Tyler Robinson

Thank you for supporting me against bullying on the forum. It means a lot to me. Mean comments shouldn't be tolerated here.

I feel like Leo hits the nail on the head with this comment but some part of it feels like gaslighting to me. Well, not that we are in the same position, but I get death threats and people ridicule, troll, and gaslighting me on a regular basis. To the point that I don't even share some of my deepest insights and ideas. As a trans person, just like as a public figure, you are just going to have to accept that you will receive harsher treatment and more shit from people than a normie. No platform can save you from that. Holding non-normie positions will get you haters. That's how society has always worked. We would all be killed for the positions we hold today 100 years ago. So don't take for granted how this stuff works and how serious it is. If you're gonna be on the cutting edge of social evolution you will have to endure a lot more shit than normal people. That's part of the challenge of evolving society. Trans folk will have to endure decades of non-acceptance before they are widely accepted. Because you are asking a billion people to change their minds on very fundamental issues just to accept you. I understand you just want to be accepted, but you must understand why that will not happen as readily as you demand. It's actually nothing personal. You are asking all of civilization to change to accomodate you. That's no easy thing.

I've crossed massive amount of space while navigating through the whole troll situation I was dealing with. I have come a long way. I will never understand why people would have a problem with someone online out of the blue. If you don't like someone, can't you just block them or the least just not communicate with them. Why is it so hard? Why do people feel the need to say something mean on intent especially when you have all the avenues to just avoid it? I'll never understand this phenomenon. ....... As time goes by, I just keep evolving better and better. I don't have much to worry on a bigger level. I feel free. People on this forum do not even have the slightest comprehension of my personal struggles, my feelings and how they impact me. They have no clue what it means to be battling with a mental illness on a very public level and be so vulnerable yet keep enduring the onslaught of public bullying and criticism.

Then I get thoughts about leaving the forum. And once again I get thoughts about how useful the forum has always been to me. In this moment I feel weak again after some users targeted me on this forum saying mean crap. Once again it's the same users. This is going to be one of my main journals. Apart from the sex journal.

Everyday I try to wake up with a positive thought and then I come across some mean comment and it completely ruins me. Because there's lack of social support even on this forum.

I'm not some complaining bitch. I'm just a simple person. But I'm hyper sensitive. I don't like complaining about other people. I usually keep to myself. But when someone really goes out of their way to talk shit about me, then there's little I can do to stop it. I mean I'm forced to kind of stand up for myself. It's depressing. I can't think of anyone on this forum who has felt ganged up this way. I wish people could be sensitive to others pain. I wish I didn't feel bullied. I wish I felt safe and not threatened.

People don't know what gang bullying can feel like especially when you have thick skin. But when you are suicidal, bogged down in life and feeling awful, even a small comment can ruin your day. Generally my days on the forum are fine except for few users who are constantly try to ruin it for me. That's when I begin to feel harassed, tired weak and helpless. The mean comments can really get on my nerves. I'm generally a docile and friendly person.. But some people really put me in a negative mood. Sometimes I feel like women should stand up for each other and that doesn't happen. Especially discouraging is when women target another woman throwing indirect jabs at her. It can feel intense especially when you are a part of a tight knit community.

The above user is complaining about me and spreading false rumors. Some users constantly engage in personal attacks. Mods don't do much about it. It makes the place very unsafe. I want to complain about the above user who is constantly going after me. It's very frustrating This shouldn't be a place of gossip and false rumors that these users are engaging in. And users shouldn't be forced to reveal identities. I have already complained about it yet the same behavior will continue I'm sick and tired of complaining and reporting doesn't do shit. There should be a better way to handle user complaints.

Funny.

I overhear conversations. I observe what they talk about. I keep a tab on them to see what they do and what they discuss. Like they could have a group discussion posted on a university message board. I'm going to spy on that. Because I want to learn.

I wanted to see if someone resonated with my observations. If they thought the same. It kinda builds some credibility to my thoughts. Then I don't have to think I'm the only one. It just helps me with my research and exploring and any kind of feedback that adds to it is pretty valuable because such knowledge is quite rare. I don't find such things on the internet. Nobody gets paid to do research on masturbation lol. But the more we know the better we're at dealing with interpersonal relationships with the opposite gender. Although I don't believe in stereotyping, little clues here and there help. For example if a guy told me that he hates masturbating, I can make a preemptive judgement on what I'm dealing with. I might not want to be friends with him after that. You might say it's judgemental for me to do that, but at the same time it helps me be on the safer side of the fence.

