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what I meant more is the surrender to some "bad" experiences. I dont know if happiness can be generated, but suffering i think could just travel out if you drop resistance.

lol, is it that easy?

i guess what is meant by chakras is emotions and feelings in the body. for example i laugh and i feel a pleasant sensation in the throat, or im horny and i feel a sensation at the location of the root chakra, i feel love i feel it in the heart. i just experience certain sensations in the body and i guess that this is what people call "chakras" what is done with yoga, kriya yoga especially, is controlling those feelings intentionally. by visualizing i can actually feel certain sensations in the body. what people would call a "blocked heart chakra" for example, is when people barely feel or not at all love and the other stuff associated with it. (that is at least my interpretations) that inability to feel may be caused by past trauma or resistance to the feeling, shyness, etc. when that trauma is unraveled and surrendered to, the person starts to feel that "chakra" more. there is stuff i dont understand however when it comes to chakras. for example when people say that i should use some stones to heal the chakra, or that the blocked chakra causes some physiological issues. i didnt experience that stuff so i dont know if its valid. i also dont understand how the crown chakra is supposed to be connected to enlightenment, though i do understand that the more chakras you "open" the more balanced you are, the better the chances for enlightenment.

but since we dont really have a master to guide us we have to take certain actions and to change the techniques by ourselves. if we dont know the objective how do we do that?

I wondered about that too, im doing the practice and have no idea what it does to my body/mind. I have experienced a substantial increase in the power and awareness of the sanskaras thats for sure, but didn't experience any release from them yet. edit- by more powerful sanskaras i feel more anger, resentment, laziness, stronger emotions, suicidal thoughts and more

what i'd do is continue the practice, ignoring the thoughts. though if the crying is uncontrollable continue doing the practice while crying (even if the breaths are not going smoothly, just to finish the routine). After the practice I would reflect on what happened during and let it out.

For me porn numbs the enormous desire for an intimate relationship, I cant numb the desire by masturbating without porn.

That. so true. got to that conclusion myself some time ago and that whole "denying desires" thing untangled.

the rating on the bumble app is pretty shitty compared to tinder, and i hear people say there are a lot of fake accounts, though never tried it. what are your opinions on dating apps? the girls im managing to match with are tens of kilometers away and its just not practical to meet. also maybe im doing something wrong or im ugly lol but back in the day when i used the app i got a very low amount of matches. I left because I felt like the app became just a source of dopamine, i'd have cravings for this shit, swiping through girls, quit that in a heartbeat.

I tried his course a while back and it was really good, my philosophy is not to trust any teacher, but to see if i understand the truth by myself. I do feel like people judge him a lot, but people are always judgmental. see if it works for you, what are you afraid of? that you will waste time? get delusional? dont just believe stuff, but if what you hear helps you in any way, why not use the teachings? if for example he talks about higher dimensional beings or whatever and that information doesnt give any practical value to you, i think its a waste of time. For example Leo's last videos on consciousness and intelligence didnt give anything to me, because to me what he said sounded like fantasy, i have to experience that stuff for myself to gain any value from it. personally I couldnt do anything with the information he gave, and just believing it is oh no- just wrong, therefore it was kind of a waste of time. see if the stuff youre hearing is also a waste of time and just adding beliefs on top of reality. I think true spiritual work is dismantling your beliefs and not adding them.

I have a lot of anger issues recently and i even decreased the intensity of the practice by pulling the energy to medulla only, will this pass or integrate somehow? im recently becoming extremely conscious of how much of an egotistical, lazy, terrible person I am, maybe thats why, i dunno

I think its caused by the kriya, since it started to happen just recently and i didnt start anything new except that. Its really subtle and hard to describe what i feel, im not sure if i feel anything myself, ill do my best to describe.its sort of like im becoming conscious of stuff i wasnt before, but not in the ordinary way. im located usually in lecture halls, in my dorm, or in between. all of those places have a certain "atmosphere" to them that is fairly consistent on thr short term, but changes with time. for example my room can look 100 different ways in my mind, but usually its only one of them. im starting to doubt my thoughts and memories without deliberately doing it, it just happens. sometimes my "consciousness" is not like the usual, i dont know how to describe it. sometimes i feel a little fear when that stuff happens. i fear im going crazy or psychotic sometimes and that thought reinforces my attention of my consciousness. i guess i could kind of compare it with lsd just a little bit. i feel like some stuff seems "cooler" or "more interesting" like music on lsd, but very subtly.

yeah, I know that, just the shift makes uncomfortable feelings in the body/anxiety.

yeah, not ordinary

ok, thanks

the movement of energy doesnt have to go through the back only, mostly the back, but the perineum too as i see it, the head is not the back yet you bring energy there Its kinda different at different times for me, but I strive for just visualizing cold breath flowing from the perineum to the medulla through the sushumna, not specifically focusing on chakras, but just kinda pumping it with the breath, its hard to explain and im not sure how i do it myself, it just kinda happens, try listening to your inner guru

what stretches specifically?

im doing nadi sodhana, ujjayi pranayama, the tongue thing, then maha mudra, om japa, do the pranayama for 12 sets and concentration 5 min. yeah, during om japa and the pranayama im pulling the energy to bindu, that's probably it

yeah, mood changes and tingling are a thing, what am i supposed to do? i just do yoga once a day, maybe meditate

try psychedelics. my guess is that they will show you how you're lying to yourself about needing to know yourself and will show you what the real problem is.

do you mean i can consciously overheat my lightbulb? so far that energy isnt much under my control really, for example i went for a nap yesterday at around 1pm and i had pretty intense energy rushes all over my body, for a few seconds, without my control. the palm of my hand moved 2 times without my control for a split second too. I feel like i can also consciously control that energy right now, like move it around in my body, without breath control. though there is energy im not in control of, a lot of times (most of the time) i have energy in the back of the head, and it makes me feel very tired, i can consciously move it to my heart for example, but it returns to the head, or there is some residue in the head. what do you mean by regulate it? what am i supposed to do with it? im mostly unaware of it.

i feel like this thread should be in the "life purpose" section and btw in that section there's a lot of stuff that might help you.

lmao im starting to get a little depressed because im starting slowly to become conscious of the meaninglessness of life. the fact that the present moment is all there is, is a bit scary and alienating. Im not sure whether i'd attribute it 100% to the kriya, but it feels like to me, like im experiencing consciousness changes. If you would want to really advance i guess you would have to go through some form of it anyway at some point, there is nothing to fear though, after that hump everything will be much better.

I get what he's trying to say, but us helping him broaden his worldview has nothing to do with us being him. I feel like that statement comes from a belief and not present experience.

lol you're delusional bro