually 3 years ago, sharing only now. I had a bag with 6g of shrooms took half of it waited 15min and I thought nothing it's going on so I took it all. Everyone told me you took a lot. After 45m I started to feel it. I open youtube and listened to some songs then all of the sudden I started to look at my hands and started laughing. I thought I was just born in that moment. Also I started seeing my carpet merging with itself. I also wanted to meditate and the moment I closed my eyes I started seeing some crazy pattern but when I was aware if it they would disappear. I enjoyed being reborn but then it become overwhelming, all kinds of emotion would come into surface. My trip was a neutral trip. Started good then downhill then just overwhelmed. I did all by myself in a dark room. Will I do it ever again? Probably not. What did I learn from it? Well it intensifies your emotions so you can understand yourself in a deeper way I think, but when it comes to spirituality and staff it did not serve me. Maybe DMT will work differently. I would just stick with my Yoga for now and I know it's gonna take a lifetime.

Why do you say so? Is that a mind frame you have before a trip? I just did for the sake of experience to be honest, but with the hope of having an experience. Iv had few experiences with just meditation, nothing like becoming aware of anything. Any suggestions,?

No just done it once.

Well what I shared was true. Next time I might do lil more research. ?

How conscious do you guys think Sadhguru is? Iv had the fortune to attend 2 satsang of his in Tennessee and the first he looked very normal to me, I was just shaking for no reason when there was a meditation. The next time I saw him(this time after I got initiated online) his presence was something else. I did not shake this time but I could not stop crying. Also I felt a very big presence of Devi which is like a hindu goddess. The place was filled with so much energy and it was so effortless to meditate. I haven't felt that pleasant ever in my life. I think there something about the consecrated spaces. It's just beautiful in there.

I scored 1.7 and 2. Iv met future psychopaths when I was younger in my country. They all started killing either Cats dogs or throwing turtles from 6th floor. They would enjoy the animal suffering. Lots of those guys either ended up in jail or got killed.

Is it the same as Yogis taking Mahasamadhi, when they go into a Samadhi state and leave the body for good? I was wandering do you ever plan for a trip to India or someplace where there are realized beings? I would love to watch a video about Psychedelics vs experience of enghitment from a master. There 2 advanced Sadhguru program one is called BSP the other one Samyama. This last one is when you realize your not the body mind or the world around you.

A exercise that I do is contemplate. First thing first understand that your thoughts cannot kill you, and don't be afraid to think deeply. Said that, stay away from all state altering substance s because your in a fragile state now. Next what I usually do is create a thought associated with a pleasant feeling, it's something like this "So this is happening to me, it's so interesting" or for example "wow how I cried when they almost kill me, or how I got scared". So using your thought process to kinda create an acceptance of your issues if that makes sense. Then you should conult doctors too, your problem might even come for your diet or water you use. Wise or wounded your choice. No one will help, it's you. If your suffering it's so intense, why don't you stop it? It's because it has become like a compulsion. See your case as a project that you gonna work and develop and understand yourself over time. Also 1 thing you can do is become conscious of how 14tiktok it's so bad for you, to a point of hating it so much that that thing alone create more suffering than your current suffering. You might have social anxiety too. Exercise a little bit. Meditation in my opinion in your case will not help if you over do it. Do like 5 10m. Run and then immediately after run sit for 5m. Watch Leos video on how good things takes time to develop. Imagine after 2-3 years your situation is enhanced how many ppl you can help share. Share your joy. Try a fire bath. ? ?. Sing, dance. Don't be afraid to express yourself in ways that are not normal to you. Read. Hope. Faith. Jesus whatever is in your pic. Keep your prayer simple "Thank you very much for everything you do for me" that's it 1 sentence. Also be happy for others ppl happiness it's weird but helps. Peace.

You need jesus son. JK. Well iv done inner engineering with sadhguru. The practice helps with lots of psychological problem. Might give it a try.

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Well I think the tree is capable of knowing the pain of someone cutting it Well if the tree had a thought process and a mouth we could ask it.

Well I think that everything is part of your creation or creation. I don't think you are imagining them it's just that the perception of that something else it might be an illusion. In my opinion everything is real. I have memories when I was really young like 1 years old and how I remember percieving reality was so weird. I had no though whatsoever in my mind and everything I was looking at I was curious to touch it or know what was that object or thing about. And If I remember well I cared only about experiencing staff rather than intellectually understanding it. I guess it was just a stage of development and brain capacity. Then later I was more interested in how things work, by destroying a bunch of electronics ???

Your hurting your butt. Maybe someone hurt the tree by cutting it, who knows? But one thing is for sure your hurting your mind by compiling this question.

I was contemplating a lil bit cuz I think it's fun and healthy. Is obliterating identity the final experience or goal of a spiritual seeker? Samadhi or ego death? Is there anything to realize or know? Or you just realize that your a piece of creation and when you let go of yourself completely then theres only god. Also sometimes I think like realizing it's nearly impossible. Because you came as a human being and what is you or creation is build in a way to function in a particular way? Also heard sadhguru saying once that when you come as a human being your possibilities are limitless? Why is that? Also when Leo had that 5Meo experience who was experiencing it? Can there be something as just an experience without the experiencer? Is non existence the ultimate truth? Or it's this thing leo talks about, the universe is infinitely conscious of itself. I think I'm going to watch that video again. Peace.

According to leo I assume you don't need a plan you need a purpose first, then planning it's effortless.

Hey guys, I lost 2 jobs already and just applied for different jobs, they pay like 15/h, hope I'll get it I'm waiting for my drug test. Iam so broke, I'm late on rent for 41days, my car needs a jump start everytime it starts. The only money that I have is from Food Assistance I can't even apply for Unemployment. It really sucks. I'm all by myself in the USA. I'm just sharing not for any particular advice, I'm just curious if any of you been to a situation like this? Worst thing that can happen is me going homeless and I still might find a job it's just that I'm sleep in my car and will have hard time to rent cuz my credit score will go down. The only thing I had money for was to buy a new phone, also my old phone broke jesus christ. ??? Anyone been in this situation? What happened and what did you do?

I read all of the comments. Thank you guys for the support ?❤️

Don't marry him, come to america marry me get your green card that your good to live on your own ? Beside jokes, just say no and stand your ground that's all you can do.

Inner engineering and yoga.

I remember back in Albania. I don't know if we were scammed or not because the moment we were going to pay the money that person had left his home which was his office. There was a guy from New Zealand convincing my father that he will help him with paperwork to live in New Zealand and after many encounters with him he left with no notice. My father assumed he was a spy and this work was just to prove his 'occupation'