Walter B

It used to be that simple. I kind of miss it. Sometimes life deals us blows that prevent us from these ways for it's own reasons. But the mental is so important. Especially for the PTSD portion. People pleasing is just a habit one has to break. Albeit hard to break because everyone wants to be pleased, but it's still just a habit. It's the by-product of lots of things such as efforts that imbalanced or caused misplacement and misunderstanding of masculinity and femininity in society. It's like the term "server" moved from the home to the restaurant business. Maybe the restaurant trainers and workplace managers should be giving marital advise as well. Then maybe we wouldn't have 70-80% divorce rates! Got off topic here, but mind over matter used to be a motto for me until it didn't work anymore.

Hmmm. Just knock. Or look inside without opening it. Some of the wild things may get loose if you leave the door ajar. Those critters can be hard to chase down if you can't settle them. That file surely exists on a non-searchable drive or in a notebook. Or better yet an IND. Remember who is on the side of right! I'll drop my comments once I've watched the video.

I'm sure you can manifest an operative purpose that really holds you long term based on something you love doing that also serves what you've learned in your experience. To serve a more lofty undertaking that we all serve. And no sooner than you almost forget, you'll get reminded! I do. Maybe that's just what I needed to tell myself to finish the course after letting it sit for a couple months! Leo's video on curing perfectionism may help you also.

Same here. Made it to mid 40s. It played it's role. Maybe I could skip around a bit instead of doing it in order. Whatever works!

Didn't mean that at all I have very few ideals to debate, the experiences got buried some time ago and I have to work to discover them, it is so very interesting the comments you have just made! we'd all be happier to remember them. I'm about to exercise and take full advantage of this feeding ground of quick internet conversations with a little meditation of sorts! Sincerely, have a calm and relaxed day we all deserve them!

Kind of perhaps. Brute force in other words. Like trying to break a password, eventually it will crack. May take longer than it's worth to see it with today's great encryption algorithms and all. Guess that's up to you about being worth it. You have to identify the parts that hold you back from where you want to go and work to change them. I agree on the test usage. It's a tool for characterization. It could prove to be quite powerful for gaining goals. Though I think gaining purpose is the reverse process. If you break your flow by manipulating yourself you only hurt yourself but a certain amount of pain is part of some people's lives. You could make a link between the test and the things that you think are passionate to you and try to make the ride more smooth. A way to embrace what you want and fully enjoy it for yourself! When no else sees. And people choose and make their own path all the time and use fair amounts of force and personal change to be the best at those things, no doubt. It keeps the heart doctors in business!

Why do you fear your mind? Dark ways of a labyrinth? Someone told me once, that my first answer is usually the right one. I used to describe it as my "gut" as well. But that usually only works with fresh things. If allowed to dwell, yes, I can understand how it can become a dark pathway. Just because no one talks much about evil does not mean it doesn't prowl around regularly! Some of us are fairly competent at being evil to ourselves! This is all part of understanding that life doesn't have to be hateful and fearful and controlling and secretive. There are no secrets really. Though, doesn't that dwelling and mistrust of one's own mind cause the perception of secrets? And by the way, I saw some impressive posts from you earlier on here! Take credit for yourself by yourself. I think that was my take-away from the neat post about Loving Yourself and how hard that can be sometimes. And why!

Perhaps. It takes lots of time and understanding. And patience! Patience! Patience! Pay attention to the % rankings and perhaps use affirmations after a brief study of the characterizations that are used as binary variables and realize the % is the fuzziness. As in fuzzy logic (between 0 and 1). We use affirmations for instance to build habits and to break them, along with determination. So, why could we not alter our personalities? Habits are part of personality and we can change them. Maybe pick a few traits of a direction on that test score that you want to go and try doing something like the Chakral affirmations mentioned somewhere on the main blog site earlier today. Or just start by repeating it to yourself like a mental exercise for starters. Then contemplate on the thoughts you begin to have over the day or week. Always remember that the old you is still known and in many cases assumed by others. So, you may want to watch Leo's video on backsliding to help with understanding this natural resistance to change.

