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i dont understand

heared of law of attraction? if you check if the results came, they wont come. @Erlend K said correctly, just keep observing.

it doesnt require a teacher and the road is faster ive heared. its more intense though. what i really like about it though is that you have to use your inner guide to have success with kriya. you have to follow your intuition and not just blindly follow a guru's words. the guru is within in kriya and you rely on that. also its a yoga for a housekeeper, meaning its for a man that has a family, a life purpose, etc. you only have to do 30-60 mins a day to achieve full realization, and not a few hours a day.

wow, thats fucking amazing. you said you "shot" it? you mean a photograph of real life? where is that? are there more photographs?

first, sorry if it sounded like i tried to be mean, I just told it without much consideration for emotion, only love <3 . I presented the fault in your reasoning (or the mushroom's reasoning, whatever you wanna call it). it's that you didnt take the meaninglessness far enough. I tried to explain it. do some enlightenment work if you've gone past a point of no return. because as i see here: you identify as a human. what you said there is true, there is no loving consciousness keeping watch over us because what the hell is "us"? what the hell is "i"? when you approach subjects like that you cant continue reasoning from the human perspective, you have to switch to the non dual lens. everything is one, you are the loving consciousness, you are the meaninglessness, you are everything. the human or "ego" that you think you are is just a distinction, its not you AND a part of you at the same time. everything sounds contradictory here but thats the nature of reality. if you wanna know you have to get into the work, peter raltson consciousness work, yoga, meditation, youtube videos of alan watts, ruper spirta etc. dont worry, the world as you describe it is not really like that, its much more radical than that (lol).

there are 2 perspectives: absolute and personal. meaning can survive only in the personal. in absolute terms there is no meaning. in your trip you tapped into the absolute, you realized there is no meaning, but you didnt go far enough into the absolute. you remained halfway in the personal, because you applied meaning to meaninglessness. that was your fault. if you wouldnt apply meaning to meaninglessness you would be fine.

you are identified with your thoughts and meanings, these are not you. thats what happens when you dont do enough spiritual work before psychedelics. besides, meaning does exist, when you create it, you latched on to a meaning which says nothing is meaningful. its true that meaning does not exist outside yourself but that doesnt mean meaning doesnt exist. you didnt go far enough with the meaninglessness and didnt realize meaninglessness is meaninglessness. in addition, you dont need meaning to be fulfilled, meaning is an illusion and when you attach to it you get into trouble. when you will drop the identification with the self you will see that being is much much more profound that meaning.

@onacloudynight do you get your thumb and pinky to touch involuntarily for a moment? like on hyperventilation from shamanic breahting, when the palms get stuck in a certain position, but only for a moment here.

how much time have you been practicing?

@Quanty oh you were serious, hard to tell. for the extra uninitiated this was a joke can you provide some sources for this

can i mix in with that 2 lines of coke in a week?

i cant, i try to

i start to feel really uncomfortable with the practice. i dont see how asphyxiating oneself can lead to a rest of the mind. to me this practice is just physically dangerous and doesnt make sense. during the practice i feel like i lack oxygen and the head starts to pump, my body enters fight or flight. and i become rather restless, not calm as its supposed to be to enter samadhi or any concentration state. im not sure if its connected but i have headaches and anger issues since the start of the practice. i also cant concentrate even 5 minutes at the end of tye practice, my mind is too restless. also during the practice i fall into thought and forget about the practice while the practice is doing itself.

lmao

could be, as with every experience without psychedelics

I will never be able to find a teacher and I will never trust any teacher. what do you mean by "fancy"? im doing kriya yoga. thank you for the tips, I will see how it goes. meditation anyway is secondary, my main practice is kriya, i meditate when i have time in the morning

thats exactly what have been happening

thanks! that put some order in my mind. ive been extremewly disorganized lately with the content of my mind. yes, but what i tried to say is that this takes sometimes a great deal of effort, and sometimes the energy for that effort is just not there. i always think that theres something to figure out, so i want to think, i feel like my life is not good enough so i gotta think myself out of it, think what should i do.

i just heared that concept from a sadhguru video, its just seeing reality as it is without mental labels, thats all. I am really aware of some of the mental labels i project unto the world but i dont know how to see without them. because meditation shouldnt be dull, meditation should allow me to experience the present moment, but all ive been doing is getting into some routine mind-wandering, in other words lazy meditation. with time i didnt really try to be aware of the breath, but got used to my mind wandering, without concentration.

can you elaborate please? i dont get you

I disagree, because there are mind habits, which take time to go away, thats one of the reasons if you have an awakening experience you get back to usual reality. by my definitions what is is what is seen, heared, felt and thought.

anyone notice when breathing very slowly and the body wants to breathe in sharply but you breathe in continuously, a sudden surge of energy up the spine to the head appears? happens to me especially during the pranayama, in addition to the energy visualization, i dont try to visualize but it still happens.

I also struggled with that, and still am. I guess the mechanism of being aware is like using your muscles, like playing the piano or thinking, it comes with training, do it over and over until it kinda sticks. in the book "the power of now" i find myself being able to "be the observer" so you might get back to that if you forget how to do that.

I dont study medicine but I know the university framework. if you want to be independent you shouldnt care about how western medicine deals with health, because you will be independent (i assume you want to be independent because of the LP). university just gives basic tools to use, actually you learn most of the real stuff after the degree. you dont have to conform to western medicine obviously, although it depends what you want to do, to treat people through some ways you have to get a bunch of permissions from the government. also western science as far as i can tell works, of course stuff can be better but it requires a lot of work, much more than you expect. also people are unconscious, but you are not! you can contribute from a certain perspective.

do some consciousness work, read "the power of now", you dont need other people to be happy or to feel love. You are what you love, not what loves you ~the movie adaptation (2002) (highly recommend it) you need to raise your consciousness, by that i mean becoming aware of your beliefs. for that you will need to read books, meditate, try psychedelics (lsd and shrooms or ayahuasca) you have a lot of beliefs which are simply false and they make you suffer.