No idea what that had to do with the topic frankly

Not gonna deny.

I was going to create a diagram on it

Yellow - this is where you have reached peace. Purity of spirit. Not just heart. A stronger loving spirit. A motivating spirit. Spiritual balance and connection. Here you're free of all corruption - moral, spiritual and emotional.

You aren't welcome on my journal tbh. And what you think doesn't really matter. I have stopped talking to you long ago. I also have you on permanent ignore. I had to literally remove you off ignore to read your nonsense. Maybe have decency? Oh wait. Who am I even expecting it from?

I haven't experienced/interacted with serial killers in real life to tell you what their masturbation trends/habits look like. So I can't tangibly offer you anything there. Also notice how you are conflating "sweet" and "charming." this is a grave error although it gets masked pretty easily. When I said sweet I implied men who are kind, empathetic, protective toward women. They may or may not be attractive. Yet they extend their protectiveness toward women. Serial killers obviously do not have empathy toward women or else they wouldn't be killing them. Thus they cannot be considered gentle or sweet. But they are charming and that's true. Success with women depends on two factors - one is that you have to be attractive to them. This is automatically much easier for a sweet guy(if he has good looks) since he can easily get along with women. Most women are turned off by aggressive men. The second factor is charm and often this factor occupies a disproportionate amount of territory in the dating arena. This is where serial killers can apply, since they're psychopaths they're charming very naturally and can attract women. Yet, I would say that a serial killer is an extreme example. It's like cherry picking. Not every charming guy is a psychopath or serial killer. It would be stretch to assume that all charming men are bad. I would say that I have observed the masturbation trends and links of sweet versus hostile/aggressive men but I haven't interacted much with charming attractive men simply because they are the rarest breed.

Let's say a guy has anger issues. Emotional growth for a man would mean getting rid of these anger issues and working on being more wholesome and understanding and less aggressive. Emotional growth for a woman would mean?......

I guess that's exactly what happens which seems to be an inevitable problem that even highly conscious women cannot escape. In fact that was the whole implied meaning of the thread.

@Carl-RichardI need to ask you some questions.

@bejapuskas it seems that Leo is ready to take action so I guess it's good news.

@Carl-Richard So I have just reported both users for their constant trolling, trash talking about me and identity harassment. I hope something will be done now???

My question is why are these two users constantly allowed to spread false rumors about me on the forum when it's clearly stated in the guidelines that its not okay. Their behavior results into a trail and then other users pick on that trail left by them and it makes more users gang up on me and turns into a pattern of harassment that I have already dealt with in my previous identity and it makes me extremely unsafe that I'm having to deal with the exact same people once again and moderators like you do nothing about it. If you cannot give a warning when you see their insinuating posts, at least you can send them a message asking them to stop this behavior. No?

I reserve the right to protect my identity on the forum right? @Carl-Richard I'm constantly facing targeted harassment from users Yarco and StarStruck on this forum. I'm mentally sensitive and I've mental illness. And these two users are systematically targeting, harassing me on the forum. They did this on my previous identity and I had to change my identity to escape all the harassment. Also you clearly that I have faced stalker issues on the forum last year. What steps have you taken to protect me? A few hours ago you were on my profile. You saw that I am not the user called no name on this forum. Users Yarco and StarStruck are constantly spreading false rumors claiming that I have multiple clones on this forum and you've verified that that's not true. When you know this is the case, why didn't you warn these users against spreading false rumors about me. You do realize that this affects me mentally.. And constantly talking about my previous identity can lead to doxxing because that name can be used to track me down on the internet and that is my greatest fear here. When you are aware then why aren't these users dealt with for their harassing behavior? I have no clone accounts on this forum and you are free to do any kind of verification that you want to do. But if someone is constantly targeting my identity, that's a source of threat to me and I expect that it should be taken seriously.

@Carl-Richard you're aware that the above mentioned things are included in the forum guidelines right?