Tyler Robinson

It's something that makes you go extreme. Wild.

So I've been exploring this side of me. And sometimes I develop romantic and sexual feelings for different entities and imaginary things like ghosts and spirits. So i wanted to know if i was all alone in this and I looked it up and there were some references about this. It's called Spectrophilia

Test-o-sterone.

I love the way you look. You could make me feel so happy. You simply looking into my eyes. I'd be absolutely in love. I want to sit and enjoy a dinner with you. I want to feel your kisses and hugs. I like the warmth of your skin against my skin. You placing your hand softly on my forehead. You laughing with me and telling me stories.. Every time I look at you I fall in love.

In some sense we are alone forever in our reality, thats our existential nature. Everything including people we are having sex with is our conciousness, we are everything. Kind of "In love with themselves" rather then in love with our partner, we are projecting everything, self deceiving ourselves in a way, considering that "I" and "you" don't exist in non-dual worldview. If we are considering the possibility that other "people" do exist, when love act happens "everyone" is in love with themselves. That's all kind of tricky and when i was thinking about all this I realized that I have both male and female sides in me, both needing love and attention. So it makes it possible to love ourselves without needing external partner. Thats in a way how masturbation works. So basically how do you integrate love relationships with non-duality?

When you have an intimate conversation and relationship, it's the most beautiful thing in the world. You create space for love and understanding. That's all we really need to get by in life. We need each other. We need intimacy to know each other. This is sex. It's life. Without sex there is nothing. Sex and spirituality have a connection. Because both are about intimacy. All conflicts are gone during sex. It's free. It's liberating. All differences resolved. It's the most intimate connection. I feel like sex is teaching me something, something deep. Like I need to accept all the harshness in this world, that would make my journey easier. Being intimate is the only way you can truly be yourself. You can be truly free in your self expression. You can simply be yourself. This is where healing begins, because when you're intimate, you aren't judged anymore. You are loved in intimacy. You're made to feel secure. You can be you without all manipulations, you can be free, away from the world, you can say whatever you want, just anything. You can say anything. It's such a relief because finally you can feel free and not stressed out anymore. You can feel healed. You can vent out, let out. It's like deep talk therapy with a psychiatrist. It's one of the reasons why sex is so therapeutic, it can literally cure anything in the world. Do you want something that can simply cure your brain right now, a powerful cure that energizes each and every cell in your brain, that creates a beautiful garden, now I understand what Buddha meant by a beautiful garden, sex is a ginormous about of energy activated. It's an extreme release, it is this intimacy. It creates a beautiful feeling in the brain, like pure bliss, a strong protection against psychic attacks, it's almost like giving a cleansing bath to your brain computer. Sexual healing. There is just no repression. Absolute freedom. When you feel this release, this powerful free self expression, it's the deepest release of all held up swallowed karmas, everything rises to the surface. You feel absolute surrender and peace. If your mind is, even for a minute, held in a rapture of sudden pleasure, release, surrender and absolute understanding, you become liberated for a minute, you reach a different mental state, a state of pleasure and joy and in this state you feel rapture and you feel free, in this state, nothing bothers you anymore, survival looks lame, people seem petty, you do care about life but you aren't as affected. You feel healed, all tensions thrown out and then you come to homeostasis. There is no repression. Your deepest feelings are confronted. You only talk to yourself. There is no more manipulation of your sentiment or feeling. Just rotate your fingers in a circle around your breast. There is no hurt and no room for hurt during an intimate session. This is where healing begins. It's the same as self love. When someone knows you inside out, it's like you're loving yourself. If somebody asked you to describe how you look, it's difficult without a mirror, but with a mirror it's much easier, when you love yourself, it feels hard like a routine, but when you are loved, it's much easier. It's like medicine given to children with a sugar pill. It digests better. Same way. There is a sweetened elegance and ease when someone loves you intimately. And when they do understand you thoroughly, it's like self love, the only difference being someone else is loving you as though you are loving yourself. It's like a twin mate who understands you inside and out. And now that you have this mate, it suddenly feels like self love. The healing begins slowly. You get renewed courage and you feel like you can take on things. You can finally get the love to fuel your actions and positivity.

