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The pursuit shouldnt be aimed towards "killing yourself", the pursuit should be a pursuit towards wisdom and truth. when you pursue truth, you will naturally die because the ego is built upon falsehood. people i feel get caught up in "getting enlightened" like it's some goal that will bring the ego fulfillment. Im not enlightened but I dont think it's so. when the ego "gets conscious" of what enlightenment truly is it will try to run away from it. only the pursuit of Truth will push the ego over the edge.

during the concentration practice i cant feel the back of my head or my medulla, so i find it really hard to find what to concentrate on. sometimes i feel energy there and then i can concentrate on it and i feel deep peace, but that energy is on and off, when the energy is not there its as though the back of my head doesnt exist. i also have some back neck strain/pain, can that affect how i can feel that area? i also start to feel my pulse in the perineum and its distracting

is it ok to extend the concentration practice at the end for as long as I want, focusing on medulla and looking towards bhrumadhya? I feel like the concentration periods fly by extremely fast and I do 10 mins. also in any meditation posture its says that i should get my foot as close as i can towards me, but then it pushes on my perineum and it's not too comfortable, am i sitting wrong?

I think psychedelics might do the trick for you. It will rid of all the bullshit that you have and will help you with your "numbness". I was the same, and still a bit am. if you think psychedelics are hard to get, so did I, until I tried. go for lsd/shrooms with that said, i would recommend it only after 21 years of age, as it might reinforce some of your beliefs.

@Sukhpaal yeah man, its totally normal, happens to me too. just surrender and itll be fun

thursday I had an lsd trip and i opened myself a lot. now i have a lot of energy in my body. I went to sleep just now and i noticed the energy that was the last couple days in my head. I suddenly using my consciousness moved it into my body and i started to tremble like im cold, my jaw, legs and chest are still trembling. i can relax it but it comes again, its still there. what should i do about it? also what is all that energy about? i also feel like i can laugh and cry much more. my appreciation of beauty increased a lot, im extremely intuitive and creative. I hope its not a premature kundalini awakening or something like that.

@Markus it's actually very pleasant when i allow it, and i think it more has to do with the blockages that i unblocked during the trip

I also had (and still kinda have) that thought. There's not much research about it sadly, so you cant say for sure, but if you do it properly most probably nothing will happen, a lot of people have done it and I dont know of a situation where someone got hurt. energy work I feel is generally scary, see all the kundalini stories and such. psychedelics also can fuck you up, but people still do them. I feel like there's no safety guarantee for anything, but when you think about it people in the materialist paradigm also always take risks like getting kids, building businesses, choosing careers, that's a part of life. dont forget you're going to die anyway one day.

I did it a few months ago and a month after that, a total of 2 times, in a group. I think it's called an osho meditation. the way the group does it is we dance for a couple minutes, the instructions are to move however we want when the music is playing. Then we warm up by laying on our back and "ride a bicycle" with the legs in the air really fast, with breaks, for about 5 minutes. then we breathe on our back for 45 minutes, we are told to do whatever our body wants to, whether it be shout, cry, move arms and legs, etc. then a few minutes relaxation. first time I breathed I shouted a lot and had extreme energy all over my body. I cried at the end because I released social anxiety I had. after that communicating with people became a lot easier. felt energy throughout my body for a couple days after the breathing. I also felt like my consciousness increased, i became more aware of my thoughts and emotions. second time I also mainly shouted from the solar plexus and my body shook a lot, first time in my life that i felt or became conscious of energy, specifically in the back of my head. after the breathing stopped and the relaxation period came to be, the magic happened. I still felt that energy in the head and then it I used my consciousness to spread throughout the whole body, I felt extreme bliss I didnt feel since I was a kid, it faded after a few minutes. in the next week I had annoying energy in my body, didnt know what to do with it, I went to the woods and shouted, didnt help. It subsided after I did a meditation called chakra dancing, it's where you also do holotropic breathing but while standing up, and you focus on your chakras in orderly fashion from bottom to top. basically move energy up your spine 3 times over for about 40 minutes overall. That stuff basically introduced me to the possibilities of energy work, which are bliss, high consciousness and a lot more. recently I had an LSD trip where more of my chakras opened and I feel extreme, but really extreme sexual energy and love. I feel like the breathing contributed. gonna post a trip report soon.

@Sri McDonald Trump Maharaj thanks that helped.

that's not practical. in order to survive you have to use concepts. in theory you could sit and not act, not think and be blissed out enlightened but that's the same as being dead, life is not for that. you could be generally happy being mindful of your use of concepts. concepts (or "future") are part of the present. also enlightenment doesnt bring happiness, happiness is a thing the ego desires. happiness could be 99% achieved without enlightenment. I think happiness cant be achieved 100% because the ego wont let you be happy 100%, therefore you need to have no ego, but to not have no ego would mean happiness is the same as everything, therefore it's not achieved 100%. also thinking in terms of eudaimonia is more effective i think.

im 19, and im planning to start yoga. as I understand yoga destroys your reality and as a result you get enlightened. I heared that it's not recommended at a young age to start doing work like that. should i just keep on meditating instead and wait till about age 21? I recently tripped on lsd and I thought a lot about is getting my life in order, find my life purpose, get a girlfriend, etc. I feel like my life is not stable. maybe i should do that instead of doing yoga? or is it not too bad?

Lately I dont like to do anything, nothing seems to make me have fun, all i can do is distract myself with movies. I stopped meditating already a week and a half. i meditated for half a year and barely had any noticable effects. I wanted to start yoga but i cant bring myself to read the book, i was extremely excited about it but now i just dont want to read the book. I dont want to study (i study in university), I dont want to do anything, even movies dont bring me joy anymore. I find myself having fun only in my dreams. im very angry lately, I feel desperate and I want to cry wtf am i supposed to do?

just an update: i tripped on lsd and now life is magical again lol, I know much better what to do

@OEN so to sit/lie and do nothing the whole day?

but thats different from not enjoying anything I do

how do i change my reality?

if it's day, dont sleep. go to sleep at the usual time and put an alarm at the usual time you wake up. dont nap and be strict about those times. itll be ok, you'll just have to readjust your circadian rythm, happened to me too.

is kriya yoga the same as meditation but with faster results?

@YaNanNallari i meant to ask if the results are the same

of course when you refer to people (even unspoken) as "unconscious", "trapped in mind patterns", "lost" they're going to be offended. It's that spiritual arrogance thats holding you back. look at how unconscious and trapped you are. the communication obstacle is not in the people, its in your words. how you choose to say what you want to convey is everything. i also had difficulties with that, but now i know better what to say and how.

how is it connected

@who chit from my understanding kriya is you dont some exercises, then you have a concentration session of 5-20 minutes, while regular meditation is usually a lot of time just sitting.my question was whats the difference between them

exercise deeper relationships gratitude practice - that is so fucking easy, yet because its so easy people dont do it. daily gratitude routine will elevate your life to extraordinary levels. when you focus on negative, you think your life is bad, while its not true at all. if you focus on positive just by allocating a few minutes in the morning you will notice your life is actually extremely good. thats the number one thing that gives happiness besides enlightenment i guess. read the book https://www.amazon.com/Gratitude-Revolution-Inspired-World-Around-ebook/dp/B0716BRYT1 it's 3$ for the kindle version. a short book that makes you realize how important gratitude is and how to implement it.

@LiakosN @SgtPepper i have the same thing more or less but i want to take lsd, is it also recommended you think?