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maybe that means if someone believe that chakras are affected somehow externally and not fully internal, they may also believe some entity might control them, so they might actually act in such a way.

i am so confused regarding my life purpose. i have a physics degree which i finished 2 months ago and in 2 months ill join the army as an engineer sorta. right now im on a break. my problem is that i have nothing meaningful to do. i can do a lot of things, but i dont have any goal with those things, therefore i dont feel like those things are worth doing. for example, i made youtube videos, which a lot of people liked, but because i didnt see a point in doing them and didnt see myself as being a youtuber ever, i stopped making them. also i play the piano and i draw, but i never put full effort in it and i dont put a lot of time in it because i dont see a point in doing so. i can also program but i dont see a point in doing it, so i get bored when i try to start. what happens is that i just slide into doing things that im used to, like playing videogames and watching youtube videos. i tried to do Leo's life purpose course but i just couldnt get my values straight. i feel like im too young to have any solid values and i dont have enough reference experiences to know what i truly value. i spent months trying to figure them out but at the end the result wasnt satisfactory. before i used to rationalize it is so because im low at maslow's heirarchy, i have no connection with people and no close friends, so im not motivated to do that "higher" stuff like hobbies but i doubt now that this is the case, because i do have a desire to do SOMETHING but i have nothing specific that seems to be worth it, because i have no specific direction in life or life purpose. all of that aside, i do have other goals which some of them are more abstract, like finding friends, gaining knowledge and wisdom, gaining emotional maturity and stuff like that, but as far as life purpose im zero.

@okulele @flowboy lol i dont believe i have free will

im doing 10 minutes almost every day for amount a month or two but im still getting distracted and restless before the alarm goes off. im trying to be aware of breath but maybe im not trying good enough? i feel like im not committing to the meditation, so i cant focus on the breath.

the thing is that im so lazy during meditation that i dont even try to see myself wondering sometimes, im just keeping on thinking things without an intention to come back to the breath

lol my mind doesnt want to do more than 10 min so much but i guess that's the problem, thanks im also checking out the book

lol im too lazy for that i dont wana suffer

Often times when I go to sleep I start thinking, and sometimes that prevents me from sleeping. What I usually do is try to let it be, because trying to stop it will only make it worse, but still it reduces the amount of time I sleep, which is very bad for my mental health the next day. How do I go about preventing this in the first place?

i see, that's actually very important, thank you. there go all the people who are constantly "busy" and wonder why they cant sleep what do you recommend to do in that downtime though? just nothing? meditate? meditation isnt really about that, its more about not focusing on thoughts and putting awareness on something. maybe journaling?

what do uean by distraction?

am i the only one feeling weird when people laugh too much?

what helped me sometimes was being super weird. i would come up to people and say something like "do you like bananas?" and if they were weird people as well, usually they would laugh and flow with me, if they werent, they would laugh awkwardly, but still in a good way, if they were people i wouldnt want to have anything to do with in the first place they would say some thing like "wtf?" with a bad intonation. edit- of course for me it felt natural, do whatever feels natural for u

Put here your favorite youtube channels that talk about dating/women. Personally i've been mostly watching "Coach Red Pill" and sometimes his advice is great but sometimes it's insanely toxic and cringy and im afraid it's wiring my brain in a bad way. just reading the comments proves that the people watching are deep in victim mindset stage orange stuff. i've also been watching some RSD but the videos are too long and there's some toxic stuff there too I feel.

@see_on_see in maslows hierarchy theres the "self transcendence stage", where motivation for it arises after your basic needs are met. im just way too low in the needs. of course when my basic needs will be fulfilled (girlfriends, sex, accomplishments, whatever) i wont be satisfied and will want more. thats the whole reason im pursuing girlfriends right now, because i want to want higher quality problems, not really because i want girlfriends as an end goal i wasnt like that before. before i knew that girlfriends wouldnt fulfill me and i would just want other things after them so i just didnt pursue them. that was a mistake because all my taste for life disappeared. now when i started to follow my desires the taste comes back. i am doing spirituality, i am meditating and journaling, just not that much because its not a top priority. also adding a heavy practice like self inquiry on top sounds too much also. also as @Nahm said, i can advance spiritually just by pursuing my desires mindfully and dealing with my limiting beliefs. no need for fancy techniques.

I feel like the world is empty of anything awe-ful, nothing seems to surprise me so to speak. I look at nature, I don't feel anything, I listen to music, I don't feel anything lately mostly, I watch movies/TV shows, they're ok, but not spectacular, like I used to perceive them. How do I become conscious of the sublimity of life?

@Nahm cool thats the path i feel is more realistic and sounds more fun than to do self inquiry for decades. also im already on that path so yay

haha okay @Mulky sounds interesting. Ill try

yeah I guess I had some hope that I could understand "god" just by thinking about it rationally, but apparently you gotta think about it "rationally" for a really long time so it will change your state of consciousness, and not really give a logical conclusion. sorry for wasting your time

okay, so concerning my topic of conversation with @Nahm, if i set a routine of self inquiry ill just quit it after some time because i dont really desire it. I dont really care to know what I am right now. aha, understood.

thanks, I will do that "dream board" and yeah, that's why im pursuing those desires, to get to the higher ones what did you mean by this?:

how can i put my effort into it if i dont know what "being conscious of god" means? as far as im concerned there is awareness. i dont know if the awareness is of a soul or whatever in an outside world made of i dont know what, and i dont know if awareness is the only thing that exists. You claim that I can realize that FOR A FACT that awareness is the only thing that exists and that is god. like I can prove with absolute certainty that there exists no outside world. im saying I dont know, and i dont know if i can know, and I dont know in the case that it's possible to know, how can I know. people say "self inquiry" but that's what im doing right this second, and this is the conclusion i got to, that I dont know.

Didn't understand. what's the difference between no self and enlightenment? i kinda know that the "me" is not really me, but im stuck at the conclusion that i just dont know what i am, i did inquire a lot into it. it also doesnt matter. There's still attachment in the mind to the self, but the mind also knows the self is a concept. Getting rid of attachment is a whole another matter, takes decades of work. I know that, but it doesn't imply that the "me" doesnt exist. all knowledge is conceptual, a construct of the mind, a map, but not the territory. but I cant prove there there doesnt exist a "me". I am only left with an "i dont know"

i tried it for a few months, gave up on it due to no results and because the commitment was too high and i want other things more. yeah, 3 times a week. it is essential to my well being as well. i actually do that sometimes. "becoming aware of awareness", right? i do that sometimes during the day. its quite hard to become aware like that for a period of time, i can keep my awareness on it only a tiny moment and then my mind just goes blank. nothing extraordinary happened from that though yet.

how what does it mean

i dont know and i dont know how to find the answer to those questions or if its even possible to find an answer to these questions.