You are welcome. Don't be hard on yourself. Just know what you must do, when you figure it out. Write the good stuff down with your own shorthand, whatever you understand long-term things work great. Being ok as "second" is important, but don't follow people who can't lead themselves to places you have been in mind or body. These things are easy to forget, beware! A little smart is good. A little likeable is someone else's perception. Common ground is nice depending on the nature of the interaction. It can lead to "loosing yourself" quite quickly however. Open space can really speed things up. But if you get on the wrong track you may expand into the wrong vessel ! Kind of like building another box for yourself if you are not careful ! Some trappers use an oblong shaped wire box with a trap door to capture animals. That box is as big as the animal it is designed to contain. Are you familiar with people that have the ability to "channel" others? If you listen around, you may find one that tells your story. It won't be in order it's too long for that and we live in so many dimensions in so many reference frames. And it may be told by many different people if you know what to listen for. But a talented guide may help you. Where do I think these thoughts are coming from!? Ask yourself.

It seems that you kinda have to do that part to make progression at some point. Just visit with diverse groups doing diverse activities. Especially exercising as it has such a cleansing effect. And this all repeats it's need as you grow. Everything cycles, at least once it is started and continued. The wavelike motion of life let's say. But yes, those grievances will eat you from the inside. That's most of the cancer out there! And you don't have to verbalize much, you know, with those "new actual interactions".

That was great! I had forgotten that detail, but my default was affirmations as well with something else.

It does seem to be the only way. Requires good people skills to be more gentle in some cases. And a focus on self-control and self-honesty. Hate is such a waste of time!!! And it causes lots of problems.

Yes, and it is possible for a person to remove all the burdens. And then to have the burdens come back by the shared sense. I have to say the Law of Attraction would be my first look to understand further how they found their way home!!! Lol It's like the anti-Law of Diffusion! haha Animals have a really keen sense to find their way home. Now, what confuses us so much? The human element perhaps. It does in many cases take re-exposure in body or mind to the initial harm with awareness and techniques in order to alleviate the problem. Visualization can help. And guided meditation does as well.

And 90% of what we worry about never happens anyway. And that's a rough estimate.

And the beauty of Geometry! It really is amazing. Think about it compared to all the math based on approximations. It can form the desired blueprint. But even the most precise and accurate instruments of rule and construction still have uncertainty associated with them.

Spectroscopy! It can tell the footsteps of the astronomical. It is of great importance but that's a relative statement of course. Knowing C and visual C variants will pay big dividends. Assuming the change in technology is still fully accessible with these originally fundamental codes. Specialized instruments would require confidence with theory and machine language just to have data to use C on. And remember it's all about fitting a "curve" to the data. Then you can do calculations from that approximate equation. The spacial and partial calculus becomes very important at this point. So....we are best to find the best people to do what they do best and bring them all together under great leadership that also has understanding. I did not get practical or enough training at many of the things you'll learn in engineering! Some of which I just mentioned.

People misguide themselves with too much characterization from another person's perspective. In order for someone less read or educated on a topic, sometimes we must keep it simple or they will loose motivation before they do their first exercise! From experience, time under tension is very effective at strength and endurance and consistency is key!

I did theoretical and analytical primarily. Some engineering. The math is quite different, but I loved diffeq. And now really appreciate the abstract and discrete. And probability and statistics is key for practicality. Human psychology reflects these principles in amazing ways! To make the leap from human to creator think about solving an ab inito equation for a single body system vs. the ease with which an approximation can be made for a many body system. And even the ab inito equation has fudge factors that cannot be explained fully because the sub atomic realm is not fully characterized in a practical way to link to the larger world. The diagonal only appears to give exact solutions. They are exact answers for the question asked! Now, think about your mind and who you are and how hard that is to determine. It gets easier with work. But imperfection attacks you before you can even begin the day. No matter how good your techniques are or may get. So, then we learn that the flow is still the flow. Try to control the flux. And learn to direct the path of the flow based on your perception of time. Realizing past, present, future and where your thoughts are coming from and where they are going is a useful practice also. Journaling is a must. When you fall away from that you'll remember to get back to it! But all of these things must be done by you alone until or if you ever find a trustworthy companion to grow in these ways with. Many times it's many people that provide small pieces of help at just the right times! It may even be self serving to them and help to you. Perceptions are tricky things they confuse us. So, to perceive confuses but we must perceive to observe and form a hypothesis to find truth! You are right on! Being too vulnerable can teach you in unnecessarily painful ways. Certainly "certainty" was a thorn for me. Hehe Embrace approximations or uncertainty! We are approximations as humans. Even the most Divine human is not perfect. Even thousands of Divine humans working together are not perfect like their source! Confusion does seem necessary as each circle carries on. And everything is so connected or interconnected that the only way to that goal is the way we go! You may really like Mastery by Robert Greene, just for some scientific accounts. Really neat stuff that is documented best in neuroscience but understood by countless numbers.

