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allow them to be felt, go into it. when you put resistance the emotions will flow slower and you heat up, like a resistor in an electrical circuit. be a superconductor, be like water. let it all flow through you whenever it comes, dont resist. The fact that those emotions exist mean that they triggered some beliefs in you, something you hold dear, like in this case your self image maybe. inquire into what theyre pointing to and notice whats the root of the emotions. then look at that and accept it, what i meant by accept, i mean dont do anything, dont start thinking "its not good, im not doing this good enough, im a stupid person" notice its all thoughts and just continue surrendering. you could also try shamanic breathing or psychedelics for emotional healing.

i preserved the ability to see the "meaning of things" from an lsd trip. for example i have a brother and he always laughs at "funny" to him things. i dont laugh mostly when i see these things with him but i recognize what conscious state he might be in, in which that particular thing is funny, i see the "funniness" of it that he sees. i also notice the "story" feeling of everyday life. what i mean by that is that there is reality, which has no particular meaning, but we see it as something that has meaning. we see the meaningless objects but we give a certain taste to it, with every perception if i become conscious of it i can differentiate between the "feel" of the perception and the pure meaningless perception itself.

as long as you act authentic i dont see a problem

It sure is triggering for stage orange and blue, but im not sure what stage the commune itself is. It seems at the surface like green, love, spirituality, but I think it's more blue than green. judging by the role of women in the society, that they have a certain predestined role, and that the "teacher" lays out what everyone has to do, isnt that blue? attaching to beliefs and stuff? also what I noticed!! that triggered me a slight bit is that the teacher tells everybody what they have to do, and the people cant do what they freely want, that's kind of toxic and unsustainable, people are gonna get pissed off sooner or later to be told what to do. I guess that's the orange in me speaking. what stage do you think this commune is on? also the "teacher" talks as if god is something, and not everything, so i doubt his wisdom. also my guess would be that the people there believe in a god in the sky, so it's also kind of a blue theme. very hard to differentiate between blue and green.

@Recursoinominado i didnt have any experience of "toxins" in my body or im not aware of them. to me it sounds like the process of detoxification is just me harming myself and thinking it's somehow healing me. it all depends on how you look at it and how you believe it. i could likewise get cancer and have cancer symptoms and think its god's will purifying me or something. the point is, I dont know what it truly is and as I see it, i think its dangerous to fast and im afraid to do so.

@pluto I dont think I would try it because im afraid, but update if you try to do some physical exercise successfully or unsuccessfully I feel like sometimes my feelings and body deceive me, I have a sense that I know something truly but it turns out to be false at the end.

can you run 3km in this state?

be prepared to get frustrated with that stuff, it's possible to rewire your brain to be grateful, but its hard. personally for me it was too hard and I started hating it, after a few weeks I gave up, even though I cried at a lot of sessions of gratitude I did.

LMAO, you think that kriya yoga is like taking a shit and if the shit cuts off in the middle the rest is just going to hang there? and youre talking about the preperatory exercises, which are very harmless. I dont think if you quit it in the middle it does anything. also i wouldnt recommend kriya for "relaxing purposes". meditate or something, do some breathing exercises, surrender, be mindful, theres a lot of stuff you can do in time of stress. dont do kriya for that, it's not for relaxation.

what I meant more is the surrender to some "bad" experiences. I dont know if happiness can be generated, but suffering i think could just travel out if you drop resistance.

lol, is it that easy?