Even a damn hoodie makes me horny. Lol

It is not your conversation. That keeps me entertained. But rather the way you look at me. That makes me feel sustained. It's the curve of your lips. And the curl of your hair. It is not your intelligence that drew me close to you. It is not your sense of humour. It's the touch of your hand. And the thoughts in your head... It is all of the little things. The things that don't get said. It's not your vivid history. That's made me fall in love It's not your comprehension. Of the world or what's above. It is your soft temperament. And the way you smile at me. It's not when we are talking That I want to know some more It is the time we spend alone. And the time in utter silence. That form a strong alliance It's not the job you work so hard That shows your true commitment It's not your crazy habits my lovely heart. It is the way you use your hands(on me) Oops.. And the way I have been chosen Why I know silence is golden

Sex is such an intimate act. An act of submission and surrender. It's beautiful when two people can be so deeply intimate. You can have all that pillow talk. It's a novel experience. You forget all the worries of the world. Everything is all energy. Energy of two bodies fusing into one. Sex is when someone loves you deeply. You fuck like rabbits .

I love the way you are. Touching my sexy body so smooth. You're an image if greatness. My fantasies of you and me joining in erotic pleasures. You're properly made to seduce me in the freakiest mindset. My lips touches your soft skin, travels inch by inch. Your lips on mine. As I prepare you for what comes next, properly displayed in this text. . Kissing me softly on my pussy. Juices in you flowing into me. Tongue kissing me in place of dialogue. press your face deep into me. Suck my nipples, while fucking me in this sexual session.

I think the time has come to explore sexuality seriously at least in terms of spirituality. I can see so many similarities between sex and the universe. I wrote about this in the other journal. It was the inspiration for this journal. The universe as a primordial body arising from nothing and then suddenly exploding into creation. And the same goes for sex. Sex begins with nothing and then proceeds into climax and an explosion of feelings and of course the end result being fertilization. It's the same way. Everything is tantric.

I'm a heart bird and a love bird. I like love, sex, romance, tantra, and intimacy. It fills me with wanting and craving. I'm the eternal romance bird. I feel so horny right now.

Right now there is romantic music playing in the background at my neighbors. . And my romantic heart is fluttering. Accommodate me in your strong arms please. My heart yearns. I want more of your ice cream (of all kind ). You take me to a different place. Away from the human race and World. The air of sensuality And feelings of sexuality You're my sunshine Who extends his ray beams onto my soul’s mess When we have sex And we spill our secrets. In between lovers sheets.. That I know only you will keep This dream I’ll keep dreaming

What I would want to say to my bf though. I'm a bit shy sexually. But I've hidden feelings. Feelings of feeling trapped sexually What will I say to him - Come over here. You alluring gentleman. Just teach me anyway you can How you do sexy time Will you be my man? I have the perfect place for your instrument Yes, touch me there please. I will kiss your soul. Run my hands all over you. Teach me baby. I haven’t a clue. Intertwine with me. Let’s join forces while joining juices.... Grrr. Suck every part of me Bring me to my knees.yep. I want him to bring me to my knees so he can pat me on the back, you know where.

I'm looking into cases of sexual abuses by Catholic priests.

Flop.

Sinful priests.

Deviant sexual fantasies.

Ouch, that's not comfy. Why subject a poor woman to such torture?

I’m as horny as a teenager waiting for their touch. Engorged and throbbing in readiness. I’ve missed him too much Wanton and greedy for stimulation Genitals are aching cannot wait for his vibration I will conceal nothing from him I’m growing sticky and wet Subjected to many long hours of torture. I've worked myself into a frenzy. With not even masturbation being my friend I need some uncensored love making. Climaxing and shaking I’ll just fantasize about him penetrating me deeply His long muscular cock and me being so needy Yes I have my shortcomings and patience isn’t one.. How about I go over to the neighbours In twenty minutes I’ll be done. Hehe. Just kidding. I need my bf, not neighbor lol.

Sometimes I feel like I just won't be pregnant if a guy doesnt rape me.

Sometimes when I think of a man in terms of desirability, I'm bit confused as to which man is better. A good boy or a bad boy? Of course, I don't want an abusive asshole. The first one - bad boy. But there is a strong innate attraction to a cocky, demanding, persuasive, persistent, tough dominant, especially a strong sexual attraction. (The second one) On the other hand, a guy who is protective, leader type, not demanding, but caring, generous, patient, loving is also equally attractive. Here the attraction towards this kind of a man is more of the love heart type of emotional (less sexual) attraction. Both types of attraction are equally tempting. One is sexually tempting and emotionally stimulating. The other is emotionally tempting and sexually stimulating, meaning there is area for creating strong sexual chemistry. Both are paradoxical attractions. One is good for falling pregnant. And the other is good for husband material. Of course both are going to be good with sex (I might be lying though since option 1 sounds more sexually enticing) But the first option only looks good sex wise. It doesn't create long term love feelings. The second option looks like it's set for life and very happy and satisfying long term. Decisions are split between the heart and the pussy.

Perverted sex.

So you're always only going to have anal sex with a woman and never vaginal sex.

Can you explain this? I just don't get it.