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Probably, he could have an intellectual understanding, but he was actually deeply connected with his ego, he wanted fame, money, etc.

why do you want to make a business? why do you have sex? why do you want success? for some future gain. you will never "arrive", the only arrival is the arrival to the grave. no matter how much you succeed and have sex and all that stuff you will want more, you will never be satisfied. you will always chase your tail for some ideas such as "happiness" or "being rich" "having a successful business" whatever, but those ideas are in your head, what you expect them to give you will never be delivered. if you achieve some great deed in the world all the impact you had will not matter in 100 years. the only solution is to let go of these ideas, illusions, being aware of them, and not pursuing the future and realizing now is all there is, thats how you become truly fulfilled (that is not to say you dont plan for the future). meditation forces you to be in the now, without past or future, just for this moment's sake, enjoying the present moment, without it giving anything to you. thats why we live. what meditation also does is it makes you more aware of the ideas you hold about the world, it detaches you from the self, because you become just the observer, which means you will see more clearly whats illusory and what's not, making it easier to live in the now. slowly convincing you that there is only now. thats the most important undertaking a human can take on himself. i recommend a lot to watch youtube videos of alan watts. there are tons of them and they are really good. it will slowly open your mind and you will see more clearly whats all this about. start with this one

its easier to cut contact with those friends than to cut cocaine. listen to your gut, but I would cut the connection with those people for my whole life, people that do cocaine probably cant offer too much value to you anyway. im addicted to masturbation, im always telling myself this is the last time, but its not, im always convincing myself to masturbate for some reason i come up with. i have no damn clue how to stop it, besides improving my life. most addictions come from a feeling of lack. or that or habit. since its not a habit for you its a feeling of lack. youre not fulfilled so the cocaine makes you feel better. if you would be high without it you wouldnt want to do it. work on yourself, get enlightened, do psychedelics and you wont need that stuff.

isnt sungazing extremely dangerous and can cause blindness?

lol, its like we're discussing whats the most effective way to kill yourself, its kinda funny, i dunno

lmao

if my body is made out of water, doesnt mean it forms these patterns, because what forms these patterns is the collective water fluid. inside our bodies the water is not connected like that, its not like there are packets of water inside us, its spread out throught the body, separate, therefore it cant form these patterns. what can happen is maybe the skin/bones/organs might vibrate with certain frequencies, but water has nothing to do with it. and although these patterns are really beautiful (i actually studied mathematically how they form, also mathematically its beautiful) and although the math in nature is beautiful indeed and shows certain intelligence in the universe, I dont see how sound can make some changes in me. I will try it out though, if we cant explain it doesnt mean it doesnt work

thats lack of blood i think

@Dodo lol realized its not the point to listen while doing homework, im a bit fuzzy lately, sorry

@Dodo ill try it while doing homework or something like that. u said sound affects water, how so? and how that effect affects me?

@Dodo should i blast it full volume? it was pretty loud anf i still got lost

@Dodo i tried it and i was lost in thought thw entire time. tried to center myself but found myself getting more and more bored so i stopped at 15 min

for how much time do you usually meditate to enter the meditative state with this music?

what is meant by that? did you have any effects?

I think too much of anything is bad

i had 2 strange experiences so far one is when i had weird energy in the head during the concentration period, i had sexual energy all over my body. i also often have an erection in the concentration period lmao. in the second weird experience i felt my forehead filled with pressure/energy like if you pull your eyes too high up and you feel a strain, i felt it without straining all over the region. i also felt a sensation that felt like iron stillness, but only for a few seconds. i felt like i was going crosseyed.

@Stretch I also have no sign of kutastha, i dont think it comes until much later. im not the only one struggling a lot with the breathing right? in the pranayama i can only do 8 seconds of inbreath, if i do more i have to take extra breaths. also my concentration, even if its only 5 min i often get very lost in thought there.

@WaterfallMachine dont believe in enlightenment, believe in discovering the truth, by whatever means. all perspectives are false.

when you say society, where did you get information about society? news? first hand experience? people around you? where? whatever that is, its a construct that you made, you can never get the total picture because you would have to know all actions that people made in the last year or so to see the true condition of society, and even then, its open to your interpretation. @Nahm bam

holy shit thanks so much for this

yeah I noticed that too. what I do is just feel into the chakra without thinking about ksetrams and such, i just scan the area until i feel something

@pluto well some of those things point to some pretty straight forward stuff, I think I will stumble upon them on my reading journey of leo's booklist.

how does that help me eradicate my beliefs?

I know on a conceptual level at least that everything is maya, I dont believe anything, it makes sense from my own experience. I realize I apply meanings to things. I know that fundamentally everything is false except the experience, getting conscious of it is another matter. I know that in order to get to the absolute I have to go through layers, but that does not entail gaining more information, like vibrations and frequencies, but only elimination of beliefs. those are just words, if i happen to stumble upon the experiences they point to, ill let it be, but I wont add more beliefs, since it will hamper my progress.