i guess what is meant by chakras is emotions and feelings in the body. for example i laugh and i feel a pleasant sensation in the throat, or im horny and i feel a sensation at the location of the root chakra, i feel love i feel it in the heart. i just experience certain sensations in the body and i guess that this is what people call "chakras" what is done with yoga, kriya yoga especially, is controlling those feelings intentionally. by visualizing i can actually feel certain sensations in the body. what people would call a "blocked heart chakra" for example, is when people barely feel or not at all love and the other stuff associated with it. (that is at least my interpretations) that inability to feel may be caused by past trauma or resistance to the feeling, shyness, etc. when that trauma is unraveled and surrendered to, the person starts to feel that "chakra" more. there is stuff i dont understand however when it comes to chakras. for example when people say that i should use some stones to heal the chakra, or that the blocked chakra causes some physiological issues. i didnt experience that stuff so i dont know if its valid. i also dont understand how the crown chakra is supposed to be connected to enlightenment, though i do understand that the more chakras you "open" the more balanced you are, the better the chances for enlightenment.

but since we dont really have a master to guide us we have to take certain actions and to change the techniques by ourselves. if we dont know the objective how do we do that?

I wondered about that too, im doing the practice and have no idea what it does to my body/mind. I have experienced a substantial increase in the power and awareness of the sanskaras thats for sure, but didn't experience any release from them yet. edit- by more powerful sanskaras i feel more anger, resentment, laziness, stronger emotions, suicidal thoughts and more

what i'd do is continue the practice, ignoring the thoughts. though if the crying is uncontrollable continue doing the practice while crying (even if the breaths are not going smoothly, just to finish the routine). After the practice I would reflect on what happened during and let it out.

For me porn numbs the enormous desire for an intimate relationship, I cant numb the desire by masturbating without porn.

That. so true. got to that conclusion myself some time ago and that whole "denying desires" thing untangled.

the rating on the bumble app is pretty shitty compared to tinder, and i hear people say there are a lot of fake accounts, though never tried it. what are your opinions on dating apps? the girls im managing to match with are tens of kilometers away and its just not practical to meet. also maybe im doing something wrong or im ugly lol but back in the day when i used the app i got a very low amount of matches. I left because I felt like the app became just a source of dopamine, i'd have cravings for this shit, swiping through girls, quit that in a heartbeat.

I tried his course a while back and it was really good, my philosophy is not to trust any teacher, but to see if i understand the truth by myself. I do feel like people judge him a lot, but people are always judgmental. see if it works for you, what are you afraid of? that you will waste time? get delusional? dont just believe stuff, but if what you hear helps you in any way, why not use the teachings? if for example he talks about higher dimensional beings or whatever and that information doesnt give any practical value to you, i think its a waste of time. For example Leo's last videos on consciousness and intelligence didnt give anything to me, because to me what he said sounded like fantasy, i have to experience that stuff for myself to gain any value from it. personally I couldnt do anything with the information he gave, and just believing it is oh no- just wrong, therefore it was kind of a waste of time. see if the stuff youre hearing is also a waste of time and just adding beliefs on top of reality. I think true spiritual work is dismantling your beliefs and not adding them.

I have a lot of anger issues recently and i even decreased the intensity of the practice by pulling the energy to medulla only, will this pass or integrate somehow? im recently becoming extremely conscious of how much of an egotistical, lazy, terrible person I am, maybe thats why, i dunno

I think its caused by the kriya, since it started to happen just recently and i didnt start anything new except that. Its really subtle and hard to describe what i feel, im not sure if i feel anything myself, ill do my best to describe.its sort of like im becoming conscious of stuff i wasnt before, but not in the ordinary way. im located usually in lecture halls, in my dorm, or in between. all of those places have a certain "atmosphere" to them that is fairly consistent on thr short term, but changes with time. for example my room can look 100 different ways in my mind, but usually its only one of them. im starting to doubt my thoughts and memories without deliberately doing it, it just happens. sometimes my "consciousness" is not like the usual, i dont know how to describe it. sometimes i feel a little fear when that stuff happens. i fear im going crazy or psychotic sometimes and that thought reinforces my attention of my consciousness. i guess i could kind of compare it with lsd just a little bit. i feel like some stuff seems "cooler" or "more interesting" like music on lsd, but very subtly.

yeah, I know that, just the shift makes uncomfortable feelings in the body/anxiety.

yeah, not ordinary

ok, thanks