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Did @Leo Gura mention anywhere the new psychedelic he was trying out on his solo-retreat?

Hey everyone I have a difficult time with gratitude. Somehow it doesn't seem to occur spontaneously. I'm dealing with some resentments about past events in my life and I think I could let go of a lot of stuff by developing gratitude for what I have learned rather than what I seem to have lost over the event. I know it, but don't feel it. Any tips how to approach that? Cheers

@cirkussmileIt's the most effective tool I know so far. It's good to get confirmation, thanks. @Dodo Lifestory/essence: That's very accurate to what I feel, I will try that– thanks! @Quanty You mean by evolving out of pain and suffering gratitude comes as a natural byproduct? Thanks to all for the help!

@Malelekakis @Logos Thanks to both of you! Sign of improvement: I'm grateful for your replies!

@Nahm ah now i got it:) For example: Most importantly to take responsibility for my emotions and my decisions. That the source of love and happiness lies within me although thats a tough one to embody. That surrender is more effective for me than struggle.

@Colin cool thanks!! I'm gonna try. @Nahm what do you mean? I don't understand. English is not my 1st language...

@Highest Don't do it! In your case I have the feeling it could be toxic. Solitude is not healing in and of itself. It can be a preferred environment for contemplation but only for someone who has a variety of experiences to choose from. When you watch Leo's videos be aware that he is someone who does "self-improvememt" for many years! The techniques he uses require a lot of experience. Dedication doesn't make up of training, you see? You can't lift 500 pounds with will power! If you want to change your life, that's great!! Be honest with yourself: what do you want? Because it sounds to me that you are suffering inside and hope that the solitude will cure that suffering - it won't. Solitude for the rest of your life (Dude!) would be for someone who wants to be alone to sit in the infinite bliss of being. Rather than extracting yourself from the world, be in it! Realize, that it is NOT the cause of your pain and there is no need for seperation. Masturbation, internet whatever is NOT the problem! The problem is that you use these things to distract yourself from your suffering. So my advice: be brutally honest with what you want! Sure, in forums like this people talk a lot about nothingness and Samadhi and what have you. And though it is interesting to know about these things it is important to act according to YOUR OWN level of consciousness. So ask yourself what you want: Girls? Money? Travelling? Reading? Making New friends? Then go after that! It will eventually lead you back to where you think you are now, but now in sync with your level of consciousness. The work that is discussed in this forum is not an escape, it's a confrontation. All best, take care of yourself!

Don't do it!

@Leo Gura you mean there is not necessarily anything "under" the boredom that causes it, but it's a symptom of keeping your awareness in the present moment? That's interesting, I'll try to be more mindful of it in the future. Thanks for sharing!

Hi everyone, @Leo Gura I am curious about the topic of boredom that you mentioned in the third video from your solo retreat. I was suffering under phases of enormous boredom since my teenage years (now I'm 30). Your description really resonated with me, that's exactly how it felt to me as well. A while ago I discovered that my boredom was really apathy due to surpressed fear and guilt. Especially interesting was the observation that in the 1-2 weeks after intense psychedelic experiences those feelings would come up with to this point unknown intensity. My strategy in dealing with boredom then was to deal with it completely on the level of sensations (accept, surrender, transfrom etc.) and as little as possible intellectually. So far, I have been quite successful with it – but of course there is always the possibility to have gotten it completely backwards and overlooking something obvious. What is your take on boredom? Where do you think it comes from? And how do you deal with it? Could it actually be that six 5Meo-Trips within such a short period of time actually triggered very deep and existential fears (of dying?) that you suppressed which threw you into a deep state of apathy/boredom? All best!

I saw a video recently of David R. Hawkins sayin that apathy and depression are symptoms of surpessed emotions. They can't really delt with other than to be willing to look at the underlying fear, guilt, shame, whatever - I mean, even surpressed love ("heartbreak") can lead to depression. In my case I think this boredom is a form of apathy due to surpressed emotions. So to ask myself what underlies it and be willing to look at that ends the boredom. Maybe that's worth a try....?

The unenlightened looks for a way to deal with things...

You mean TV, Phone, etc? Actually no. Why?

Hi everyone, I stumbled apon this film called Zero & One, where four different people are being interviewed about non-duality. I like it because from my point of view it gives a good impression of the seemingly paradox nature of non-duality. Let me know what you think! Cheers

Hey Leo and everyone, After starting to work with mushrooms, I am struggling to integrate the enormous amount of insight I have during a trip – I’m quickly losing direct contact to many of the experiences and being left only with a logical understanding. Some of the insights (as you know) are so deep that it takes weeks or even months to understand the consequences and impact they could have on your life. But by that time, the actual feeling of it gets more and more vague. I was wondering if you have a specific process or strategies you are willing to share. I am very interested to hear your take on how to integrate new insights. This would clearly be a how-to-video, but since it has such a practical application for the process of opening your mind and contemplating, I think it would be valuable as a supplement to the deeper topics. All best