There is something to be said for those who do it for themselves. Try living without that money. It doesn't last long. Many people live with a persistent worry for the next round of bills. Usually those that can only or will only look to themselves to provide that money. Personally, it became apparent long ago that if it doesn't make money it doesn't make sense, ultimately. Of course, health and wellness and spirituality and all the things that do good for the world are a must, however, they help you be the best you can be to provide the best for yourself even if it's by helping others. It's important not to get caught up in a movement for the sake of a movement or fad or cause! I found that I "myself" didn't even have passion for things that didn't make money except these I've mentioned. Personal growth or development and to assist others in the same from mental to physical health to diet, exercise, and spiritual health are all tools to improve my ability to succeed in my own eyes. Far too many of us are still "in the construct". Sometimes i spend way too much time helping others with PD and not enough time making money for myself. But, to learn by teaching is very powerful. When the rubber meets the road I can assure you that without the money you won't have to see my posts all that often because I'll be busy doing things that pay!

There are private companies that will do a blood panel for you for a reasonable price without a doctor. It will tell you what you need to know. It's the same test the doctor orders! The interpretation can be a little tricky if you are unfamiliar, but surely you know someone who'd help with that and not "play doctor". Or you could look up the interpretation on line.

Tuna fish in a can and saltines make a great economic snack! I like sardines in Louisiana hot sauce also, good oil content and also very economic. Frozen green giant steam in bag veggies are great and can be found 10/$10 sometimes! Your energy will go up with regular food intake and these are good foods! You may opt for the albacore tuna instead of the cheapest. Add some sweet relish and mayo stir it up and you have a couple days of tuna salad sandwiches! The coffee in moderation will definitely give you an energy boost! Milk and sugar make even the lowest grade coffee palatable for me. And oatmeal makes a great health food. Add some brown sugar and some dried fruit like grapes or cranberries to it and you've got a great meal. Even shredded wheat cereal is a great snack to keep your belly full on the budget! The oatmeal will keep your cholesterol in check and the protein, bread, fiber, and veggies will do the rest together with the exercise and water and your spiritual-ity work.

Learning self control through chakra healing will be very powerful !

I can't find one thing I truly regret. Everything brought something to me that I've learned from. I would not be who I am without uni. And try the walking/cycling without earpieces when you want to focus on what you are "hearing" "saying" "thinking". You may need to find a place with few people. Think Law of Diffusion applied to everything. Until you find good channels then the real fun begins!

I've noticed this in many ways. It's simply the truth. From inside it comes. No one can tell you. Not because it's wrong, but because that's just how it is. And when you know an-other inside and out it becomes apparent what they/we are and what we really know. If you want to be good then you can't be bad very often even to yourself. There are not as many lies as there are people who are unaware and mismatched and for wrong reasons. Knowing an-other is sometimes just too much to maintain for long as it has a detrimental effect on the one that is good and aware!

I did not really find a passion until I became more aware of enlightenment. Thankfully, at least one of my passions makes income. And now I'm in the process of turning my other passions into money makers. I lost my drives to do things that other people pushed me to do a long time ago. Just remember that most of that is to make someone else money. But don't get greedy when you figure out how to make yours, it will cloud your vision. And can turn you into easy prey. I can say that the math, science, analytical, quantitative, qualitative, approximate, exact, ....understandings have been very important for me. Particularly the math and data analysis aspects. Not from an operative sense any more, but rather in understanding psychology and our existence in the collective being and our ability to coexist as proprietary beings. Yes, you will have to find ways to focus and have desire to do your university work. These are things that come to me mostly when exercising in a "regular" way. Say, jogging or more active exercise is too busy to meditate on things like this. But riding a bike or walking for instance, seem to be great contemplative exercises that can allow you to think clearly enough to reach some of your own conclusions long enough to remember them or write them down.